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7. I don't think we can be together anymore

BPOV

I watched Emmett fear bubbling in my stomach. What had happened? Did dad know? Had someone told him? Was dad angry? I felt a shock run up my spine when I thought of Edward…..What would happen to him? My heart was aching in a very painful way.

"Dad's coming back…."

I froze. NO way. Absolutely not! How could he? He was in the middle of an important job wasn't he? Why? When? Why? The same questions ran through my head again and again. It was terrible. Emmett looked at me sadly. I knew what that meant. Dad was coming back for a long time. I looked at Edward, he was a picture of happiness and peace. Just looking at him would have made me calm…..on any other occasion but not now. Not when we had to face such a big issue. My dad.

"When?" I asked my voice catching in my throat. Emmett looked at me sorrowfully.

"Tomorrow."

I felt my blood go cold. No! It was all a lie. I didn't want to go through all that. Not again. I felt faint. Edward, my Edward. I couldn't see him for goodness knows how long. I sank into the couch. Emmett didn't move. But Edward on the other hand moved next to me and gathered me up in his arms. I felt safe. Secure. Happy. But I knew that this was not going to last. Edward didn't say anything, he just held me close. I snuggled into his strong and warm chest. Even though he hadn't actually said so, I knew that he would protect me and never leave my side. Ever.

"Guys!"

I looked up at Emmett. Why was he being so mean?

"You have to decide a lot. How do you think you can meet when dad's here? You know that dad's not that nice right?" he asked looking at me.

I closed my eyes. Oh yeah…..I knew that…How well did I know? The memories I had held back for so long rushed back…My sweet elder sister…our midnight snacking…shopping….games… sweet dad. All that was the past. My elder sister was now gone, gone into the next world, even though her death had been ages ago, the pain was as strong as it had been. Edward had no idea. I hadn't told him. He would just be sympathetic. I didn't want sympathy. I had had enough of that.

Flashback:

"Bella, honey? Aren't you going to sleep?" my mom asked poking her head in at the door. I sat on my bed shaking. Anne, had gone over to her friend's house. I was ten, she was sixteen.

"When is Anne coming back?" I asked mom.

"Tomorrow." Mom said smiling at me tenderly. I nodded. I knew that. I just wanted to make sure. Mom kissed me and tucked me in. I stared at the ceiling. The ceiling of my room was covered in glowing stars. What did Anne call them? Phosphent? Phosphescent? Something along those lines.

…..

"Bella!" she squealed. I jumped up into her arms. Anne loved me like no one in the world did.

"Anne what did you do?" I asked her eagerly. She smiled angelically before carrying me inside. I listened to her tales of truth or dare, spin the bottle, liar, and so many other things.

Anne was my role model. My dad on the other hand loved Anne so so much. Emmett was away at that time. He was in London from what Anne had told me. Emmy was so sweet. That night Anne had painted my nails for me. She had also sung a sweet song for me.

"I love you Anne" I said smiling at her. She looked at me and smiled.

"Love you too Bells. Sleep well"

I had been told that elder sisters rarely spent time with their younger sisters. But I knew that Anne wasn't like that.

…

I slipped into my new clothes. They were a different fit. The way they hugged my curves. I had got my period only two months ago. I had rushed to Anne then. She had been most informative. I shivered. The cold wind was blowing through the window. Anne was out. With a guy. His name was Richard Kaen. I had seen him from afar. He had looked good but his eyes had a dangerous look. He was not to be trusted.

Anne was into him. She had liked him since ages and he had liked her too. They were going on their fourth date. I smiled to myself at that. Anne was always so happy.

…

I checked the clock. It was 10:30. Not possible. No…Anne was never late. Ever. She was always back by 10:00. Even on weekends and today was a school night. I sat waiting. Mom had given up trying to send me to bed. It was of no use. I wrapped my arms around my knees and rocked.

…

11:15! I knew now that something was wrong. Seriously wrong. She was either out cold or she had decided to stay the night…..

I waited for another half hour. The clock ticked on…and on. There was no familiar sound of wheels on the road. No silent goodbyes. No voices and definitely no door opening. The longer I waited the more frightened I became. Anne would never have done anything like that. She wouldn't have decided to spend the night. Never. She might have fallen asleep. I shivered at the startling images that entered my head. I prayed to God that Anne was fine. I missed her sweet and gentle voice already.

