Chapter 21

I walked in the door of Randy's room to see he was sitting on the couch watching a football game. There was a mess on the coffee table along with his shoes on the coffee table. All I could do was roll my eyes and walked toward him to let him know I was not happy with this mess he had created.

When he looked up, he gave me an excited smile that made me not give him the made look I wanted to give him. I sat down on the chair looking out the window slowly trying not to think about John and how he is doing right now.

Probably still sleeping it off, should I have left him like that? Somehow Randy's movement didn't even make me look up to see where he was going because I noticed he was leaning down in front of me. He looked up into my eyes with his blues one making me show a smile.

He asked "What's wrong baby?"

I didn't know if I should tell him I miss John, would it hurt his feelings? What would his reaction be if I did? It seemed like a 50/50 chance either way. Would a lie work? I know if I did tell him a lie that it would come back to haunt me later, but I can't tell him the truth.

I said "I'm tired I guess."

He smirked making me laugh and move back. He came closer this time leaning up and placed his arms on both sides of the chair like those cops do in those movies when their playing bad cop and good cop. His lips stopped an inch from my lips breathing softly. I didn't move though, I want to see how long he can wait there.

He whispered "I love you."

I whispered "I love you to."

His lips came softly to mine giving them a light kiss and then pulling back to look me in the eye. I wanted to cry and tell him it was over, but I couldn't something seemed to hold me back. I can't just leave him, it seems so mean and wrong right now.

He whispered "Are you ok?"

I said "Yeah, I just need some air."

He asked "Want me to go with you?"

I shook my head no softly as I leaned up kissing him again to reassure him that everything was ok. He only nodded letting me go to watch the game that came back on from commercial. I walked out not giving him a second look.

I ran down to the elevator praying no one was on there. Dave was standing in front of the elevator waiting on it to ring so he could get on. It was too late for me to turn around as his eyes looked over at me giving me a nice smile. I returned his smile coming to stand next to him.

He asked "Hey how you been?"

I asked "Good you?"

He said "Good."

I said "I saw your match last week that's was an impressive win."

He said "Thank you."

I said "You're welcome."

He smiled softly hearing the bell ring for the elevator and us both getting on. He was dressed in his gym clothes which meant Randy is just now turning off the TV catching the last ending of the game and changing into his gym clothes.

It amazed me that I can predict that much about Randy and he barely knows anything about me. It was both mine and his fault on that we don't really spend enough time together. The thought made me go half and half. First half wanting not to get into that, the other half thought the idea was exciting and thrilling.

Dave's movement and the sound of the elevator seemed to get me back into the real world. He gave me a nice goodbye smile; I waved at him pushing one floor down that was John's floor. I know it seems crazy to be checking in on him so soon, but my heart seemed to be nagging me to.

Besides I have some serious time to kill, since Randy was going to be at the gym two or three hours. I don't want to up in that hotel room all by myself; it seemed a little too creepy.

The bell rang making my feet move off the elevator and off to John's room, I felt the excitement start inside me and made me show it on the outside as well. Even though I tried to hide it, I finally made it to his door sliding the card key I had from earlier and unlocking the door.

I went in slowly trying to be quiet, the room was the same way I had left it except the TV was running now in the bedding softly, indicating that he either was awake and watching it or he turned it on before falling back asleep.

I looked up at the clock on the wall to see it was 5:00 right now so maid service should be arriving along with the room service I ordered. I started walking in the bedroom to see if he was alright. I stopped when I hit the door frame looking at him half on the bed and half off the bed.

I went over and pushed him back on the bed only it made roll over on his back and still sleep. I moved softly to the other side and crawled in the bed to lay next to him, I finally laid my head on his chest listening his heart beat and let the tears that I had been holding back started coming.

I felt his breathing begin to raise meaning that I was wakening him up as I laid on his chest, only I don't care. I want to see what he says; maybe he'll not push me away this time. I felt his arms come around me softly hugging me tightly so that I might not leave.

My eyes moved up to see he was awake even though his eyes were closed, I could sense he was awake. I didn't move an inch from his chest still listening to his heartbeat begin to slow down and become normal. It seemed so nice and peaceful here.

His talking made me come back to reality and block out his heartbeat for the moment. Even though I didn't want to, it seemed right though at the moment.

He whispered "I missed you."

I stalled for a minute scared to say anything. What if he's joking? His eyes pleaded for me to say the same thing back to him. This made me happier than I was earlier.

I whispered "I missed you to."

I broke free of his hold and slide up to his face leaning my head on the bed frame and looking straight at him. He smiled softly opening his eyes.

He whispered "Will you stay a while with me?"

I said "I would love to."

He reopened his arms for me to come back to him. When I slipped in his arms again, the peace returned even more now than it did earlier. Our last fight came popping back in my head now, making me feel bad about how we acted.

He whispered "Thanks for this morning."

I said "Your welcome, now get some sleep."

He laughed softly, and started falling back asleep. I felt sleep coming to me as I closed my eyes.

I woke up hearing my phone vibrating; my purse was on the end of the bed. Uh, I hate moving when I'm half asleep. I got up gently trying not to wake John up. He moved a little, but fell back asleep as I pulled my phone out and went into the bathroom trying to make sure the sleepy sound out of my voice.

My caller id said it was Randy, so I took a deep breath and answered.

I said "Hello."

He asked "Hey baby where are you?"

I said "I'm sorry I walked around for a while and met up with some of the divas and fell asleep watching a movie."

He asked "It's alright, want me to come and get you?"

I said "No, I'll be at the room in 10 minutes."

He said "Alright baby love you bye."

I said "Love you to bye."

I shut my phone and came back out to see John was sitting up now looking down at the floor, he still seemed tired than ever before. He didn't move when the bathroom door clicked as I came over to the bed and started hunting for my shoes.

I felt bad because it seemed like I was sneaking around, but I didn't really cheat on Randy. So why do I feel this bad? The question seemed to hang there in the air waiting for an answer that would probably never really come.

He whispering brought me back letting me listen and hear what he said. Somehow I blocked his voice out instead of letting it in for an alert. Of course I am half asleep right now. All I wanted was to lay back down next to John and sleep forever.

He whispered "When can I see you again?"

I said "How about tomorrow when Randy's at the gym?"

He asked "Around 1?"

I said "That's fine with me."

He smiled getting up off the bed and coming over to me as I finished throwing on my shoes. I tried so hard not to let the tears go, but one slipped and fell my pants leg. Johns face appeared at my knees as he leaned on them softly letting the sadness show in his eyes.

He whispered "I love you so much and I'm sorry about our last fight."

I said "I love you too, and I'm sorry too."

He leaned up fast kissing me so passionate that after we broke apart the kiss still lingered on my lips. The electricity was there, so was the even more happiness that I could ever get. Right now, it was something I could think about because I had to go meet up with Randy in our room. I dried it so bad that if I could run away I would. It seems mean, but it's true.

He leaned up grabbing my hand letting the electricity go through both us as he walked me to the door slowly dreading the moment I have to leave as I do. I could feel my heart breaking every minute that the door came closer and closer.

We finally made it as he pulled me close to him and hugging me so tight that I could just stay here forever. Only reality set in and Randy was still waiting for me to come to the room. I pulled back leaning up to kiss him on the check only he moved his head, so our lips could meet.

I kissed him just for a minute, and then I walked out.

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