A/N Alright, so I'm actually very happy with this chapter. I hope you like it too! Spanish translations at the bottom.
Santana took a deep breath. She could feel her whole body shiver in apprehension. Her palms were sweaty, and her vision became blurry. She then felt her body go limp.
Shit, shit, shit! she thought, I am Santana fricken Lopez. I do NOT faint. Shake it off, Santana.
"…I am a- uh…" she swayed on the spot. Get a hold of yourself! "I am a…lesbian. I love Brittany and she loves me, and if you didn't already guess from the song that she sang, we want to be together. And we will. But I just wanted to tell you guys, I wanted to be honest with you…you're, like, my family and I didn't want to lie to you guys like I have lied to myself all of these years." She cleared her throat and took a big breath.
"So, there you have it. Santana Lopez is a lesbian. And if anyone wants to bitch about it, you best say it to my face so that I can break your nose when you're done."
She exhaled and waited for the response. There was silence. Blank stares. Santana started to feel faint.
Then suddenly, a clap. Then another. And another. Santana looked for the source of the clapping, and she turned to find Mr. Schuester smiling and beginning to clap. Then Santana heard the others join in. The whole glee club stood up (except Artie, cause, you know, he's a cripple), smiling and clapping. Santana felt her eyes well up with happy tears, and she didn't even try to stop them from falling down her cheeks.
Brittany walked over to Santana and kissed her like she had never kissed her before. It was so passionate, so loving, that Santana felt weak in the knees. She put her arms around Brittany's neck and let more of her tears trickle down her cheeks. By now, Santana didn't even hear the glee club cheering and clapping anymore. She couldn't feel their presence, and she didn't care. It was just her and Brittany, off in their own world.
When they finally broke apart, Santana whispered "I love you," to Brittany to which Brittany replied, "I love you too, and I will forever and ever." They ended their embrace, but continued to hold hands, their fingers interlocked in each other's.
That night, Santana and Brittany went to Breadstix for a celebratory dinner. They held hands, talked, and even just stared into each other's eyes silently for a bit. It was still like they were the "old" Santana and Brittany, but they weren't hiding their feelings for each other anymore, and it was heaven. Santana didn't think she could be happier than she was then.
When the two were waiting for their desserts, Brittany looked at Santana and spoke up, "What are we going to tell our parents?".
Santana took in a small breath. She could feel the all-to-familiar light-headed feeling and her words became shaky, "I…I don't know. Britt, I don't know if I can do it…at least, not alone."
Brittany smiled at Santana, "well of course you don't have to do it alone. We'll come out together, to my parents and to your mom."
Santana flashed Brittany a huge smile and took her hand. "Thank you Britt. I love you."
"Awe, honey. I love you too."
Santana was squirming in her seat as she waited for Brittany's parents to come sit down with them. She was feeling dizzy and her chest was tight, and all of the sudden she had to pee like crazy. That happens when she gets really, really nervous, like she was before her "Valerie" solo at sectionals and when she told Brittany that she loved her.
Finally the waiting was over. Mr. Adam Pierce and Mrs. Daisy Pierce sat across from Santana and Brittany and had looks of curiosity and concern on both of their faces.
Brittany took a deep breath and closed her eyes for a second before she started talking. "Mom, dad…I'm just going to lay my cards on the table and tell you before my head starts hurting from too much thinking. Me and Santana…I love her, she loves me…we're in love. And now, she's my girlfriend."
Adam and Daisy both looked at each other, then Santana, then back to Brittany. Daisy spoke up first, "so…you're lesbians?"
Santana surprised herself and actually spoke up, "yeah…yeah, we are." She took Brittany's hand and gave it a little squeeze.
"And you really love each other?" asked Adam.
"I love Brittany more than anyone or anything else in this world, Mr. Pierce. I would do anything for her, I would be anything for her...she is my everything," Santana proclaimed. She looked at Brittany, who was staring at Santana with the sweetest, most loving smile Santana has ever seen. Her light sapphire eyes were sparkling and her cheeks turned light pink in a blush.
"Well that's all I could ever ask for," said Daisy, who reached her hand out to take Santana's hand, "I am so happy that Brittany found her soul mate. Mr. Pierce and I felt like this would happen eventually, since you two have always been so, so close. And now that it has, I couldn't be more ecstatic. It's wonderful to have someone love my Britt-Britt as much as you do." Santana could see Daisy get a little misty-eyed when she said the last sentence.
The girls stood up and hugged both of Brittany's parents, and then Brittany turned to Santana. She took Santana's hand and smiled a nervous smile, "I guess it's time to tell your mother, then."
Santana hesitated at the front door of her house. "I don't know if I can do it, Britt," she said.
Brittany took her hands and looked Santana straight in the eyes. "Yes you can, Santana. You have to tell her. You can't lie to your mom about your sexuality you're whole life. What are you going to do when we get married? You're nose may not grow every time you lie to your mom, like Pinocchio's does, but the holes in your heart will."
"I don't think I have ever heard you say something so intelligent and thoughtful before in my life," Santana said with a chuckle.
"What can I say? You bring the best out of me, Santana. And that is just one of the many reasons why I love you so much," Brittany said with a sweet smile.
"Well," Santana breathed, "that's enough for me. I guess it's time to tell her."
Santana opened the door and she and Brittany stepped inside. Santana called her mom, Elisa, down to the living room and sat down on the couch with Brittany.
"What is it, dear? Oh, hi Brittany, sweetie!" cooed Elisa.
"Mom, I have to tell you something. Something important," started Santana. She looked directly at her mother, who stared back curiously. "Mom…I'm a lesbian. And I'm in love with Brittany, and she's in love with me. We're…together." And with that, Santana took Brittany's hand.
Elisa's smile quickly changed into a blank stare.
There was a silence for about a minute, though it seemed like forever to Santana.
"Mami?" Santana started.
"Fuera," said Elisa blankly.
"Mami!" pleaded Santana.
"Fuera….ahora."
"Mami, no! Why are you doing this?" cried Santana. She felt hot tears fall down her cheeks and she looked at Brittany who had also begun to cry.
Though she was no champion at Spanish, Brittany understood what Elisa was saying immediately, and stared helplessly as Santana's home life began to unravel.
"I SAID OUT! ¡Fuera de mi casa!"
"Mamá, yo la quiero tanto!" yelled Santana.
"I don't care," Elisa said simply.
"I'm your daughter!"
"You are not my daughter, you are a filthy sinner. God hates the gays!"
"God doesn't hate anybody!"
"Mentiras."
Brittany got fed up. She got in-between Santana and Elisa and looked at Elisa.
"Look. Though Santana didn't turn into the boy-loving girly-girl you dreamed she'd become, you still need to love and accept her. That's what parents do!" scolded Brittany.
"Don't tell me what to do, you little harlot! You!" she pointed at Santana, "get your things and then both of you get the hell out of my house." And with that, she walked away and didn't look back.
Santana sobbed the whole way to Brittany's house. Brittany felt helpless, she didn't know what to do. She took one hand off of the wheel and took Santana's hand. She started caressing it and when they pulled in Brittany's driveway, she brought Santana's hands up and kissed them. "It's going to be okay, Sweetie."
Santana sniffed and looked at Brittany, and she whispered, "I love you." Brittany kissed Santana lightly on the lips in reply and held her close, running her fingers through Santana's hair.
After a minute, Santana sniffed and looked up. "We should get inside. I'm so tired…"
They both got out of the car and took Santana's belongings into the house. Mr. and Mrs. Pierce walked into the entryway where the two girls were and before any words came out, they saw the bags on the floor and Santana's tear-streaked face and bloodshot eyes. Wordlessly, the two parents pulled the two girls into an embrace.
"You can stay here are long as you want, Santana," Adam said, and Daisy agreed.
"Thank you," were the only two words Santana could force herself to say.
Santana and Brittany walked up to Brittany's room and Santana changed into her pajamas and crawled into bed, though it was only seven o'clock.
"Good night, Precious. I love you," cooed Brittany, and she kissed the top of Santana's head.
Santana was so exhausted, she could only muster a sleepy moan in reply, and Brittany giggled softly.
Santana had only just closed her eyes when she heard a beautiful song coming from Brittany's piano. It sounded like a lullaby. Santana concentrated on the notes. The right hand was softly playing the melody, E4, D4, E4, D4, C4, B3, C4, D4, F4, E4, F4, E4, D4. The left hand was harmonizing with C3 & E3, D3 & F3. That part was repeated once, then the lullaby went on. The right hand began playing G4, F4, G4, F4, E4, F4, A4, G4, F4 with the left hand simultaneously played C3 & G3, D3 & A3. Then it repeated the first line of the song again.
Santana wanted to hear the rest of the song, but she was too fatigued to keep listening. So she fell asleep to the beautiful song…her lullaby.
Well there you have it! The next chapter should be up soon...
Translations:
Fuera = Out
Ahora = Now
Fuera de mi casa = Get out of my house
Yo la quiero tanto = I love her so much
Mentiras = Lies
