Situations Chapter 12
Summary: Eli and Clare are far from friends; they hate each other. But when hormones are added to that, could the anger and frustration towards each other become pleasure? Will it stay casual or will it lead to something more?
Inspiration- Situations by Escape the Fate :)
Sorry for the long wait, I JUST wrote this, like literally. But I figured you guys deserve it :)
Tomorrow is my last exam so I will have plenty of time to write this summer! But, I am going away this weekend so I won't be updating till later next week.
So here's chapter 12!
PLUS! This is kind of the chapter you have all been waiting for, or it's the next chapter. Oh well. :P
Clare's POV
This past week has been nothing but torture.
Every day I would walk through the halls and I would see Tyler with Imogen or another girl, watching them get all lovy-dovey with each other. The fact that Tyler was with someone else didn't bother me; it was the fact that I was so stupid and naïve that I didn't even notice he was cheating. That's what bothered me. I could care less that he's with someone else; I just hope that they don't have to go through what I went through.
I haven't spoken to Eli since that night. I wanted to, don't get me wrong, but I couldn't. I couldn't face him and possibly break down crying at how venerable I was.
Every time I would see Eli in the hallways, we would lock eyes as we would pass by each other, but I would always be the first one to look away.
Nobody knew about our little fling, I mean, besides Adam, and it just made things harder. Eli hasn't done anything to me; no smart ass comments, no tormenting me in English, nothing. And frankly, I think people were starting to get suspicious. But, I could care less.
Alli kept bringing up 'Mystery Guy', asking if things were going well. I told her it was just a little fling and that it was over now. She begged me to tell her who it was, but I kept my mouth shut. There was no way I was going to tell Alli that I am having-er- was having a little fling with Elijah Goldsworthy. I love Alli, I do, but she can't keep a secret if her life depended on it.
I walked through the front doors of Degrassi with Alli by my side as we made our way into another day that was being wasted. I mean seriously, why do we have school when we don't need to know half of the things they teach us?
As we walked to our lockers, I noticed Tyler was pinning some chick up against the wall as they kissed furiously. That's when I noticed it wasn't Imogen. I rolled my eyes and kept walking down the student-filled halls.
"I'll see you at lunch?" Alli asked me when we stopped at her locker. I nodded and smiled before walking away from her locker to make my way to mine.
I dodged a few bodies and walked around the girls who stood in the middle of the hallway, texting. They seriously need to get a life.
My gaze suddenly landed on a dark haired boy who was wearing a leather jacket. Eli.
I felt my throat close in as I watched him walk towards me, looking at the ground. My heartbeat sped up once his eyes landed on mine and I felt my palms begin to sweat. I started fiddling with the hem of my shirt as we got closer to each other.
It suddenly felt like we were in a movie; the slow motion, the sappy music in the background as we stared into each other's eyes. He tore his gaze from mine and suddenly everything was fast motion again. As we brushed by each other, he ran his hand through his hair as I kept my gaze on him.
I broke my gaze away from him and sighed shakily as we walked our separate ways. How is it that he has this effect on me?
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It was currently the end half of lunch and I sat at an empty picnic table, waiting for Alli, as I wrote in my little notebook. It's not really for a certain thing; I just have it to write my thoughts, how I feel, or sometimes I write poetry, but I suck at it.
I sighed as I read over and over the line I just wrote.
No matter how many lies that I live, I will never regret.
I stared at that line and suddenly my hand moved to the paper, pencil between my fingers, and began writing another line.
The secrets that we sold were never known.
I stared at the page, wondering why I wrote this. It didn't even rhyme.
"Whatch'ya writing?" Adam asked as he sat next to me.
I jumped and quickly closed the notebook and placed it in my bag.
"N-nothing." I stammered.
He raised an eyebrow and stared at me oddly, like he was trying to read me. I pressed my lips to a line and tapped my fingers on the table.
Soon a smiling Alli came and sat across from me.
"Hey guys," She chirped.
"Hey," I forced a smile.
Alli switched glances between Adam and I and sighed. "What happened this time?" she asked, taking a bite of her salad.
"Nothing." Adam said, obviously understanding that Alli thought that people were bullying him again. "Clare's just hiding some things."
"She told you about Mystery guy?" Alli asked, making my eyes go wide.
