The evening moved over quickly. Raven finally was able to retreat to her small (temporary, as she wanted it to be) room to get some rest. After she had showered, Thomas had warned her that Mau5 had this strange, and obnoxious habit of getting really hyper at night. The best he could describe it was like an adrenalin rush that a child usually got when they started to get tired. Made since, Mau5 was pretty much an overgrown kid.
Raven lay in her bed, and every minute or so, she'd hear the idiotic rodent giggling and laughing loudly as he frolicked all around the house. After half an hour of that nonsense, Raven had taken her pillow and smothered her head, groaning impatiently.
Bloody hell, just calm down already… She thought to herself.
It only took a few more minutes until the sounds quieted down and she couldn't hear him moving about anymore. He must have tired himself out and retreated to his own room. Good…
As the silent laid gently down on Raven, she began to nod off into the dream world.
…
She dreamt she was in a hotel. The hotel room was a single room with a small bathroom attached to it. Thomas and Guy both sat in arm charms across from her and Dead Mau5 lay on the bed, next to where she stood. She looked to the door that led out. She knew it was locked, and there was nothing she could do about it for now. Something about this situation made her feel sad and lonely. Even though she was with three other beings, she could not relate to them. They weren't like her… and so she felt alone.
She heard a phone ring. She looked next to the bed on the nightstand, and sure enough, there was a telephone. It rang…
Raven came up to it and before she could pick it up, she heard Thomas's voice to her back, "I WOULDN'T ANSWER THAT."
But she didn't listen. She picked it up.
"Ello?"
"Ello? Raven? Love, is that you?"
Raven's heart leaped. Her mother…
"Mum! Mum, I'm so glad to hear from you! Listen-"
"Raven, where are you? I'm so worried."
"I know Mum, I'm sorry. I can explain. This guy-"
The dial tone loudly interrupted her. The connection was lost.
"…Mum?" Raven's eyes watered slightly as the tone still hummed the same pitch loudly in her ear.
"I'M SORRY RAVEN. YOU CAN'T GO BACK." Both Guy and Thomas chanted softly together.
…
Raven awoke, slowly. That sad, lonely feeling still stirred bitterly in her chest. When she realized she was still in the guest room in the home of alien beings, she smothered her face into her pillow again, groaning pitifully. Mum…
She waited to become sleepy again and to fall back into the steady state of REM. But it did not come. Her heart was starting to hammer as her mind began to race in a panic. She could not shake the homesick feeling.
So she brushed the sheets off her bare legs and stood up out of the bed. She was only wearing Dead Mau5's baggy shirt over her undergarments, so she grabbed her tripp pants and slipped them on over her hips.
The outside of the hallway was slightly chilly. The neon lights of blue still looked as brilliant and stunning as she remembered, but they seemed less bright. Perhaps they were adjusted according to the time. Raven began to wonder down the hall towards the bathroom again. Perhaps a warm rag on her face will help her sleep, she thought.
'I remember…'
It was so quiet, but it was definitely a soft, female's voice singing.
'I remember…' She heard it again. It sounded like the same voice that had sung the song back at the club.
She stood still in the hallway. She could see the door to the bathroom in front of her, only a few meters away. But she stopped to listen again for that voice.
It was quiet again.
"Huh." Raven grumbled. Was she imagining it? Probably not… Oi, if Mau5 could produce music aloud without speakers, then why couldn't he do it in his sleep too? Just maybe…
Raven weakly wandered into the bathroom and flipped the light on. She immediately saw the reflection of herself in the mirror, staring glumly back. Her eyes were squinting to the sudden bright light and her eyes were red and watery.
"Fuck.." Raven whispered. The lonely feeling was building as she continued to stare at her depressing image before her.
"Fuck this shit." Raven muttered, her eyes closing tightly as she wrapped her arms around her sides.
Why the fuck was she fighting back this outrageous situation? Everything about it was screwed up beyond belief.
"Fuck this!" Her voice shrilled slightly, as she bit her lower lip harshly. She sputtered a few cries and choked sobs before she slid to the floor, where she recoiled herself into a ball. Her feet slid in as close as possible and she wedged her face between her legs.
