I'm so sorry about how late this chapter is at getting up! I feel bad cuz there for a while i was uploading fairly regularly, evenn if it's just a couple chapters ., and i know it's been a while for this chapter. I hope you guys aren't mad at me or have given up on this story...O.o But here is the new chapter and I hope you enjoy it bunches.
Disclaimer: I do not own Kendall Schmidt or James Maslow even though they may be hiding out at my place they still won't sell me their souls :I lol
March 20th
Things have only seemed to escalate between my parent. Mom is requesting more ad more money from my dad, money hemot certainly doen't 's like she had this notion stuck in her head that he was secretly hiding stashed of money in other banks that he didn't tell her about for the past twenty years. Maybe she is suspicious cuz she feels guilty for her own sins...
I want to bash my head into a board filled with nails when she talks about how her life is jut so much better now and all the stress has been lifted off of her. How selfish can she be to not even realize that just because she doesn't love my dad any more that doesn't mean that I don't love him and it tears me up when she rants about how her life is so much happier without the man she's spent most of her life with.
My whole structure of love has just been completely shattered into pieces. How am i supposed to know what love is, or even believe that love can exist between two people for more than a couple years, when the greatest example I could look to for inspiration can't even keep together? Even more reason not to tell Kendall that I love him, if that's even what these feelings are. For all I know I'm just lusting after him and once the...charm of being with him wears off then all these "feelings" with just disappear.
Best case scenario in telling him I like him would play out so that we'd share some good months, years, whatever and then there would be a break-up that could potentially be an ugly horrible break-up that would leave us to where we couldn't stand to be around each other. And how the hell could a band stay together if two of the four members can't even be in the same room? Or, I can keep doing what I'm doing and keep my secret to myself, wait for it to pass, and then we can stay friends and I won't be the cause for the band breaking up. That scenario definitely sounds a LOT better to me.
There you go peoples. I know it's supper short, but not all journal entries are short stories! I will definitely try to post up the next chapter soon since this one isn't quite so lengthy. I hope though, that even in it' shortness you still liked the chapter. Please review if you love Kames! hehehe :3