Chapter 9
BPOV
"Em you don't have to come with me, I will be fine." I lied.
"I want to come, you are my sister. Are you going to be okay?" he asked.
"No, I will never be okay. Em there has to be another way. This cant be the only choice I have." I cried.
"We could run. Change him now and we could run. She would never find us. Or we find her first." He smirked. God I love my brother.
"Emmett McCarthy Cullen that is by far the best idea I have ever heard." I boomed.
"Of course it is I thought it." I laughed at that. We snagged us a few mountain lions and went back to the house to explain the plan.
Emmett and I raced home, this was really has to work it just had. We were greeted at the door by Alice, "Well Emmett I have to say that was a hell of an idea" she said. Em smiled. "So Alice will it work out?" I asked her, she smiled at me and said, "From what I saw Yes, everything will go smoothly." I jumped up and tackled Emmett, "Oh Em I will never be able to thank you enough, if this works out. You are the best brother in the world." He just grinned and hugged me back. He really wasn't emotional much.
"Would anyone like to clue the rest of us in?" Rose asked. I had almost forgot about the rest of them.
"Yes, Emmett has the most wonderful idea. As I am sure Alive had already told you all, I was planning on talking to you all about us leaving, because it was best for Edward, and I know what you are thinking, I had just agreed to marry him, but Alice had a vision saying once Edward was changed Victoria would come and they would fight, for some reason we where not around and he will die. I intended on us leaving tonight. But Em here talked me out if it sorta, We are still going to leave but we will hunt Victoria down, and destroy her. Once she is gone there will be no threat on Edward and everything will be fine." I told them.
"And you believe he will just let you leave? Just like that?" asked Jasper.
"No I do not. But what choice will he have."
"How do you purpose we fine Victoria?" asked Carlisle
"Actually, she is around here now. " Everyone turned to look at Alice. "She has been here watching, she left not long ago heading to Seattle. We will find her there."
"Well that takes care of that." I said.
"What will you tell Edward?" asked Esme
"I do not know." I lied.
EPOV
Last night was the most amazing night of my life. Sure I was sore, and would probably be bruised for days but I didn't care, making love to her was the most amazing thing I have ever experienced. When I woke up I was expecting to see her there, but all I saw was letter with my name on it written in her beautiful hand.
My dearest Edward,
I know that This is not what you wanted to wake up to but this is all I have to offer. My family and I are leaving Forks, we have things that need our attention. I am sorry to just now tell you this and to do so in a letter but if I had to face you I would never leave and it something I have to do. Edward this life is not one I wanted for myself and I will not damn you in this way. I do love you and will love you for the rest of eternity but I can not pretend I am still the human I once was. Trust me when I say that time will heal your heart. I do not know if or when I will return to Forks, but I can promise I will not return until you are safe again. Victoria has been watching us and leading her away is the only option. I know to you there is another but for me there is not. Just promise me that you will be careful and not do anything reckless for Elizabeth's sake, she needs you. And in return, I will keep mine.
Goodbye Edward,
Bella
I could not believe what I had just read. She was gone, she had left me right after agreeing to be my wife. This can not be true. I read that damn letter over and over and yet the words never changed. I pulled out my cell phone and tried her cell, 'The number you are calling is no longer in service'. She cut her phone off? So it was true she had left me, alone. I stood there looking out my window down at the world that seemed to be meaningless to me now. Love, life, meaning, gone. I went back to bed, and did the most un manly thing, I cried myself to sleep over a love I had lost for the second time.
BPOV
"Alice are you going to keep singing that god awful song forever?" I asked her. Since we left Forks she had been singing 'Oops I did it again' over and over and over, if she didn't stop I was going to scream.
"Is there something you would like me to sing then?" she asked.
"I will like you to show me what it is you a hiding with the singing!" I yelled.
"As you wish" Huh she never agrees so easily, and just like that I know why she did her vision was of Edward,
VISION:
"ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" Edward screamed. Elizabeth rushed into his room. "Sweetie, its okay it was just a dream." she said. He looked at her with tear stained eyes. "No mom it is not a dream, she is gone, Bella is gone. She left me without a good enough reason, my heart feels as if it was ripped from my chest. That is not a dream" he yelled. "Edward, baby it will get better. I promise baby it will get better. Go back to sleep." He layed back down on his bed clutching his chest, saying "Bella, why did you leave me?"
