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Chapter 15
Sam slowly entered the room, her hands clasped behind her back as she walked over towards the fireplace.
She felt eyes following her as she moved, but she ignored them as she came to stand behind Severus who was talking easily with Fred as they both leant over the cauldron.
Severus saw Sam from the corner of his eye and frowned ever so slightly.
"I'll be right back, keep an eye on it will you?"
He walked away without a word, gripping the hand a grimacing Sam held out for him and holding it tight until he passed her completely and then he let it fall, lifelessly, back to Sam's side.
Fred turned towards Snape, his mouth open in objection; then he saw Sam. He closed it instantly and smiled at her.
"Hey." He said quietly.
"Hi." Sam looked down at her feet as she stepped forwards, joining him in front of the potion.
"Wolfsbane." Sam murmured quietly as she swiped her hand through the steam that was evaporating off the bubbling liquid.
Fred smiled warmly and hesitantly wrapped his arm around her waist and let himself relax when she relaxed into him with a sigh of contentment.
"I'm sorry."
That confession confused Fred immensely.
"What for?"
"For keeping secrets from you." She whispered guiltily as she nuzzled further into the redheads chest.
"Don't apologize, they're your secrets and I am never going to force you to tell me any of them." He assured her as he hugged her to him as she smiled slightly.
"I know that Severus gave you the 'Don't ask; don't think; don't fret' talk. But; I think that you have a right to ask, think and fret. I don't want you to stay in the dark because I am afraid of my past." Sam spoke softly so that only Fred could hear her.
Sam detached herself from Fred as the Wolfsbane began to glow a nauseating shade of green. She calmly added a pinch of powdered herbs which were settled on the mantelpiece; as soon as the flakes touched the surface of the liquid, the colour of the potion was sucked into them and after glowing bright and hot for a few seconds, the powder floated into the air, rising to their eye level.
Fred gaped as they floated as naturally in the air as if they were dust, not herbs; but Sam wasn't nearly as shocked, she waved her wand and the particles all collected together in a group, allowing Sam to collect them in a glass jar where they dropped to the bottom with a few audible 'clinks'.
"How did you—?" Fred gawked, staring at the now solid particles.
"Basic absorption chips." She explained calmly as she placed the container on the table beside them.
"You're amazing." Fred was staring intently at Sam and smirked at her shocked expression. "I mean it." He told her earnestly as he gently caressed her cheek with his hand. Her eyes slipped shut and she smiled slightly.
Fred leant forwards and placed a chaste kiss to Sam's lips and she whined when he pulled away all too quickly for her liking. Her eyes opened and she pouted as she gave him one of her best puppy-dog looks, looking up at him through her eyelashes.
Fred felt himself melt into a puddle and he watched her for a second with wide, unblinking eyes, before swooping down to kiss her full on the mouth, his hands went to either side of her face and he felt her grin as they kissed.
Her hands went to wrap around his neck as he let her face go, choosing to hug her around the waist, pulling her closer to him.
They put everything into that kiss and were already trying to ignore the smirks and stares from the people seated at the table when there was a loud cough.
They broke apart, slightly breathless to see Snape standing in the doorway, eyebrow raised, with Dumbledore by his side; the latter seemed to be smiling dreamily as he watched the couple together before turning and leaving without so much as a word; leaving Harry, who was sitting at the table, feeling upset and lost.
"As happy as I am for you two, I would appreciate if you wouldn't flaunt your relationship in front of everyone." Snape said, giving each of them a firm stare, moving to tend to his potion, a slightly disgruntled look on his face.
"Shall we continue our conversation elsewhere?" Sam asked Fred seriously and he realised that she was referring to the actual matter at hand, not the, uh, physical.
"Sure." He said absently, gesturing for Sam to lead the way, not daring to look at any of his family.
He followed her into a room on the first floor he had never been into before; the Conference Room.
It was fairly large, with a round oak table taking up most of the floor space. At least fifteen chairs were situated around the table and they were all wooden and worn down slightly with use.
All of the windows were covered in thick black curtains which reached the wooden floor and pooled around itself at the bottom.
It was dark and dreary; just like most of the Black house as a matter of fact. But for this instance it would serve its purpose.
Sam sat down in a chair and Fred mirrored her movements, sinking into the one next to hers.
"Fred I—"Sam smiled slightly at Fred before taking his hand in hers. "Fred, I don't know how all of this has happened so fast, but to be honest I don't want to know, because that would take the thrill from the fact that it has happened so fast and that—and that I am not scared at all." She lifted her gaze when Fred squeezed her hands slightly with a small smile playing on his lips; so, with that encouragement she carried on. "I am not scared about anything when you are around, you are someone I feel that I can trust and I think that's why I fell for you."
Fred hissed in a breath and stared at Sam whose eyes widened in horror.
She tried to protest against her own words but Fred captured her lips with his, effectively swallowing her words.
After another kiss that he never wanted to end, Fred pulled back slightly and whispered against her lips.
"I fell for you the moment I saw you." Sam shivered at Fred's words and felt tears of joy spring to her eyes; but they were also tears of fear and pain.
"That's just it; and that's why I hate lying to you." She whispered brokenly, standing up suddenly and pushing her chair away from her as she groaned, taking a deep breath and walking calmly around the room.
"I want things to change Fred! I can't stand all of the hiding; it's been going on for too long! I've never been able to do things I wanted to. Everything in my life has been uniform, symmetrical; it's always been the same and I'm sick of it!" Sam threw her hands up in the air. "I'm sick of not being me; I miss myself! I know I sound absolutely crazy, but I honestly miss myself, I never have the chance to be my own person, with my own name, own opinions, own choices and own life." She stopped her frantic pacing and turned to Fred with a desolate expression; he instantly stood and wrapped his arms around her. "I just want to be me; not someone else, not this stranger whose identity I'm hiding behind; because that person never got to live, and I want to live a life. I think that after all this time I have at least earned that."
"I don't know what to say." Fred told her honestly.
Sam chuckled lightly and kissed Fred on the cheek.
"You don't need to say anything; after all, you have no actual idea of what I'm talking about."
"That is true." Fred agreed with a grin. "But I am perfectly content to listen and console if necessary."
"That's all I ask for."
For a while, neither of them spoke, they just held each other, listening to one another's breathing, steady and relaxing.
"Things are going to change. I'll make sure of it." Sam whispered determinedly, her mind was warring with itself; her heart however, was perfectly content, it felt as if, after all of this time, it may finally be healing.
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