Thank you for all the great reviews. They are wonderful and inspiring. I would have never continued this story without them. Here is the next chapter. I hope you enjoy it. There will be some more J&E interaction, Brenda meddling coming up and as it always is with J&E lots of drama. :)

He's Not Yours
Chapter 4

Elizabeth woke the next day, feeling better than she had in the past few weeks but deep down she knew that screaming would numb the pain for a little while but only answers would start to heal her. Elizabeth woke the boys and fixed them breakfast all the while thinking of how she was going to approach the subject at their meeting today or even if she should trust them to help her.

"I will see what impression I get today." Elizabeth said out loud.

Elizabeth pulled up to Audrey's house to drop the boys off for the day. Elizabeth had been clinging to the boys since she found out about Aiden and knew that her Grams needed time with them. And today was the perfect time for that. She knew that Grams had lost a grandchild too and needed to be reminded that she had two grandchildren that loved her.

"Grams, we're here!" Elizabeth said as Audrey made her way down the steps. The boys ran to her as soon as they saw her take the last step.

"GRAMS!" Cam and Jake yelled in unison.

"My dear boys. I have missed you so much."

"Mommy said we get to spend all day with you and it will make you very happy. Are you sad that Aiden is not with us like mommy?" Cam questioned only like a child could.

"I am sad, Cam, but seeing you and Jake and your mommy too makes me very happy. Now why don't you take a look in the kitchen to see what I baked for my boys?"

The boys took off towards the kitchen and Audrey walked over and enveloped Elizabeth in a hug.

"Dear, take your coat off and sit."

"I can't, Grams, I am going to run some errands today."

"What my dear? You will not be joining us?"

"No, it is just the boys today."

"Elizabeth…"

"Grams, I am doing better. Each day is still a struggle but I will start to heal. Please don't worry about me. Just take care of the boys, please."

"If you say so but I am not so sure. I have seen you Elizabeth and you have not been yourself in a long time. I don't know what happened but you lost your spirit somewhere, long before Aiden. And when you are ready to tell me about it I will be here to listen."

"I know you will be, Grams, but I also know you do not want to hear the reasoning behind the change in me. I love you very much and I know you have only wanted the best for me but the one thing I wanted you never wanted for me."

"Elizabeth, dear, what do you mean?"

"Now is not the time, but I do believe we will need to talk about it some day. I need to get going. I will be back around five to get the boys. Have fun today." Elizabeth smiled and hugged her Grams before walking out the door.

Audrey thought about the little bit of conversation she had with Elizabeth and started to wonder what she never gave her granddaughter that meant so much to her. "Elizabeth, my dear, whatever it is that I didn't give you I will make sure to give it to you now. I need to see your spirit again." Audrey spoke to herself as she walked into the kitchen to begin her big day with her two grandsons.

Elizabeth sat in her car for a few minutes before heading to the docks. She needed some time to herself to get her thoughts together. She knew she needed to be truthful with her grandmother but she didn't know how to do that without being ridiculed by her grandmother for her choices. "How do I tell her I have been lying to her for years? How do I tell her I have always loved Jason Morgan, a man she hates? How do I tell myself it will never be, again?" A lone tear slid down Elizabeth's cheek as she said the last question out loud. Elizabeth wiped the tear from her face and looked in the mirror. "Be strong, Elizabeth. Get it together. First you need to find answers for Aiden and then you can start on Jason." Elizabeth straightened herself and headed towards the docks for her meeting.

Elizabeth headed towards the docks worried that he may have already left because she was running late after her little melt down in the car. "Please still be there. I need your help and you are the only one I can think of that can get the information I need." Elizabeth thought to herself as she headed down the steps. Sure enough he had waited.

"Spinelli. I am sorry I am late." Elizabeth spoke before Spinelli even realized she was behind him.

"That is quite alright, the maternal one. The grasshopper found solace in the movement of the water. What is it that you need the grasshopper's assistance with?"

Elizabeth sat on the bench beside Spinelli wondering how she should explain but she figured it was best to be direct with him, he probably knew most of the story anyway.

"What I am about to ask of you has to stay between us. No one else can know, not Sam, not Maxie, not Brenda and especially not Jason. Everyone must think that I am healing and I am not holding on to the pain, which I am not I just answers. Can you do that Spinelli? If not, I will search for someone else. I know that Jason has always relied on you to find answers for him and I thought you could do the same for me."

"I am not sure what you need from me but I can offer the utmost discretion to you."

"Thank you. I am sure you have heard about Aiden."

"I have and the grasshopper offers his sincerest condolences to you."

