Recap and...Jealousy?

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Twilight characters but I AM the proud owner of a autographed photo of Julia Jones aka the one, the only, bad-ass she-wolf Leah Clearwater!

Jacob sits on his couch, his mind completely blank and his lips tingling. It's a strange and wonderful sensation – the tingling feeling, on his lips. As his mind slowly begins to respond and replay over the series of events that led him to sitting on his couch, alone; he finds confusion beginning to settle in. Why is he alone on the couch? Shouldn't there be another person here with him? His body is beginning to crave the sensation, wanting more of it – all over him.

Leah kissed me.

The realization plays over and over again inside of Jacob's head. The way Leah's eyes had softened, her lids fluttering closed, her eyelashes tickling his own lids, her warm breath fanning across his lips leading him in deeper to her presence and warmth until finally their lips touched. The kiss was soft, sweet, gentle and amazing. It lacked the pure raw emotion of need, desperation and satisfaction that was in the kiss he shared with Bella and yet, it felt so right. It feels as if that should've been his first kiss.

The thought hits Jacob suddenly as his mind begins to process all of the information that he's received over the last few days. It's ranged from Leah commenting on the farfetched idea of a human girl becoming pregnant by a vampire. Then there was Leah's own chances of becoming pregnant which has led to 'Sex for Science' and finally Leah's ideas and thoughts on imprinting. The reason behind the packs' transformation is something also that cannot be overlooked.

Jacob can admit that Leah's theory on why the wolves that have imprinted did will not become a popular theory. But, Jacob cannot deny the fact that, without thinking about it, he's alluded to the same point with Sam on many occasions. Imprinting seemed to take the fight out of the wolf; it made them want to stop phasing and live a normal life. But why should it take the fight out of them? Why couldn't they be happy doing the job for as long as needed and going back to normal?

~*~*~Flashback*~*~*~

"Quil was right about the comments he made about us, you know that, right?" Leah asks softly breaking Jacob out of his thoughts. Looking over at the woman next to him, Jacob frowns trying to remember what Quil had said. "The three of us didn't want this. We really didn't see the upside to becoming the 'protectors'." Leah says rolling her eyes and throwing up hand quotations.

"I just wanted to be normal again." Jacob comments as he shifts down into the couch to get comfortable.

"Same here and Embry just wanted to be able to tell his mom the truth." Leah adds. Raising his arm, Jacob wraps it around Leah's shoulders and pulls her closer. She sighs as she settles in, resting her head against Jacob's chest.

Its funny how over a year ago, neither would've considered sitting so close to one another. Leah would've snapped at Jacob calling him a 'touchy-feely pervert' and he would've snapped back telling her 'in your dreams'. But now, the contact between them is so casual, normal; it's second nature with them. It's almost as if they were always meant to sit so close to one another either in comfortable silence or to provide comfort to one another.

"So…you think because we don't want to stay as wolves is the reason why we haven't imprinted yet?" Jacob asks resting his cheek against the top of Leah's head. Leah nods her head in agreement.

"What about Sam?" Jacob asks. The only thing to keep Leah from tensing at the mention of his name is the disgust and annoyance in her Alpha's voice. "He didn't want to stay wolf for long either, right?"

"Actually, yea, he did." Leah answers matter-of-factly. "He gave up his scholarship so he could keep running around the woods. For a while I wasn't talking to him because of the time he was spending in the woods." Leah admits and Jacob feels his stomach flip as Leah picks at a piece of lint on his shirt. "He always went there after we argued about him and his secrets. Eventually I told him he could stay out and live in the woods for all I cared."

"It was a release." Jacob states as Leah shrugs. "Okay…so that makes sense. If you weren't willing to play nice and put up with Sam's bullshit," Leah chuckles at Jacob's comment. "So, in order to keep him in check his spirit needed something to bring him back,"

"And so walks in Emily Young and problem solved." Leah states. "Emily has always been easy-going, very forgiving and accepting of anyone and everything that they do. If a known serial killer told her, 'Emily, I didn't kill that convent of nuns'. Emily would believe it because there's good in everyone. I'm convinced it's some strange genetic fuck-up that she and Seth share."

"Serial killer? Really, Leah, don't you think that's a bit extreme?" Jacob asks with a chuckle laced with skepticism. Then again, Seth is very loving towards the Cullens who are basically serial killers themselves.

"We once took a dance class with a rapist." Leah states sitting up with a deep frown. She ignores the shocked look of horror and the deep rumbling growl from her alpha as she continues. "Word got out that he missed a few classes because he was in jail for it. The guy was ID'd by the girl, they had physical evidence and he admitted to the crime." Leah states as her eyes narrow. "He was kicked out of the class due to the amount of females participating and to lower the hostility but Emily didn't believe a word of it. She thought it was all just 'some misunderstanding'. Next time you see her, ask her how Hank is doing; I'm pretty sure she goes visit him in jail from time-to-time."

