Nothing
--Crescent Moon19
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Italic is Jess's thoughts
Bold is counterargument to his thoughts--the thing that had possessed Rory (explained in the story)
Once again first line is from "Here comes the son," when Jess is arguing with Jimmy about staying in California.
Jess's POV:
I have nothing.
Nothing at all. Not a mother who cares, not a father who stayed, not a high school diploma, and not her. Not her. I don't have her, and I never will. The first time was a fluke. I have no idea what possessed her to fall for me, but I had hoped that whatever it was would never leave. Now I'll never know if it did. Actually, it probably left as soon as I left. Maybe it's with me right now. Maybe it's floating behind my shoulder, mocking me.
So what if you aren't graduating? There is such a thing as a GED.
Shut up, you don't know anything.
So what if you aren't living with Luke anymore? You have enough money saved up from working for him and Wal-Mart. You could rent an apartment. If worst came to worst you could have checked into the Inn. It would have all been worth it.
SHUT UP!
How stupid could you be, leaving her behind? And don't tell me to shut up, you know it's true. How could you leave her behind?
I don't know. I don't know! I don't know anything. All I know is that California is a new start. A new place where no one knows who I am. Where I can start over again. At least I can be away from stupid Luke with his best for you and his future and the stupid town with its you're not good enough and its perfect 2 inch grass and...
And away from her. Away from her unwavering belief in you and her sparkling eyes and smile and her love of reading. Away from her.
Yeah. Away from her.
More to come! (I know they're short, but I have about 5 chapters written out and I'm still going.)
Thank you to anonomous1624 and CharliLee for reviewing! And you other people--review please. I'm not posting this for my health (although I do enjoy writing it) : )