After a while, Carlisle came in to check on me. He asked Alice to leave us 'to our private', but we both knew she would be listening from somewhere near in the house.

"Bella, the whole reason I moved you into our home was so you could heal at your own pace in a comfortable, peaceful environment. With the way my sons are acting, I don't know how you will get better." He paused. I wanted to say something to defend them, but he was right. They were just causing unneeded stress. But despite all of that, I didn't want to leave.

"I want you to start healing at home. Charlie's home." I sank down in the bed.

"But I like it here."

"And we enjoy your company, but this isn't going to help you in any way, Bella. It is a stressful time in our household and stress is something that you do not need."

"Okay." I said sadly.

"I will call Charlie in the morning and tell him that you are improving, but staying out of school a bit longer would benefit you." That turned my smile around. He returned a soft grin to me. "Bella, I want you to know that you are my daughter and that I love you. We all love you."

"I know."

"With all my heart I wish you could stay, and I know that Emmett feels the same, but I would rather you be happy and healthy then on bed rest being woken by hooligan vampires fighting for your affection." I laughed.

"I understand."

"Good." He smiled.

Carlisle suddenly raised his head. Shortly after I heard footsteps coming down the hallway. They stopped just behind the door.

"Dr. Cullen, is it okay if I..."

"Of course, Jacob. Come right in."

No, no, no. No. No. NO. NO! I screamed in my head. Why would Carlisle do this? And why didn't he hate Jacob too? But as soon as I saw Jake, everything just kind of melted away.

We both sort of stopped and starred for a moment, surprised by each other's appearances. He looked like he had grown another inch or two. His arms had definitely gotten bigger.

He looked more sad to see me. I hadn't really looked in a mirror lately, but I assumed I wasn't exactly a vision. My eyes were probably dark and tired. I know I had lost weight. Suddenly self concious, I covered myself up with a blanket and tucked my hair behind both my ears. I tried to smile.

"Hey." Jacob sort of coughed.

"Hi."

"I'll leave you two be." Carlisle said as he left the room.

"Nice to see you breathing again."

"Yeah..." I was unsure what to say. There was a long uncomfortable silence that took over the room, so I thought of the first thing I could say; what I really wanted to know.

"What are you doing here, Jake?"

"Didn't you miss me?" I didn't respond. He already knew the answer. "Must be heaven here. No school, all the dead boys you could want."

"Hey!" He stepped back in shock of my tone. "If you're going to talk shit about them, then leave."

"Whoa, Bella. Where'd you get the potty mouth?"

"I don't know." I replied nervously.

Again, he stood there awkward and silent in the doorway. While I was looking at him there was a moment that pained me so; I wanted to ask him to come closer, to hold me. But I knew he would never lay with me again. The question alone would have sent him running or into a fit of anger and words he would later regret. Telling me how stupid I was, but that he loved me. I hoped Jacob still loved me. I wish I could have asked him, but I would never be so blunt.

"Do I even want to know why you're here?"

"It might make you angry." He half smiled.

"Try me."

He took a few steps closer to me. I could almost feel his warmth. Or maybe I was just imagining I could.

"Blood-suckers have a quick fix for this sort of thing. The condition you're in."

"You thought Emmett changed me."

"I prayed it wasn't true." He sadly sighed.

A sudden wave of depression and guilt went all through me. "I'm really sorry, Jake." I told him.

"For what?" He looked surprised.

"For this," I exclaimed as I threw my hands up. "For everything I've done to you and put you through. I mean, you've seen me half dead twice.

"Well, the first time you only wanted to be. The second time your heart actually stopped. I couldn't find a pulse."

"Must be hard to close your eyes at night." I slipped. I started to gnaw on the inside of my lip for punishment.

"Yeah. Yeah, it is sometimes."

"I'm sorry." I said again.

"Stop apologizing, Bella. You have nothing to be sorry for. It's not your fault you have a shitty heart."

"Oh, who's the potty mouth now?" We both laughed. It was nice to see him smile.

"Well," He took a step back. "I guess I'll let you rest. Carlisle said you're worn out, so-"

"Wait." I interrupted. "I mean, you don't have to go."

He smiled again. "Actually, I do have some stuff I gotta do." I looked at him, confused.

"Werewolf stuff." He harshly whispered so I could hear.

"Ah." I replied.

"I'll come by more. I mean, if-if you want me to."

"Yeah, definately." I immediately responded. "I want to see you more."

"Kay." He grinned. "I'll be sure to stop by more often."

"Okay."

"Alright." He gave me stare before backing out of the room. "See you soon, Bella."

"See you." I called out after him.

I began to nestle myself under the big comforter that lay on top of me until it was up to my chin. As I rolled over to keep watch for the door I saw Jacob still standing there with Emmett sizing him up. There wasn't a large height difference between the two anymore. Four inches, maybe. Not like the full foot before. I got a sick feeling in my stomach just before Jacob walked away. Emmett watched him go down the hall and turn towards the stairs before looking at me.

"Emmett," Before I could say anything else his head had already shook back and forth and he was mostly out of my vision.

"Emmett, c'mon!" I called out after him. "What's going on? Will you come back here and talk to me?"

Nothing in response. I could have screamed for an hour if I weren't so tired.

AN: You don't have to tell me, I know I suck... No, this story is NOT dead. I've just had a REALLY hard time writing it. I am aware this is not my best work, but I wanted to give you guys something. It's been months! I'm so sorry for leaving you guys hanging like this... I hope new chapters will be coming soon. But for now, keep reading and reviewing. Your reviews really light my fire(: especially ArynDrago. You inspired me to write today. Thank you(: