Elena woke up early, too excited for her own good. She immediatly checked her telephone, and a bright smile appeared on her face when she found a text from Damon. He told her to meet him at his apartment in an hour, and he had wrote her his address. She rosed up from the bed without thinking twice, and ran to the bathroom sing-songing. This is going to be a beautiful day, she thought. She couldn't wait to see and touch him all over again, claim him as hers, and telling him how much she missed him.

She was ready in thirty minutes and now here she was in front of Damon's door. It sure was an amazing loft. It was on the last floor of the building and it seemed to be pretty huge. Elena took a deep breath, and even though her heart was beating like a jungle drum, she rang the doorbell.

He opened after five seconds, and she didn't even let him say a word because the next thing she knew was that her lips had to meet his now. She put her hands around his neck and closed the door behind her with her heel. At first he kissed her back passionately, but like somehow realizing something, he gently pulled back. Elena was still smiling, but when she saw his face her smile dropped immediatly. He was pale, and he seemed to be very tired, like he didn't sleep at all. Worry and anxiety took the best of her. What was going on?

"Damon are you okay?" she asked concerned, looking at him in the eyes. He hesitated for a moment but then managed a soft smile – though it seemed more sad than soft. "Why don't you have a seat." he demanded calmly, pointing his chin towards the couch behind them. His expression was full of regret and confusion, and once again Elena had no idea of what could possibly have happened in one night. She took a sit on the couch and he sat next to her. She gave him a questioning look and he sighed, taking her hand in his, ready to talk. "I have something important to tell you. Though, before I have to tell you something that is very important for me as well. Elena..last night, I will never regret last night. God, last night just made me realize how happy I am with you. I shouldn't have let you go one year ago, and I've realized this too late. I've been selfish with you, asking you to move with me when you still had to complete your studies and you had your friends and your family in there. The truth is that it's me the one who wanted to walk away; away from my father, from that bitch of his wife, and the hatred that I felt for that place. But the one thing I've always been sure about in my entire life it's you, Elena. I didn't want and shouldn't have walked away from you. It's for that reason that I wanted to keep you with me, because I would have left that place behind me, but how could I possibly wanted to leave you behind? And even if I indeed did, I always had you here. Here is where I know that I took you with me, and even if I don't deserve you, you deserved to know." He said, gently placing her hand on his heart, and giving her a pained smile. "Damon.." was all Elena was capable of whisper after his speech. But the worst was yet to come, right? He squeezed her hand and kept talking, and she could see how frustrated he looked. "What I'm about to say is definitely going to change things, but it won't change the way I feel about you. Please, remember this Elena, this is all I'm asking for." he now said even more disperate. Elena wanted to talk, really, she wanted to tell him how she felt the same and how he had always been in her heart too, but something told her that he had another thing very important to tell her and that she should probably be quiet for the moment. She gave him an encouraging smile and held his hand tighter. "I..Rose…" he began, and then he huffed in frustration, passing a hand trough his hair. "She's pregnant." He finally spat out, now looking everywhere but Elena, knowing that he didn't have the courage to look her shockness, her pain and her disappointment. She let hold of his hand, and when he looked at her she just looked frozen. She was numb, it was like a hundred punches had been placed in her stomach, disbelief and pain were all that could describe her expression right now. "Oh my god. Of how long?" she whispered. "Five weeks." he said distant. Elena knew that usually you should jump in excitement and joy when someone announced a pregnancy, but she just couldn't, she hated this. It was like the universe was against her once again. It was supposed to be her, not Rose. She felt jealousy and hatred passing through her veins – knowing that from now on Rose would always be a part of Damon's life, along with their children. She couldn't help the watery eyes and the desperate tears that began to stream down her face. She took her face in her hands and began to cry silently, ashamed of making him see that she was angry because he was going to be a father. Suddenly strong arms were around her, holding her softly. "I'm sorry, I should be happy for you, I should congratulate right now but I just can't Damon. I'm sorry." She said between sobs, and he held her tighter. "It's okay Elena..I didn't wish for this too. Believe me." He said, caressing her back and kissing her hair. "Please stop crying." He said, worried that his voice could broke too at any moment. He was dying inside too. He would have taken care of his child obviously, it was his after all, but it was fair to say that he didn't wish for this. To happen like this, and with Rose. And especially not now that Elena was back in his life and he didn't want to lose her again for dear life. "I'm sorry Elena. I'm sorry that I'm not the man in which you believed..I've failed you on so many levels." He confessed pulling her closer to his chest now that she had calmed down a little. "It's just not fair, you know." She said, her voice breaking again. "I know." He whispered softly and closed his eyes, relaxing in their embrace.

