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Chapter ten

"Bella, please....I Bella I love you" he whispered.

He what? This isn't fair he tells me this now.

"You what?"

"I love you Bella, with every inch of me, I need you, and I want you"

"Edward you have a wife and a daughter you can't do this, it's not right, I won't allow you to." I sobbed as the tears started falling down my cheeks.

"Bella, I know this is wrong but I love you, believe me I didn't plan to fall for you. I tried not to. But it didn't matter I knew that we belonged together. I may not know all the little details about you yet Bella like what your favourite colour is and what flower you like best but I know you. I know that you bite your lip when your nervous, or that play with your hands when your stressed, or you pull your hands into your hair when you're worried about someone you love. I can tell you all of that, I know every moment and emotion that you make and all I'm asking for is a chance please Bella just...... let me love you"

I couldn't speak; he realized all the little things that no one has ever noticed before. I was speechless to say the least. I couldn't talk but my body seem to do all the thinking, because I was already walking towards him. My conscience argued with me telling me to back away that I should leave. But I couldn't not after that, I was putty in his hands and he knew it. Usually, I frowned against behaviour like this letting him win but I didn't care.

I closed the space between us wrapping my arms around his neck, crashing my lips towards his. He responded quickly kissing me back with so much force that should be illegal. I felt his tongue grazed my lower lip begging for an entrance. I accepted.

I felt Edward's hands snake around my body lifting me up and pinning me against the wall. I moaned as he made his way down to my collarbone as he nipped and sucked at my skin. I could feel the wetness pooling from me. I fisted my hands into his hair wrapping my legs around his body and he slammed my body against the wall again.

It seemed that right now at this very moment my brain had decided to catch up with my body as my legs unwrapped from around his body and my hands pushed at his chest. Edward back from me panting, I could see that he was even more dishevelled than to begin with. I stood back at the wall trying to catch my breath, before break was over and I had to go to my next class.

Edward had seemed to have closed the space between us again, while I was in my little thought bubble. God I have to stop doing that around him!

"NO, Edward we can't do this not again. I will make sure we don't. I'm not looking for an affair, I'm looking for love consuming, uncontrollable, unstoppable love. I want to be able to walk around holding hands with the man I love not have to sneak around in a corner making sure that no one sees us. I can't do that. If we love each other, it just shouldn't have to be that way. As much as I love you Edward I won't do it to you your family or most of all Nessie and especially to myself." I said as I grabbed my bag again making my way out of the classroom

"Wait Bella you love me?" he asked, shocked.

"I may love you but it doesn't excuse the fact that you're married and my teacher."

With that I pushed the door open letting it slam behind me, as I made my way to maths.

I couldn't believe I had just rejected the one person who loved me, but it was the right thing to do, so I'm just going to keep telling myself that.

I sat in maths just wanting to have Alice to talk to but I knew I wouldn't see her until lunch.

I haven't got a clue what Mr. Catney is talking about now nor do I care really. It was something to do with trigonometry, so I wasn't listening unless it ended up being an angle that made me and Edward able to see each other I didn't care.

By fifth period I was aching to talk to Alice and the only time I would see her was at lunch. I knew he would be there looking all perfect loving me which just made it even all the better knowing that and doing shit all about it.

As soon as the bell rang I found myself running from French class not caring that Mrs. Mason hadn't dismissed us as yet. I guess I would just have to face her next time and deal with her French wrath...oh well.

As I entered the canteen my foot stumped into the door frame, causing me to lunge forward into a pair of strong arms, I was thankful that I didn't hit the floor.

It was Edward.

I looked around me panic stricken to see if anyone had seen this moment between us. But we were safe there was maybe one or two students arriving and none seemed to be bothered by what had happened.

Well it was two boys so I didn't think they would, I was just glad it wasn't any females because probably by the end of lunch I would have been the student fucking Mr Cullen, because he had caught me, well I sort of am the student who fucked him but hey they didn't know that.

"Edward let go of me now!" I warned, as my eyes fought in a battle with his green iris.

His arms left my body, as he turned away refusing to look at me.

I buried my head and walked towards our table, without any lunch, I guess I'm just not that hungry anymore.

Emmett, Rose, Alice, and Jasper joined me at the table about five minutes after the "moment".

I muttered a hello in there direction as I let my head hit the table not caring that I had just purposely hurt myself. I felt like I was circling into a depression I was confused I didn't know what was happening with me.

God why couldn't I just wake up make it through this year with nothing happening as usual, so I could graduate and get out of here without dragging a pile of emotional crap with me. I really hated him for making me fall in love with him, what an asshole! Yeah.... I liked this plan better blame him. It's his fault not yours.

I raised my head, smiling to myself now. Hahaha self meet denial ummm I think we are going to be great friends when it comes to Edward.

