A/n Hello! Remember my worst headache ever? Well it's developed into a full body cold. Don't expect updates for a little while. I want it to run through and then continue. Thanks so much :D

Tip: The next chapter is going to be the day after the one where him and Namine sit in the sun, so this chapter is going to be about what happened to the other people in this story over the one and a half month gap. The Christmas scene and Roxas crying in the first chapter have already happened.

Enjoy:D

Axel:

Over the last month Axel had changed. The day after he dumped me, I ignored him trying to get over these sad feelings I was having. Axel took it as a sign that I didn't want to be friends. We've talked a high amount of three times. Each time has been printed in my memory for it's awkwardness and the pain it left. The week after we broke up I cried sometimes when things got really bad. One time Axel saw me crying, he scoffed and ran off. A lot of people still thought we were together. They would walk up to me and ask. It hurt the most. I was sitting at my desk in Spanish one day working on my homework when I heard the whispering. Axel was telling the people that he was with about how much I had sucked as a boyfriend. I prepared to whirl around and yell at them when Axel snorted and said The best part is he's such a wimp he won't do anything about it.

Exactly a month and a day after Axel and I broke up him and Marluxia got together. Namine walked up to me that morning and hugged me letting the tears fall. I waited a long time for Axel to come back like he said he would. That day I knew that he wasn't coming back. Axel had moved on while I stood still. I see the two boys holding hands and kissing when I go from class to class and at lunch. Each time I see them the Hole rips. I know that I could have been Marluxia. I could have been that happy boy. To bad I'm not good enough. Axel has become violent since we broke up. He stands up in class and simply walks out or some days he drives his poor teachers to tears.

Axel is definitely the biggest reason for the Hole. Every time I see him it rips at my insides. Every time he smiles it rips bigger. Every time him and Marluxia kiss it opens. I sometimes clutch my sides for support fearing the Hole will tear open my body and leave me in tiny pieces. I wouldn't be surprised if one of these days my head just explodes with all the thoughts I'm having now. I wouldn't be surprised if Axel's head explodes with how much he thinks of himself now.

Sora:

After the unfortunate youtube accident Sora marched into school and yelled at Riku. They fought and Riku tried to win him back but Sora cleverly refused. Riku begged for his love but Sora, being the smart boy he is, denied it and moved on with his life. Or so I wish. What actually happened was this; Sora came to school and confronted Riku. Riku smiled his slippery smile and feed Sora words like It wasn't me, My friend put it on there and I would never do anything to hurt you. Sora was placed under Riku's magic spell again and he continued dating the silver haired boy. I tried to reason with him a thousand times but he was determined like the last three times that Riku was going to change. He didn't though. Riku being the snake he is corrupted everything him and Sora had. Right before we went on the Christmas tree hunt he posted another video of the two having sex. Sora never saw the video, but the world sure did.

After the Christmas tree hunt, I woke up in a hospital and the first words out of Sora's mouth was You're so gullible, Roxas. If my throat hadn't been so dry I would have screamed No you are! I refused to talk to him after that. Sora had no complaints about not talking. Him and Riku have grown closer and that two are now secretly engaged. He thinks I don't know, but the huge rock on his finger tells the tale. I feel bad for my brother a lot, knowing that he is willing to spend his life with a guy that isn't worth a single second of his time. I'm not planning on talking to him until the two break-up. Even if it's to the end of my life.

The Hole rips whenever I see Sora. Him and Riku are always all over each other. They barely stop having tongue wars enough to learn at school. I could have done so much more to prevent this from happening but I can't now. Now I'm just the loser brother, that not even his own brother likes. Sora's happy face rips a bigger chunk at the Hole every time it looks my way.

Namine:

Namine has given a lot up for me. I will never be more grateful for anything in my life. She has stuck with me since day one. A lot of people think that we are dating but I know we never could. She is my sister not my love. Namine sits quietly with me while I rebuild the Hole before school and at lunch. Her grades have improved greatly since we started to hang out. I spend my time thinking and failing school, while she gets smarter. She always has something nice to say to me. Her happiness reminds me old Roxas, a thought that is constantly in my head. He would be happy right now. Not this sad crap that I am.

About 3 days after Marluxia and Axel got together Namine had a screaming battle without Axel. They screamed at each other about how each was a miserable piece of life. I have never seen Namine so mad in my life. Axel won the argument but Namine wouldn't stand for that. She took a step forward and backhanded him. Axel stood shocked for a second, just enough time for Namine to whisper her haunting words, You were never good enough. She spit on his shoes and left. She never thought that I saw the fight but I did. It was one of the few times I've smiled in the last month and a half. Namine has come to school rain, shine, sick or healthy for me. I could not ask for a better more equip person to be my best friend.

Riku:

There's not much to say about the bastard. He has cheat on his Sora a exact time of three. He tells me the number everyday in PE. He doesn't care that he's engaged. The guys a douche. Riku has sunk his teeth into my poor brother's flesh and refuses to give it up. I found him one time making out with Marluxia (before Marluxia and Axel got together), he saw me staring at him and just snickered. I have tried many times to fight Riku and mess up his pretty face but each time he just laughs and continues on with his perfect life. It's the old Sora that I miss the most. Riku has sucked out the happy Sora and replace him with a much less exciting Sora.The new Sora likes sports and reads long books on Ansem. Riku has turned him into the perfect dream. I truly don't think that Sora would see that Riku is cheating on him unless he does it in front of him and that's what scares me the most. If the two are secretly engaged what's going to happen when they get married?

I don't even want to think about it.

Me:

I don't like to talk anymore and my bubbliness has died. My hair color has gone from sunny blond to a dirty blond. I always have bags under my eyes and sleep is hard to come by. My teachers tell me that I have become a shell. I disagree of of course, I still let Namine in. I'm failing all my classes, I have a lot of other things on my mind. A month after this all happened my parents took me to a therapist hoping I would open up to him. I spoke no words during the six, two hour long session. He told my parents that I had the classic signs of depression and needed to take pills. They bought the expensive pills and I haven't taken one. I'm not depressed, I'm just dealing with life. Namine has never left my side. Always there and waiting in case I need anything. She has been the most helpfully to my slight recovery. That day that he sat on the bench in the sun filled with me with so much hope. Hope that I wish I didn't have to lose.

Hope that I have lost.

A/n EWWWWWWW! Axel and Marluxia sound gross:D Hope you liked :D. I'll update in a couple days. Love ya all:D

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