A/N sorry for my lateness.....don't listen to me ramble lol just read.
Edward- Lauren you have left me hanging in your thoughts for weeks now, what is your problem?
Lauren-*sighs*I'm sorry Edward you know how this story is going to go, stop being so hard on me.
Edward- Yes I do know and frankly I need to see my Bella soon you can't leave me an assward for much longer.
Lauren- Edward excuse me do I need to remind you ...I had u showing up at Bella's with ice cream and making everything ok...you were the one who changed that not me...you told me that isn't how it goes.
Edward- But ...Lauren...
Lauren- but nothing now just go and leave these people to read.
Edward- sorry readers.
Once again I would like to thank my beautiful beta. Twilightnaley19...and all you loyal reviewers and readers who have stuck by me thanks ,I love you all for taking time to read this really....also to everyone who I have promised a part in the story too, you will be coming up in the story don't worry you all will be in it.
Also don't hate me about Tristan you will like him I promise.
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Taking a deep breath I walked towards his door I didn't know whether he would hug me, or tell me to leave or worst of all not remember me at all ,his best friend..... Well ex best friend. But before I could even pluck up the courage to rap on the door I heard my name being called and as I turned, I hoped Edward hadn't followed me here.
Turning around at that point, I realized it wasn't Edward it was…
Tristan.
I ran into his arms hugging him whether or not he cared, because right now I wasn't giving him an option, I missed him, I missed my friend.
I felt his arms circle around my waist pulling me into the biggest bear hug known to man, I chuckled..... I had missed him.
"Tristan your going to have to put me down ...I'm a fragile woman you know." I laughed as I felt my feet finally touching the ground.
I stood back to look at him to get a proper first look ,and all I could see was the smile that I knew plastered across his face..
"Bella it's been too long I have missed you so much, where have you been? Are you ok now? Is there anything wrong? Is Charlie ok?" he asked, now looking a bit flustered.
God he hadn't changed a bit....well physically and appearance wise of course but secretly he was still the geeky boy I once knew and loved who was tall and stringy and who listen to alternative rock.
But now Oh God now he was completely different, his jet black hair had grown out and was now sweeping across his face and across one of his eyes which were still as blue as the first day I had met him.
But his body...had...filled out...I couldn't see one piece of geeky Tristan left in there. I looked him up and down seeing that his style had changed too he was wearing a black wife beater which clung to the muscles on his chest and hugged his defined shoulders, and tight skinny jeans.
Huh It looks like I should stop being friends with people more often, it looks like its good for them, I thought.
"Charlie's fine, calm down and I have missed you to, I'm sorry I stopped calling I don't know what I was ever thinking will you forgive me...please Tristan I really need you ...I really need a friend right now." I pleaded.
"Bell's I have always been here for you, you know that right? Because I never stopped being your friend, you did, but I knew you.... and that you would come back and agree that us falling out was stupid." he smiled.
"Look come on inside I'm sure there is people in here that have missed you more than they would probably ever miss me." He chuckled.
I smacked him playfully on the chest "Oh shut up would you!"
I looked up to see him giving me his worst or best I might say hurt puppy dog look.
I scoffed "Please like I could ever hurt you now, you're like a tank."
He shrugged, chuckling,
"True. True."
Once we got inside,I was shocked to see that nothing had change throughout the years the walls were still dressed with a dark wood paneling and cream colored walls. The same huge, brown, puffy leather sofas still took up nearly the entire living room and were still dressed with the exact same terracotta cushions. I laughed remembering the faze Tristan's mom had went through where everything had to be terracotta.
I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply my lungs filling with the same inviting smell of the same turf burning on the same open fire. It was comforting.
We curled up on the large sofa and I just looked at Tristan wondering how I would tell him. How I would tell him I was pregnant and about Edward. But before I even had a chance to open my mouth and muster a word, Tristan's mom Elizabeth and his older sister Emma came running into the room.
"Bella…Oh MY GOD!" They screamed in unison." You're back? We have both missed you so much." They screamed again as they crashed towards me in a hug type fashion.