Ok so I was now officially crazy but who cares, I don't.

I realized that everyone at the table was staring at me, not good maybe I did look as crazy as I felt at this moment and time. The worst thing is there not even talking, there were just staring.

"Guy's what's up with you all?" I asked.

"What's wrong with us what's wrong with you more like?" Rose replied.

"Look I'm fine and soon I'll be my normal self so just don't worry about it"

"Belly has someone hurt you or anything? Was it vile boy Newton, do I need to straighten out his pervy way?" Emmett said as he pounded his fists together.

What is he like, a caveman, or he man where he must protect women and then proceeds to bang on his chest? I believe that one day he will say that.

"Emmie" I said sarcastically "I'm fine I do not need you to go all protective daddy bear on me, I'm not one of your little cubs, I can fend for myself." I chuckled.

"Bella I like him this way he's my big grizzly, I like the fact that I get to tame him." Rose joked as she kissed Emmett.

It is so wrong that they talk about each other like that they need to get a room!.

I watched them until I had to stop myself from being physically sick. I knew they loved each other they were made for each other but still I was jealous that could never be me and Edward.

I sighed.

Looking side ways I saw Edward had joined the teachers at their table, two tables up from ours. Our eyes connected as soon as I spotted him. He looked sad but happy almost I couldn't figure it out, all I knew was that I wanted him and couldn't have him.

I felt someone beside me nudge me in the ribs. Alice.

"Bella what are you doing, stop that, people can see you." she hissed.

"Alice its fine we're not together, he told me he loved me and I told him I loved him too, but don't worry he was warned as long as he's married nothing will happen." I whispered so only she could hear.

"He said he loved you Bella? Oh my god I knew it, but what are you going to do about it?"

"Nothing absolutely nothing, like I said he's married, and as much as I want him, I'm not going to have him and I'm going to stop talking now because this is your brother and I'm sickening myself every time I mention it to you!"

"Fine whatever Bella but you're going to have to keep me updated on things, just trust me"

"Fine Alice if anything happens I will tell you"

I know I didn't tell her about Edward kissing me but I just couldn't there are some lines I just can't cross yet ....well not yet anyway.

I looked back up to see him still staring at me, I watched him as he started to mouth something to me, but I couldn't make it out.

He tried once more and again, finally I could make out something "My room now!" he mouthed. I shook my head, no I wouldn't, I would have some sort of self control. But his eyes were so sad and agonizing I looked at him once more and nodded, oh god I was going to regret this!

I gathered my books and stood up from the table fixing myself

"Bella, where are you going?" Jasper asked

"Jazz I'm going to the ladies if you must know; I'm really not feeling the best."

"Ok then ......I was wondering why you had no lunch, do you want me or Alice to come with you?"

"No its ok, really I'll be better off on my own"

"Well just call me if you need any thing at all." he replied beaming a caring smile at me.

I really felt grateful that Alice had found someone like Jazz he was a man of few words but when he did they were always filled with compassion and understanding.

I made my way out of the canteen and I could feel Edward's presence behind me, but I continued walking no one but me and him were in the halls. My breathing was starting to become heavier, being alone with him.

"Bella wait!" he exclaimed behind me, grabbing and pulling my arm. Where was he going I thought he said his room?

Before I knew it we were now standing in the storage closet for the English department.

"Edward what are we doing in here, I agreed to go to your room not a closet for god sakes!" I whispered.

"I needed to have you alone my classroom has windows someone could have spotted us."

"Spotted us doing what this isn't happening Edward I can't I won't! Don't make me be a home wrecker"

"I love you and for some reason you love me back and I don't even understand why."

I felt his hand move around my waist, pushing my body back against the shelves full of books, it hurt my back but I didn't care pain for pleasure and all that stuff.

"You don't understand why and neither do I for god's sakes, you're like a walking Greek god and here I am a plain Jane why would you want me?"

"That is the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard in my life Bella."

With that the space between our bodies closed the heat radiating from our bodies encircling us in lust and want, it overwhelmed me. I moaned as I pulled my hands deeper into his hair. I bit his bottom lip begging for entrance which he granted. Our lips devoured each others as he pushed my back against the book case yet again. I groaned wrapping my legs around his waist pushing my self against his now prominent erection.

He moaned my name "Bella!" as I bucked my hips once again against his. I felt my wetness sopping my underwear; I knew he could probably feel it, as it only seemed to excite him more as he pushed himself against me

His lips made their way down my neck as he continued to buck his hips against my wetness, making my back bang off the case repeatedly.

"Edward....ahhh... we ....have ....too stop.....ahh...this." I panted as he sucked and nipped my collarbone.

He pulled back from me only to rest his hands against my face, as we tried to calm our ragged breaths.

"Bella.....please...its ok....I'm leaving her I'm leaving Jane......I want you."

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