A/N Welcome back to another chapter :), I'm sorry for the slow updates but I'm currently running out of ideas. This chapter is kind of a overview of the first month and a half of Axel and Roxas relationship. Don't worry much, your not missing anything. The first part is in Roxas words, he's thinking about it later in the future.

And here we go:D

Someone once told me that the first month of a relationship is the best. It's the honeymoon phase, the beginning, the hiatus from the real world. I don't remember who told me, I don't remember if they were wise but that's what it's like. Nothing bugged me, not the looks from kids at school, my parents or Namine. I was so wrapped into Axel. His smell was like a drug to me and his kisses were sweet candy. I smiled more than I had in years, happiness burst out of me like a fountain. Someone else once told me that good things don't last. They told me that good things get ripped and taken from your helpless hands. I didn't want that to happen with Axel, I wanted him to stay forever and ever. I felt it before it happened, the ripping of us apart. I knew. My mind shut down and let me sleep walk through life in the last few days, I knew the pain would be unbearable. That's when I yearned for the first month, the kisses and sheepish smiles but I couldn't have it, my good thing was getting ripped away.

forever.

My internal clock is ticking, my heart just can take it, I don't want this anymore. Any of it.

"Cheers." Axel murmured into my ear. I blushed a delicate color of pink and pulled away.

"Axel!" My face reddened knowing how stupid I sounded.

"Yeah, but your irresistible." Axel smiled coyly. A smile escaped my stony face, Axel leaned down and pressed a kiss on me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled closer to the redhead. Axel pressed his body against mine and wrapped his arm around my hips. His mouth parted slightly and his tongue traced the top of my lip. My head jerked backward.

"I told you I wasn't ready." Roxas murmured, embarrassed by his reaction.

"Come on, live a little!" Axel said.

"Sorry." I mummer.

Axel scoffed "Come on Roxas! We've been over this. You said you were ready."

"Well I lie." I whispered.

"What did you say?" Axel demanded.

"Nothing, nothing at all." A cold hand clutched my heart at this moment, I shook it away. I looked away from the red heads face and turned to look at the kids milling by. Some were locked in conversation and some were staring at me and Axel. I wonder how they were feeling at this moment, was it a good day or a bad day?

"Hey Axel, do you ever want to just sit and watch the world?"

"Not really." Axel says. His arms in circle my stomach and he pulls me towards him. I look back at the young students and a small voice in the back of my head pleads to be one of them.

Roxas stepped out into the autumn cool air wishing he had brought a heavier jacket. He smiled knowing that in a few seconds he would be sharing warmth with someone else. He quicken his pace and waved to some people as he made his way to the steps of the gymnasium, a usually hangout for his friends. His arrival was greeted with warm hellos and a quick hug from Sora. Axel came down the steps and placed a little kiss on his lips. A coy smile placed on his lips.

"Have fun?"

"No way." The Blondie said.

They climbed the steps together hand in hand. Axel sat down bringing Roxas crashing into his lap. The coy smile seemed to be stuck on his lips. The redhead bent down and placed another kiss on the Blondie. He wrapped his arms around Roxas waist and pulled him closer. Roxas pulled apart quickly.

"Axel, no one wants to see us make-out!"

"Making out is with tongue." Axel snorted "and besides that, I could care less."

Roxas stuck his tongue out." Come on, do you want to see Sora and Riku kiss?"

"You know what? You come on! It's always what other people say, you know what I if you hate it so much then break up with me."

Roxas felt his stomach drop to the floor. CAN'T YOU SEE THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I DON'T WANT? "No! No, it's okay."

Axel smiled " Yeah, that's what I thought." The redhead turned and walked away. Roxas eyes narrowed and he clenched his fists.

Why can't I just stand up to him?

Axel walked up to Zexion and they began a long drawn out conversation that had something to do with a lot of pelvic thrusts.

Sora walked up to Roxas and put a arm around him."How you doing little brother?" Riku was quick to follow Sora and winked at Roxas as he took Sora's hand.

"Fine, How are you?"

"Excellent!" Sora said. Riku took this moment to began a make-out session with the chocolate haired boy. Roxas turned away disgusted, and got up to go talk to Namine.

"Namine!"

"Roxas! Long time, no talk."

"Yeah that's for sure." Roxas smiled.

"How are you and Axel going?" Namine asked.

"Great." Roxas lied.

Namine laughed " Roxas, you look like your in grave danger for saying that!"

Roxas only nodded.

The bell rang signaling the end of the long over due lunch.

"Come to the park." Axel said to Roxas.

Roxas shifted the phone from his right ear to his left one. "I have homework."

"Me and you need to talk, get over here in 5 minutes."

Roxas cursed loudly and pulled on a sweatshirt, he opened the door and announced loudly that he was leaving and not to wait up. He slipped on his shoes and walked into the brisk air. The leaves swirled in front of him and he watch the cars hurry back and forth next to him. He walked to the corner and crossed the street entering the park. He walked quickly to the children's playground and saw the redhead's spiky hair. He ran the last 100 yards and placed a kiss on his cheek.

"Hey you wanted to talk?"

"Mhhmmm, Follow me." Axel said while taking Roxas hand. They walked briefly for 3 minutes and came to the soccer Fields, Axel pulled Roxas into a area hidden by bushes.

"How are you?" Axel whispered.

"Great. Why are we whispering?" Roxas asked.

Axel swooped down and placed a kiss on Roxas unexpected lips. He pulled Roxas close to him and buried a hand in the blond spikes. Roxas stood up on his tippy toes granting more access. Axel's mouth opened and his tongue traced the top of Roxas mouth. Roxas felt all the fears come tumbling back and he opened his mouth. He felt Axel's warm tongue sliding in his mouth, he felt his own tongue slithering in and out. He wrapped his arms around Axel's neck. Roxas couldn't contain his smile, he pulled apart and smiled up at Axel.

For the first time in almost two weeks Roxas was happy with this life, happy with what Axel could give him. Axel couldn't tell him to stop being a wimp or tell him to break up with him. Roxas wanted these moments all the time, every second. Roxas knew somewhere deep inside of him that this was the beginning of the end. He pushed these thoughts aside and told himself to live in the moment. But what did that really mean?

Roxas returned home many hours later, his mouth felt tired but his mind was turning.

He had used tongue! Little baby Roxas was not so much of a baby anymore. Roxas returned to his room and stripped to his boxers. After he had climbed into bed he sighed. He felt the tears before he realized what was happening.

This was a new phase,

A unknown territory,

and Roxas was so scared.

If he gave Axel everything would Axel give anything in return?

Roxas let himself cry, the fear he had was gone now but it was filled with a feeling of emptiness.

So what? I used tongue with a boy.

Am I a slut now?

Will Axel expect it every time?

This was the beginning of the nightly tears he shed and the beginning of the deep hole that was greedily ready to swallow him whole.

A/N I'M READY? Are you? I'm going to finish this fucking fanfic, if it's the last thing I do. I'm going to try to summit a chapter a night and finish this god darn thing. YES! Probably when I'm done I will edit it all.

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