"Please, no." Elizabeth put her hand up to stop him from offering any more condolences. She did not need that right now.

"So what does the maternal one need from me?"

"Answers. I need to know why Helena did this. She has a reason for everything and I know she had a reason for this and I need to know why. I need you to find her, discreetly. The first minute she knows someone is looking for her she will run. Can you help me?"

"The grasshopper can find the wicked witch with no problem, but what do I do once I find her?"

"Contact me. I will be paying the wicked witch a special visit."

"Do you think that is safe, maternal one?"

"Probably not but I will think about that when the time comes."

Spinelli watched Elizabeth with a puzzled look. He did not know whether he should tell his master or not. He knew when he came to the maternal one he would pull out all the stops but she did not know that and as far as Spinelli knew he was the only one that knew how far Stone Cold had gone to protect them.

"I am in, fair Elizabeth. But why must Stone Cold not know about this? He would most definitely use his stone cold powers to help."

Elizabeth smiled at the thought of Jason taking on Helena. "Spinelli, Jason has moved on and the last thing I want is for him to be dragged into this."

"I am sure Stone Cold would not see it that way. You may have agreed to no contact but I believe if he were in trouble you would be there for him."

"That is true but he wouldn't ask and I will not ask. I am trusting you will not either?"

"If that is what you want. I will get started right away."

"And Spinelli, Sam cannot see you work on this. I know she is your friend but she is also a Cassadine and they stick together. As the reason, I am not asking Nikolas for help."

"Understood, maternal one." Spinelli grabbed his laptop case and took off as Elizabeth sat there looking out at the water.

Jason was approaching the docks when he saw Spinelli scurry in the opposite direction. He tried to reach him but Spinelli was too fast and had gotten away. As Jason turned around to head back up the steps he saw Elizabeth sitting on the bench. His breath caught in his throat as it did every time he saw her. He noticed the somber look on her face as she looked out at the water and he wondered if he should say anything to her at all but he didn't have to as she turned and saw him staring at her.

"Wow, this must be a record."

"What's that?"

"I have barely seen you in almost two years and now I have seen you twice in two days." Elizabeth chuckled as she spoke.

Jason smirked at her remark. "Yeah, I guess it is. Anything excited happening on the water today?"

"No not really. Boats in and out like every day."

"You seem to be doing better today?"

"Yes, I think I am. I had a visitor last night and she helped me work through some things. I will never be better but I may move on."

"That's good. Who was your visitor?" Jason asked trying to get information out of Elizabeth that Brenda wouldn't give him.

"Brenda."

"I didn't know you and Brenda were friends."

"We weren't. She came to visit with Robin and we just started talking."

"Oh."

"But you already knew that Brenda was the visitor?"

"What?"

"Jason, you can lie to the best of them but I know you better than that and I can tell when you are interrogating someone and the tricks you use." Elizabeth said with a smile.

"I sometimes forget that you know me better than I know myself."

"I better get going. I have errands to run and then I have to get the boys from Grams. It was nice seeing you again, Jason." Elizabeth spoke as she stood from the bench.

"Yea, it was. We should do it again, sometime." The words came out before Jason even realized what he was saying.

"But if we did that someone may see us together and I wouldn't want to break the rules we agreed upon."

"Elizabeth…"

"I'm sorry, that was harsh. I will see you around." Elizabeth took off up the steps before her emotions got the best of her. She knew she shouldn't have said it like that but she didn't know what else to say. It had been two years and he still made her heart flutter and there was nothing she could do about it. They agreed upon no contact for the safety of the boys but now he says they she see each other again. As much as she wanted leap into his arms and say anytime, anyplace she knew that they couldn't. What was she supposed to do if they became friends again? How was she supposed to move on? Being his friend is not what she wanted. She wanted all of him and she couldn't have that. Not now; he had moved on.

Elizabeth took off up the steps before Jason could say anything to her. What has he supposed to say? Elizabeth, I am sorry. The stupidest thing I ever did was let you go. I have been torturing myself ever since. How was he supposed to tell her his life stopped the day he left her at the courthouse and he has been living in a fog ever since? How could she ever forgive him for the way he has acted the past two years? Did she even still love him?

Jason headed in the opposite direction that Elizabeth have left in hoping the long walk to his bike would help him clear his mind. His mind had been so clouded the last few months that he never really got the chance to think clearly, but just speaking with Elizabeth for a few minutes had helped the fog lift a little bit and he was starting to feel some type of burden being lifted from his shoulders. As Jason left the docks he never saw the figure that was watching him from the shadows take off.

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