"You know about-"
I cut Adam off by fake coughing loudly so Alli wouldn't hear him say Eli's name. As I was 'coughing', I gave Adam a look, telling him to shut up. He complied and clamped his mouth shut.
I stopped coughing and sighed, staring at the table.
"Hey, check it out." Alli said, tapping my arm and pointing over near the trees.
I looked over to where Alli was pointing and noticed Eli was sitting on the grass, leaning against a tree as he had a notebook on his lap and a pencil in his hand. I watched as his hand moved furiously across the page as he wrote.
"What do you think that's about?" Alli asked.
"What do you mean?" I turned to her.
"Do you not see what I'm seeing? Eli is sitting ALONE, with nobody around him. No Owen, no KC, no Riley, no Zane, no Drew, no Bianca." She explained.
"And your point being…" I dragged on, still not getting it.
"Clare, he's one of the most popular guys here and he's just sitting alone under a tree. Don't you find that a little weird?"
I shrugged.
"Maybe he just felt like he needed an escape?" Adam spoke up. I forgot he was here.
"An escape from what? He has EVERYTHING!" Alli exclaimed a little louder than she should have, making Eli look up from his notebook.
He stared at us and Alli turned her head and started acting like she was busy doing something. I giggled as she pretended to fix her hair, her make-up, and her clothes. I turned and noticed Eli was still looking at us. I gave him a small smile as I lifted my hand and waved slightly. He smirked and lifted his hand, giving me a slight wave before putting his notebook in his bag and standing up, walking over to the group of people he calls his friends.
I sighed and turned back to Alli and Adam. Alli had her phone out and was texting away, so I turned to Adam, who was already looking at me.
"You know you're going to have to talk to him sooner or later." Adam said. Adam knows what happened since I told I'm everything the day after I found out. Adam called me the next day and asked why I left, so I explained everything to him.
I sighed, "I know, and I will."
"When?" he asked.
I took a deep breath and stood up, "Now."
Just as I was about to leave the table the bell rung, signaling lunch was over.
Dammit!
I chewed on my bottom lip and turned to Adam. "We have Mr. Armstrong, right?"
"Yeah, why?" Adam asked.
"Cover for me?" I asked, giving him a sweet look.
"As always," he sighed but smiled after.
I said my thanks and ran towards Eli, who was walking towards the school. I noticed that he was walking by himself and I took that to my advantage. I glanced around and made sure no one was watching before I walked in front of him, making him stop in his tracks. He looked at me questionably but I just took his hand and pulled him behind the school.
Once we made it behind the school I noticed it was really dirty and leaves were all over the ground as a dumpster stood a few feet away.
"Is this where you take advantage of me and then slit my throat before throwing my body in the dumpster? Cause that's just not cool." Eli said, stuffing his hands in his pocket.
I looked at him, giving him the 'are you crazy' look.
"No, I just wanted to talk." I answered.
"Oh, and 'Eli, can we talk?' wouldn't have worked? You had to drag me behind the school where it smells like someone died." He said smugly before waving his hand in front of his face, signaling it smelled bad.
"Fine, you don't want to talk, I get it."
I walked around him only to be pulled back in front of him by my arm.
"Sorry, I'm done. Let's talk." He said, his voice softer.
I gave a nod and I walked back over to where I was previously standing. I took a deep breath and rocked back and forth on my feet.
"I wanted to say… I'm sorry…" I mumbled.
"What?" Eli asked, leaning closer.
"I'm sorry." I mumbled again.
"What?" he asked again.
"I'm sorry!" I yelled, throwing my hands up in the air.
"Now was that so hard to say?" Eli asked in a mocking voice, looking amused.
I rolled my eyes. "This was a horrible idea." I mumbled before trying to walk away, only to be pulled back again.
"Ah, ah, ah, you're not going anywhere." Eli said, pulling me back in front of him. "You still have to tell me why you're sorry." He smirked.
I scoffed and crossed my arms, looking at him. "Fine, I'm sorry you're a jackass." I teased.
His smirked fell and he stared at me. "Nice chat." He mumbled before turning around to leave.
I quickly ran in front of him before he could walk away and placed my hands on his chest, stopping him from walking any further.
