Okay so i'm pretty miffed that i had to threaten you guys to review and even more miffed that that's what it took but i am so so greateful for those reviews you gave me, they really cheered me up since i've been ill all week, but that just meant more writing time ;) JK it meant packing for uni time *rolls eyes* anyway i leave for uni in just over a week now so i'm going to try and bombard you guys with this story and hopefully finish it before i go cause i don't expect to have many more chapters to this now, possibly about four. Also, i have started a new story and i know it's not a good idea to have four different stories on the go at once :/ Check it out if you have time, it's called Lights will guide you home and is based more like the harry potter novels in that it's all about a prophecy :P

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Seeing Teddy lying there surrounded by her family and healers was more than Lily decided she could take. After dropping off Lucas and watching as he bounded over to the bed in tears, throwing himself at his father, who seemed incredibly relaxed... almost high. Must be the pain potions. Lily had to leave the room shortly afterwards. Wiping her tears away she stood outside the door watching as various Weasleys and Potters walked in and out of the ward to see him. Molly came back outside to find her. Looking at Lily with Sympathy she signed, it will be okay, Lily. Have faith. Tell him. Lily smiled softly at her cousin before shaking her head.

"Not yet, Mol, I need to be sure everything is okay. That I'm not going to lose it. I don't know how he would be able to cope with that." Molly nodded in understanding, before her face suddenly lit up and she beamed, running over to the man Lily recognised at Molly's old sign language tutor. Raising her eyebrows she watched as she kissed him hard on the lips and held onto him for dear life. "Looks like I'm not the only one who needs to do some explaining," She said quietly. Of course, Darren, Molly's apparent new boyfriend, heard her as he was not deaf.

He chuckled quietly to himself before signing something to Molly so fast Lily couldn't make out what it was. Molly nodded before turning to Lily with a sheepish grin. Instead of signing she decided to use her voice. "I met him again a couple of months ago in the three broomsticks. We kinda hit it off and went from there. Mum and dad don't know yet though."

Lily nodded with a wide smile. "Well, I'm happy for you, Mol. You deserve it." She watched as Molly smiled and closed her eyes, leaning against his chest. Darren lifted her chin a little and pressed his lips to hers again. Watching the loving exchange brought tears to Lily's eyes. She seriously considered telling Teddy, just to see if he would hold her with such tenderness and finally break it off with Victoire. She then shook the thought out of her head. He wasn't going to break up with Victoire for her. After all, Victoire was his wife. Lily was just a fling. She then watched as the entire Potter Weasley clan finally came out of the room, including Victoire. Raising her eyebrows Lily noticed that Victoire looked almost annoyed that Teddy was still alive and kicking. Bitch, Lily thought in her head.

"Sweetheart, Teddy is asking for you," Harry told her, with a hand on her shoulder. Oh so that's why Victoire was sulky. Lily nodded before walking into the room and up the ward. Taking a seat on Teddy's bed she watched as he turned to face her with a groggy expression. Lily gasped at the amount of scars that now littered his face.

He smiled at her expression of horror sleepily. "That bad huh? I thought Victoire was joking when she said I looked ugly."

Lily's eyes filled with tears. "Oh, Ted. How dare she say that to you!" she suddenly threw her arms around him, burying her head in his shoulder.

"Well, I can safely say I'll ache when this pain potion has worn off. Brilliant thing this, y'know. It feels like I'm floating." Lily chuckled softly but pulled away a little, making sure not to touch him in case she hurt him. Teddy shook his head slowly and wrapped his good arm around her waist, his other being heavily bandaged from permanent damage. "Please, Lily, don't let go. Just hold me." Lily relented, lying down with her head resting softly on his shoulder.

"Ted I was so worried about you! Don't you EVER do that to me again. I can't bare the thought of you in pain or dead. It's hard enough to see you right now."

"Lily, the scars will heal in time, some of them I may even be able to morph over. I am just thankful that I got to spend one last moment with you." Lily shook he head and pulled away.

"No, Teddy, we can't do this anymore. I told you before, you needed to stay with Victoire and I needed to stay with Lysander. We can't happen." Teddy looked downtrodden for a moment before he opened his eyes again to look at her closely, attempting to gage her reation.

"Lily, do you know what I thought about when I was being attacked?" Lily shook her head. "I thought about you and how I wasn't ever going to get to tell you how much I love you and that I want to be with you. I didn't think about Victoire. I thought about you. I thought I was going to die and you were the first thing that came to my head. Because I wanted to die with your image, in your arms. Not Victoire's. I don't love Victoire anymore. The only reason we are together is because of Lucas. I know for a fact that she was unhappy to see me awake, I could read it in her eyes. She doesn't love me anymore and I would go as far as to say she hates me. But you... you are different. I know you don't love Lysander and I know you don't hate me. Staying with Lysander will be hard, and ditching him for me will be hard. Choose your hard Lily. One of them will make you a lot happier than the other."

"I'm sorry," she whispered softly. She leant down to kiss his head and felt tears leaking out of her eyes. "This isn't right, Teddy. Your son needs you. Please, just move on and forget about me. Please. Just let go."

"Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't want me and I will. Tell me you don't love me and I will let go forever. I promise."

Determinedly Lily looked into his eyes and whispered, "I don't want you anymore, Ted. Please, move on." Standing up quickly she ran out of the room and didn't look back to see the despair on Teddy's face. But if she had she would have, in fact, seen him grinning widely from ear to ear. She hadn't said she didn't love him, and that was all the confirmation Teddy needed. He would fight tooth an nail for her even if it mean risking upsetting Victoire. There wasn't much else the woman could do to make his life miserable anyway. He would ensure that he got visitation rights to his son, even if it meant having get his whole family to vogue for him. He would do it. But he wasn't going to pretend to Lily anymore. He was going to fight for her.

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