Chapter 10

"Where do you want it to leave us?" Miley asked, purposely turning the question back because she was 100% unsure of the best thing to say and she didn't want to risk saying something that would make everything worse. She wanted Lilly to know she wanted to be friends again but she wasn't sure if she should or not.

Lilly turned away, muttering "I don't know" she stared up at the pure whit ceiling. "I- I'm sorry I had a go at you when you defended me at school the other day" she didn't give Miley the time to answer before continuing "It's so confusing. You know those stupid idealist people who say situations are only as complicated as you make them? That's such a load of rubbish, the complications come on their own without our input" she trailed off, "Sorry, that was going nowhere, I'm rambling. It's just I don't know what I want. I wish we could go back to before all of this happened and just be friends again like before, but it did happen and there's no undoing that. I want to be friends again, I miss you, that friendship so much. Oliver's great, I love him, I really do but he's not a girl best friend and I miss that. But I don't know if I can. I mean… everything is just so messed up. I don't even know if you'd want to be friends anymore 'cause-"

Miley had been listening carefully not wanting to interrupt Lilly but when it got to that bit she had too. "Of course I do."

Lilly blinked in shock, she'd been speaking exactly how she felt and it had become so rambly and natural that she almost forgot she was actually talking to Miley. She turned to Miley, eyes wide in shock. Miley's words had surprised her as well "Really?" she asked.

"Of course." Miley repeated "Did you really think I wouldn't?"

Lilly shrugged "I actually didn't know, I mean I assumed no because of everything and you're friends with Amber and Ashley and-"

"I'm not-"

Lilly didn't give her the chance to interrupt "And everything thinks I'm just the dorky cow who dumped Hannah Montana when the going got tough. I guess I just assumed you thought the same."

"Never assume, Lilly, that's what my Daddy always tells me. You never know what truth you may be missing" Miley replied "I don't think that, I never did, not really. I just… acted like I did which is definitely up there in most stupid things I've ever done. Yeah, pushing away, hurting, and turning people against the best friend I've ever had? Brilliant move, Miley Ray Stewart."

Lilly stayed quiet for a moment, trying to work out the best thing to say "But you're friends with Amber and Ashley. Even if I could just go back to being friend, which I can't by the way, it would so not be cool for you to be friends with me."

"That's what I wanted to say before" Miley said, going back to when Lilly hadn't given her the chance to interrupt. "I'm not friends with Amber and Ashley. They don't know the meaning of the word friendship. Even what they have isn't a friendship; Amber is a controlling bitch and Ashley just goes along with her because she thinks she had to. And as for me? I was just plain stupid to ever, even for a moment, think they'd want to be friends with me. No, I was a famous person who could higher their popularity and get them backstage at concerts. Not to mention introducing them to other celebrities and getting them into VIP parties. That was all they cared about. And you know" Miley trailed off and shook her head.

"What?" Lilly pushed.

"The worst part is on some level I was always aware of that and yet I did nothing about it." Miley replied. "It was so stupid."

"Maybe…" Lilly began uncertainly, not sure what she was going to suggest, but wanting to suggest something because she knew this needed to go somewhere and it currently wasn't. "Maybe we should try just… being… friendly?" she wasn't sure if it was a good idea or not "Like… not best friends but not hating each other?"

Miley nodded. The awkwardness had returned and neither of them were sure what to say after that. They sat in silence for a while, before Lilly's Mom came in, checking Lilly was all right and telling Miley she should probably go home and get some sleep.