Meredith
He's not answering his phone. Right when I need him the most he doesn't answer his damn phone. Where the hell can he be? I just saw him. What the hell can he be doing? He better not be sleeping with some random bar whore, that's my job. Wait I am not some random bar whore. And I don't care anyway. "HEY WATCH IT, BUDDY, I'M TRYING TO DRIVE HERE!" I hate people. I am going to try one more time and then I am just going to give up. Come on, come on, pick up the damn phone. How does she know? Does she want to kill me…even more? Damn it, Mark. Fuck you no I am not leaving a voicemail. Great, now I am talking to the voicemail recording. I really need to start car pooling again. Is that his car out in front? It couldn't be. Crap I think it is. Double crap, he's not inside of it. Triple crap, is that him in the living room? I'm going to kill Izzie. Do I really have to go in there? Maybe I can just wait it out for a while. What the fuck is that knocking? George? "Don't scare me like that!"
"I'm sorry, Meredith, aren't you coming inside? You've been sitting out here for quiet a while." Nosey much? Ugh. I know he means well but does he have to be like a damn puppy?
"Yeah I guess so." Might as well get this over with. I'm sure Izzie is talking his ear off about something. Maybe I should let him suffer for a while for not picking up his phone. No, not with Lassie following my every move. Ha Lassie, I definitely have been hanging out with Alex too much. Time to put on the fake smile.
"Hey Mer! Look who I found outside. I couldn't let him stand out in the cold so I invited him in. I hope that was ok." Fantastic, Izzie, it's just fantastic. "Should I make dinner for everyone?" Oh god, no.
"No thanks."
"Yeah, that'll be great." Did he just say what I thought he just said? I thought this was just sex and how he wants to have dinner with us? Who does he think he is? Maybe it would be nice to have him over. I don't know. I am so confused.
"Great! I'll get started" She is way too chipper.
"We need to talk." I guess we should go up to my room. That would be the best place to have this discussion. The walls have ears down here in the living room. Ack, I didn't mean for the door to slam like that. Why does he look so amused? "Dinner?"
"What? I'm hungry." Smart ass. "I got into a fight with Derek today." Ok, I wasn't expecting that. I wonder if it was a fist fight or just a shouting match. I hope he slapped some sense into to him.
"Did you punch him?" I couldn't resist. It's weird having him here in my bed with clothes on. Hm. Well we are both sitting. And we do need to talk about this whole thing.
"He threw a paper ball at me while my back was turned and I thought that was pretty childish. A simple conversation turned into a heated screaming match and then Addison walked in and heard that I had slept with you. From Derek's mouth, not mine, I swear. He…he's…" He's what? "He definitely made a mistake." What does that mean? Why is he looking at me like that? No, I can't kiss him until we figure this out. I suck at these kinds of things. He's not going to start it off. I am going to have to.
"So does there need to be rules for this sort of thing?" Why is it so hard for me to just talk to him?
"Rules complicate things. I like to just go with the flow." Just tell him you want more. What's the worst than can happen? Just tell him. Tell him. Tell him. Tell him. "Listen, Meredith, I was thinking…"
"I don't want just sex." Of course the time I finally say it I interrupt. "Sorry."
"No it's ok. I was going to say I was thinking that you deserve more than just sex. I am not so good at this relationship thing but I know you're not either so I was thinking that we could do this together." I couldn't have said it better myself. There's no way I would have.
"That's what I was trying to say." This is nice. I could get used to this. "So we're doing this."
"Yeah we are. Who would've thought? The most dysfunctional people in Seattle trying to have a relationship, it's pretty funny if you think about it." It really is. I never thought I would feel this way so quickly after the betrayal of Derek. Mark should be the last person I should trust and yet I trust him the most. Maybe that's why it works so well. I can tell that he means what he says. I just don't think I could face Derek right now about it. Knowing that he's so angry about it I know he'll come to me eventually and I won't be ready. I wish I could just run away…with him. "Are you ok? You look like you're spacing out." Oh crap, he caught me day dreaming.
