Trainwreck Chapter 4: Feeling Alive, a twilight fanfic

When the music lesson was over, Edward and I made our way towards the parking lot. He had kindly reminded me to make a call for Renee to come over, since Alice was thinking about it, and I complied. Renee was surprised but said that she would be coming over soon.

Just then, Alice came running from nowhere and began squealing in my ears, causing me to wince.

"Bella, you have such an amazing voice, we should totally have a singing fest sometimes! And can we go shopping tomorrow? It is going to be sunny! And you should invite Renee to our house; Esme and Carlisle are already there! How about that, can you –"

After trying in vain to shut her up, I ended up silencing her using my ability. As the energetic pixie continued to open and close her mouth, it took a while for her to realize that she is not able to make any voice. At that, she glared at me.

I smiled sweetly, "Sorry Alice, but you left me with no choice. I don't know what the questions you asked were, but there should be no harm done in saying yes, right?"

However, all the Cullen boys, including Edward, groaned and shot me an exasperated glance. I was bewildered, what was wrong with that? Silently, I replayed what Alice had said and gasped in horror at what I had agreed to. Singing fest? Shopping?! I am doomed. With a wicked grin, Alice pointed at her mouth, willing me to let her speak, to which I grudgingly allowed.

"No breaking promises!" As soon as the charm is removed, she chuckled and raced over to Rosalie in her M3.

Snarling in frustration, I made my way to my flashy car and got in. Just as I was about to start the car, I realized that Edward, Jasper and Emmett were all in the car.
"What – what are you doing here?"

Edward explained in his mesmerizing voice that he had offered to show me the way to their house and his two "irritating" brothers had tagged along. I ginned mischievously and murmured one sentence before shooting down the road.

"Hold on tight, then!"

When we finally reached the Cullens white mansion, I must admit that I was impressed. Obviously like Carlisle had claimed, his mate, Esme, had talent in exterior and interior designing, just like Renee. However, it can be seen that she has a more gentle and loving side than Renee, who often goes for a more wild or fashionable design occasionally.

But this house, it is like home. Of course, our new house is also homely, but it has been a long time since anyone had lived there, so there is no doubt that it is slightly...empty.

Pushing my thoughts out of the way, I followed the Cullen teens into the house and was delighted to find an older couple smiling brightly at us, with the male looking so familiar.

"Bella? I hadn't imagined seeing you here!"

The golden-haired vampire pulled me into a hug and spun me around, while I laughed hysterically.

"I had not, either. And look at your coven, it has grown! I don't believe I would know any new members, including Esme. The last time I saw you, you were compassionate but hating the world!" I could not help but tease him.

Being the good-natured man he is, he chuckled and introduced me to Esme, who smiled at me and pulled me into a gentle hug.

"It is no wonder you two are a pair. It fits! And I am so sorry that I had not been able to make it to any of yours or your children's weddings, I was slightly..."

Carlisle grinned and continued, "Rejecting? Or should I say touchy?"

I smiled and nodded sheepishly, right before Rosalie cut in, "Wait, you invited her to all our weddings? And you met her before? You never told us about any Bella or Renee?!"

The coven leader looked slightly unnerved and looked for me for permission to explain, I nodded. But I noticed that our exchanged did not go unnoticed by his family, who all narrowed their eyes.

"I'm afraid that Bella has more history of her own and hold much power over me. But shall we discuss it when Renee had arrived?"

Everyone else nodded.

After ten minutes of awkward staring and silent conversing, the purr of engine outside signalled for my mother's arrival.

Being who she is, the tactless woman came running into the house and nearly knocked Carlisle over.

"Oh my gosh! Hi Carly, you look as handsome and charming as ever! I had missed you!"

I cleared my throat and she awkwardly let go of the blushing Cullen leader.

"Renee, do control your behaviour, please!" I issued her a silent order and she promptly nodded and smiled.

"I am really sorry for my outburst, but I am just so elated, it has been centuries since we last met!" she gushed.

