Alice POV
I was externally grateful for what Esme and Carlisle always did for me. They gave me food, clothes, a life. But at this moment I was waiting for Bella to finish with Lucas , so we could all get past this and just act normal. Jasper was here, I love him , I think, but he could never love a worthless piece of crap like me so I kept it to myself. I went into the living room where everybody was except for Bella and Edward who were still giving Lucas a bath and better clothes. I wanted to make my appreciations known." Esme and Carlisle, and the rest of you I want to thank you for letting my brother and I stay here, and thank you for feeding us, clothing us, and for housing us" I paused not knowing how to continue my speech but then it hit me " I Love You guys" With that everybody gave me a big hug first Carlisle , then the rest of the Cullen's , Bella and Edward had joined us again and I took Lucas in my arms. Rosalie gave me a big hug and told me she would do anything for me I said thanks. I then turn to Jasper who was only inches from me and he embraced me in the biggest hug I had gotten in my whole life and gently kissed my cheek I love him so.
Jasper POV
I went when it was my turn to hug Alice , but when she turned to me I didn't know what to do, so I embraced her like Emmett might have. I wanted to say something loving as Rosalie had done but instead I kissed her on her cheek maybe now she would now realize how I felt about her but she just smiled and went to sit on the couch next to Bella, They were playing with Lucas. He was such a cute little baby and he had all of Alice's feature expect for his lips I don't know were those came from. My guess there shit-head dad. God I just wanted to hurt him, the way he had hurt Alice. Hurt the love of my life
Nobody POV
" Alice , do you need a shower" Esme had asked Alice, Alice replied " no that's alright I took one after.. Um.. Last night. " she then was lost in thought . We all knew what she was thinking about , Rosalie was the first to say something " Alice , your going to be staying with us for a while so let me and Bella treat you to some clothes." Alice looked shocked and replied " I cant take your guy's money, I wont" Bella then spoke up " Alice haven't you always wanted to take me Shopping , now's your chance" Alice sighed.
Alice POV
"fine" I giggled as Rosalie and Bella bounced up and went over to Carlisle. I assume they were asking for money but as much as I didn't like spending their money I didn't say anything Lucas and I were in big need for more clothes. Bella spoke " Alice I have to go get changed I'm still wet from Lucas me and Rose will be down in a second " she and Rose ran up the stairs. I stood up awkwardly and took Lucas from Edward . " Thanks you guy's so much I'm going to go put Lucas in the car." I said walking towards the door" Jasper stood up and walked toward me and said "here let me help you" so he opened the door for me and helped me walk to Rosalie's Porsche., " I feel so out of place near this car , ya' know" I said to Jasper as I was putting Lucas into the built in car-set Emmett had installed after my first stay with them. " you shouldn't it's not your fault that.." he stopped himself I'm glad he did I wasn't ready to talk about my dad it was way to painful. "Jasper, it's not because of … him… it's because im not as fortunate as them that's all" I said trying to change the subject, but only to let the conversation end up on a subject that wasn't any more helping. " well you are now , you have all of us, you never have to leave here you know" Jasper said I shut the door to Lucas so we could talk in private Lucas was always interrupting us. I love that little boy. " your not the Cullen's, Jasper" he stepped closer to me " no, but Esme and Carlisle wouldn't mind if you stayed " I sighed Jasper wasn't going to give up. He was so close to me , so close I wanted to hug him. I guess it wouldn't be inappropriate in this situation seeing , as he was the one trying to get me to move in.
Jasper POV
I was trying to get her to stay with the Cullen's and then also I could see her more. That would be great. She was leaning closer to me I got the feeling she wanted a hug so I gave her one. Putting my head on top of hers. She was wearing a pear of Rosalie's high heals it let her reach to my shoulders. Although she was a lot shorter than me we were only a year apart in age. I laid sweet kisses upon her hair. I wanted to kiss her lips but that would be wrong. She had just been beaten the night before, and she didn't feel the way for me as I felt for her. She rested her head on my chest. " You are the best friend a girl could have Jasper" she said " Alice, I love you" She didn't say anything just looked up at me.
Alice POV
I looked up at him with a blank face. " only like the others right like a brotherly love" I said trying to make sense of anything. He said " no Alice, not brotherly love ,like…" he was cut off bye Rosalie trying to get me in the car I was pushed in the back seat I rolled down the window to let Jasper finish the sentence but he just asked me " Can we talk when you get Back" I nodded " of course" and the car pulled away from him . I turned and watched as we got farther and farther away from each other. I decided I needed to tell Rosalie and Bella what Jasper had just partially told me.
" You guys I'm confused about something" I said messing with Lucas's hair. "what are you confused about" Bella asked from the front passenger seat. " when Jasper was talking to me before you guys came out, he told be that he loved me" Rosalie replied " We all said we loved you" I had a 'duh' look on my face " I know that's why I said to him only like the others right like a brotherly love, and he began saying no Alice, not brotherly love ,like and that's when you guys came out" he asked me if we could talk later but I don't know what I'm going to say." Rosalie " Yay, your going to be my sister in law" Bella hit Rosalie's arm " do you feel the same way about him" I paused and just thought about it of course I liked him, a lot but how could he like me, I'm just a worthless girl who cant defend herself. Bella gasped along with Rosalie "Alice you are not, worthless " Rosalie said , I had just said that last part out loud. "yes I am, and you guys weren't meant to her that so lets just go shopping". Bella and Rosalie exchanged looks at got out of the car , I pulled Lucas out of his car-seat and found a cart for him to sit in, we were quiet most the time. Except when Rosalie found this really beautiful green emerald dress. There was a long one that went to my knees when I tried it on and then there was a shorter one that was a little above my knee's . I had originally decided to get the longer one but Rosalie insisted that I had to get both so I did. We got done shopping and we went back to the Cullen's I walked in with Lucas on my hip. Jasper immediately stood up and looked at me, I nodded in understandment . Emmett asked if he could hold Lucas who had just fallen asleep so I gave Lucas and followed Jasper upstairs into his bedroom ( the guest bedroom, he always stayed in when he was over). He turned to look at me , it was incredibly awkward.
Jasper POV
I thought she looked beautiful nervous but could I tell her that. No. but tonight I was going to tell her my feelings about her . "Alice, do you remember what I told you earlier " I asked her she nodded . Great she didn't talk .But then she spoke up. " I've been thinking about it ever since we left." I nodded " and what do you think" She looked down and then looked back at me " how could you..love…me, I'm worthless, how could someone ever love me " she was looking all over the room now, avoiding my face " I'm ugly, pathetic, my dad says I'm a no good whore, though I've never done it before.," she just kept rambling about how her dad made her believe that she was all these things that she was no where near being . I had to find a way to calm her down, she was working up tears. So I took her in my arms, she thought I was only going to hug her but it went a little differently.
Alice POV
I was going on about what my dad had told me I was, and how nobody was aloud to love, why would they want to anyway, Jasper took me in his arms. But instead of embracing me he bent down and kissed me with such passion I was lifted off the floor the only thing holding me to the earth was him. I had always dreamed of Jasper kissing me . It felt better than I imagined. He was still holding me up when he broke from the kiss. " Jasper.." I stuttered " why…did you… how could…" I couldn't make sense of anything why did Jasper love me. How could after I told him all those things about me.
Nobody POV
" Alice I love you so much please tell me you love me too or that you'll at least give me a chance to be with you " Jasper said still holding Alice in the air gazing into her eyes. " how can you love me Jasper? I'm no good, you deserve some one better, prettier, smarter."