CHAPTER 2

IM CHANGING THE PERSPECTIVITY THINGY! DON'T FLAME ME!

Jeremy pov:

I'm watching Damon, my boyfriend now for a month, nothing too special, but still.

He's lying on his bed, watching me as I head for the bathroom. I ignore his wolf whistle and close the door. As I feel the hot water hit my skin, I hear music. I feel shocked when I hear the lyrics

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

I knew the feeling, not having love, not being loved by the people you crave the love from the most, and that frozen feeling, it had wrapped around me when my parents died, warming slightly with Vikki had come along, but after she had died – died not left, Damon had told me everything – I had gone back into my frozen state, though this time worse…

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

then Damon had come along, I had admired him from a distance, and had felt, through the icy fingers that had gripped my heart, a crush start to form… I had fallen in love with him, wanted him…. And then he had come to me, he had wanted me back, just as much as I had wanted him. He had melted my heart with fiery passion filled kisses and warm embraces. But my sister had fought against me, still tells me I'm crazy, won't leave me be, won't let me love in peace.

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

I ignored Elena, told her to go to hell, Damon wasn't compelling me, he wasn't forcing me to do anything, I was my own person, I chose to do what I am doing now… I love Damon. And he helped me. Helped me cut away my bad habits, helped me stop and listen to life. Because of him, all the darkness has been bled out of me. And I just keep filling up, darkness pouring out of me before I can even begin to try.

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

I know I hate what Elena's on about, and I have every right to be, her fucking boyfriend also a fucking vampire, but I can't be mad at my friends, coz they are just trying to help me out, only wanna give me something to hold on to, coz they don't believe in happily ever after's…

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

Every time I got scared, upset or just plain mad, I saw his face, watching me and loving me. I knew I loved him, more than anything, more than anyone knew, and everyone thought I was crazy, stupid even, but I didn't give a fuck.

Getting out of the shower, I heard the music stop, and felt hands snatch away my towel. I chuckled when Damon pecked the skin on my neck, and turned around. Damon looked at me for a second, smiling happily.

"I love you Jer" he whispers, wrapping his arms around my waist, pulling me close.

Damon pov:

I loved this human – soon to be vampire, come his 18th birthday – and that song, it had sent wave after wave of pain through me, the memories from before Jeremy. I knew that I would give my last breath for him, I loved him so much.

"I love you too Dames," Jeremy whispered back, smiling widely and kissing me softly. I helped him get dressed, placing loving little kisses over each piece of skin before covering it up.

A loud knocking rang through the house. I could practically hear Jeremy roll his eyes.

"Why does she HAVE to pick me up, I don't know." He grabbed my hand and we walked to the front door. After opening it, I did a double take.

"Elena, what's with the curls?" Jeremy asked, before turning and giving me a goodbye kiss.

"Special dinner tonight, I wanted to look… different." She said, smiling brightly.

"oh…kay… what's with the smiles? You usually save you best death-glares for me…?" I asked, unable to shake the dread that had settled into my gut.

"I decided to get over it." She said simply, grabbing her brother's hand and pulling him to her car.

I watched them leave, saw Elena laughing. I was beyond confused. About twenty minutes later, I was still standing in the doorway, the feeling not leaving my gut.

'S is for the symphony, E is for the ecstasy X is just to-' I flipped open I phone, not bothering to check the caller ID.

"Damon?" Elena's annoyed voice sounded through the speaker.

"Elena? What do you want?" I said, listening to the sounds in the background. I heard laughter and music.

"Can't come pick Jeremy up. I hate myself for say-"

"What the fuck do you…. Oh god no!" I dropped my phone

I ran outside, and then fell to his knees. "Oh god no… Katherine…"