Chapter 12

When i finally got to Missouri it was night in below degrees weather it was on the news it was going to snow soon so i grabbed my bags before i headed for the exit Randy was leaning against a fake tree watching me with his eyes every move i made this made me want to cry it was true i loved him more then anything but it was fading as time went on John replaced him i could already see it.

He had on his famous smirk that would make a blonde drop at his feet in a insist i had retapped my hand even tighter this time it seemed to dull the pain a little i stood across from him he had on blue jeans and sneakers with a regular t-shirt i thought he would have worsen a suit as he always did after a show or when he was with Evolution to make a speech it was always a dull time when HHH spoke.

His eyes never left mine he could see that what John said last night was true but also that i love John more then him in time i knew he would talk to me about it so i decided to prepare later rather then now he seemed like he just wanted to spend time with me that was a surprise to me.

He said "Hey beautiful."

I said "Don't call that."

I started walking he quickly caught in my pace as i didn't want him to notice so i looked away for the moment we arrived outside it was so cold i nearly ran back inside when the cold air hit my cheek Randy's hummer was only a few minutes away as he toke my hand in his he helped me in as he threw my bags in the trunk he climbed in the drivers sit as he pulled out my hand was killing me from the cold air i almost started cry it hurt so bad he turned on the heater and grabbed my hand his were a little warmer then mine he sit it right in front of the vent his hummer was nice inside.

It had all black leather seat and interior, new sound system with speakers, DVD player in the front, rear camera to see if your close enough not to hit someone i was surprised he seen this he chuckled a little i looked at him his tattoo on his wrist showed a little the only thing i wanted more was to just go away with him just the two of us i looked away quickly before he noticed the thought.

I flipped my phone open and left John a voice message to call me when he got this Randy was hearing every bit of it he was getting mad at me by the minute but i didn't care at the moment he didn't even care when he done me wrong he talked to ease the tention in the car.

He said "I got everything set up at my parents they're excited to meet you."

I said "That's cool."

The rest of the ride was quiet we didn't have anything to say what we wanted to say could be discussed right now so it was left for later his parents was a nice house it was the dream home for most people the nice fence, nice neighborhood it was medium size just for them it fit perfectly his parents were out on the porch waving with excitement to see us wearing heavy coats they went back inside when we got out i went to grabbed my bag from my side but Randy beat me to it he showed me he wanted to do this for me but i would decline knowing him it wouldn't do any good.

I said "I can get them."

He said "Sarah believe it or not im being a gentleman."

I said "Thanks Randy."

He grabbed my untapped hand and lead me forward to the house when we enter it was everything you could every have dreamed it would be pictures hanging of him and his family full of love his dad was sitting in a recliner it looked like he had that chair for sometime now he claimed it as his Randy reclined on the couch after he put my bags by the door.

His mom came in threw the living room from the kitchen she was cooking you smell chicken casserole she gave me a hug i smiled at her after a few minutes she released me she looked not really old as you would have might think she would be she had a little gray but not to much her blonde hair still showed more then the gray she was not to fat or to thin just right she dressed like any other mother she was wearing blues jeans with a button up blouse and a pair of dirty sneakers they had grass stains on them.

I said "Hi I'm Sarah."

She said "Im Carolina."

I said "Its so nice to meet."

She said "Its nice to meet you to Randy has said such nice things about you come and help me in the kitchen."

As i passed by i noticed Bob was still what you saw on tv even the cowboy boots on his feet his big screen was playing football him and Randy were watching some game i followed his mom in the kitchen to help her set the table the kitchen was wonderful brown cabinets counters on tops of the counter it was a dark brown top the flowers were hardwood flooring thank goodness i wore tennis shoes high heels would have made to much noise.

She gave me the plates, napkins, forks, spoons, and knives to set on the table in a nice neat order for four i made it so Bob was at the head and Carolina was at the end with me and Randy across each other when everything was ready i helped her carry it out to the table we all sat down after Bob said grace we didnt talk at all that made me feel uncomfortable maybe it was something they didn't do it seemed like a loving house nothing seemed to take it away after everyone finished i helped her wash the dishes i came by the living room to go outside for a minute to get some fresh air.

