I'm sorry I haven't updated lately. I have school and things are a little busy. I will try to update at least once a week but if I don't I'm sorry. Please review. I would like to know what you think! Thanks.
Previously:
"Edward, I don't need any explanations. I have been thinking… I want to give our baby up for adoption."
"Bella… no. You cant decide this without me! I didn't know Tanya was going to show up! I wasn't going to do anything Bella. Please don't do this." I couldn't look at him right now. I was crying and I couldn't look at him. I just couldn't.
"Its not because of you Edward. I cant be a mother. I could have lost my baby and what if I did. I cant do this. I couldn't be able to handle it if I lost my baby. It needs a loving family that will love it and never let anything happen to him… or her." I started crying harder.
I know I didn't deserve it but Edward came over and started to comfort me. He put a hand on my stomach. I stopped crying and just sighed. I was starting to feel a little tired and I couldn't help it so I fell asleep with Edwards arms around me.
I was pushing as hard as I could. I have been pushing for a while now and I could feel sweat come down. Edward was right beside me.
"Come on Bella. She is almost here. Just push a little longer." He was smiling at me and I wanted to punch him in the face right now. He didn't have to do this.
I was pushing as hard as I could and then I heard a cry. She was here.
"Can I hold her? Please." I saw them taking her away. I looked over at Edward and I saw him moving away from me.
"Here you go." The doctor handed my baby to Tanya and Edward and they looked at each other.
"Our baby is finally here." Tanya smiled down at me baby. This is wrong! That's my baby. Edward and Tanya couldn't take her away from me.
"No. She is mine. You cant have her!" I started to cry.
"You didn't want her. I do. She is mine now." Edward looked at her again and I could see myself falling.
I suddenly woke up and I was still in the hospital. His hand was on my stomach and he was just rubbing it. I looked at him and he knew something was wrong.
"Are you okay?" He looked down at my stomach. "Is it the baby?" I could see him start to freak out.
"No. The baby is fine. A little hungry but fine. I just had a bad dream." I could see him relax a little and he started rubbing my stomach again. He called in the nurse and she came in with some food.
I started eating and I heard a chuckle right next to me. I looked over and Edward was laughing at me. My mouth was full of food.
"Your hungry aren't you?" I noticed that my food was almost gone. I glared at him.
"I'm pregnant. I can eat as much as I want when I'm carrying your spawn!" I couldn't help but laugh and we were just laughing together. It felt so easy being with him.
"That's true. Do you know what the baby is? Like is it a boy? A girl?" He couldn't keep his hands off me. I noticed there was a little flutter in my stomach and I gasped. "What? Did I do something?"
"Edward. I felt the baby. Inside. Did you feel it too?" I moved my hands down to my stomach.
"I couldn't feel it. Wow. This is amazing." Me and him just sat there and rubbed my stomach.
I was finally released from the hospital and I didn't really know where to go. Maybe Alice would help me and let me stay with her. My stuff was still at Edward's house and I needed to get my stuff. I grabbed my phone and dialed Alice's number.
"Bella. I came to you in the hospital but you were sleeping. Im sorry I wasn't there later. I have been busy with school and—" Alice wouldn't stop talking and I didn't mean to make her feel bad.
"Alice. It's fine. Just calm down. Can you just come get me. Edward is signing me out and I was wondering if I could stay at your house. I can sleep on the couch if you want. But please. I need a place to stay." Alice didn't say anything at first. What if she said no? I really didn't think it was a good idea to go back to Edward's house.
"Bella aren't you going to stay with Edward? For when the baby comes?" Edward must not have told anybody.
"Alice I think I am going to give the baby up for adoption. I don't want to screw up again. And what if something happens and I can't save my baby. I wouldn't be able to live with that." I heard people outside the door so I decided to end the conversation. "Can you just come get me please?" And then I hung up.
Edward came in with a small smile. "Hey Bella. We are all good to go. Just get ready and we can head out." I didn't know how I was going to tell him I wasn't going with him.
I got up and started to get ready. I didn't really say anything as I got ready. He left the room as a got changed. When I was done I went out of the room. Edward was waiting for me. He smiled at me.
"Ready to go?" I had to tell him. I didn't know if he would be upset or how he would even react.
"Edward I need to tell you something. I can—" I was interrupted by Alice coming and giving me a hug.
"Alice. What are you doing here? Bella is getting out today." He looked at me and back at Alice. We weren't saying anything. Alice looked confused too.
"Bella wanted me to pick her up. And take her to my house. She didn't tell you?" Alice looked at me in disapproval.
"What? Bella you aren't going to come home with me? Why didn't you tell me?" He looked hurt and I didn't really know what to say. I felt bad but I knew I couldn't go back. I just need time.
"Edward… I just I cant deal with all of—" I tried to step closer to him.
"Bella! I'm sick of this." And he just walked away. I was left standing there not knowing what to do. I just looked at Alice. I didn't really know what to do or say.
"Lets go." Was all she said as we made our way out of the hospital.
We were in the car and I asked Alice if we could stop at Edward's house to get my stuff from his house. When we got there I noticed his car wasn't there. He left before us and I was starting to feel guilty.
"Alice. I think I'm going to wait here and talk to him. I didn't want him to get so upset and now I feel really upset. I need to fix this." Alice nodded in understanding. I got out of the car and walked up the stairs to the apartment. I grabbed the key that Edward gave me when I planned to move in here and walked inside. I didn't notice anything out of the ordinary.
I went by the couch and decided to turn on the TV. I didn't really know what else to do. I wasn't really paying attention though. I was trying to think of what I was going to say to Edward when he gets home.
It was 8:00 and Edward still wasn't home. I was starting to get worried. I didn't know where he was at. I started pacing around the house.
I didn't know what to do or what to think. I couldn't concentrate. I went back to the couch and started watching TV. I noticed my eyes starting to get heavy.
"Edward." I heard a girl giggling. I didn't realize I fell asleep until I heard that. I looked at the clock and it was 3:30. I got up and I noticed Edward in the door way with Tanya. They both looked to be drunk. I cleared my throat and they both looked up. Edward looked a little pissed and confused. Tanya just looked pissed.
"Edward who the hell is she? She keeps showing up like she owns the place." She looked at me and I knew I shouldn't be upset because I wasn't with Edward but I was a little hurt.
"I'm—"I didn't really know what to say. I wasn't really anything to Edward. I was having his baby but I didn't really feel like telling her that. "I'm nobody. I'm sorry to interrupt. Edward I just need to speak to you whenever you get a chance." Edward wasn't even looking at me. "Goodbye."
I didn't know what to do so I just left. He obviously didn't want me there. I started walking home. It was kind of chilly outside and I wanted to get a coat.
"Bella? Is that you?" I turned around and I saw that guy off the plane there.
"Riley? Hey." I didn't realize that I was crying until I started talking. He must have noticed too.
"Bella are you okay?" He came over to me and grabbed my hand.
"I'm fine. You don't need to worry about me." I tried to walk away but he wouldn't let me go.
"Bella I'm not going to let you walk all by yourself at 3:30 in the morning. What are you doing so late out here anyway?" We started walking toward my apartment and I was grateful that he was here. He pulled off his jacket and put it over my arms.
"Thanks. I was waiting for somebody. We needed to talk. He brought a girl back and they clearly weren't expecting me. I needed to get away." I wasn't looking at him because I could feel that I was going to start crying again.
"Was that guy the father?" He looked like he was getting upset.
"Yes. But it doesn't matter. We aren't anything so why should I care?" I didn't need him to feel bad for me. I could get through this on my own.
"Bella, I can be here for you. If you just let me. We can be friends." He smiled at me and I smiled back. I knew I needed a friend. One that I could talk to.
Alice was a great friends but she was also going out with Jasper, Edward's cousin. I needed another friend.
"Thank you." I let him walk me home and we actually had a nice time.
We were at my apartment when he said, "Bella I would like to get to see you sometime soon. Can we have lunch together?" I didn't know what to say. I mean I was having a baby with another man. He was really nice and he did say that we could just be friends.
"Sure." I looked at him and smiled. He leaned down and kissed my cheek. I could help but blush. I looked back up at him.
"I will call you." And then he turned around.
I know this is a bit short but I don't really have time. I hope you enjoyed. Tell me what you think. Thanks.