Hey! Almost finished my fifth story! WOOOHOOOOOOO! All characters belong to the insane madness known as Invader Zim which is owned by Jhonen Vasquez. Breaking the Habit by Linkin Park. Boats and Birds by Gregory and the Hawks (yeah I know it's a love song but I can do whatever I want cause I'm the freaking author *.*) Gets EXTREMELY angsty. Contains suicidal themes, cutting, cursing, and MOOSEY FATE!

Regular text=Dib

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again (Flashbacks)

"Am I the only one that sees the alien sitting in class?" "Lemme guess, no one saw that right." "Zim get out of my house!" "Dibs crazy." Can we send Dib to the crazy house for boys?" "Use one of them crazy buckets on him."

You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
Dibs probably upstairs reading one of his UFOzines…freak
[Bridge:]
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I don't want to be Dib anymore. Every battle I try to fight ends up being a waste of time and proving even further that I'm a four eyed loser. I don't get why Zim won't answer any of my transmissions.
[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
or why I have to scream.
I don't know why I instigate
and say what I don't mean.
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright.
So I'm breaking the habit,
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
I don't see the point in trying to save humanity anymore. I scream in their faces that I'm the savior. Of course something bad always comes out my mouth. Why did Zim do this to me? Whatever he probably wants me dead just like the rest of humanity.
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than any time before
I had no options left again
It's hidden under my shirt. I had found it just lying there in the street; it's probably a sign from god. I had to run up the steps so Gaz wouldn't see it. This is my last chance on being happy.
[Bridge]

[Chorus]

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
and this is how it ends
"My blood will stain these walls,

Because of all the pain that everyone caused.

I'll never see you again,

And I'll finally be happy then." I said with a shaky laugh.

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

For the first time in years, I can finally see clearly. No more taunting or trips to the Crazy house for boys. "ZIM, Gaz, Humanity? You win. I'm breaking the habit, tonight.

Just as Dib took that shaky breath while raising the gun to his temple Zim burst through the window and successfully did a barrel role to knock the gun out of Dib's hand. "Holy shit!" Dib shouted when his brain finally realized what had just happened. "And just what exactly were you going to just do Earth worm?" Zim said, eyeing Dib with a condescending look. Dib just stared at Zim for a few minutes, sighed, and then told him everything. "So you see Zim nobody cares and when you left….well you took all of my happiness with you." "So, what? You think you can just go off and KILL YOURSELF!" Dib visibly flinched. "For crying out loud I tried to leave so you could have a normal dirt childhood, I protect you at every turn, made sure you weren't getting your gargantuan head pounded in EVERY STINKING DAY and THIS is how you repay me!" "What?" was Dib's oh so wonderfully thought out speech. Zim just face palmed.

(Flashbacks, switches between Dib/Zim's thoughts. Zim=italics. Dib=regular text Zim/Dib=CAPS LOCK)

If you be my star I'll be your sky
You can hide underneath me and come out at night
When I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine
I just want Dib to have a normal childhood. His parental-unit doesn't care about him, so I'm going to give him all the praise he needed as a child. Something that I never had. I'll make him shine brighter than a million Earth suns.
But you can skyrocket away from me
And never come back if you find another galaxy
Far from here with more room to fly
Just leave me your stardust to remember you by
Zim I'm not saying that you couldn't leave. In fact, I'm surprised it took you this long to leave and find other stars to explore and galaxies to destroy... Just leave me your stardust to remember you by.
If you be my boat I'll be your sea
A depth of pure blue just to probe curiosity
Ebbing and flowing and pushed by a breeze
I live to make you free
I live to make you free
I want you to be free of this insanity. I'll try and find a way. I promise.
But you can set sail to the west if you want to
And past the horizon till I can't even see you
Far from here where the beaches are wide
Just leave me your wake to remember you by
Dib you can always leave from my help. GO on; find friends your own age. And your own species. Just leave me your wake on this blue and green planet.
If you be my star I'll be your sky
You can hide underneath me and come out at night
When I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine
Just please come back Zim I need you. I'll give you the Earth, moon, and all the waffles you want. Just please, please come back.
But you can skyrocket away from me
And never come back if you find another galaxy
Far from here with more room to fly

Dib you need to go off and find other people. I can't confront or I might make you worse. I've given you all this room to spread your wings and fly.
Just leave me your stardust to remember you by

STARDUST TO REMMEBR YOU BY.

I'll post the rest later. Got to go play Firework by Katy Perry on my Violin. Oh and for anyone who knows what beta reader is I will write them a story including the characters of their choice and it will include 20 words of their choosing. Any genre…even the unmentionable romance that makes jhonen sick to his ill prone belly (for all of you noobs out there I mean ZADR)