Jacob feels his muscles tighten, his teeth grind and the hairs on the back of his neck stand up at the thought of a rapist being anywhere near his beta. There is a sudden bloodlust desire to find the fucker and rip him to shreds but only after beating his face in, breaking all of his bones, setting his dick on fire and –

"Would you calm down?" Leah orders as she places one hand on Jacob's shoulder and the other on his thigh. Coming out of his thoughts does Jacob suddenly realize how close he's come to phasing. Not just phasing but he realizes that he still has a tight grip on Leah.

"Sorry." Jacob apologizes after taking a few deep calming breathes.

"Sure, sure." Leah says with a small grin as she settles back against Jacob, her head resting on his chest. "The guy never touched Emily…at least not when I was around." Leah says noticing Jacob's still racing heart. Jacob sits confused about why Leah would say that and he regretfully realizes that Leah only believes he's upset because Emily was involved.

"I got upset because I couldn't stand the thought of him touching you." Jacob clarifies giving Leah a tight squeeze.

"Well that's a pleasant surprise." Leah mumbles as Jacob's hand slides down to her waist.

"It shouldn't be a surprise." Jacob states back as Leah shrugs. Her nonchalance towards his display of affection irks him a bit as he frowns. "So…let's recap all of this," Jacob says putting one foot up on the coffee table. "If male vamps can impregnate a human girl, you can get pregnant too, right?" Jacob asks as Leah nods her head.

"Yes, so I've gotta start making sure there are condoms around." Leah says almost as if she's going over a grocery shopping list.

"Does Embry keep condoms?" Jacob asks snidely.

"Of course, can't take the risk of me getting pregnant until we're absolutely ready." Leah says with a scoff. Jacob decides to ignore Leah's remark and his own jealousy by pushing on.

"So, you believe that our phasing is based upon location." Leah nods her head. "There's also a reason behind imprinting besides babies."

"Well, yea, if it was about making babies then wouldn't all of the imprints be pregnant?" Leah asks as Jacob growls not liking the idea of Paul knocking up his sister. "Wouldn't Quil have imprinted on someone old enough to bare his children? I mean being a spirit warrior isn't an easy job. Any of us could be killed at any moment by a vampire or just some freak accident. If tomorrow isn't promised today then why would the reason be procreation?"

"Rachel doesn't want to get pregnant right now…she's thinking of going back to school." Jacob states.

"Again if imprinting was about babies than she wouldn't have much of a choice, now would she? Thus, imprinting is about 'control' or a way of keeping us in check. We're not meant to live forever; we're not vampires or hybrids. We were created to protect those of our tribe not those we're meant to destroy." Jacob can't help the sigh and roll of his eyes at the comment. His packs continued patrolling of the area around the Cullens to ensure that the Cullens are safe is still a sore subject for Leah. The others have accepted the job because Jacob isn't ready to challenge Sam for the full power and 'whatever Alpha wants, Alpha gets'; just not in Leah's eyes.

"Are you going to share this with the Council?" Jacob asks choosing to ignore the comment for the moment. He has his reasons for still hanging around Bella and her child but doesn't feel the need to explain them to his beta.

"Yea, Billy and Old Quil know I've been thinking about the matter long and hard. Old Quil seemed kind of hesitant to answer any questions I had but Billy is all for it. He thinks it's good that there's someone else doing some critical thinking on the matter. It's all theories and I could possibly be wrong. I really could just be a genetic dead end serving no other purpose than just to run around on all fours being a scout."

"You keep me in check – that's your main purpose." Jacob says with a big smile on his face winking at Leah.

"Yea, but I'll only have that position until you find some girl with at least half a brain, thus making her smarter than your precious Bells, and marry her." Leah's comment about Bella doesn't aggravate Jacob as much as it used to. Maybe it's her remark about some other girl bossing him around makes him start to wonder does she boss Embry around?

Well, of course she bosses Embry around. He wouldn't stand up against Leah.

His thoughts wander to what Leah would make Embry do, do they really just talk or is there something more going on between them? Jacob frowns because he's heard from Seth and Quil that Embry and Leah are spending more and more time alone while he's over at the Cullens. He knows that Seth has come home to find Embry sleeping in Leah's bed. He knows that Leah sometimes comes over to his house with Embry's scent on her.

"Jake?" Leah calls feeling his arm tense around her, his muscles tightening, heart racing and an angry growl is rumbling just below her head.

"Are you really sleeping with Embry?" Jacob demands leaning back to look at Leah's face. He's greeted with an innocent, sweet and confused expression. His frown deepens at how innocent a girl can look when there's talk of her fucking a guy's best friend just for kicks.

"Jake," Leah starts off with a sigh, slowly shaking her head and a blush creeping across her cheeks.

