Chapter 14
I saw up holding the sheet around me as I looked stunned at him. He looked away from me now avoiding eye contact with me afraid of seeing how hurt I am right now just to hear what he said made a tear come down my cheek as I stood up still wrapping the sheet around me tightly.
I asked "What?"
He said "I don't want you to be unhappy with me if you want to be with Randy instead all I want is for you to be happy."
I said "I am happy more than happy John."
He said "Sarah I can tell you love him even when you try not to show it I don't want to keep you away from him."
I sat back down on the bed leaning my head towards John letting more tears go since I couldn't hold them back anymore; I let my hand rest on his cheek until he grabbed my hand in his warm hand and kissed the palm then lacing my fingers in his.
I said "John -."
He said "It's just until you and randy get this straightened out I promise then I'll back with you to kiss you and tell you I love you."
I nodded still crying as he started wiping them away from my cheeks to see my eyes as he leaned in to kiss me and hug me softly. I hate Randy so much but I also love him at the same time.
I gentle released him from the hug as I grabbed a pair of blues jeans and a t-shirt from my bag then walked off to take a shower, but after 10 minutes in the shower I fell to the bottom of the bathroom tub crying my eyes out just thinking about leaving John.
After 30 minutes I came out going down the well light hall walk with pictures everywhere of different places they have been like Disneyworld, dollywood, etc.
He was already showered and dressed when I opened the door to the room. He sat up from the chair that sat across the room as I made my way over to bag to drop my dirty clothes in seeing how the plane ticket said I had two hours before my flight and it would take an hour to get there then more time to put my stuff on the plane, find the gate, and then get on the plane to find my seat.
He came over to me turning me gentle to him pulling my arms around his neck as his arms drifted down to my waist looking at me with his dimples making me smile at him as he kissed me before grabbing my hand and my bag as he let me out of the room and down the stairs we went.
His dad was standing at the door smiling at us as I put on a smile that showed everything was fine in case John didn't tell them.
His father said "Well I'm so really sorry to hear you have to leave so soon since you only got here yesterday."
I said "I do to." Giving John a glance then continuing. "I have a few off days in March I could come back then if you like."
His father said "I would love you to."
John walked me down to the car stopping at the driver's side as I looked away from his gaze knowing this can't happen not wanting to let go of him fearing he would find someone else as he pulled my face up to his making me look in his eyes as leaned in slowly kissing me goodbye it felt more like a goodbye kiss forever then one for the time being.
After he pulled away from me I stood close to listening to him breath softly as he was still not moving an inch from me.
I asked "Why did that feel like a goodbye forever kiss?"
He said "It wasn't meant that way."
I eyed him in distrust for the moment then let it so not to start a fight with him right now. He opened the door for me as I climbed in the driver's seat he put my bags in the trunk that I popped open for him then he came back to stand by the car door waiting on me to crack the window. After turning on the car and fastening my seat belt I rolled down the window to see him lean on the window seal of the car.
He said "I love you, be safe, and call me when you land back in Knoxville."
I said "I will babe. I love you to."
He said "You understand I do love you right."
I said "Yeah babe."
He kissed me quickly before letting me go as I backed out I saw his reflection the rearview mirror waving disappearing more and more as I drove down the dirty. After what seemed like forever I finally made it to the long tree road that toke me to the interstate and straight to the airport.
I made it back to the car rental lot where it was a different man now in his mid 40s maybe, skinny, medium height, black haired with short hair all around his head. He was reading a sport magazine when I pulled up and gave him my ticket.
He stamped it and pointed to where the White Ford Escape and Red Grand Jeep Laredo sat in the same place as last night as I got my stuff it seemed the airport wasn't so crowded so I made it just in time for my flight home.
I sat down closing my eyes thinking about John and that kiss he gave me before I left his dad's house something about the way he tried to play it off seemed to make me feel even worse than I had before because he was thinking I was going to pick Randy over him he has got to be kidding me.
The pilot told everyone to put their seat belts on before we took. I texted messaged Randy to meet me in Knoxville. He said he would. I settled back in my seat as the plane took off and I looked forward to see what movie was on.
It was Cars for the little kids that were in first class, I decided to watch the movie so the time would go by faster. This flight wasn't long just three hours and I had two more to go. I hate flying its way to high up for me.
The next movie was The Wedding Planner it was a nice movie since I had already seen it. I turned to my book in my purse that was Vampire Academy I was only on page 25, so far she had ran away from a heavily guarded the wild one is Rosemarie Hathaway who is protecting the vampire (Moroi that was what they call them in this series) Vasilisa. She wanted to be called Lissa though. Right now I bet I would make it to 30.
As I began to read I noticed a text message from John saying don't forget to call me. It made me laugh but also let a tear drop from my face as I looked at the time it was 12:00 and Randy's text came in and said he'd be there at 5:45.
I read the rest of my book for the rest of the plane ride. The pilot came on the speaker and said the plane would land in 20 minutes, so I put my book and phone away. I put my stuff away and waited for the plane to land.
The plane was slowing down and the men that tried slowing the plane were out there with their lights. After landing everyone on the plane started getting off so bad, people were getting stuck in the exit from the plane to the airport on solid ground. It took the people 30 minutes to get everyone one moving again. I had to hurry to get home and straighten my house up before Randy got their plus I had to drop by my moms and pick out a car for me.
After grabbing my bags I left to get a cab to where I live. My apartment wasn't small or big it was just right I lived on Pleasant Ridge. I called my mom after dropping my bags in my closet I called my mom to tell her to come and get me so I can pick up a car. She came just as I planned giving me a hug as she waved for me to go with her. We went down the lobby and to her car.
As we both got in she started with the questions that I knew was coming.
She asked "Where have you been?"
I said "Well I got a job with WWE mom chill."
She asked "What kind of car are you looking for?"
I said "Jeep."
She said "How did I guess."
I laughed silently as me and my mom shopped for two hours going to different car lots until I found the right one black on the outside as well as the interior, leather seats, and everything it was perfect. I took my mom out to eat before heading back to my house.
She asked "So any guys looking?"
I said "Mom so inappropriate."
She laughed as we separated to go home I looked at the clock and saw it was 3:30 so I stopped by the movie place to get Sherk Forever After.
I got a phone call from Randy saying his flight came in earlier so I drove straight over to the airport to pick him up as he put his belongs in the back and climbed in next to me.
He said "Hey beautiful."
I said "Hey."
He asked "New car?"
I said "Yeah I picked it up an hour or so ago."
He said "Cool."
I said "Yea."
He asked "Not that I'm not happy to be here with you but why am I here with you?"
I said "To fix us once and for all."