I hugged them back and whispered a sorry into their ears, I had missed them too, they always had been a second family to me even after Renee died Elizabeth had taken me in and treated me like her own daughter, and Emma felt like the big sister I never had, I used to spend most of my time here when Charlie had to work, which as you guessed it was quite often.
I looked over to see Tristan laughing,
"See they love you more than there own flesh and blood."
I glanced over at Emma to see her looking at him in fake shock horror, I knew that something was going to start it always did.
"Tristan that is a shocking thing to say of course I love you little bro...Even though you're not so little anymore." Emma stated, as she slapped him on the chest.
"Ouch Emma! Lay off would you." Tristan snapped.
"No way bro, it's not my fault that even though I may be a foot smaller than you I can still whip your ass." She winked at me.
I chuckled.
"It isn't you Emma that hurt's, it's that rock you call a ring on your finger ...man I'm going to end up with some serious diamond damaged skin at this rate if you keep hitting me, who knows next time I might actually start to sparkle when light hits me." he huffed.
I shook my head at his silliness and leaned over to turn on the lamp beside him, deciding to play along.
"Oh no Tristan you're blinding me I can't see..... You're blinding me with your beauty...your. Rugged.....sparkling ...beauty." I confessed as I dramatically fainted onto the sofa.
As I acted for my Oscar performance I heard the fits of giggles coming from Emma and Elizabeth, while I heard the grunts and mutters of Tristan telling them to shut the fuck up.
"Tristan watch your language you have female visitors." Elizabeth scowled.
"Yes Tristan there are ladies present." I mocked.
"So Emma who's the lucky man then?" I questioned
I saw the smile rise on her face as she glanced down at her ring, I felt happy but at the same time I felt the pain twisting my stomach I didn't have anyone or anything to present my relationship with Edward, and Tanya did.
But I knew I had to hide my pain, luckily I had an excellent skill of hiding my true feelings or situations that were happening around me or involving me.
Just keep smiling I told myself.
Forcing a smile on my face, I pulled at Emma's shirt trying to get her attention.
"Hello earth to Emma do I get to know about this wonderful man who's captured your heart or not?"
I looked up to see her blushing, I could feel my heart strings tugging at me, but I knew I had to keep it, I couldn't let my act fall now.
"OH Bella, he is the most generous, caring, beautiful man I have ever met I met him last year, we worked together and within 8 months I married him." she gushed.
"Emma that is so brilliant but don't think I will leave it at that you haven't even told me his name yet?" I giggled
"His name is Alec, Alec Carter ohhhh Bella I wish you could of been at the wedding, I just didn't know whether you would want to come or not" she sighed.
"Emma its fine I'll forgive you, but only if you tell me how it all happened you said you worked together?"
"Well yeah, I started about two years ago at a law firm down in Seattle you know Saunders and Spencer's right?"
I nodded for her to continue,
"Anyway I was working as his secretary and I know it sounds strange, you know me and my boss, but it didn't even happen that way, I went through six months of him sending me things like flowers telling me the scent reminded him of me.....and beautiful necklaces and poems that he had written how he thought he wasn't ever good enough for me and that he will always just watch over me and admire my beauty."
"Bit of a creep really if you ask me sending things saying I'll be watching you." Tristan chimed in as he flicked aimlessly through the music channels.
"Shut up Tristan it was romantic ...it showed he adored her...you really don't have a romantic bone in your body do you?" I scowled at him, I suppose he hadn't changed on the inside then.
"Anyway Emma so what happened? How did you find out it was him?" I questioned.
"Well at the end of my first year I ended up getting a promotion which meant I wouldn't be working for Alec anymore I had gotten the position of Alec's boss Mr. Saunders's legal secretary. So after I had a meeting with Mr. Saunders about my roles and such I got back to my old desk to see rose petals scatter across my desk and a note saying…
"So long you were my forbidden love, as I watched you from afar but now I can not contain my love as I need you in my arms."