"I'm sorry." I replied.
"Yeah, I know, you're sorry I'm a jackass." He spat as he removed my hands from his chest and tried moving away again, but I grabbed his arm.
"No Eli!" I yelled, making him look at me. "I'm sorry I yelled at you when you were trying to protect me, I'm sorry I blamed you, I'm sorry I was stupid and naïve, I'm sorry that I'm not good enough for anyone…" I felt tears coming to my eyes as I began yelling to myself instead of Eli. "I'm just sorry."
I let the tears fall as I backed up against the cold brick wall and slid down it until I hit the ground. I pulled my knees up to my chest, wrapping my arms around them. I dug my head into my knees, hoping I could hide from Eli.
I heard Eli move before I felt a hand on my arm, but I shook it off as I snapped my head up. Eli was kneeling before me with a sad expression.
"Are you happy now? You got your apology." I snapped, ignoring the tears as they ran down my face.
"No, Clare, I'm not happy." Eli sighed. "Come on, get up."
"No," I mumbled when I felt his hand wrap around my wrist, trying to pull it away from my face.
"Come on," he pleaded as he removed my arms from around my legs. I shook my head and he sighed. "Fine, you asked for it."
He leaned down and picked me up bridal style, making me squeal. I wrapped my arms around Eli's neck and clung to him.
I have this huge fear of heights and even though I am a few feet off of the ground, I'm still scared of falling.
I squeezed my eyes shut and gripped his jacket.
"Eli, please, put me down." I whimpered.
"Why? ...Are you afraid of heights?" I heard him ask.
I slowly opened my eyes to look into his. My heart skipped a beat when I noticed how close we were. I gulped and nodded, making him chuckle.
"Well, in that case," he put me down and held out his hand. "I'm taking you somewhere."
I glanced at his hand and then back up into his eyes. I wiped my tears and took a deep breath before placing my hand in his.
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"Eli, I am NOT climbing up there!" I exclaimed, pointing up to the tall building in front of me.
Somehow Eli managed to take me to an old warehouse. He took me to the side and there was a ladder attached to it, leading up the roof.
"Oh come on, do you want to get rid of your fear or not?" he asked.
"Not." I stated.
He rolled his eyes. "Come on, take a risk."
"No thanks." I smiled.
"Fine, you can stay down here," Eli said as he started climbing the ladder. "All alone," he kept talking as he kept climbing. "Where some old man could come and rape you."
I started looking around and noticed how creepy it was down here. I hated to admit it but I didn't want Eli leaving me alone.
"Wait" I yelled, causing him to stop and look at me, a smirk playing at his lips. "Fine, but if I die, it's on your conscience."
"I could live with that." He teased before beginning to climb up the ladder again.
I took a deep breath and placed my hands on the bar that was in front of me, then my feet on the bottom bar. I climb on it and let the breath out. I kept climbing up the ladder slowly, making sure I wouldn't slip or anything. I glanced up and saw Eli was already up there, chuckling at me. I glared at him and began climbing again.
"Just don't look down," he said.
Of course he would say that. Doesn't he know that when someone says not to do something, it makes you want to do it?
I tried my hardest to keep my gaze on the bars as I grabbed them with my hands, but I felt like I needed to look down. I was almost at the top when I just had to look down. I turned my head and looked down, my eyes widening at how high I was. I turned my head and gripped the bars as I clenched my eyes shut.
"Come on, you can do it." I heard Eli say.
"N-no, I c-can't." I stammered, gripping the bar in my hands.
"Clare, look at me." I heard Eli say, making me open my eyes and slowly lift my head so I can look at him. "You can do this."
I took a deep breath and started climbing again. Once I made it to the top I noticed Eli standing there with a smirk on his lips, as always. He held out his hand for me and I took it as he helped my over the edge.
Once I made it onto the roof, I gasped. The view from up here was way better than from down on the ground. There was this beautiful land with tress everywhere, along with green grass surrounding the area. There was a little water fall in the distance; crystal clear water flowing down the hill.
"This is… this is amazing. How did you find it?" I asked, still taking in the scenery.
"It's amazing what you find when you're not searching for anything." He answered.
He took my hand and brought me over to the edge, making me slow down my steps as I held onto his hand tighter. I didn't want him to let go; not when we're this close to the edge.