She let herself cry… she needed it. The hysteria was not a good thing to keep bottled up forever.
A figure came looming into the door way. The voice was somewhat surprised and sad. "..Raven?"
Raven looked up quickly and silenced her whimpering. Mau5 was peering down at her. His large, milky eyes were softened and large. His firm frown showed he was worried. "What are you doing in here… and crying~?"
"Please just go away." Raven growled bitterly. She did not want to look at him. She buried her face back into her legs.
"Why are you crying?" He asked. She could tell by his shifting that he was now kneeling next to her.
"Go away," Raven warned him, as her sobs were starting to choke out again.
"But.. Raven-"
"Leave me alone!" Raven shrieked, striking her hand out at him. Her fingernails dug into the side of his left cheek and scratched the surface. Bits of his fur flew off and he gave off a sound that seemed like a squeak. He leaned back away, and he stared at Raven, startled. His eyes reflected the hurt from her lash.
"Please… Don't you see I don't want to be here?" Tears were falling down her cheeks onto her lap as she shuddered with frustration. "Don't you see I don't be here with you or Thomas or Guy? I wanna go home! I wanna see my friends and my mum!"
Mau5 remained very silent, as he held a hand up to his face where Raven had slashed at him. His large ears were drooped down, and his white eyes stared at her sadly. But he said nothing…
Raven tried to silent her sobs. She looked at Mau5's miserable face and realized her actions were awfully rash towards a creature like him. How could he understand this situation? How could he understand that it was because of his selfishness that she was trapped?
She looked upon the mouse DJ and saw complete confusion and hurt written all over his red, furry face.
"R-raven…" Mau5 said, finally putting his hand down from his face. There was a small cut that was now swelling on his cheek.
Raven lowered her head, unable to express both the twisted emotions in her head. The rage of being trapped and the sympathy for attacking Mau5 left her in a pause.
To her surprise, she felt the rodent take her in his arms and hug her tightly. She wanted to squirm free, but she was too caught up to fight.
"I'm very sorry, Raven…" Mau5 whined softly. She felt his fur on his face tickle her neck as he hugged her close. Her wet eyes also made the fur stick to her face. But she didn't give a fuck at that moment.
"We will make you happy here, Raven.. I promise. Just give me a chance, okay~?" He hummed, but still in a sort of whiny tone.
Raven did not answer; she just rested her forehead on his shoulder, feeling the exhaustion of her anxiety over take her.
Mau5 waited there for a second for her to say something. When she didn't, he spoke up again, "Let's get you to bed."
It was a bit surprising how easily Mau5 scooped her up in his arms. He was stronger than he appeared to be. Either that, or she was smaller than she thought. He carried her down the hall, back towards her guest room.
Was it strange to be small enough for a mouse to hold you..?
Gently, he placed her back into the bed and knelt down at the side. His large tail was coiling nervously as he tried to make her comfortable. His large eyes were still watching her carefully.
Raven picked up her hand and touched Mau5's cheek that she had scratched. "Sorry…"
Mau5 leaned into her touch and slowly nodded his head. His frown was still there. He took his hands and pet her shoulder. "Please, just rest and feel better, lil Raven," He told her.
Raven let out a sigh. But then, the female voice could be heard softly in the air. She felt the soft pulse of sound coming off of his body.
'I remember.'
Her heavy eyelids closed and the music of Dead Mau5 began to lull her into sleep.
'Feeling the past moving in…. Letting a new day begin…. Hold to the time that you know… You don't have to move on to let go….'
It was like the music was in her head. She had full relaxation.
'Remember turning on the night…. And moving through the morning light… remember how it was with you… remember how you pulled me through…'
A warmth. It felt close. And all around her.
'Add to the memory you keep… Remember when you fall asleep… Hold to the love that you know… You don't have to give up to let go…'
She felt comfort. She no longer felt alone.
"Remember how it was with you… Remember how you pulled me through…
…
I remember.'
