A cold hand shook my shoulder until I woke up. "You okay?" Emmett asked.

"Yeah, why?" I asked with a horse voice.

"You were crying in your sleep. I couldn't wake you up. You scarred me, girl."

I was so confused. "What time is it?" Was all I could think to say.

"Almost eleven."

"Eleven?"

"Yeah."

How could I have slept that late?

"Carlisle said it's normal for little things to wear you out." I must have thought out loud. "Jasper should have listened to me."

"It's fine, Emmett. And nothing was Jasper's fault." I defended. "It's been two weeks and I've just been laying here. I need to push myself, get stronger and go back to school so I can actually graduate. I've missed about a month of my junior year, you know."

Emmett pursed his lips and made an uncomfortable noise. We sat quietly for a while. It was the first time in months that I actually could sit there with him. I studied him. He seemed different in a way, but I couldn't put my finger on exactly how. His eyes were getting dark. I could see the maroon bleeding through his iris'.

It never failed to amaze me how comfortable he was around humans. No matter how much the topaz faded from his eyes, he always seemed so normal, so calm. So human. Besides Carlisle, I had never seen a vampire with so much control. Even little Alice was a lethal killer (as I had discovered so soon before this moment). If it weren't for the shock of his body temperature, I don't think I'd even remember he was a vampire at all.

He took my hand lightly between his and whistled a song I had never heard before. Eventually he crawled into bed with me and later he stopped humming.

"What would you do if I died?" He asked.

I was appalled and all too flustered to answer straight. "I can't even think about that... I couldn't- I won't-"

"I'm sorry, Bella. Never mind. I'm not going to die, I won't leave you. I was just wondering. Go to sleep."

"I'm not tired now."

He huffed.

"My butt is numb." I complained. Emmett chuckled.

"You wanna go on a walk?"

"Can we?" I asked eagerly. He simply smiled and in a second I was on the ground outside with a rush in my head.

"Whoa." I smiled.

Emmett took off his sweater and wrapped it around me, revealing his perfectly formed abdominal muscles. I was about to ask if he was cold, but half way through the question I stopped and we both started laughing.

"Oh, Bella. I love you. And not just because of your looks." He joked.

"Good to hear." I responded.

I loved these pointless cheery conversations. We would never accomplish anything or learn something new. They just made us feel better. Feel happy and okay. Like we were different people. On a sitcom, perhaps. Leading pointless lives just filling the void with sarcasm and happiness.

"Hey, Emmett," I said.

"Yeah babe?"

"Babe?" I smirked.

"What?" He smiled back.

"You've never called me 'babe' before."

"Sorry. Do you not like it?"

"I don't know, it's just different."

"I'll just stick with Bella then." I smiled. "What were you gunna ask."

"I wasn't gunna ask anything."

"Well then what were you gunna say?"

"Just that I love you."

"I love you." He stopped me in my trail, grabbed my face and kissed me. I got a nervous kind of sick when he let go. Frantically, I fumbled for his face and pressed my lips to mine again. He didn't seem to object. He only kissed me harder.

We hadn't made love for the longest time and I thought we might right there in the middle of the woods where no one could hear, but he smiled slightly and told me he didn't think I was strong enough to handle him and all of his "sex god glory". I laughed, but I knew he was right.

To tell you the truth I wanted him. Badly. And this was the only opportunity we would have for a while. But he was right. I was too weak to even be walking this far. Let alone sleep with him and walk all the way back. Even if we were to do it there it sure as hell wouldn't be comfortable on the forest floor and I would be even more sore then I already was. Sex was out of the question for now. I just had to wait until now became then and I could be with him again.

"Do you like boats?" He asked as we started walking again.

"Boats?"

"Yeah."

"Um, I don't really have an opinion on them."

"Hm."

"Do you like boats?"

"Eh, they're alright." Another pointless conversation to add to our file.

"Emmett,"

"Yeah?" He said, looking towards the tops of the trees.

"If you died, I'd want to go with you."

"You what?"

"You asked earlier what I would do if you died and I thought about it and I would want to go with you."

"You thought of that just now?"

"Yep." I replied.

"You wouldn't stay around? Try to be happy with somebody else?"

"How could I?" I asked, knowing he wouldn't respond.

"You are love and happiness to me. You're more then I deserve. I couldn't spend a day on this planet without you on it." Oddly, he started to appear angry. He clenched his fists together and stopped walking.

"Are you alright?" I asked. He nodded sadly and continued walking next to me.

"I want you to turn me." I blurted out. He turned suddenly, stunned. "Into a vampire." I finished.

"Bella,"

"Okay, maybe not now. But I want this. I want you. Forever." It was like he wouldn't allow himself to smile. The second his cheeks turned up his expression quickly became sour.

"What's wrong? I'm telling you all this stuff that should make you happy and you're... You don't seem like you are."

"No, I am. It's just..." He paused for a long moment then whispered almost in shame, "You've said all those things before. To different people. How do I know you'll mean it in a month?"

My head began to pound and my heart began to race. How could he say that to me? How could he question my love for him? I insisted on walking home by myself but before I had time to protest there was a great gush of wind and I somehow ended up in my bed.

"Night, Bella." Emmett said as he walked out of the door, leaving it a ajar.

Silent tears of anger rolled on my pillow. I wanted him to take it back, but even more, I wish what he said wasn't the truth.

AN: Yay for fluff and confusion :p Oh, and dear readers, I have graduated high school! So be expecting more updates on all my stories and even those ones I promised to put up. Love y'all. I don't know why I decided to be southern, but I did. :p REVIEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW, PLEASEEEEE(: