Previously:
I was having serious doubts now that Jessica brought everything up the way she did. I don't know what I'm going to do.
Maybe I should try to not eat as much. I don't want to gain weight and Edward to leave me because I am unattractive.
I was driving home and thinking of everything that happened today. Edward didn't seem like he was mad that I was eating a little more. I gained a few pounds but you were supposed to when you were pregnant. Of course he couldn't be mad… but would he leave when he could have a lot prettier and skinnier girls than me?
I got home and unloaded all the groceries. Edward was supposed to be home in a little bit then he was going to the airport to pick up his mom. I pulled out the stuff the make dinner and started cooking. I was making my favorite. Lasagna. I started cooking.
I was done layering all the stuff when Edward walked in the door. He smiled at me and I tried to smile back but all I was thinking was that I didn't know what was going on in his head. And I wanted to know.
He came over and gave me a quick peck on the cheek. I turned around and tried to give him the best smile I could right now.
"Hello. I need to change for your mom and by the time you get back I will have dinner out on the table." And I walked past him and in my room. I was taking off my shirt and pants and I went over to the mirror. I didn't see anything that was different. I turned to the side and I saw this red mark on the side of my stomach.
"No! No no no no no!" It was my very first stretch mark. I couldn't believe this. It was tiny but still. It could get bigger. How could I let this happen? I should have been more careful with what I ate.
I dressed in this loose fitting shirt. It was dark blue and it tied in the back and I wore some dark jeans and curled my hair a little bit. I thought I looked okay.
I went downstairs when I heard the timer beeping. I took the food out of the oven and then went and cleaned a little bit more around the house. I set out three plates and three cups. I looked at the table and then looked at my stomach.
I went over to the table and took one of the plates away and grabbed the cup and put water in it.
I heard the door open and close and I went over to see Edward and his mother smiling at me. She was absolutely beautiful. She came over to me and pulled me in for a hug. I was surprised but I hugged her back.
"Well when my son told me she was beautiful I wasn't expecting this." She smiled at me and I could feel myself blush.
"Thank you. Your really beautiful too. Well I made dinner. I hope you like lasagna." She looked at Edward and smiled.
"You make a beautiful couple. Lets eat." We walked in the dining room and looked at the table then went to the kitchen. I went in the kitchen to get the food when I noticed him getting another plate.
"Oh I'm not hungry." He looked at me and gave me a weird look.
"Since when are you not hungry?" He laughed and I felt a wave of tears coming. He saw that I was about to cry and came over to me. "Bella? Are you okay? What's wrong? I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. It was a pregnant joke." He came to rub my arms.
"Its fine." I pulled away from him and turned toward the door. "I'm just not hungry." And I walked out and set the food on the table. Edward followed right after me.
Dinner was quiet between me and Edward. His mom kept bringing up subjects but they died down quickly.
"So Edward tells me it's a girl." She tried to seem happy about the news even though the awkwardness at the table.
"Yeah it is." I said. I didn't really know what to say. "I'm really excited for her. I cant wait to take care of her. Even if I'm on my own." I heard somebody's fork drop and looked up to see Edward glaring straight at me. I knew it was out of line but my emotions were crazy right now.
"Um… So have you two picked out a name for the baby?" I was about to answer but Edward interrupted me.
"We were thinking about names for our daughter," He was looking straight at me. "But we haven't thought of anything yet." I decided I needed to get away just to breath. I got up from the table.
"I need to… I'm tired. I think I will be going to bed." I turned around and walked away. I heard somebody get up. I grabbed Edward's mom's bags and started taking them up the stairs to my room. Edward got to me when I was halfway up the stairs.
"Bella what are you doing? That's heavy." He grabbed it from me and went the rest of the way up the stairs and in my room. I followed next to him and when I got in the room he turned around and he looked really mad.
"Bella what the hell is wrong with you?" He came toward me and all I could think about was what Riley did to me that one night. I flinched away and covered my stomach and my face for protection.
"Please don't hit me." I didn't realize I was crying until Edward's face turned from mad to confused to sadness.
"Bella I—"
"Don't. I'm going to sleep on the couch." It was a good thing too because I didn't want him to see my stretch mark.
"Bella you are not sleeping on the couch. If you don't want to sleep in the same bed as me then I will sleep on the couch. But you are pregnant with my daughter. You are not sleeping on the couch." I already had one of my pillows and an extra blanket in my hand.
"Don't be ridiculous Edward. This is your house. That is your bed. You don't have to give up everything for me just because I am pregnant."
"I hardly count losing my bed for one night losing everything. I think I'm gaining more than losing anything." He smiled at me.
"You lost your girlfriend Tanya. I'm sure that was a big loss." I said it sarcastically then walked downstairs. I made my bed up on the couch and Edward came down and started talking to his mom in the dining room. I couldn't hear what they were saying.
I remember my eyes getting heavy but never falling asleep. I was talking to Jessica in the store and then next thing I knew I was at our apartment. I heard noise coming from the upstairs. I walked up the stairs and heard giggles and Edward saying something.
I opened the door and saw Edward on top of some blonde girl with big boobs. I didn't know what to do or to say.
"Edward? What are you doing?" I started to cry a little bit and Edward just laughed at me.
"Like I want you now. Look at you. I don't want you anymore. I want her. She has a nice body with no stretch marks." I looked down at my stomach and it was full of red stretch marks. I looked up at Edward and he seemed to be getting farther and farther away.
"No. Please Edward, don't leave me. I need you with me. I cant get through this without you!" I started to cry then I woke up sitting straight in my bed. I took off the blankets and realized the only person I needed right now was upstairs.
I started walking upstairs and started thinking; I have been so mean to him today. He might not want to share the bed with me. I could ask him.
I got to his room and opened the door. Edward was laying there. He looked so peaceful in his sleep. I didn't want to disturb him but I couldn't be alone right now. I needed to know he wanted me still.
I went over to him and tapped his shoulder. "Edward?" I noticed my voice was still a little shaky. I tapped him one more time and he woke up.
"Bella? What are you—Is something wrong?" He started to sit up.
"No. I just need you right now. I'm so sorry I was so mean earlier today. I love you. Can I please sleep with you?" I felt like a little kid asking to sleep with there parents because they were scared.
"Sure. Are you okay?" I got in on the opposite side and slid in. I felt more comfortable with him.
"I'm fine." I scooted closer to him and he put his arm around me. I felt that he put his hand right on my stomach. "She misses you." I smiled and put my head on his chest.
"I missed her too." He started rubbing my stomach and I felt her move a little bit. I started laughing and I think that woke her up a little more. She started to kick. I love her so much. She was my little baby.
"I love her so much Edward." I put my hand on his and looked over at him. "Thank you for this." I leaned up and kissed him.
"I love her too. I cant wait to meet her. I'm going to be the best daddy to her." He kissed me again. I leaned up a little more and he started kissing my neck. I could feel his hands start to rub over my underwear and I let out a loud moan.
Me and Edward laughed before settling into bed. I quickly fell asleep with me in his arms.
When we woke up I looked over at the time and it said it was 9 o'clock. It was Saturday so I was sleeping in a little. She could feel her stomach growl and she knew she was starving since she never did eat last night.
"Sounds like somebody is hungry." Edward gently rubbed my stomach. It made me feel a little uncomfortable.
"Not really. Maybe a little. But I was going to go see Alice for coffee. I will eat with her." I started to get out of bed.
"Well you're a little hungry so eat a little before you go. Just so my baby isn't starving while waiting for food." He started to get up with me. I looked at him and I was glaring.
"You know I'm not a cow. Just because my stomach growls doesn't mean I am going to die. I will go eat some toast okay?" I went and stood next to him. "Alice is going to be waiting for me though." I reached up and kissed him lightly on the lips and then turned to head downstairs.
I grabbed my phone and called Alice as I was getting my toast in the toaster. She answered on the second ring.
"Hello Bella. How are things over there?" She sounded happy as always. I couldn't help but smile.
"Everything is good actually. I just wanted to know if you wanted to go out for some coffee in a few minutes." I could hear something on the other end of the line. I didn't know what it was.
"Oh, actually I'm kind of busy right now. Maybe tomorrow?" I couldn't help but feel disappointed. I didn't know what I was going to tell Edward. Maybe I should tell him I'm going anyways and just go for a walk or something.
Elizabeth walked in and me and Alice said bye and hung up. "So what are your plans today?" She came over and grabbed a cup for coffee.
"I was just planning on going to breakfast will my friend Alice. Then I'm not really sure after that. Why?" She just nodded and poured her coffee and I ate my piece of toast. I didn't want to eat two so I threw the other one away.
"Well Edward was planning on showing me around town. It will be a lot of walking so I didn't know if you were going to be going or not." I didn't know if that was her way of inviting me or telling me I shouldn't go. I didn't want to intrude on there plans so I decided to just let it go.