"Bella..? Why are you still up?" my dad's gruff voice came from the stairs. I turned but no sound came from my mouth. I was too frightened.

"Bella? Honey? Is everything okay?" my mom's voice asked from somewhere next to my dad. Her voice showed nothing but concern. I could barely make out her dressing gown in the darkness. The first tears slipped. I shuddered. I knew that I was being stupid. She could have just slept off. That was a big chance. Mom hugged me tightly.

"Mom….Anne's not home…" I said my voice barely audible. I felt my mom freeze. Her body went cold.

"What do you mean?" my dad asked me. I shivered and cried harder. No that couldn't have happened. Not to Anne. Anne was the nicest, sweetest, most considerate girls in the whole world. My mom held me against her chest and whispered comfortingly but I wasn't comforted. I had heard dad opening the door and calling up his assistant and many other police officers. That was the maximum my brain could handle. I fainted. My Anne was in danger. I was under.

…..

I stared at the white coffin emotionlessly. I had had my share of crying already. Anne's body was in there, all wounded. They had found her on the roadside, in a very horrible predicament. She had lost so much blood. She had died on the way to the hospital. There wasn't much the doctors could do with a dead girl. I had been out the entire time. My mom had collapsed. She loved Anne so much and now her baby girl was dead.

My eyes glanced at my mom sitting slumped on the wheelchair. Emmett was by my side. Holding me tightly. He loved Anne too. His eyes wee bloodshot. He was still crying. Dad was….so different. He didn't talk. His eyes showed immense pain. His elder daughter had been raped. His lovely Anne. I felt myself crying again.

Richard Kaen was in jail. My dad would have killed him but the authorities had stopped him in time.

I turned and buried my face in Emmett's chest.

"Oh Emmett…." I whispered. His eyes sought mine. The moment they met I could see him thinking, 'Bells, we'll get through this. We will."

…..

End Flashback

I broke down completely. Emmett looked horrified. I had just poured all this out to Edward. Edward was frozen. He seemed like he would never move again. I shuddered. Her pale skin, covered in blood floated into my mind. The sobs shook my body.

"Bella…" Emmett said his own eyes red. I nodded softly. I knew what he wanted. He had always wanted for me to forget the incident. Or at least keep it locked. I had….until now. I couldn't hold it back any longer. Not anymore. I couldn't do that. Anne was my sister. How could I forget her?

"Until I was 16 Renee suffered with me, but then her heart couldn't bear it any longer and she…..died." I said looking down, "That left me and dad all alone at home. Emmett went back to London. Dad changed drastically. The three years of therapy did nothing to change him. Nothing….And this is the result."

Edward did not move. His eyes were wide open.

I pushed myself off him and went to get the photo album. The one that had been kept hidden for ages. It had all photos of Anne. I had kept it hidden.

"Edward…..This is Anne" I said opening the album and setting it in front of him.

EPOV

I looked at the girl in the photo. So pretty. She looked a lot like Bella but she had the dimples that Emmett had. They had the same eyes, the same nose and even the same hair. I flipped over page by page. Every photo was a day of her life. A life that had been ended so wrongly. I shut the album. Bella looked at me, her eyes bloodshot. I felt a strong wave of sympathy but I knew that Bella didn't want it. She didn't need it. She just missed her sister. A lot.

I watched as Emmett tenderly picked her up and held her. She looked happier. Her eyes were not as sad and empty as they were before. Emmett hugged her tightly and they were lost in their own world, grieving for their lost sister.

I turned and left. I knew that that was what I had to do. Something told me so.

"Edward?" a voice asked me. I turned around. No one had called me…

"Edward…." Another time. The voice was soft.

"Yeah?" I said hoping that whoever had called me would reply.

"You are a really nice person. I am glad you know about me."

I froze. Was that….Anne? I felt chills run up my spine.

I waited for more. Nothing.

Edward stop being silly.

I shut the door and walked out. My car was there.

….

BPOV

I watched Edward leave. I wanted him here but I knew he needed time, to think and to digest all the new information. Emmett was in the kitchen attacking the remaining pasta. Luke was sleeping. I sank into a sofa and sighed. My heart was torn between protecting Edward and loving him. I wanted him to be by my side. Forever. I loved him too much to let him go. But at the moment his safety was all that mattered. I needed him safely out of the way. He had to forget about us….for a while.

I loved Edward sooooo much. I couldn't leave him. I couldn't hurt him. I didn't want him to hurt. He was the best boyfriend a girl could get but now I had to break up with him. Had to. It was for his safety. We would get back together…eventually.