She rosed from the couch and took distance between their bodies, knowing that if she didn't walk away now, she would never be able to again. They both felt the loss of the touch the moment they pulled apart from each other, and they both had that apologetic and pained expression in their faces..and it was one of their moments. One of the moments where they could read into each other's souls and understand what the other was thinking.

He rosed too and went in front of her, putting her hair behind her ears. "You're beautiful." He said smiling, whiping away the tears that escaped from her eyes when she smiled. "Elena, I don't want to lose you again. I can't lose you again. We can make this work, if you're willing to give this a chance." He now said serious. She smiled at him sadly. "I don't want to lose you either..but Damon, how could this possibly work? You and I together while Rose has to go through the pregnancy without a companion? And when the baby borns, that poor thing has to do a week-end and a week-end already without even being a month old? He has to see his parents constantly fighting? I can't even do this, Damon. I know how these things work and I don't want to be the reason why you can't see your son everyday, or eventually have to choose between your child and me in some situations. If things with Rose one day won't work anymore and for good, fine. But I will know that it's not been because of me, it just isn't fair. I'm so sorry." Elena said, doing everything in her power to seem strong and convinced. "But I love you." He just said hopeless, with that vulnerable look on his face that she loved so much. It was so beautiful to hear those words again, and she couldn't help but smile at him. "I love you too. But I have to let go. We have to let go." She said firmly, taking his hand in hers. She saw a tear rolling down his cheek and her heart squeezed in pain. All she wanted to do was holding him and never let go, but she had to. "You will always be here too." She said, placing his hand on her frantic heart. "Be happy Damon." She said, kissing his hand and running away.

Three weeks later:

Elena had just came back from work and she was exhausted. All she wanted to do right now was eat something, take a relaxing thub and go straight to bed, but she couldn't…Rachel had left one week before for a work trip, and she had to stay away for at least another week. Elena was sad that her only friend was now gone for a while, but at the same time she didn't plan on telling her anything about what happened between her and Damon, so not seeing her for a while could have helped. Rachel had known about Rose's pregnancy when about three days after she saw Damon for the last time, Rose started packing and moving in with him. Gee, any more faster, Elena thought.

After saying her congratulations to her, though, Rachel comforted Elena and told her how sorry he was. She was friend with both of them so even if she was happy for Rose, she knew how Elena was hurt because of this.

She didn't hear anything from Damon and she was glad of it. She could as well pretend that he didn't exist, it was a lot easier. Two weeks ago actually, she had met a guy, Sam, at the campus. He was a nice lad and seemed to be a good person. He was three years older than her and they were getting along very well. He asked her for their third date tonight, and she was happy that once again she could distract herself for some time. The first time that they went out they just talked, sharing passions and thoughts, and talking for hours. On their second date he brought her at one of his favorite places, and even though Sam seemed to be a really cool guy, not to mention that he was extremely hot, she could only see him as a friend so far. When he tried to kiss her at the end of their night, Elena quickly moved her face to the side so he could kiss her on the cheek. He seemed disappointed, but understood. She was now willing to give this thing another chance – but she already knew that it was hardly going to work. She didn't feel more than physical attraction, while he seemed to be into her already. Elena decided that tonight she would have decided if call things off with him or not. She took a quick shower, put some make-up on and put a casual but nice mise on, waiting for him to come. Five minutes later the doorbell rang.

"Hey Sam." she said with a smile on her face when he entered with two boxes of pizza in his hands. He gave her a quick and sure unexpected light kiss on the lips and entered. "So this is your place, uhm?" he asked looking around. "Yeah. We're two in here at the moment, me and another girl." she replied, taking the pizzas from his hands and placing them on the table. "Make yourself at home." she said politely, making him seat down. "Shall we? I'm literally starving!" she joked once they sat down. They ate their pizzas and the dessert that Elena bought before coming back home, and laughed and talked until they decided to watch a movie. Sam brought it, and it seemed pretty boring so far. If she didn't know better, she could have sworn that he picked a bad movie on purpose to make his way to her. "Mmh..you smell divine." He said, snuggling his nose into the crock of her neck. She tried to avoid him for a while, but then eventually gave up. As she predicted, nor a firework or a shiver passed through her body when their lips met.

