EPOV
The past few years have been horrible. After the fairy war, my poor Sookie was a broken woman. I tried my best to help her heal, offering my blood and my heart to this fragile woman. But she would not get better. It seemed to me she was getting worse, not better. I contemplated telling her I loved her, but I knew that until she got better, that would just make her run.
The last night I saw Sookie I had been feeling her emotions so strongly through our bond, once I rose for the night I rushed straight to her. She had been sobbing all day. "What do you want Eric", was her reply as she opened the door to me. "Lover, I felt your despair, what is wrong? " I asked her. She started sobbing. I took her in my arms and covered her with kisses. "Oh Eric, why did it happen to me? Why did the fairies ruin my life" she stated in between sobs. I've never been good with human emotion, so I took her face in my hands and kissed her softly on the lips. She moaned a little so I took this as acceptance to continue, and slipped my tongue in her mouth to deepen the kiss. As we continued to kiss, I laid her down on the couch and continued to kiss her. After a while, I went to lift her top so I could kiss and lick her exquisite breasts. I knew she had scars and it bothered her, but though that if I showed her I still thought she was beautiful she would be fine. I lifted her top and she was exposed to me. "So beautiful" I murmured and leaned down to take a nipple in my mouth. She immediately pushed me away. "No Eric, please stop" she cried. Of course I did. We had not been intimate since right before she was taken. She cried in my arms until I felt her slip into sleep. I carried her upstairs and left her a note and proceeded to leave.
Lover,
You feel asleep and I did not want to disturb you. You are beautiful to me and always will be. You are a strong brave woman; you cannot allow what happened to change you. I beg this of you. I will continue to be here for you; however you need me to be. I will never give up on you. Or us. Tomorrow I would like to take you out on a date. I feel it would do us both some good to get out and have some fun. Please be ready tomorrow night by 8pm.
E.
I took my leave looking forward to doing something special for Sookie the next night. The next night when I got to Sookie's house she was not there. I went inside the house and looked around. Nothing looked out of place so I called Compton to see if she had gone to see that fool. For the life of me I could not understand why she wished to remain friends with him. Compton had not seen her. Now I'm panicked. Before dawn, I'd contacted everyone and we where all out trying to track her. I had followed her through the bond and realized she was no longer in Bon Temps. It was close to dawn so I needed to give up for the night, but would resume the next night.
For the next few months I was relentless. I looked all over for my Sookie. Convinced someone had once again abducted her and that I yet again failed to protect her, I went to several different states even had a spy in De Castro's camp. Nothing. I neglected my bar and my area in my all consuming quest to find her. It had been months since I felt anything through the bond, and thought at first maybe she had died. But no, I would know for sure so I kept looking. I was not resting properly, I was not feeding. Finally one night Pam tried to convince me I needed to give up. "NO!!!" I shouted at her. "I will never give up on her; I will look for her until I have answers. I will not abandon her".
One night when I half heartedly tried to do some area paperwork that witch bitch Amelia came to see me. "Eric, I have something to show you". She said. Compton that fuck was with her as well. She handed me a folded sheet of paper.
Amelia,
I can longer take being here. I can see nothing but pity in the eyes of everyone. I'm leaving. Do not try and find me. You will not be able to. My life in Bon Temps is over for me. I no longer wish to be reminded of the pain of the fairy war and I will never return and never contact any of you. It is better this way. You can all get on with your lives and forget I ever existed. You have been a great friend and I will never forget you.
Sookie
Rage seeped through every fiber of my being. I quickly rose from my chair and grabbed the witch by the throat. "You knew, all along and never told me, you should die!!!" I screamed as I choked the witch. I can see her turning blue and this is making me feel better so I squeeze harder. I feel Pam and Bill pull me off her, and she scurries out. Pam walked over to the desk and read the note. I see blood tears in her eyes. She relays the news to Compton. I tell them to get the fuck out. I take a picture of Sookie out of my desk and gaze upon it. Pain and despair as I've never felt rose in me and I started to ball like a fucking baby. My Lover, My life, did not want me. I decided life was not worth living anymore and resolved to meet the sun. When it was time for dawn, I went to the roof and thought briefly of Godric. He was right. We where wrong and did not belong here. Pam joined me on the roof and begged me not to meet the sun. "Master, please, do not leave me. "She cried. I relented and instead went into a deep depression for several months. Never feeding or fucking, never once leaving my coffin. I rose 2 months later with a new resolve. FUCK FEELINGS.
That was several years ago. Never again will I allow some stupid fucking breather to influence me. Humans are nothing more than cattle. Good for a feed and a fuck. In my mind Sookie was dead. And if she was still living then fuck her. I was once again a cold blooded heartless monster. It was better this way. I killed, fed, and fucked like crazy. The night I resolved to FUCK FEELINGS, I went into my bar and grabbed 8 women and had a crazy blood and sex fueled all night orgy. I ended up killing 3 of the breathing sluts. Oh well. I made Pam clean it up. If she didn't like it, she could leave fuck her too.
I started to get a feeling Compton was up to something the sneaky bastard. I had sent him to Florida to investigate some murders, and he stayed for two weeks. Then several months later he went back again. I had him followed. My spies came back and told me he was spending time with a woman and a little boy. 'What the fuck is he up to" I thought to myself. I gave that cocksucker plenty of chances to tell me but he never did. One night after a particularly delicious meal of a blond and a brunette, my phone rings. It's that fuck De Castro. "What a prick" I thought as I answered the phone. "Northman". De Castro starts off the same, asking me if there is any news on my wife. I reply, "No, I would have informed you your majesty". He then tells me that he knows Compton has been going to Florida often and had been seen with a woman and a boy. I knew this already. He then tells me that if we helped Sookie escape we would all be staked. FUCK. I thought to myself and hung up. I knew at that moment I'd be having a chat with Compton.