Seeing that Renee is here, Carlisle beckoned for everyone to take a seat in the living room, and Edward decided to share a sofa with me. Renee did not let me go and gave me a conspiratorial wink, to which I presented her a withering glare.

Taking in a deep breath, I started.

"The first time I met Carlisle, it was in 1816, and I was not new to the vampire world then. We met at France, where Renee and I had spent around eight hundred years at."

I closed my eyes as every Cullen, except for Carlisle, gasped in shock.

Emmett spoke first, "How old are you?!"

My eyelids fluttered open, "I am 948 years old, and Renee is only 17 years older than me. Under abnormal circumstances, she gave birth to me and was changed immediately after that. She took me away and left, controlling her burning thirst so that she would not hurt her own blood. But the shocking thing was, somehow I had helped her control her thirst, and she started feeding on animal blood, all the while, caring for me as much as she can."

"When I reached seventeen, I had known what Renee was, and requested for her to change me. However, I did not feel the burning and it did not take two days for me to become a newborn. The minute I was bitten, a sense of déjà vu took over me and within an hour, I became a vampire. But that was not the end. My eyes had never turned red in all these years, and it was not until a month before I felt any thirst. Like Renee, I decided to hunt for animals and that was the day that I discovered my abilities."

Noticing the plural, every Cullen, this time including Carlisle, froze.

"Abilities? Does that include you shielding against me?" Edward asked.

I nodded.

"And how you silenced me and also stopped me from seeing your arrival?"

I nodded again.

"And how you knew about our abilities?"

I nodded for the last time and added, "And also how I had peered into Ms Cole's mind to see who are you and whether you are vampires or not."

Suddenly, Edward spoke up once again, "And when I saw you yesterday, how you hunt the lion without hurting it?"

There was another collective intake of air.

"Yes. It took me a while before I realized this and Renee and I decided to tour the world, searching for vampires all over the world, avoiding Italy, so as to test my theory."

It was then that Renee finally chose to take over, much to my relief.

"She realized that as soon as she came near vampires with special abilities, she would automatically display abilities that were similar to that ONE ability. Hence, she had more ability than she could imagine."

Alice spoke up this time, "Which means, her abilities are infinite? And unpredictable and incredibly vast?"

"Yes"

Since we first met, Esme opened her mouth, "Then why haven't the Volturi recruited you yet, didn't Carlisle told us that they love searching for vampires with incredible abilities?"

"Because, among all her abilities, Bella has both defensive and offensive powers, which means that she had successfully avoided the Volturi all this years."

"Renee and I have an unspeakable grudge against the royal family, and we are not ready to tell you about it yet. It is just too...deep for us." I tried to stop the sadness from engulfing me, but failed miserably.

Seeing this, Alice came up and gave me a choking hug, but still making me feel much better.

"Well, now that you have explained to us, how about we have a singing fest?!"

Everyone groaned except for Renee and Rosalie, who both ginned and nodded. Sighing, the rest of us had no choice but to accept. Once everything (the microphone, the drums, the guitars and piano) were ready, Alice volunteered to go first.

"I shall sing...Nobody's Perfect!" She shrilled, causing me to wince again.

Edward leaned in and whispered to me, "And that song definitely suits her..."

I sniggered as Alice started singing:

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Everybody makes mistakes
Everybody has those days
one, two, three, four
Everybody makes mistakes
Everybody has those days (ah yeah)
Everybody knows what
What I'm talking' bout (that's right)
Everybody gets that way
Everybody makes mistakes
Everybody has those days (uh huh)
Everybody knows what
What I'm talking 'bout
Everybody gets that way
Yeah!