….

I watched Alice whisper to Jazz. I avoided Edward the whole day. He was hurt and I knew it. Every time he looked at me a flash of hurt and confusion crossed his face. I felt torn. Rose was in the kitchen humming away. Luke was with Emmett in the backyard. I looked at Edward again. He had his head down and I could see his hand tug at his hair. Oh dear…..

"Bella…?" Alice's voice asked from my left. I flinched. Oh dear…she had noticed.

"Yeah Alice?" I asked trying to sound normal.

"Bella? What are you doing to yourself? I can see that both of you are miserable. Why are you hurting yourself like this?" she asked her usually chipper voice, low. I looked at her.

"Nothing like that. We just…decided to take a break…"

"Uh huh? Then why aren't you enjoying yourself? Even Em and Rose are not behaving normally….." she said biting her lip.

"We are as normal as we can be. I don't see why you have to disturb yourself about it. We'll be fine." I said getting annoyed.

"No. You are not fine. Why are you hurting him? I saw you in the morning when he smiled, you just ignored him. He is hurt and its all your fault!" she said raising her voice. Nobody could hear us anyway. We were in her room.

I opened my mouth to protest but she silenced me with a hard stare.

"And then during lunch the pepper was right next to him but you asked Emmett for it! Why Bella? Don't you care anymore? You love him? Ha ha! You should know that what you are doing is not love! You are hurting him! I can't believe you lie to him about loving him!"

I had had enough. I stood up tears running down my face.

"Alice! For god's sake shut up! You have no idea what has happened! Don't comment! You know what? My dad is coming tomorrow and I have to protect him! Not hurt him! I am just distancing myself from him because I don't want him to end up like Paul or Michael or anybody else! I thought you were my friend…." I screamed before exiting the room. I had never yelled at Alice. Ever.

I couldn't believe that she would accuse me of faking my love for Edward. That was the stupidest thing she could have said. I mean why would I do that unless I wanted him dead or disfigured? Was I incompetent? God!

I rushed through the room quickly. Nobody appeared to be having any trouble. I walked up to Edward. I knew what I had to do.

I knew that as much as I wanted to I would never do it. I loved him too much.

"Edward, I need to say something"

EPOV

I looked at Bella again. She was looking so out of life. She had successfully ignored me through lunch. I felt hurt. What had I done wrong? Had I hurt her in anyway?

I pulled at my hair hard. My chest hurt. I would have loved to gather Bella up in my arms and to kiss her senseless. That though seemed unattainable now. I watched as Alice pulled Bella upstairs. Bella's face showed surprise.

The moment she left I felt a coldness wash over me. She was my life. If she ever left me I would die. I was sure of that. I groaned.

…..

I heard Bella's footsteps. They were different though. More rushed. She came into view and I froze. She had been crying and she still was. I expected her to walk off without noticing me but she did just the opposite.

"Edward, I have to say something to you" she said wiping her wet cheeks.

I got up and followed her out. What did she want to say? Jasper watched me until we went out of the house. I wanted to hold Bella so badly. My arms missed her. We walked a few yards until we were not in view of the house. Bella turned and her tears ripped my heart out.

"Edward I love you."

"I love you too"

"But I don't think we can be together anymore….."

Those words shattered my entire being. I gaped at her.

"Why? Did I do something wrong?" I asked her. She shook her head.

"No…I don't want you. I can't be with you and I don't want a secret relationship. I know that you can find countless girls out there who are much better than me…..but please forget me. It should be like I never existed…." She said. I stood. I didn't know what to do. She kissed my cheek softly before turning and walking back. That kiss had resurfaced so much. Every kiss every touch ran through my mind. She wanted to protect me….that was fine but why was she breaking up with me? We could have gotten back together.

My legs gave out beneath me and I was kneeling on the forest floor. I flinched at the sound of a truck engine start up. She was leaving. I got up and then turned back.

I had to go live in a world where there was no sun. My dark world.

'I don't think we can be together anymore'

The first tears slipped. My heart was missing. The first drops of rain fell.

Love, life, meaning all over…

A/N: I hope you like this. Please ask me anything you don't understand. This has many different people and so you might get confused. Yeah, I used a bit of new moon in this, I just felt it would go well, but I couldn't possibly make Edward curl up on the forest floor so I made him get up and walk back.

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