Chapter 10

EPOV

Weeks later . . . . .. . .

I woke to find something I never thought I would, an email from Alice. I had stopped the emails when I never got a response.

Edward, I know you never thought I would see these but I did. I still love you, will all you. We think of you as family, we are hunting Victoria. We all will be together soon. I wont be able to write again because she will know, but I do enjoy your emails. Til we meet again, Alice

I could not believe what I was reading. They still loved me? That just isn't possible. If they cared for me at all, if Bella truly loved me they would not have left me. And yet something inside of me wants to believe them, I need to believe them. These past few weeks with Jana have been amazing. She is one of the best friends I could have asked for. For a while it did seem she hated me. She wouldn't answer my calls, or see me. But come to find out it was all because she was a Werewolf. I mean is it really possible nothing is the way we thought it was? That the mythical is really reality? I look over at her and she smiles, I know her feelings for me are different than mine for her, and she knows it too but we try to look past it all. I love Jana, I do just not like I love her.

"what are you thinking about over there?" Jana asked.

"nothing worth mentioning." I told her.

"Well I got to run for a bit, patrol. I will be back in a hour."

"Alright, I can wait."

"Do not go without me got it?"

"Yes Ma'am" I joked.

I watched her leave, for a while I was fine but I couldn't just sit there and do nothing. "Betty, tell Jana I went to the beach." I yelled. I was going to the beach, but I had something to stop along the way. The hole in my chest was aching, I felt like I would fall in on myself at any moment, I knew what I need to do if I wanted to see her again. I went to the cliff I had seen the boys jumping from all those times. This was my turn, I would jump and I would see her. I got to the top at looked down

'don't do this' I could see her before me. I really was crazy

"You wanted me to me human, watch me."

"Edward, please don't"

"you wont stay with me any other way"

I jumped.

APOV

"Noooooo!" I screamed. I turned to Jasper and my family. "Edward he is going to jump off a cliff."

"when Alice?" asked Jasper

"In a hour"

"that is not enough time"

"I have to try to get to him Jaz"

I ran, and ran. I would get to him. I had to for Bella whether she deserved it or not.

EPOV

I could hear someone saying my name, but I am dead. I shouldn't be able to hear them.

"Edward, look at me damn it"

"Jana?" I barely said it.

"Oh thank god, you are so stupid you should have waited for me." she scolded half heartedly.

"Take him home, I will go back to Sue's place." called Sam.

"What happened ?" I asked.

"Harry Clearwater had a heart attack, he didn't make it. Our parents are over there with Sue. Come on let me take you home."

She helped me to the truck and we left. We didn't talk the whole way home, I was freezing, I think she knew that.

"108 degrees over here" she gestured to herself. I went and sat closer to her, she was warm. We got to my house, when I went to get out she growled and shut the door.

"What?"

"that is a vampire, I can smell it. I am getting you out of here." I looked around. I saw something I hadn't seen in forever.

"that is Carlisle's car, they are here. I have to go." I got out.

"Edward it's a trap"

"They wont hurt me."

"If a Cullen is back this is there territory, we can only protect you on our lands."

"Its okay, you don't need to.'

"You are about to cross a line"

"Well then don't draw one."

I left to go inside. Once in the lights came on by themselves, I turned to see Alice. I jumped and the threw myself at her and hugged her.

"Oh sorry I am just so happy to see you."

"you mine telling me how you are alive?"

"huh?"

"Edward I saw you jump off a Cliff! How could you try to kill yourself? Think of Elizabeth, think of.."

"I was cliff jumping, for fun."

"I have never met someone to prone to life threatening idiocy." I laughed at that, she wrinkled her nose "Edward what is that god awful wet dog smell?"

"Oh it must be me, or well Jana, she is sorta a Werewolf"

"Edward Werewolf's are not good company to keep"

"Speak for yourself" Jana said.

"Thought you couldn't protect me here?"

"Guess I don't care" she said.

"Well I wont hurt him" Alice said.

"No you are just a harmless cullen, I mean the other one. Who is after him because of you." she nearly screamed.

"victoria?" Alice asked me.

"Yeah she has been around, its been a while thought right Jana?" I asked.

"We chased her south, she hasn't made her way back yet" he said.

I looked at Alice she had strange look on her face. "I didn't see her, I didn't see you get pulled out the water either, I cant see past your pack of mutts" she stated. Jana did not like that. I went in between them and Looked at Alice.

"I will give you a moment" she said

"You arent going anywhere right? Your coming back?" I asked

"As soon as you put the mutt out?" she sang.

I looked over to Jana.

"Is she..How many Cullen's are here and how long are they staying?" she asked.

"its only Alice, and she can stay as long as she like" I told her "now run along to Sam he is gonna want to know"

"Sorry I keeping doing it."

"don't me sorry jus don't do. It doesn't have to be like this" I told her.

She came closer to me like she wanted to kiss me, this was the second time she had done this, just as she was going to the phone rang.

"Mason residence?" Jana said.

"She is not here, she is arranging a Funeral" she hung up backing away.

"Jana who was that?"

"Edward stay away, don't come close" I just then Alice rushed in.

"Edward, its Bella. She knows why I came her Rosalie told her. She is going to the Volturi she wants to die to." she told me. Everything after was a blur. I ran to my room and threw some cloths into a bag and wrote my mom a note telling her In the smallest detail I could why I was leaving and I would be back as soon as I could. Alice was already in the car waiting. Jana stopped me.

"don't do, she left you remember? She didn't want you." low blow Jana I thought.

"I wont let her die out of guilt."

I looked at Alice and she took off.

BPOV

"She is not here, she is arranging a Funeral" someone said.

I hung up and threw the phone from the window. Why did I leave him? Now is gone and I have nothing. Why did Alice have to be right? Why couldn't he just have moved on like I thought he would? Why didn't I just stay with him? Nothing matters now. I will go to the Volturi. I will not live in world where is doesn't exists. I can not do that again.