"I'm fine. Just thinking." I guess we should go downstairs. "We should probably go downstairs."
"Why? She's not done yet. We'll go down when she calls us." Ok, I can do that.
"So…Derek is really upset about us?" Why am I talking about Derek? I shouldn't be talking about Derek. Not to him. It's wrong. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't be bringing him up."
"It's ok, you don't have to apologize. I think Derek is a bit confused in what he wants. It's like he wants to try to be the saint by trying to save his marriage and at the same time he wants to be in love with you." In love? "I told him he can't have both. It's not fair to you to be messing with your head like that."
"You did?"
"Of course I did. Someone needed to tell him. He put himself in this position. He needs some harsh words. I mean I don't blame him for still loving you…I mean." Yeah? Go on. "You're a great woman." Ok that was adorable and incredibly corny.
"You're so corny. I'm telling the whole hospital that McSteamy is just a big softie."
"You'd ruin my Steamylicious reputation like that? I don't think this is going to work out after all." Oh really. Two can play at this game.
"Oh really? Fine, go, go back to your hotel room without any supper."
"Do I at least get dessert?" Ah, there it is…the McSteamy smile. Naughty boy. "If you're good."
"I like to have my dessert before dinner. It enhances my appetite." It's unfair that he is doing this to me when I know at any moment Izzie is going to say that dinner is ready.
"Dinner is ready guys! Stop having sex and get down here!" That's pretty scary that I knew that was going to happen.
Mark
What's the point of going back to the hotel? There is nothing there. Maybe I should try to find a place that I can get a good burger. I haven't gotten a good burger since I've been out here. Is that Addison calling again? Doesn't she get the hint that I am not in the mood to talk right now. She's probably called 6 times already. I should probably let Meredith know that I got into that little altercation with Derek today. It's better to find out from me than from that idiot. He'd probably tell her a way different version than what actually happened. Maybe she'll know where to get a burger from. Yeah right. A girl doesn't stay skinny like that by eating a big meaty burger. I'm on the way to her place anyway I should stop by. Hopefully she is home. I don't want to deal with her roommates. O'Malley looks at me like I stole his bike and Blondie probably wants to have sex with me. I can't say that I blame her for that. It doesn't look like Meredith is home. I'll just wait at here for her. Oh look, there Blondie is now. I think she saw me. She's coming over here. Shit.
"Hey Dr. Sloan, are you waiting for Meredith?" Wow she is smart. No wonder she is a doctor. I should have just looked for that burger.
"Yeah I'll just wait for her out here. I just need to tell her a quick thing." Is that Addison calling again? Holy shit, leave me alone, woman! She and Derek are perfect for each other. Too little too late like that retarded song or whatever.
"It's cold out. You should come wait inside." It is pretty cold and who knows in this wacky state it'll probably start down pouring at any moment. I guess going inside wouldn't hurt too much.
"Yeah sure, I'll come in." I'm leaving my damn phone in here. I can't stand to hear it ring anymore.
I am going to just sit on the couch I guess. This is so weird. Maybe she knows where to get a good burger. "So um…" Crap, what is her name?"
"Izzie." Right. Izzie…Stein I think. Or was it Stern? I don't know. Something like that.
"Izzie, do you know where there is a good burger in this town? I've been dying." She doesn't look like she eats much red meat either. I need a fat chick to ask.
"No I don't but I can make a really good burger." I can't ask her to make one for me. That would be wrong. I don't even know her. Someone in that hospital will have to know. Is that the door? Please tell me it's Meredith and not O'Malley.
"Hey Mer! Look who I found outside. I couldn't let him stand out in the cold so I invited him in. I hope that was ok. Should I make dinner for everyone?" With any luck I can get that burger after all.
"No thanks."