Somehow the kiss deepened, and they were now making out on her couch. Too bad that all Elena could think of was some black raven hair guy touching her and kissing her. Elena needed and wanted to stop – but since she was pretending that Sam was Damon she found herself wanting more. Truth be told she was even horny as hell, since it was more than a year that she hadn't had real physical contact with a man, and her right hand was becoming pretty tired of making all the work. Sam put her top up kissing her all over her chest, and Elena pressed her thighs together to make him understand what she really wanted. The idea of Sam being Damon was now official, and she had to do anything in her power not to moan Damon's name. In a few seconds her jeans were on the floor – and she could only feel Sam's touch, because she sure as hell wasn't going to open her eyes and end her fantasy. When Sam teased her wetness with his finger through the material of her panties, and then started to tease her with his tongue, Elena couldn't help it. "Damon!" she moaned loudly. The sensation was soon over when she felt Sam quickly rosing up. She had her eyes wide open in a second when she realized what had just happened. She was on the verge of being fucked by some guy that she didn't even like, and she moaned Damon's name during it! "I beg your pardon?" Sam asked, quite pissed off. "Oh. Uhm. I'm sorry Sam..it's just that I'm still not completely over my ex." she said biting her bottom lip in embarassment. She heard him huffing in frustration. "Yeah, whatever. I have to go." he said, picking up his stuff. "Look I'm sorry." she repeated again, really not knowing what to say, crossing her arms over her chest.

"You're sorry? What the hell am I going to do about this?" he said pointing at his hardness. Elena had to bit her lip not to laugh..this situaton was somehow amusing. "I don't know." she said sincerely. He rolled his eyes and in a moment was out of the door. She couldn't help her laugh when he got out. God, how messed up and pathetic she was. She went to the kitchen and took the champagne that Rachel bought some weeks ago, she needed to get drunk. Now.

Two days later:

In the past two days Elena had pratically become a pig. She didn't get out of the house since her awkward and horrible date with Sam. She had the week off and she was completely and sadly alone; and all she had been doing was eating, watching movies, eating, sleeping, sometimes working on her assignments, eating. She was honestly surprised of her behavior, since she didn't usually act like this at all. When she heard the doorbell rang she rolled her eyes and wondered who the hell could possibly be at 2.00 am on Monday. Whoever it was kept ringing and ringing, so she rosed up and went to open it.

"Damon? What are you doing here?" she asked when she opened the door. He was drunk, she immediatly noticed. He could barely stand up, his clothes were a mess and he had a half finished bottle of beer in the hand. He entered without saying a word and just buried his face on her shoulder, clearly exhausted. "Easy." Elena said while closing the door and placing him on the couch. "What is it? And how much have you been drinking?" she asked, taking the bottle of beer from his hands. He just shrugged. "I can't stop thinking about you, so I thought that maybe if I got drunk I could have took you out of my mind…but here I am." he said in a husky voice. Elena sighed, and even if he was the last person she wanted to see and deal with right now, she couldn't kick him out of the house. "What about Rose? She's probably worried about you right now." Elena said crossing her arms. He let out a hard laugh and shook his head. "I don't give a fuck about what she thinks. And anyway she is in London right now, she's staying with her parents for a week or something." He shrugged again and flopped on the couch. "Can I stay here for the night? I'm sleeping on the couch.." he asked. "You're not sleeping on the couch, I am. Come on I'll take you to bed." she said. "Why don't you sleep in the bed too? It's not like we haven't slept together before.." he now said with his usual smirk. Elena just rolled her eyes. "Damon." she warned. "Elena." he mocked her tone.

