Chapter 5: The Nightmare

"Hold it, right there!"

That's what I heard after the gunshot. Looks like someone already knew what I did. I then looked at the direction where the yell came from and the first thing I saw are a bunch of police officers, all armed with guns, with one of them pointing his own at the air. I also saw a figure of a person I personally knew among them. That person was Mariko, the girl who apparently came charging in my house because I dated other girls besides her. Apparently, she noticed how Sakura looked like while we were arguing.

Upon the sight of these people looking back at me, I felt chills and goose bumps all over my body. I felt like my time has run out and I should pay for this, but I also felt that I don't deserve this and I must live. I just wanted to unbound myself from that old man who treated me like I was nothing, why should I be punished like this? This is not what I wanted for me to happen. I just wanted to be free.

I felt that I must run, and that's what I did.

I then rushed quickly away from them, heading towards the trees and hoping that these trees will provide cover for me, from them and the bullets that they will fire. A few of them quickly followed me while the rest of them immediately inspected Sakura's body, including Mariko.

While running away from them, I got confused between looking forward to where I'm going and looking back towards them, the police officers who are chasing me. For me, I didn't care where my feet will take me for as long as they wouldn't catch me, I still couldn't help but to look at where I'm going, hoping I would trip up on something that would slow me down. But still, I must keep running. I must survive.

After an hour of running away from them, I already started to feel tired. My feet hurt already because I am practically running on ground made uneven by the roots of these trees, which I actually expected right from the start to cover me. Still, I must suck it up and keep running.

And after a few minutes more of running, I finally gave up and stopped running away from them. I guess I shouldn't have killed my little sister in the first place. It's already becoming dark when I looked around finally realized that the police chasing me are nowhere to be seen. So I guess I'm still lucky, huh?

But I then realized that it was too quiet that time, as if this whole forest is already dead. That fact cut my happiness short and I started to feel afraid again. Not after a long while, I started to hear someone yell.

"Shinji Matou! We are arresting you for the murder of your little sister Sakura Matou! Don't run any further if you don't want to get shot!"

I then answered them, yelling "What did I do to deserve this?" No, I'm not acting innocent. I'm just trying to make them understand me. I just did this for myself, and I don't want to be a puppet of Zouken anymore. I have reasons for doing this, but these people…They wouldn't understand it even if I told them. Right?

Right?

The fear I felt started to eat me and I eventually gave in to it. I could then already felt my eyes misting. Now, I'm hoping that these people would just let me go. Every piece of pride in me has already been crushed when the tears in my eyes started to flow out. I eventually found myself crying, and begging to the world to just leave me alone.

What did I do to deserve this?

But then again, something tells me that I still must survive and escape. It also told me that I shouldn't just cry here like a little bitch and hope that they'll forgive me, because they certainly won't, they certainly wouldn't. That something told me to keep on fighting.

And I did listen to it. I then shouted at the top of my voice and started to run away from them again, hoping to get away with the murder.

But I heard another shot and this time, I felt like something bit me in my shoulder. The bite was painful, so painful that I felt like all my strength has been sucked out from me. The shout I made a while ago became ironic when I shouted again out of pain, clutching my arm in an attempt to make the feeling go away.

But despite the wound that I got from one of the officers' gun, I kept running away from them, only to find one of them suddenly appearing from behind a tree. I tried to turn away from him and run, but he just tackled me, pinning me down to the ground.

He then tried to catch my hands by the wrists and arrest me, but I kept on resisting his attempts to do such. During that time, I was reminded of what I did to my little sister, as I grabbed her wrists and tied her up. Looks like everything that I did to her came back to haunt me but unlike her who didn't even put up a fight, I was now defending myself against this man who seemingly wants to do the same to me.

I tried to look around for anything that I could use against him, while still trying to let myself go from him. I found a stone, in the size of my palms, right beside me. I quickly grabbed it and crashed it against the officer's temple, which left him screaming in pain and falling down to the ground in agony.

I then quickly stood up and run away from him as fast I can, but again I heard gunshots. The sound was close from me, and I certainly felt the impact of the bullets on my back.

The wounds on my back added to the pain from my earlier shot in the shoulder but this time, it was so painful that I felt dizzy, as if the world was spinning in circles. I also slowly can't feel the gunshots anymore, as well as my whole body seemed to numb out. I knew that during that time, they finally got me in a way I, or even everyone, never expected.

The numbness and the nausea I felt made me fell down to the ground, and I finally could see my whole life flash right before my eyes, right from the very beginning to this exact moment. If this was to remind me what my life was, then I could certainly say that this life has been cruel to me. I then started to feel cold, the same feeling I got when I touched my dead little sister's body. Looks like death has come to get me, which is something much scarier than going to the jail cell for murdering someone. After the dizziness, coldness and numbness, my eyelids started to feel so heavy; I was prompted to close them, slowly but surely.

During that time, Sakura's death was certainly avenged, with me meeting the same fate I gave to her…

And then the alarm clock started to sound.