Gaila walked back to her room quickly her eyes down after was dismissed. She arrived at her room soon and slid inside onto her bed. As soon as the door shut behind her she leaned against it and slid down. She did not cry as she had before, she seemed to have exhausted her supply of tears. She felt... nothing. She was back to the numbed angry white fury she had trained herself to feel before Starfleet. "What's wrong?" She looked up from her knees to see Uhura turning around in her desk chair.

"Nothing. Absolutely nothing." She stood and went to her closet and instead of her uniform she pulled out an a black miniskirt and short tank she hadn't worn outside her room since being onboard.

"What are you wearing?" said Uhura looking confused.

"I don't have anything important to do I'm not zipping myself into that polyester sack if I don't have to." She slid on her gold lipstick and only glanced in the mirror before walking to the door.

"Where are you going? What happened?"

"Nurse Chapel said the reason I was feeling dizzy this morning wasn't because of the fall it was because I hadn't eaten in 18 hours. I'm going to get some food."

"Chapel? Why didn't Bones tell you that?"

"Because McCoy has more important things to do then tell me to eat a granola bar." She zipped on her boots violently and stood. "Now if you're done interrogating me-"

"Gaila last night you were all giggly and calling him Leo, what happened?" Gaila looked up her jaw clenched.

"He heard what I said to you last night. He didn't believe me when I tried to explain. He called me a whore. That's what happened, okay?" She turned on her heel and walked out the door.

Gaila laid on her side as sleep refused to come to her. Every time she closed her eyes she felt his breath on her neck, his hands on her waist, his comforting arm wrapped around her. She rolled onto her back staring at the ceiling. She couldn't think about him. She had opened herself up to someone, had finally trusted someone and things had ended exactly the same. She was alone.

"Oh sorry." Gaila rolled to face the door and saw Kirk standing in her doorway. "I was looking for-"

"Uhura, I know. You've been chasing her for months I get the pattern. She's in the library studying or on the observation deck with Spock." She rolled back onto her back. "Go on chase after her."

"Are you ok Gaila?"

"Since when do you care about how I feel Kirk?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean," Gaila sat up swinging her legs to the side of the bed. "I told you I loved you and you took off on the Enterprise without ever telling me. I have a feeling if I hadn't gotten transferred on a few months later we never would have spoken again."

"Oh God I never even realized- after what happened to Vulcan I forgot about everything-"

"Oh don't worry. I realized after about a week I was in lust with you, not love. I'm over it."

"Well then is something else wrong? You seem upset."

"Do you really want to know?" she said crossing her fingers in front of her looking down.

"Yeah." he said pulling up a chair next to her bed. "I owe you that much."

"I fell yesterday so Uhura took me to the medical bay." She looked up at him. "And one thing led to another and I slept with Bones. I opened up to him and then he called me a whore and I left. That's the abridged version of events." She looked down again.

"Wow..." said Kirk sounding like the breath was knocked out of him. "I'm so sorry. You don't deserve to be called that. No matter what they did."

"Or who?" she said looking up at him a trace of a smile tugging at the corner of her math,

"Not even when it's with an ass like me." He reached over and put a hand on her knee and her smile slid a little further.

"Well I get if you want to think things out and-" He stood slowly.

"Kirk." she said standing up between the bed and the chair. "I don't want to be alone." He looked down into her eyes. He had seen them stare at him flirtatiously across a room, smoldering across a table but never like this.

She looked completely broken. He was about to pull away but at the last second leaned down and kissed her gently running his hand down her back. Her hands slid against his sides as his other hand slid into her hair. He pulled back. "Gaila-"

"Please Kirk." she said gripping his shoulders. "Don't go." She stepped back and knelt on her bed pulling him down with her. She kissed him again placing his hand on the small of her back. He crawled over her and she eased her shirt over her head. He looked down at her and moaned.

"I forgot how amazing you look." He ran his hands over her waist. She slid her hands under his shirt and slid it off.

"I haven't forgotten how good you look." He went to roll her so she was on top of him.

"You don't want to be on top?" she said looking confused.

"You never liked me being on top of you before."

"I'm over it." she said pulling him back over her. He straddled her bracing himself against the headboard as he pushed inside her. He bucked against her at a relentless inconsistent pace. She wrapped a leg around him moaning and sucking at his neck as her nails dug into his back.

After a few minutes he lay beside her panting as she laid under the sheet on her side looking at him. "Thanks." she said.

"Sure." he said awkwardly.

"Look," she said. "Sorry about bring up the whole 'I love you' thing before. I'm over it so lets both just stick to what worked before."

"And what exactly was that?" he said turning his head to look at her.

"This." she said shrugging. "No strings just exactly what we're both good at."

"Sounds like a plan." he said smiling not believing his luck. "Do you mind if I sleep here though? Spock always gives me a hard time about getting back late."

"Of course." she said. "You can stay here."

Kirk drifted easily of to sleep facing Gaila as she faced the ceiling once again. While it had been a great physical relief her tryst with Kirk hadn't lightened the load on her mind. She was still thinking about- She heard the doors slide open and sat up to explain to Uhura when she saw Bones standing in her doorway.

"Gai-" he said but stopped short when he saw Kirk shirtless and asleep beside Gaila.

"Sorry the bed's taken tonight, you got your turn yesterday." said Gaila coldly pulling the sheet tight.

"Gaila what the hell are you doing?" he said not looking angry but confused.

"Exactly what you told me I'm good at, wrapping my legs around everything with a Y chromosome on this ship. I finished with the cadets, so I moved onto officers." she said an eyebrow cocked daring him to question her.

"Gaila I-"

"Look the beds full so do us both a favor and leave." she said laying back down and laying against Kirk. He mumbled something in his sleep and slipped an arm around her.

"But-"

"Just. Leave." she said venom dripping from her words. As she heard the doors slide shut she closed her eyes and finally drifted off to sleep, Kirk's chest warm against her cheek.

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