Sometimes I'm in a jam
I gotta make a plan
It might be crazy I do it anyway
No way to know for sure
I'll figure out a cure
I'm patching up the holes
But then it over flows
If I'm not doing too well
Why be so hard on myself

Nobody's perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again till I get it right
Nobody's perfect
You live and you learn it
And if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's perfect

Sometimes I work a scheme
But then it flips on me
Doesn't turn out how I planned
Get stuck in quicksand
Well no problem can't be solved
Once I get involved
I try to be delicate
Then crash right into it
But my intentions are good (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Sometimes just misunderstood

Nobody's perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again till I get it right (that's right!)
Nobody's perfect (whoo!)
You live and you learn it
and if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's perfect
I gotta work it (come on!)
I know next time I'll find a way (oh!)
Nobody's perfect

Sometimes I fix things up
And they fall apart again
Nobody's perfect
I might mix things up
But I always get it right in the end
(you know I do)

Next time you feel like
It's just one of those days
When you just can't seem to win
If things don't turn out the way you plan
Figure something else out
Don't stay down try again

(yeah!)
Everybody makes mistakes
everybody has those days (that's right)
everybody knows what
what I'm talking bout everybody gets that way (whoo!)
Everybody makes mistakes
everybody has those days
everybody knows what
what I'm talking about everybody gets that way

Nobody's perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again till I get it right
Nobody's perfect
You live and you learn it
And if I mess it up sometimes
Nobody's perfect
I gotta work it
I know next time I'll find a way
Nobody's perfect
You live and you learn it
Cause everybody makes mistakes
Nobody's perfect

Nobody's
Perfect
No, no
Nobody's perfect

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Everyone cheered as she finished and she took a bow. She pushed Jasper forward and gave him the mike; the southern boy threw us a frustrated look before selecting the song "21 Guns":

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Do you know what's worth fighting for
when it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
and you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
you and I

did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

when it's time to live and let die
and you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
you're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
you and I

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"I'm next!" Emmett was like an excited kid waiting for his turn to buy candies and immediately ran up next. Looking at Rosalie significantly, he chose the song "Just the girl" by Click Five.

All of us chuckled at the meaning behind the words.

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She's cool and she's cruel but she knows what she's doing.
She pushed me in the pool at our last school reunion.
She laughs at my dreams but I dream about her laughter.
Strange as it seems she's the one I'm after.

Cause she's bittersweet,
she knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for

She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on one hundred proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do
I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet,
she knocks me off of my feet
and I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
she's a mystery
she's too much for me
but I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for

the way she sees it's me
on her caller I.D.
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Still ringing in my head
Still ringing in my head

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doing'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined

Just the girl I'm looking for
I'm looking for
I'm looking for
I'm looking for
Just the girl I'm looking for

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It was Rosalie's turn next and she strutted forward and selected the song "Circus", which was totally expected of her.

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There's only two types of people in the world
The ones that entertain, and the ones that observe
Well baby, I'm a put on a show kind of girl
Don't like the back seat, gotta be first

I'm like the ring leader, I call the shots
I'm like a firecracker, I make it hot
When I put on a show

I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
Spotlight on me and I'm ready to break
I'm like a performer, the dance floor is my stage
Better be ready, hope that you feel the same

All eyes on me in the centre of the ring,
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip, everybody gonna trip,
Just like a circus
Don't stand there watching me, follow me,
Show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dance floor,
Just like a circus

There's only two types of guys out there
Ones that can hang with me, and ones that are scared
So baby, I hope that you came prepared
I run a tight ship, so beware

I'm like the ring leader, I call the shots
I'm like a firecracker, I make it hot
When I put on a show

I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
Spotlight on me and I'm ready to break
I'm like a performer, the dance floor is my stage
Better be ready, hope that you feel the same

Let's go
A-a-aha
Let me see what you can do
A-a-aha
I'm running' this
Like, like, like like a circus
Yeah
Like a what?
Like, like, like a circus

All eyes on me in the centre of a ring,
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip, everybody gonna trip,
Just like a circus
Don't stand there watching me, follow me,
Show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dance floor,
Just like a circus

"Hey Renee, how about you? Why don't you take a chance?"