"I followed the rose petals and they ended up leading to Alec's office, I was so confused because he had never shown any interest in me what so ever I mean I liked him but...I just never thought that someone like him would have paid attention to me. So when I finally walked in he was standing there in his office and it was covered in rose petals and candles. It was just so beautiful Bell's ...and well now the rest is history" she giggled.
I looked at her and saw she was tearing up, she really had a happy ending, they had a forbidden relationship and they waited, and it had worked out.
I wondered what would have happened with me and Edward if we had waited, would we work out, or would he have left me all alone like I was now, I knew I couldn't run from the situation even though I had pretended for the last couple of hours...I couldn't run away from this.
"Emma I'm so happy for you, you got your fairy tale ending it seems, but now I'm wondering did you have a fairytale wedding to match?" I asked
"Oh yes I'll get the wedding albums, I'll be right back, your going to love it Bell's." she laughed.
"Albums as in more than one" I asked a bit sacred of what I had gotten myself into.
"Well seven to be exact." she shouted as she ran up the stairs.
I sighed and prepared my self for the amounts of happy families and smiling couples all loved up I was about to see.
"You have asked for it now" Tristan said, smugly.
"Oh I think I have got that already, so what's up with you anyway not liking your sister's hubby?"
"No Alec's great he loves her so that's all that matters and he makes her happy he's a good guy I'm glad they have each other" he sighed as he threw the remote at the table giving up that anything half decent was on the T.V.
"So then what's up chum, upset you have no lady troubles to dish about?" I laughed jokingly.
I watched him turn around to look at me, smiling.
"Well actually I do have a girlfriend have for about a year now actually Bell's if you must know" he replied casually.
"Oh really is she a blow up then? Is she a good little doll? Does she keep the bed warm at night?" I replied sarcastically.
"Hahaha Bella you're so funny, and if you must know Suzie burst about three years ago, my poor committed doll, but this one is actually real and her name is Sarah...and actually I love her, so you're wrong I do know a thing or two about love" he stated
"Oh sailor you have been busy, well how about you rustle me up some juice and you can spill all the details I know your just dying to tell me" I joked.
He got up from the sofa and headed off to the kitchen, "Ok you're on."
I laughed, but it seemed that everyone was in this great happy relationship and I wasn't was in a confusing heart aching, destroying relationship well if I could even call it that I needed to know what was going to happen between me and Edward.
I lay my head back on the cushions hoping that everything would figure itself out. I reached down into my pocket feeling my phone buzz, looking at the screen I didn't know whether to answer or not, I gave in opening up the phone.
"Hello" I answered.
"Bella, Bella I'm so sorry I should not have done that I love you I just need time to sort things out, please I'm at your house just come away with me for the weekend we will figure it all out I promise. Are you at Alice's? I'll be there in five minutes ill pick you up at the bottom of the street."
"Edward I'm not at Alice's, I'm somewhere else, I cant see you right now do you know how confused I am how alone I felt when you left, I thought you would have stayed and understood, but no you left me you let me down just like always, and now I need time" I sighed feeling the tears rise up in my voice.
"Bella please tell me where you are, I can here you crying I just want to make thing better, I want to be the one to console you."
"Edward you wouldn't have to console me if you hadn't left me on the floor alone, when I told you I was pregnant with your baby" I sobbed.
"Bella...but I love you" he sighed.
That's when I heard it, something smashing against the floor.
I turned around to see Tristan standing in the door way the glass shattered around his feet. His eyes wide open in shock
"Bella your what?!"
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AN I know, I know, don't hate me ok I'm suffering serious mental block here, I'm just trying to work through it ,I know what's going to happen its just killing me trying to figure out how to put it down on paper though.
Ok girls and or boys lol prepare yourself for a tough ride with these next chapters just remember you all love me.
Please review it means so much to me, even though I haven't updated in a while I still love seeing new people reviewing and alerting and me to your favorites seriously I don't know what you all see in this story but I love you all for it.
Also do you still hate me about Tristan?
And now do you see how he ties onto the story?
Hopefully you do….
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