The next night, I abducted that little shit and chained him with silver in my dungeon. I decided to have a bit of fun and proceeded to torture the fuck out of him. It was fun, and he was whining like the pussy he is, but nothing. I do this for about a week. On the last night after having denied him blood for two nights I decided to really have fun and fuck his shit up. I grab two blood bags and go down to the dungeon. "Good evening Compton you shit" I greet him with. I then proceed to strip the bloodbags and shoved the blond ones mouth on my recently released hard cock. I'm shoving it down her mouth and damn it feels good. I tell the red head to finger herself and rub up against Compton. She complies. Whore. Once I come in the blonde's mouth I spin her around and shove my cock in her ass and pound away. I come again. Grab the red head and do the same thing. Then I bite them fiercely on the neck. This routine goes on for several hours until they pass out. Compton's fangs are down and he's got a raging hard on. I tell him "I'll make you a deal, you tell me what you have been hiding, and I'll let you have these woman and let you go, come now Billy, fess up and tell me" I smirked at him. Nothing. He says nothing but the same BS he said prior. That the woman is some fangbanger he's screwing. Well fuck that. I'm furious now. I grab the blond and drain her and proceed to pull off her arms and legs. I do the same with the red head. I rip the chains off Compton, break his jaw and tell him to get the fuck out of my sight. I hear him and Pam talking in the background.
I head back up to my office and tell Pam "go clean the mess and you may go". "Master" she says, "I will do as you ask, but after I am leaving". Now this infuriates me, and for the first time in over 100 years I strike my child. I also decided in this moment that I was once again horny, and tell her she must submit to me. Now I had not had sex with Pam in 70 years, knowing she preferred women. But she submitted like a good little child. Once I claimed her, she turns to me after she dresses and says" Goodbye Master" and walks from the club. Well fuck. Everyone leaves me. Fuck them.
Once again I hear Compton has disappeared. And I knew immediately he was in Florida. A week later I was finishing my evening feed and fuck, and Compton strolls into my office. I sense her immediately. Compton reeks of Sookie. I withdraw from the bloodbag and slam Compton against the wall screaming at him "So there was nothing to tell, you know where she is you fuck and you've known all these years". He tells me to calm down and he will tell me everything.
He proceeds to tell me what I knew to be true. Sookie is in Florida. He claims he found out on his first trip to Florida. I can tell he's truthful so I calm myself and listen to what he has to say. "Eric" he starts" Sookie has been in Florida all this time. I found out on my first trip to Florida. Yes, I have known for a year, but you must believe I thought it best not to tell you as I feared for her safety, from you". "Who is the boy?" I question. "His name is James. He's six years old and is Sookie's son… and your son." He states. I'm speechless. Once I recover myself quickly I tell him that is impossible, I am vampire, and I cannot father a child. Compton then slides a picture across my desk. I turn it over and gaze upon the two people in the picture. It is Sookie and she has her arm around a blond haired, blued eyed little boy that looks like me. Now I am utterly speechless. I know by looking at the boy, He is mine.
Compton is still speaking but I barely hear him. I have a son. I am a father. What do I do with this? I'm a vampire I cannot be a father to a child. I regain my composure and ask Compton, 'What is he like?" He reply's "James is an amazing child. Very smart and a pure joy. I gaze upon my child's smiling face. "Does he have any abilities?" I ask. Now guessing what De Castro was now hinting at. Compton tells me he's telepathic like Sookie, but that he also believes he has inherited some vampire traits. He states to me that the boy is very fast and strong and tells me a story of a time when he took the boy for ice cream and that he believes my son was able to glamour the jerk behind the counter to give him a free scoop of ice cream. I chuckle. Wow. I have not done that in years. I think to myself" That's my boy". "Where the fuck did that come from". I'm now resolved to protect my son at all costs. Compton informs me he told Sookie she needs to come back to Louisiana and that De Castro knows about James. I agree and ask him for her phone number. I will call her and order her to return my son to me or face my wrath. Bill tells me "Eric perhaps we should just hide them. This is no life for her or the child. The best thing you can do is stay away from them". At this I get up and punch that fucker in the face. Who is he to tell me what to do! "You will order her to return immediately, unless she wants me to come get her, on second thought, I will go get her". I get up to grab my car keys to leave for Florida. Compton grabs me "They are in hiding now Eric, you will not find them. Sookie is scared of you." I'm floored. Why would my wife be scared of me? What had I ever done but love her and be there for her. Then I realize Compton has a big mouth. "What did you tell her?" I ask him. "Nothing but the truth Eric. You might have been a better man when you had Sookie, but you are now nothing but a monster. "He says smugly.
Well fuck. He is right. I am a monster. But he used that against me. Compton tells me that he will call Sookie and tell her to come home, but asks for my assurance that she will be safe. "Of course" I state. "I would never harm the mother of my child; get her to come home dick". He gets up and leaves my office. I sit back and think over the brief time I was happy. It was with Sookie. Even after all this time, I still loved her. I gaze at the picture again. I've never met this little boy, but I know already that I love him and would meet my final death to keep him safe. A knock at the door interrupts my musing and in walks my second meal for the night. She begins to lift her dress. I feel sick to my stomach. "Get out bitch" I order. She lowers her dress and scurries out the door. I shake my head and think to myself "What ever happened to fuck feelings, eh Northman?" I realize at this moment I need to speak with Pam. I pick up my cell and hit her number on my speed dial. "Hello Pam" I say as she answers her phone.