She took his leather jacket off and even though all she wanted to do was passing her hands on his hard chest and love him all night, she just placed him on her bed. For the next five minutes he tried to get her with him too, everytime that she tried to head for the door he would take her arm and pull her back. He seemed a six years old. Finally he fell asleep and Elena took a comforter and a pillow to sleep on the couch. What a situation, she thought. She fell asleep after a few minutes, only to wake up again in the middle of the night because it was raining loudly. She snuggled into the comforter trying to take away her bad thoughts. The truth was that rain and thunders reminded her of the night of the accident with her parents, and she was still scared as hell. She was shaking uncontrollably, when she felt strong arms picking her up. She didn't complain this time, and she just snuggled closer to him while he took her in the bedroom. Damon knew her, and when he had felt the thunders he probably already knew what her reaction would have been. He placed her under the covers and she felt his strong arms and chest around her..words weren't needed. She just enjoyed the sensation of having him so close to her, hoping that it wasn't just a dream. "Thank you." she whispered. When she felt another loud thunder she held him tighter. "I'm here baby, don't worry." he whispered softly into her ear, kissing her hair. "I know." she replied with a light smile on her lips. Knowing that she probably wouldn't have slept anymore, due to the weather and the man next to her, she rolled onto her side facing him. Even in the dark she could see his smile and she smiled too, cupping his cheek with her hand. "I thought that we said our goodbyes three weeks ago.." she said with sadness in her voice. "I'm sorry. I screwed up tonight, I didn't have the right to show up like that." he said sincerely. She didn't say anything for a few minutes, but then she looked firmly into his eyes. "Make love to me." she then said. He seemed shocked for a moment. "What?" he then asked surprised. "I want to make love to you, I know that R-" she began, but he cut her off with a kiss. She felt her body responding to his, and goose-bumps and chills passed through her whole body. She turned on the light on her bedside table so she could see him straight in the eyes. His ocean blue eyes boring into her doe ones, full of lust and need. She quickly pulled off his shirt, and he did the same with her camisole, revealing her naked breasts. He placed kisses on her cheeks, then her neck and then placing hot wet kisses on her breasts, taking one nipple into his mouth, teasing it softly. A loud cry escaped from Elena's throat when in one moment he pulled off her wet shorts and panties, having her completely naked underneath him. She spread her legs for him and he looked at her in amazement, remembering every inch of her body and how perfect she was. He slipped two fingers into her wet core and she was already on the verge of having her first orgasm of the night. After coming undone, she quickly took off his belt and unzipped his pants, her heat aching of need and desire for him. "Please Damon, I need you!" she moaned. He didn't have to be asked twice. In a quick movement his hardness was straight into her core, throbbing in desire for her. "Elena you are so tight." he groaned and gave her a look when he felt her tight walls adjusting for him. She gave him a soft smile. "I know but..you know...never since you." she told him hesitantly. He gave her a bright smile before kissing her passionately, their tongues fighting dominance. In that moment he began thrusting into her in a slow pace, causing her to moan into his mouth. He entwined their hands and when she wrapped her legs around his waist and pulled him closer, he began to go faster. They were both on the verge and his thrusts were becoming harder, desperate for their climax. "Elena I can't hold it anymore..but I didn't use a condom." he said into her ear, ready to pull back. She tigthened her grip against him and he could see from her face and from her shaking body that she was right there too. "It's okay, I'm on the pill." she managed to cry out before climaxing. They screamed each other's name before coming together. He collapsed on her body, and for a few moments they just held each other, still catching their breaths. When he looked into her eyes, he knew what was coming. "I miss you, Damon. But this won't change things." she said cupping his cheeks and kissing him. "I know." he said sadly, rolling onto his back and placing her on his chest, interlocking their legs. "This can't happen again. You need to take care of the mother of your child…and I need to move on. And really, this time." Elena said, holding back her tears but unconciously holding him tighter. "I know." he repeated again, really not knowing how to handle the situation. It was clear that they both loved each other, but they needed to walk away from each other again. Though..were they able to, again? His presence and his caresses made her fell asleep after a few minutes.

In the morning Elena was still on his hard chest, and somehow she was glad that he didn't just leave without saying goodbye. She smiled at the sleeping man into her arms, and before she could kiss him she heard the doorbell. Gee, and now who could possibly be? She rolled her eyes and put his shirt on, since it was the first thing that she found and the rangs were persistent. She heard him blabing something when she moved, and she found it adorable. Non caring about her messy look, she went to open it, and she couldn't believe her own eyes.

"Surprise!" Katherine and Caroline sing-songed together.

Best. Timing. Ever.

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