Chapter 22

I made it to the elevator and saw that no one was standing at it, thank goodness. I forgot to check the clock before I left and now I'm going to have to look at my phone. I didn't feel like getting the phone, but I needed to know the time. I finally found my phone buried under all my junk that was in my bag.

My phone said it was 7:30, dang that's not much sleep. The elevator dinged for me to get on and I did. Even though I dreaded coming to Randy, I took small steps on the elevator hoping maybe he wouldn't be there waiting for me. It seemed mean and wrong, but it was how I felt. This was something I had to put up with even though he seemed like he's changed, somehow deep down I felt like soon the old Randy's going to surface. This made me think of what John told me at our last fight.

""You're leaving not for that reason because you love him more even though you try to think and feel that you love me more."

The condition I told Randy had totally slipped my mind and I guess everyone knows we're together now. Great another thing that has to be on my mind. I could already feel my head beginning to hurt. The bell for my floor as I got off I took the small steps again only meeting Randy head on in the chest almost making me fall on my butt and back in the middle of the hall.

He caught me right before I fell to the floor making him smile and pick me up. I wrapped my arms around him slowly leaning on him to fall back asleep. I didn't care right now that I wanted to pull away from him; I wanted to face the reality of leaving him. It seemed to hard right now and I can't just can't up and leave him.

The idea seemed wrong and so awful toward him. It would serve him right after everything he did to me. We'd be equal then, but he wouldn't be happy.

He whispered "I got worried."

I whispered "Sorry, I was watching white chicks."

Kelly would cover for me and I knew Rand would call her first. It scared me a little to know Randy moves. It's also a good thing though because I won't have to be a little afraid of his next move.

A few minutes of walking he let me down slowly, and opened the door as I walked in trying to keep my eyes open. Only they couldn't stay open, before I knew it Randy had me in his arms again. The feeling that John gave me wasn't there. I wanted it to be a little, maybe then I wouldn't feel so guilty right now.

All I can do right now is pull a little closer to Randy and try to look like I'm happy in order for him not to know. This thought seemed to make the guilty go away a little, but not enough for it to leave my mind.

It made the thought of me slipping if I went to sleep before Randy. So when he finally laid me down on the bed, I rolled over and grabbed the TV remote and patted the space next to me before laying my head down on the bed. Maybe this would make him not worry about where I was, something scared at me that he was thinking about if I told the truth or not.

It made me want to tell him that I was with John and happy about it, but the expression he'd give came in my head and I stopped myself. I can't see him like that. It would make me feel ten times worse than I do right now.

He finally lay next to me letting me lay my head on his right shoulder that was warm, it felt nice though. Goosebumps surfaced on my arms and shoulders making me scoot closer to him. The room was quiet and felt uncomfortable; I closed my eyes softly and drifted off to sleep.

Morning came suddenly as the rain pecked on the window to the left of the bedroom; I was facing the right as was Randy with his arms wrapped around me and his head buried in my neck. It made me smile a little, but soon faded when I looked at the clock and saw it was almost 1 and Randy needed to get up to go to the gym.

I rolled over letting my head rest on his forehead and whispered to him softly.

I whispered "Randy."

He moved a little, but fell back asleep. I laughed a little kissing him on the cheek and then the lips seeing if that would work. It did, his blue eyes open and cracked his famous smirk as he returned my kisses passionately giving me the urge to pull away, but I didn't. It would hurt him too much and he'd definitely know something was wrong. After a few minutes of kissing, I pulled back slowly and pointed to the clock.

His head fell back on the pillow softly as I got up started grabbing some clothes and went off to the bathroom. After the door was closed I stopped at the counter dropping my things on the counter and washing my face with water. Maybe that would help stop the tears. Only it didn't and I decided I didn't really have time to stop them anyway. I had to get in the shower and change right away. The excitement came through me and turned into adrenaline now. The adrenaline speeded up the process making me get done in 20 minutes.

I took deep breaths before I came out of the bathroom, trying not to let Randy see that I had rushed through. That would make his eyebrow raise in suspicion to. This sneaking around is starting to scare me, I had to watch my every move around Randy.

I felt my breathing become normal, and I walked out and saw him getting his gym clothes out of his suitcase. It made me want cry so bad that I went up and hugged him softly. After we pulled away, I kissed him so light that it felt like our lips hadn't even touched. He pulled me back though after the kiss was broken, making sure our lips met.

I said "I'm gonna hang out with the girls do a little shopping maybe I don't know."

He said "That's alright, but I'm taking you out to dinner later tonight though."

I nodded kissing him one last time before running out. The halls were filled now with the people looking for their rooms. It made me walk a little faster to get through all the people and their load mouths that showed how really mad they are right now.

Kelly was coming down the hall holding three shopping bags from JC Penny's texting on her phone. I shook my head softly, she never went anywhere without texting except on a plane or in the ring. We hadn't really talked in a while plus she was kinda mad at me for going back to Randy. I could see why in a way because of everything that went down, but he seems happy and in a way I'm happy with him.

I said "Hey can you do me a favor?"

She asked "Yea sure what do you need?"

I said "If Randy calls cover for me, were shopping please I can't explain right now."

She said "Alright, but you promise you will tonight at the show."

I nodded hugging her quickly and started off toward the elevator. When I got there John was standing with elevator doors open and smiling at me. His eyes seemed to have brightened back up to normal, the bags were gone, and he didn't look tired anymore.

I smiled coming and pushing his floor button as he pulled me closer. The electricity began flowing though each touch, when he wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped mine around his neck making me want this moment to last forever.

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