There are flashbacks in this chapter and they will be in italics.

(At Darien's Hotel Room)

As soon as Darien could stand after Serena's blow to his stomach he stood to make his way back to the hotel. He knew it was pointless to try and follow Serena. She knew this city better than him. He would figure out another way to find her.

The moment he entered his room, the phone began to ring. He answered it, listened for a moment, then said, "I'll be right over."

(At Serena's house)

There was a soft knock at Serena's door; she ignored it thinking it was just Mina coming to check up on her. She gasped when warm arms encircled her. She turned to see Darien smile softly at he. She cried against his shoulder whispering, "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," over and over again. He whispered calming words into her hair.

(About an hour later)

Darien exited Serena's bedroom, "How is she?" Mina asked.

"She's sleeping, right now. How is Lucas doing?"

"Worse, I think his fever has gone up."

"Don't worry, I think he will be okay, but in the morning he should probably see a pediatrician for some medication, but for now you should probably get some rest." A/N Darien is a doctor, just fyi. Mina glanced back at Lucas. "It's okay, I'll stay up to watch him to make sure he's okay, I can see how worried you are, Serena is in the other room also." She nodded, still unsure, but conceded nonetheless and left to go home.

(The Next Morning)

Serena woke up cold. She had fallen asleep with warm strong arms surrounding her now the absence of those arms left her feeling cold. She slowly got up, her memories from last night came back.

She jumped up at the memory of Lucas being sick. She felt so selfish for forgetting about her son and just worryingly about her own problems. Serena ran out of her room into Lucas's, she paused at seeing the empty bed. Then she ran to the kitchen hoping to see Lucas sitting there eating his breakfast.

She began to slightly panic, "Lucas, where are you?" she yelled out, waiting for his voice to yell out an answer. When there was no answer, she really began to panic, "Lucas, please answer me," her voice trembled.

"Serena, calm down," a sleepy voice said from the couch. She saw Darien sit up tiredly, "Mina took him to the doctors."

"What! I have to go there right now!" she began to gather her things to leave.

Darien put a steadying hand on her arm, "He's fine, just a stomach bug, Mina took him to get some antibiotics to help him get better faster, he would be fine without them, but it would take longer for him to get better. Besides if you rush down there now, sick with worry, all you will do is scare him."

Serena nodded to show her understanding. She followed his lead and sat on the couch. They sat for a time before Darien broke the silence, "Serena, we need to talk."

Serena sighed, she knew this was inevitable, "What do you want to know?"

"I want you to tell me everything, starting with when you talked to Alison and my mother."

Serena nodded then began her story, "It was the day before I left…"

Knock Knock. Serena answered the door expecting to see Darien back already because he forgot his keys or something, but instead she saw Mrs. Shields and an unfamiliar brown haired woman.

"Hello Mrs. Shields, Darien isn't here right now, you want me to tell him you came by?"

"Oh honey, I'm not here to see Darien, but I want to talk to you. May I come in?"

"Of course, come in."

Mrs. Shields came in with the woman following her, "This is Alison I asked her to come today." Serena nodded wondering why Mrs. Shields was here with Alison exactly. "We are sorry to barge in on you like this, but it's important," Mrs. Shields began, "It's about Darien, we aren't sure how you'll take it, but please listen."

Alison breathed deeply, "He's just using you."

"Who is using me? Darien?"

"Yes, he just wants sex from you. Once he gets it he'll drop you just like he did to me."

"What? I mean I know he was a player in high school but… is this some kind of sick joke?" yelled Serena.

"No, she is being serious, even though I am saddened to say this about my own son."

Serena was shocked into silence, and Alison continued, "Me and him dated for awhile, I thought I loved him, so I slept with him. The next day he coldly dumped me saying he got what he wanted from out relationship."

Serena stood up, "He wouldn't ever do that, you must be confused. I think you both should leave now."

Both woman stood up. Mrs. Shields rested her hand on Serena's shoulder, "Don't forget what we've said even if you don't believe it right now, we only do this because we don't want him to hurt anyone else." With that she walked out the door with Alison, Serena shutting it behind them.

She leaned against the door and slid to the floor. 'He couldn't, wouldn't do any of this,' she sat there thinking. Eventually she moved to the couch and fell asleep after drinking a bottle of water that she had brought with her.

The next thing she knew she woke up in Darien's bed with no memories of the night before. It was exactly like when she had woken up with no memories of the parties she went to when she was raped, "Not again, I don't know how much longer I can deal with this." She couldn't handle not remembering if someone had touched her at her most vulnerable. Especially if it was Darien.