I knew IT!

"Why Embry?" Jacob demands angrily. "I mean is this 'Sex for Science' just a cover-up so that you two you can just fuck one another?" Jacob asks as Leah stares at him in surprise. Her silence only infuriates him more. "If you're shooting for stronger wolf cubs than why even bother with a delta?" Jacob snaps as he gets up and begins pacing and back and forth in front of Leah.

He can't understand why Leah would've chosen Embry to mate with. Both man and wolf are angered by the female's choice as it doesn't make any sense. He's the biggest and strongest male not only within the two packs but also on the entire rez. He possessed the better genes that a female would like to see passed on to her children, didn't he have qualities that were more desirable than Embry? Didn't they get along well? Wasn't he the one that understood her pain and she is?

"What are you saying exactly?" Leah asks her brow furrowed, her head cocked and her eyes carefully watching the tense and trembling man.

"Why didn't you ask me?" Jacob asks stopping in front of Leah and looking down at her. His stance is firm, tense and the way he's standing over Leah it would look intimidating but Leah can see the hurt, confusion and frustration in Jacob's eyes. Jacob watches as Leah looks down and her mouth opens and close quickly as if she's at a loss for words. "I – I just thought we were close." Jacob admits with a sigh flopping down on the couch.

Closing his eyes he knows this whole conversation is silly and ridiculous. Just because he and Leah shared a moment doesn't entitle him to expect anything more from Leah – let alone a romantic relationship. He's learned that from Bella and certainly doesn't want to make that same mistake again.

"We are close, Jake." Leah says placing a hand lightly on Jacob's shoulder.

"I know, I – I'm just…jealous," Jacob sneers, "that you choose Embry to talk all this over with instead of me."

"Well, for one, you were too busy playing house with Renesmee to even be bothered with me. You're always all up on Bella and Renesmee's frozen tits that even when I did want to talk to you about it, you weren't around." Jacob sits up looking at Leah in surprise.

She did want to talk to me first?

"So Embry just so happened to be in the right place and at the right time." Leah admits with a shrug. "He saw me waiting in your garage and from there we both started talking. I eventually figured why not share my thoughts with Embry. You know he's actually pretty smart, a great listener, he's thoughtful, insightful," Leah begins smiling sweetly as she names all of Embry's 'good' qualities much to the disgust of Jacob.

"Alright, alright, Embry was there when I wasn't. I get it." Jacob interrupts crossing his arms as Leah laughs at his pout.

"Sorry," Leah apologizes still laughing. "But what? Now alluva sudden you don't like 'Sex for Science' because it's me and Embry?" Leah asks looking at Jacob with a small frown. Jacob silently debates with himself trying to decide on whether or not he should say 'yes' or 'no'.

"Yes and no." Jacob admits. "Look," Jacob begins after Leah raises an eyebrow requesting him to continue on and explain. "I don't think that you should just fuck around with just anybody. If you want to have a family that's fine, I'm serious. I'm all for you being happy and if that's what makes you happy then so be it. But don't you want to…be in a relationship with someone that you love? Or could possible love eventually?" Leah sits quietly listening to Jacob as he struggles to explain his position.

"So…you don't think I could ever develop any strong feelings for Embry and vice versa?" Leah asks as her eyes darken.

"No, nonono." Jacob says quickly shaking his head. Insulting her or making her feel as if something is wrong with her isn't the right way to go. "Well I'm just saying how about giving someone else a chance that…that may….may already have feelings…for you." Jacob finishes up feeling as if a huge weight has been lifted off of his shoulders.

He's finally done it; he's finally told Leah that he has feelings for her that go beyond just the simple Alpha-Beta relationship or even 'just friends' relationship. However, his instincts tell him that the heavy boulder of 'love' is still hanging over his head and it can be dropped back down on his shoulders at any moment.

"Like who?" Leah asks softly, quietly; her voice is so slow that had not been Jacob anticipating her speaking he would've missed it despite their close proximity.

"Like me." Jacob whispers back to her. "I really like you, Leah." Jacob states confidently and he can't but feel himself smile as Leah's frown becomes a small frown. The frown is replaced with a frown completely as he sees doubt in her eyes. "I'm not still hung up on Bella and I certainly have no interest in Ness outside of the fact that I get paid to hang out with her."

"What?" Leah asks her frown deepening.

"Bella pays me to hang out with her kid." Jacob says with a tired sigh. He had wanted to keep it a secret.

"Why is she paying you?" Leah asks her eyes narrowing. This doesn't make any sense to her; Jacob was over there so much that if she didn't know any better she'd think that Jacob had imprinted on the spawn. Of course, he denied that he such a strong attachment on the creature but it didn't do anything to deter his continual visitation at the Leech Manor.