Randy stopped me he toke me to a screened in porch on the back where it was warm but you could see out i stood by the far side of the room looking out i could feel his eyes on me he came up behind me wrapping his arms around my arms i was blocked so i turned around to him his face was inches from mine i turned my face to the side but his hand came under my chin to move me toward his face his look was pure passion nothing else all the cockiness for the moment left him he brushed his lips across mine i stayed still frozen in this very spot the only thing that brought me back was my phone ringing in the living room i moved him and ran to get my phone out of my purse.

I looked at the screen it was John i answered feeling almost bad because i let him get to me knowing I'm with John but the attraction was there no denying it now Randy was standing in the door frame of the back porch he looked even seriouser then i ever saw him so i looked at the ground to start talking to John i missed his voice and i missed him.

I said "Hey champ."

He said "Hey baby."

He sound very drunk i heard a giggle ring in the back then everything was silent i heard him sigh i let the tears fall i couldn't believe this i let it happen again we were both silent i sat down on the floor leaning my back on the wall suddenly i couldn't support myself everything seemed to be crashing around me with such power i couldn't try to stop it.

I asked "Who was that giggling John."

He said "That's no one baby."

I said "You know what John call me when you know what you want."

I hung turned off my phone i walked toward the stairs Randy watched me all the way up til i disappeared around the corner i toke a aspirin and laid down i fell asleep but i woke up to a noise i heard outside i climbed out of bed and headed for Randy's room he was sleep when i sneaked in but he raised up from his bed i froze in a insist i knew he was staring at me he patted the right side of the bed for me to come over i walked over and sat down he moved so he facing me now.

He asked "What are you doing here?"

I said "Well i got kinda scared i heard something outside I'm sorry."

He said "No need you can sleep in here i wont try nothing i promise."

I climbed in after i kicked off my shoes and scooped next to him he was nice and warm i looked up at him his eyes were closed i kissed him right on the lips his blue eyes opened to look at me all i wanted was to be happy without all the drama tonight seemed like more of my problems kept coming i turned over as he wrapped his arm around my waist i slowly fell asleep at his side.

When i woke i rolled over to Randy he was awake by his breathing everything seemed he was watching me i raised up so i could look at him face to face he seemed to tired to be cocky at the moment so he let it go everything seemed to blur out my hand was starting to hurt from the weight i put on to stay up i saw so i was putting my weight on my knees.

He asked "Your hand ok?"

I said "Yeah."

He asked "When you going to start to get back in the ring?"

I said "Doc said it should be three weeks."

He said "Im really sorry about that."

I said "Oh well its water under the bridge."

He kissed my hand as i laced his fingers with mine just then i thought about Melina i hadn't seen her since i got here and she wasn't calling Randy on his cell he never even talked to her she wasn't here either he seemed relaxed nobody got their answer where she was last night when she didn't come to work Vince was mad he always says you don't let your fans down.

He said "Before you ask me and her ended."

I said "What do you mean?"

He said "Your right i can tell you love me but John is the one you love more your the right one for me and i let you slip away."

I was surprised to hear him say that he wasn't much for that i knew that the first time i met him he was more of that's not a conversation i like to discuss in my life hes twenty-four and im twenty two hes more of parties, hot girls, and one night only me I'm more of lets just be together then figure out what will be the future later before anything really happens.

The house phone rung so i picked it up on Randy's side i had to lay across his waist when i looked at him his sweet smile turned into a smirk i giggled before coming serious enough i was still in my shorts n tank even though i was freezing my butt off i looked at the caller id it was John calling Randy looked also he leaned back on the bed frame waiting for me to pick up.

I said "Hello.'

He said "Hey i'm on my way there now."

I asked "Here?"

He said "Yeah."

I said "Im on my way down now."