"What?" Darien asked.

Serena decided then that she had to leave before something went on between them, she didn't want to be with him if she couldn't even remember it. Her eyes misted at her decision, "I can't do this anymore, I…I need to leave."

She could visibly see the anger in his body, "What do you mean you need to leave?"

"I just…,"what was she supposed to tell him? 'I just love you too much to stay,' that would go over well, "You don't understand…I can't stay here." The tears almost overflowing in her eyes, "with you," she whispered.

"Why, why can't you stay? After last night," when Serena heard those words her heart broke and the tears spilt down her cheeks. Her worst fears confirmed, "I thought…" he noticed her tears, "You regret last night don't you?"

She nodded even though she didn't remember enough to regret, but then again that was the problem, she regretted that she didn't remember. She was surprised when he swung her around to face him, whispering, pleading, "Please stay. Stay with me," as he brought his soft lips down upon her own. This familiar kiss only reminded her of what she didn't remember, "Please, talk to me," he asked.

She sobbed against his chest, coming to a decision. Serena stood on her toes and crushed her lips against his. When she felt him pull away she whispered, "Please, I need this, I need you." She didn't care if he had gotten what he wanted, she hadn't. All she wanted was a memory, one with him. Before she knew it he had picked her up and placed her on the bed, his lips ravaging hers as his hand slipped up her shirt…

Darien was silent while Serena told him what she had thought and felt at that time, when she paused, he spoke up. "Nothing happened between us that night, when you couldn't remember. All that happened was we kissed, and then you fell asleep. The first and only time we were ever together was when, according to you, you could remember." Serena nodded and was about to continue when Darien asked, "Did you ever regain your memories?"

"Yes, a few years after I left I attended therapy and remembered with help of my therapist."

"Did you find out what was happening to you, to cause the memory lapse?"

Serena nodded, "After I left you I stayed with Molly for a few days, and then went back to my dorm. There I quickly began packing my things and in my haste I found a medication bottle at the bottom of the drawer I shared with my roommate, Beryl…

Serena picked up the bottle looking for a label, there wasn't one. She looked back into the drawer and saw a notepad slightly hidden underneath Beryl's clothes. She took it out and opened it up. There were names of boys listed; some had dollar amounts next to their names. She flipped the page, the next had some more boys names. She recognized the names that had dollar amounts next to them, only on this page they also had dates and addresses next to them.

The dates and addresses were familiar. The dates, could have been around the dates she lost her memory, or not, Serena wasn't sure. But she remembered whose parties she was at, at those times she woke up. Serena typed the first address on the list into her phone, to check to see whose it was. It was the house where she first lost her memories. She took a deep breath to calm herself, "It's only a coincidence," she said to herself, but just to be sure she checked a few more. They all matched.

Serena was starting to freak out. They can't all be coincidences, could they? They could, but there was one way to prove it. If this medicine was what she thought it was then… Beryl was getting paid to make it possible for Serena to get raped by the men listed in this notebook. She had to find Raye.

Raye was an acquaintance that Serena occasionally talked to and was a recovering drug addict. She claimed to know just about every drug on the market. Raye could tell Serena if what was in this medication bottle was what she thought it was.

Serena ran to Raye's dorm after she had finished packing her things. She banged on Raye's door until she answered. She looked surprised to see Serena and curious as to why she was so anxious to see her. "Serena, I'm surprised to see you, I heard you dropped out."

Serena cut straight to the chase, "Can you tell me what drug this is?" she asked holding out the bottle. Raye took it from her and examined it for about five minutes. After she was done she sighed, she turned back to Serena with sad eyes, "Was this used on you?"

Serena nodded, Raye continued, 'This is a roofie or more commonly known as the date rape drug." Serena swallowed hard. He suspicions were correct about what was in the bottle and about Beryl 'pimping' her out. Serena just collapsed into tears. Too suspect was one thing, but to have your suspicions confirmed…

Raye tried her best to comfort Serena. Even though she didn't know her that well she liked her and didn't want her to be hurt. After Serena calmed down, Raye managed to get the whole story out of her.

By now Darien was sitting rigidly with his jaw clenched in anger. He stood up and paced around the room in agitation. "What she did…" He couldn't hardly speak he was so angry, "I'm going to kill her, I'm going to track that bitch down and murder her for what she did to you."

"Somebody already beat you to the punch. She was found dead about three years ago, they never caught her killer."

"You know who did it," he said, not asking.

"Not for sure, but I have an idea who did it."

"Tell me, so I can thank them."

"It was…

TO BE CONTINUED…

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