Renee was slightly hesitant at first, but after much persuasion, she nodded, but wanted me to play the special song I wrote while she sang it.

I hid the shock from my face as it was the first time she wanted to sing it in all these years.

Wordlessly, I walked over and picked up my guitar and started playing.

You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from Heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still she'd a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go, and I need you to know
I miss you, sha-la la la la, I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm livin' out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

I miss you, I miss your smile
[ Miley Cyrus Lyrics are found on .com ]
And I still she'd a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go, and I need you to know
I miss you, sha-la la la la, I miss you

I know you're in a better place, (yeah)
But I wish that I could see your face (oh)
I know you are where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

When the song was over, I walked over to Renee and wiped away the lone tears that slide down her cheek.

"Mum, get over it. I am sure that it would be the best."

Picking up my guitar once more, I started singing as the song formed in my head...

Slipping down a slide
I did enjoy the ride
Don't know what to decide
You lied to me
You looked me in the eye
It took me by surprise
Now are you gratified
You cried to me

La, la, la, la, la

Don't turn around
I'm sick and I'm tired of your face
Don't make this worse
You've already gone and got me mad
It's too bad I'm not sad
It's casting over
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it

When I was feeling down
You'd start to hang around
And then I found your hands all over me
And that was out of bounds
You filthy rotten hound
It's better than it sounds, believe me

La, la, la, la, la

Don't turn around
I'm sick and I'm tired of your face
Don't make this worse
[ Avril Lavigne Lyrics are found on .com ]
You've already gone and got me mad
It's too bad I'm not sad
It's casting over
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it

Hey, you gotta get over it
Hey, you gotta get over it

It's too bad I'm not sad
It's casting over
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it

Don't turn around
I'm sick and I'm tired of your face
Don't make this worse
You've already gone and got me mad

You'll have to get over it

As I put the guitar aside, Alice was pulling Edward in front and did not let him choose his own song. The mike was jammed into his reluctant hands as he start to sing. With his angelic, perfect voice...

To kiss and tell
It's just not my style.
But the night is young,
And it's been a while.
And she broke my heart,
Broke it right in two.
And it's fixing time,
But I'm feeling like I'm finally ready to
Find, find somebody new.
I wanna kiss a girl,
I wanna hold her tight,
And maybe make a little magic in the moonlight.
Don't wanna go too far
Just to take it slow,
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big ol' world.
I wanna kiss a girl.

It's that moment when
You start closing in.
First you're holding back,
Then surrendering.
It can start a fire,
Light up the sky.
Such a simple thing,
Do you wanna try?
Are you ready to
Say goodbye
To all these blues?
I wanna kiss a girl,
I wanna hold her tight,
And maybe make a little magic in the moonlight.
Don't wanna go too far
Just to take it slow,
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big ol' world.
I wanna kiss a girl.

'Cause, baby, tonight
It could turn into the rest of our lives.
[ Keith Urban Lyrics are found on .com ]
Oh yeah.
Are you ready?
(Are you ready?)
Are you ready
(Are you ready)
To cross that yellow line?
Put your lips on mine.
Put your lips on mine, baby.

Do you wanna try?
Are you ready to
Say goodbye
To all these blues?

I wanna kiss a girl,
I wanna hold her tight,
And maybe make a little magic, baby.
Don't wanna go too far
Just to take it slow,
I don't want to be lonely,
I shouldn't be lonely.
I wanna kiss a girl,
I wanna hold her tight,
And maybe make a little magic in the moonlight.
Don't wanna go too far
Just to take it slow,
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big ol' world.
I wanna kiss a girl.

I said I wanna kiss a girl.
Whoa-ho whoa-ho
I wanna kiss a girl.
I wanna hold her tight,
I wanna make a little magic
Out under the moonlight.

Oooh I wanna kiss a girl.

Amid the love and joy surrounding the house, for the first time in nine centuries, an unknown feeling took over me.

I felt alive...

Hi, I really do hope this chapter is okay! :D Enjoy! :D