What are you crazy? I'm starving! "Yeah, that'll be great." I just hope it's a damn burger.
"Great! I'll get started" Yeah you do that. And there is the stolen bike look from O'Malley. Run upstairs, little boy. I sure am angry on an empty stomach.
"We need to talk." That's why I am here. Let's do this. Wow a little angry aren't we? Slamming the door so loudly. My feisty girl, growl. "Dinner?"
"What? I'm hungry." So I guess I should just come out and say it. I don't know to actually ease myself into it. "I got into a fight with Derek today."
I'm gonna relax on the bed. My feet are killing me. "Did you punch him?" I probably should have. Eye for an eye and all.
"He threw a paper ball at me while my back was turned and I thought that was pretty childish. A simple conversation turned into a heated screaming match and then Addison walked in and heard that I had slept with you. From Derek's mouth, not mine, I swear. He…he's…" Shit, I just lost my train of thought. She's so hot tonight. "He definitely made a mistake." I want to just wrap her into my arms right now. Or kiss her. Yeah I want to definitely kiss her. She's licking her lips and I don't even think she realizes.
"So does there need to be rules for this sort of thing?" Fuck rules.
"Rules complicate things. I like to just go with the flow." This is where you tell her that you don't just want sex. You want a relationship. It's the perfect time. Look she's waiting for you to say it. "Listen, Meredith, I was thinking…"
"I don't want just sex." You let her beat you to it, you idiot. "Sorry." I should be apologizing for not being a man about this.
"No it's ok. I was going to say I was thinking that you deserve more than just sex. I am not so good at this relationship thing but I know you're not either so I was thinking that we could do this together." Wow that was very…Derek of me. I almost sound like I know what I am doing.
"That's what I was trying to say." I am so glad we agree. "So we're doing this."
"Yeah we are. Who would've thought? The most dysfunctional people in Seattle trying to have a relationship, it's pretty funny if you think about it." That probably wasn't the best way to follow up on such a nice moment. It should be nice to have a normal relationship with a normal girl. I have been so caught up in Addison for so long that I forgot that there are other women out there for me…better women. I think she's day dreaming too. I wonder what she's thinking about. I should break the silence. "Are you ok? You look like you're spacing out."
"I'm fine. Just thinking. We should probably go downstairs."
No, I am not ready to leave this perfect moment. "Why? She's not done yet. We'll go down when she calls us."
"So…Derek is really upset about us? I'm sorry, I shouldn't be bringing him up." Don't let her feel bad, she's done nothing wrong. It's only natural to wonder.
"It's ok, you don't have to apologize. I think Derek is a bit confused in what he wants. It's like he wants to try to be the saint by trying to save his marriage and at the same time he wants to be in love with you." Maybe I shouldn't have told her that. No she needs to know. "I told him he can't have both. It's not fair to you to be messing with your head like that."
"You did?"
"Of course I did. Someone needed to tell him. He put himself in this position. He needs some harsh words. I mean I don't blame him for still loving you…I mean." So stupid. Why did you say that, you idiot? You don't love her. You hardly know her. Quick hurry, fix it. "You're a great woman." Ugh just listen to myself. Well I guess if it's true there really is no shame in letting her know. She needs to hear it.
"You're so corny. I'm telling the whole hospital that McSteamy is just a big softie." Hey! I am not!
"You'd ruin my Steamylicious reputation like that? I don't think this is going to work out after all." Did I really just say Steamylicious? I blame Fergie and her damn catchy songs.
"Oh really? Fine, go, go back to your hotel room without any supper." Harsh.
"Do I at least get dessert?" I knew I could make up for it with a good sexual innuendo.
"If you're good." She's melting. Score another one for Mark Sloan.
"I like to have my dessert before dinner. It enhances my appetite." I'm glad I can make her smile. I am getting lucky tonight.
"Dinner is ready guys! Stop having sex and get down here!" Please, if we were having sex you'd hear it.