END OF VISION
"Edward" I whispered. Alice glared at me. "You knew this was how he would take it! I can not believe what you told him in that letter!! Bella you lied!!!" Alice yelled. At that everyone stopped and was watching us. "I had to give me a chance at a normal life. A real life." I explained. "and what about you Bella? You need him, I see it. He saw it, we all see it. Why cant you just except that and move on?" she asked. "I can not just take his life away, I wont Alice." I ran from them all. I just needed to be alone. I wouldn't end his life for me, I wouldn't allow Victoria to do it either. Edward would live, and that is how it was suppose to be. I wouldn't go back, not unless I had to. I know by now they all knew I had lied to them all but it was a necessary lie, they never would have left it I had told them the truth. If I had told them I was leaving him, and had on real intentions of going back. Edward would live a normal happy human life, and I would take confront in that.
EPOV
I sat at the computer sending emails I know Alice will never see, she was my best friend and she was gone too. I wrote
Alice you're gone, you all are and now I am dead inside. Its like my heart was ripped from my chest. There is this hole inside me and it aches for her.
I am I suppose to go one with out you guys?
JUNE
Alice, nothing makes since anymore, I can not remember what it was like to smile. At night is when it's the worst, the dreams. I am running and running screaming her name, I wake up screaming every night. I really need you hear.
JULY
Alice, I truly feel dead inside.
AUGEST
Alice, Sometimes I just want to die, but then I think about that stupid promise she wanted me to make her. How can I not be reckless? I have no reason to live.
SEPTEMEBER
Alice, I woke up this morning and decided. Today was the day.
It had been months since I really spoke to another person. I was a zombie. The only real friends I had left me. I know I am suppose to be a man but shit, it hurts when the people you love leave you like that.
"That's it Edward, I sending you to your Aunt Renee Phoenix." my mother said.
"Mom, I am not leaving Forks." I told her.
"Edward, its been months baby, she isn't coming back."
"I know."
"You should go to Phoenix make some new friends."
"I like my old friends"
"You never see them"
"Yes I do, umm Ben and I are going catch a movie tonight."
"Really, well okay have fun."
The phone call:
"Hey Ben its Edward
"Edward Mason?"
"Yea, I was wondering if you wanted to catch a flick tonight or something, my mom is hounding me about getting out"
"Well the guys are going to La Push tomorrow to surf, you wanna come?"
"Yea sure."
"Alright dude see you there"
I was not looking forward to going to La Push. Then again I didn't look forward to anything anymore. But once I got there things didn't seem so bad.
"Edward is that you?" a girl asked me.
"Um, yeah."
"Its me Jana Black, Betty's daughter. We use to make mud pies when we where little."
"No I remember, our use to hangout when I would come visit during the summers."
"Yea, so what bring you here"
"the guys wanted to surf. Oh you mean Forks, my dad went overseas so I came to live with my mom."
"Oh well I gotta run, but come stop buy the house sometime."
"Yeah I will do that."
Later once I was home I got on the computer again,
Alice, things arent so bad today, I saw Jana Black a old childhood friend. Talking with her almost made me forget her, almost.
That night I actually slept for the first time since she left.
BPOV
I missed him, of coursed I missed him. But my search for Victoria came first, and the others knew to stay away, he needed a chance. I owed him that much. I caught her scent and started heading north, she was looping around, I would catch her if it was the last thing I did. My phone rang, "Alice, what is it?"
"Just checking in, you havent called in weeks." she cried.
"I got her trail, she is looping back to Texas, I think I got her this time."
"Well, do you want to know how.." I cut her off
"I don't want to know anything Alice, and stopping looking. I told you leave him be." I hung up on her, when would they ever listen to me.
APOV
I wish she would listen to me. She was going to lose him. He is happy, being with that girl, she was only a friend from what the emails read but it could become something more. I know she would never forgive me for this but I needed him to know I still cared, and so did she.
Edward, I know you never thought I would see these but I did. I still love you, will all you. We think of you as family, we are hunting Victoria. We all will be together soon. I wont be able to write again because she will know, but I do enjoy your emails. Til we meet again, Alice
I only hope he would believe me, Ah he will. OHH and Bells is going to be pissed. Oh well serves her right for lying to us.
"Alice, what are you going darlin' " jasper asked. He looked over my shoulder at the screen. "Bella is not going to be happy with you"
"Tell me something I haven't seen. You better not let her see this in your thoughts" I warned.
"Of course not darlin' just be careful"
"I am always careful" I took his hand and lead him to our room for some much needed alone time, since the others went hunting.
BPOV
Dammit I lost her again. She was heading back to Washington. I can't let her get that far.