"Bella thinks that Renesmee should interact with more normal people since she'll possess the ability to interact with humans more." Jacob explains. "She thinks that the Cullens own social behavior is not 'conducive to a healthy and stable environment' for the kid to grow up in." Jacob says rolling his eyes as he quotes Bella.

"And so she pays you for that?" Leah asks and Jacob nods his head.

"I really don't want to be there at all. You were right about Bella just leading me on and I really don't want to put up with her. You know she still tries to act as if she can't live without me? Pfft, she's already dead. On top of that the stench gives me migraines and by the time I get home I'm too tired to do anything else but sleep wherever I just happen to settle for more than a few minutes." Jacob explains. "She wants me and Edward to get all buddy-buddy. So some times I'm actually babysitting the spawn and most times I'm with Bella."

"So you're being paid to hang out with Bella?" Leah repeats making sure she has the whole thing figured out. Jacob nods his head. "HA! How pathetic and desperate can that girl get? I'll never know what you saw in her, Jake, but you certainly picked a real piece of work to throw everything away for." Leah says chuckling darkly. Jacob rolls his eyes knowing that he's been expecting just this kind of response out of Leah when she finally learned the news. "But, uh…you like me, huh?" Leah asks smiling over at Jacob. He feels his heart race as there's a mischievous glint in her eyes.

"Yea." Jacob agrees nodding his head as Leah sits back against the couch. His body begins to heat up as he feels the skin of her arm pressed against his.

"Do you just like me or like, like me?" Leah asks.

"I really, really like you like." Jacob says with a small grin as he leans in giving Leah a nod. He watches her closely as her eyelids grow heavy and her lips part slightly. "Do you like me?" Jacob asks his eyes focused on Leah's full lips, his voice low, deep and husky. His muscles tighten as she bites her bottom lip and he has the hunger to nibble and lick it. "Do you?" Jacob whispers as he stops only a few centimeters from Leah's lips.

"Yes." Leah breathes out before she closes off the rest of the gap and their lips connect. Her full lips easily overlap his and he gently catches her bottom lip in between his own. The two slowly part as Jacob can feel his heart pounding deep within his chest, reveling in the tender moment.

~*~*~End Flashback*~*~*~

She left? Why the hell did she leave?

Jacob wonders to himself with a deep frown, hot fire shooting up and down his spine at Leah's sudden disappearance. He doesn't recall her saying anything and he stands up stomping towards the back door following her scent. Stripping off his shirt with a growl Jacob tries to calm his anger preparing to phase and go find Leah when suddenly her painful howl erupts in the woods.

"SHIT!" Jacob growls as he rips off his cargos, jumps off the porch, phasing in mid-air and tears off for the trees to find Leah.

A/N: So here is the long-awaited update for Leah's Propaganda. I've been working on this off and on for a while but couldn't decide upon the write approach to take it. Dangit, if my mind and heart isn't set on making this into a Blackwater story. Where did Leah go? Even more pressing what has happened to Leah? Will Jake like what he finds? What about Embry? What are his thoughts going to be on Leah and Jake's kiss?

Anyone whose still stuck with this story I can't thank you all enough for being so patient with me. But you gotta admit that Wake-up Call is a nice apology right? ^-^; Right? Well…uh, how about all the Blackwater fluff? Those can make up for it right? Of course they do! But I am TI-R-ED! My personal trainer kicked my ass twice – and that's for each ass cheek. -_-; It's not MY fault I got an ass that won't allow the small of my back to touch the floor. And I don't want to lose that onion either; that's my bread n' butter. My ass will save me some day! What's a black girl without an ass? It's like a priest without his cross, a bird without his wings (apologies to the kiwi and emu), a wolf without her pack, a mouse without her cheese. And let me say that this has been a rough week. -_-;

So some of you already know last Tuesday my aunt died, I'm good but we're still awaiting news…STILL! Over a WEEK LATER! I love my cousin, I do but she needs to learn how to open her mouth and say something!

Then this week, Tuesday (again) I wake up to find my fish ALL dead, someone ate my lunch, I can't fix breakfast, someone decides to try and start shit with me, I almost get into a fender bender (which would've TOTALLY been my fault because I got distracted by the gorgeous 2010 green Chevy Corvette sitting outside a church) and then an old ex-boyfriend of mine tries to get cute with me over some old BS!

But everyday has been a real busy day and I've not had more than ONE hour to just sit in my room and relax. Believe it or not…which you probably won't but I'm an introvert. I can get out there and be all extroverted and shit but man, if I don't get tired of the public a whole lot quicker. What I really need is a day to myself and just…zen. No where to be, no obligations, no appointments; just me, my green grape walls, my bed and no one else. But…after IM'ing my sister doesn't sound possible since the kids are spending the weekend with us and we're off to Kings Island tomorrow after the 3-yr olds soccer game. Le sigh.

So make my weekend by reviewing. Give me something to smile at while my battery and patience slowly drains.