I hung up i climbed off Randy running to my room threw on some joggers and a jacket with the tennis shoes i had on last night i ran down the steps by passing Randy who stood in the door way of his room still in his boxers he was seeing me run like a mad woman i eased down the steps Bob and Carolina were still in bed because the tv was off the kitchen light was also off.

I ran outside just as the cab pulled in i gave him a hug he lifted me up off the ground after a few minutes he let me down we rushed in with his bags at one of his hands in his other in mine we had to talk about this i wanted everything to be right again we went up to my room John brought me over to the bed after he put his things down it was time we talked this out.

I said "Im not happy with this i more pissed then anything at you how could John knowing what Randy did to me."

He said "Baby I'm sorry i went for one drink that's all then i missed you more i had to many and the next thing i knew i woke up next to this girl from the way you didn't answer your phone i knew that you knew i was with and what i did i broke my word i cant tell i hurt you but baby please don't be so mad that you would threw this away."

I said "John I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt and giving you another chance but this time you have to gain my trust back."

He said "Thanks baby."

I kissed him so hard when we did pull back we were breathing hard from lack of air there was a knock on the it was Carolina saying breakfast was under way they got up as soon as they heard the door shut she could cook fast probably warm able stuff with thick coffee i grabbed his hand and headed down the stairs it smelled like coffee in the pot.

Randy finally got on some pj's on he looked up as he sipped his coffee Bob had the newspaper reading it John shaked his hand plus Randy's as he gave Carolina a kiss on the cheek i went straight to help she let me pass out the pancakes when she got them done it was regular pancakes this morning everyone got two a piece Bob was still reading the paper even when we sat down i sat a cross from John he sat beside Randy.

Randy was staring down at his pancakes i realized i never really told him about me and Dave i didn't think things would change now if i did or not so its best if its kept a secret John made small talk with Carolina about the weather here and Boston i caught Randy eyes as i winked at him he smiled at me with sweetness after everyone was done i quickly washed and put the dishes away in the cabinet for dinner i went out to the back porch when i went by John was watching tv with Bob some kind of football stuff.

I went start to the closed in back porch Randy was sitting down in the chair on the right side facing the wall leaning back looking start at me i walked over to sit in the chair next to him he was looking start ahead my eyes were on him i didn't know what to say or if i did would it make him mad with me for the choice i have made i don't want him to be mad but i also don't want to be in that situation.

He said "Nice Sarah real nice."

I said "Randy i cant go back to you not after what you did to me its not possible."

He said "You could have at least talked to me."

I said "Im happy this time i mean i was but i cried so much and now i don't cry at all except for last night i need that in a relationship i don't need to worry about him coming back after he says he will because he does and he doesn't see me then don't for a night and i don't have to tell people to tell him to come and see me."

He said "But you didn't give us another try."

I said "If i did things wouldn't change anything about us."

I got up and walked to the door taking one last look at him he was still sitting the same way when we started talking not moving one muscle even while we talked about things i walked on leaving everything behind i stopped by the living room to see if John was in there but he wasn't in there so i went up to my room he was sitting on the bed i closed the door behind me he looks up at me.

I walk in front of him making him look at me i leaned down to kissed him but he beats me to it the love flowed out like water over the rest of the weekend was spent lounging around the room talking and kissing when Sunday came we had to leave to catch a flight to the next city Randy said he would catch a later flight so before we left i gave him a kiss on the lips before departing with John the cold made my hand hurt but i had my aspirins and a bottle of water.

Me and John were on our flight to meet his parents first then mine he gave a me a sweet smile as i got settled in my sit he grabbed my hand that was newly taped i needed ice really bad at the moment we got the good tickets i finally put the ice on my hand and leaned back to get some much need sleep before meeting his parents things seemed weird i just met parents of a guy who i love and hate at the same time but the point is were not together now I'm meeting the parents of a guy who i also love but a little more then Randy.

So i ask the question everyone does. Can my life get anymore complicated then it already is?