"Well I'm sure I can find something to do then." I started to walk upstairs and go to my room but I bumped into Edward.
"Hey." He smiled at me. Why was he so happy?
"Hey. So I'm just going to get dressed and go out to eat." I tried to walk around him but he stopped me.
"Are you sure you don't want to eat with us? You didn't eat dinner last night. I'm sure you are very hungry." He didn't seem like he was mad or anything.
"Yeah I'm sure. I just called Alice and we settled on a place already you don't need to worry about me." I smiled up at him and he gave me a small smile then went downstairs.
I grabbed a few clothes and then went to go shower. Once I was all clean and ready I headed out the door before anybody could stop me.
I was in town near a park. It was really cold outside and I was glad I brought a coat along with me.
I was ready to get inside but I wasn't ready to go home. I was thinking about my dad. I haven't really talked to him in a while. Maybe I should tell him. It was only fair for him.
I grabbed my phone and dialed his number. "Hello?" I instantly knew who it was.
"Hey. Jacob is that you?" Me and him used to be great friends.
"Yeah. Bells? Is that you?" I could hear the smile in his voice.
"Yeah it is. I was actually calling for Charlie. I need to speak to him." I heard voices on the other end then I heard Charlie's voice.
"Hey dad its me Bella. I was wondering if maybe I could come over. I have some important news to tell you." I was starting to get really nervous. Would he be mad at me? Well of course he was going to be mad at me. I waited 5 months to tell him.
"Um, yeah sure Bells. Your welcome anytime you want." I could tell he sounded nervous as to what my news was also.
We said goodbye and then I was in my truck as fast as I could be. The whole ride there I was trying to think about what I was going to say to him once I got there. With my heavy coat you could hardly tell I was pregnant. So I would just wear this coat until I told him.
One I reached forks I could feel myself trembling. I should have told him sooner. I knew that. I was just really scared. I didn't know what to think. It was around 5 when I got to his house. I could see Jacob and Billy were still here. Maybe I could tell them with my dad. So I wouldn't have to do this twice with my dad and then Jacob.
I knocked on the door and I heard somebody walking over. The door opened and I saw a big muscular guy in front of me. I knew it was Jacob because his face but he had changed a lot. He smiled down at me and I felt him pick me up and I got instantly scared.
"Jacob put me down!" I could feel my belly hitting him but I couldn't tell if he noticed or not. He put me down.
"Long time no see Bella. What kept you away?" He winked at me. I always hated that he showed interest in me when I couldn't feel the same. It made things uncomfortable.
"Yeah I know. I don't know why. I need to talk to you guys though. Would you mind sitting down?" He walked in the house and I was right behind him.
We were all sitting in the living room with the TV off and waiting for me to say something.
"I… I know this will be a shock to you all. Um… oh my god." I didn't know what to say. I could see Charlie's face redden really quickly.
"Jesus Christ Bella! Tell me you are not pregnant!" I could hear the anger in his voice. Jacob looked at me and I could see the hurt in his eyes.
"Dad I'm so sorry. I never meant for this to happen. I was going to wait until marriage like you said but things got out of hand and I'm sorry." Jacob stood up and I could tell he was really pissed off. He grabbed something and chucked it across the room.
"Jacob calm down." I could hear his father tell him. I didn't know what to do. I started to cry but then I felt my phone ring. I grabbed it out of my coat pocket and saw it was Edward. I didn't want to answer it because I knew he was going to be mad. I didn't tell him where I was going and it was almost 6 and I wasn't home. I let it go to voicemail.
"Who was that?" My dad asked. I could tell he was calmer than before.
"It was Edward. Um… the baby's dad. My boyfriend I guess you could say." I looked over at Jacob and he was still standing. I honestly was really scared of what he was going to do.
"You're a slut! How could you just go and fuck some guy and get pregnant when he wasn't even your boyfriend?" I could feel myself get more hurt and I cried harder. I got up and ran straight to my truck and got in. I was going home.
My eyes were blurry and I was driving too fast. I grabbed my phone and listened to the voicemail that Edward left me.
"Bella where the hell are you? Well I know your not with Alice! I called her! Why would you lie to me Bella! Its 6 o'clock and your not home! Imagine what my mother thinks of you now! Just get home and we will talk about this later. Bye!" I couldn't help but feel like everybody was mad at me. I dialed Edward's number.
"Oh Bella. Nice of you to call me." He sounded sarcastic.
"Edward." I started sobbing into the phone.
"Bella! Are you okay? What's wrong?" Right as I heard that I heard a loud honk and then everything went black.