He brought me right to the edge and I gripped his shirt from behind while my hand was still in his, my grip tightening with every second.
"Clare, just trust me, okay?" Eli asked.
I gulped and nodded, slowly standing beside him. He sat down and pulled me with him, scaring me half to death. He let his legs dangle over the edge and I stayed away from the edge while I kneeled on my knees.
I watched as Eli looked out over the view; his eyes squinted from the sun. He looked deep in thought and I couldn't help but look at his features; his perfect plump lips, his nicely sculpted jaw, his electric green eyes, his soft hair. I missed being this close to him. I miss being closer to him.
"Why do you think you're not enough?" he asked bluntly, breaking me from my thoughts.
"What?" I asked, confused by his words.
He turned to me, "You said you're not enough for anyone… why do you think that?"
I looked down at my hands in my lap, trying to forget that we're on a roof right now.
"Because it's the truth." I answered. "In both relationships I was in, I was cheated on. Obviously I'm not good enough for someone to stay true to me."
"Clare, just because the guys you were with were total jackasses, doesn't mean you're not enough. You're more than enough; those guys were just stupid and didn't know what they had." Eli said smoothly.
I slowly looked up to see he was staring straight ahead, and not at me.
I can't believe what he just said. Did he really mean that?
I felt my heartbeat sped up just thinking that he might feel the same as I do towards him.
Without even thinking of what I was doing, I placed my hand on the side of his face and turned his head towards me, capturing his lips with mine. I could feel that he was taken aback, but he kissed me back nonetheless. This kiss was like no other kiss we have shared before. This was soft, caring and full of compassion. Our lips moved in sync as his hand reached up and cupped my cheek, pulling me closer.
I pulled away as I felt something cold hit my cheek, making me look up into the sky. Soon, there were millions of little rain drops falling on us. I looked back at Eli and noticed he was still looking at me, a small smile on his lips.
"I'm not you're rebound, right?" Eli asked, the small smile falling.
I smiled and replied, "No, you're definitely not a rebound."
His small smile came back and he leaned over, placing his lips over mine. I pulled away from him and chewed on my bottom lip.
"This isn't just another casual thing, is it?" I asked, hoping the answer was no.
"Well I sure hope not." He smirked.
I sighed in relief and he chuckled, noticing the blush forming on my cheeks.
I was about to lean in and kiss him again when my phone rang. I took it out of my pocket to see it was Alli.
"Hello?" I answered.
"Where were you? Did you ditch or something?" Alli asked.
"Uh…" I glanced at Eli. "I had a test today that I wasn't ready for so I decided to skip and study." Eli rolled his eyes and I shrugged.
"Oh, well there's this guy I met, and his friend is really cute and perfect for you." Alli said, playing match maker.
"Alli, I'm studying." I said, trying to get her to drop the subject.
"You should be studying the inside of his mouth." Alli stated.
"What is wrong with you?" I asked.
"Nothing. I was just saying. Anyways, I'll be home around 5, so see you then." She said in her normal chirpy voice. "Wait, is that rain I hear? Are you outside?"
"Uh, no it's the TV, uh.. gotta go, bye." I hung up.
I went to put my phone away when I noticed my pants were soaking wet, along with the rest of my clothes. My phone started getting wet so I tried to wipe it off and stuck it back in my pocket.
I turned to Eli, noticing he was throwing rocks over the edge, watching as they fell to the ground. I noticed he was soaking wet as the rain still poured down on us. Did he even notice it was raining?
"You know it's raining, right?" I asked.
"Really? I thought it was snowing." He teased.
I frowned and nudged him. He smirked and nudged me back, almost making me fall off the edge. I gasped as I tried to grab onto something before I fall to my death, and when I couldn't find anything, I shut my eyes and waited for me to hit the ground. But, I didn't hit the ground; instead, I felt strong arms wrap around me, bringing me close to a wet body.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." I heard Eli whisper in my ear.
My hand gripped his wet shirt and I opened my eyes to look at him.
"Don't let go," I whispered.
He looked at me and leaned forward, placing a soft kiss on my lips before pulling away slowly and resting his forehead against mine.
"I don't plan on it. Ever."
Aww.. now isn't that sweet?
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