A/N: The question about why Puck doesn't have his own apartment to bring Santana to is answered in this Chapter. Also, we see more guilt about Jesse, but we won't see the bulk of the guilt for a few more chapters when she goes home. Also, the reason she continues to do what she is doing is because her feelings that are drawing her to Finn are stronger then the feelings that are drawing her away from Finn.

You get more of a clue into why Finn hasn't been home and his relationship with his mom.

Thanks for the comments. I love this story and hope you are all enjoying it as well.

Chapter Four

Finn's lips hadn't left Rachel's since the moment she said she wanted him. He had nearly ripped off his pants and V-neck and let her claw at his skin and he forcefully took her in his arms. She let the towel fall as the flailed around on the bed, rolling every which way. They were momentarily interrupted by Finn's phone going off again but Rachel threw it across the room, and upon hit the wall its' back came off and the battery popped out. Probably not doing any permanent damage but silencing the phone for the time being.

Finn growled into her mouth how much her wanted her and she pulled at his boxers in agreement. She squealed as he pulled them off at not only his size but how incredibly turned on he was. She was terrified. She hadn't slept with Jesse in over six months, though she had told Finn it was three and he did not even compare to Finn's girth. She swallowed looked up at Finn who grinned sheepishly. She pushed at Finn who moved to lay down and Rachel straddled him, her wetness touching him for a moment while she leaned down to kiss him. The kiss lasted only a moment before she made her way down his body and in between his legs. She kissed down his chest and abs and let her arms feel his body.

When her mouth made it to his shaft she looked up at him and Finn looked like he was in pure ecstasy. "Something you couldn't possibly know about me…" She starts in a low voice, "Is I don't have a gag reflex." She breathed out, her hot wet breath touching him and he shivered at the sensation, or maybe it was from her words.

"That is a-fucking-mazing news." He cursed and Rachel found it sexy coming from his mouth.

She teased his head for a moment and then took whole width into her mouth before moving up and down. Finn watched the small girl as she worked what could only be known as magic and had to close his eyes to picture something else in order to not come right then and there. Finn hadn't been intimate with a woman like this since Quinn over a year ago. Sure, he'd had his fair share of groupies. But, those were hit it and quit it and they never stuck their heads below the belt, nor did he. Not to mention, he never cared if any of them came either. He just needed a warm body for some of the lonely nights, but Rachel. She was different. There was something about her that just, hit him. Maybe it was her voice, or how small she looked in his arms, or the fact that her questions were never just average. He didn't know, but it felt good to have her where she was, and the absence of a gag reflex proved to be quite effective, he'd never been so deep in a girls mouth.

"Fuck, Rach." He breathed, "You have to stop or else we won't get to the good part."

She lifted her head and wiped the remained saliva from her mouth, "I'm afraid the good part is going to turn into a bad part."

Finn sat up and grabbed Rachel's waist and pulled her to straddle him, "Why is that?"

"You're not going to fit, Finn." She said with fear in her wide eyes and Finn pulled her into a hug before lying her down. He grabbed a condom and put it on and Rachel tried to object, "Seriously, there is no way. You're too big."

Finn positioned himself over her and put his finger over her mouth, "Shh! I'm not going to force it. Shh!" Finn soothed her. "Just close your eyes, listen to my voice and relax."

Rachel did as Finn said and lay back on the pillow, Finn knew he had to be gentle and keep her calm and relaxed in order for him to make his way inside and he planned on it, he wanted to fuck her against a wall, but there would be time for that later. Finn put his hand between her legs and let his index finger slide in as he kissed her softly, she moaned a soft light moan against his lips and he grinned in response. He whispered against her lips, "It's just you and me here, baby." He said as he felt her relax a little more around his fingers, "I want you to let yourself go for me." He said kissing her neck and softly moving his finger in and out of her, "I need you to be loose and free for me. It's just me, why are you so nervous?" When he noticed Rachel try to answer he put his free finger over her lips and whispered, "Shh! That was rhetorical." He laughed and she did as well, causing her to tense more, "It's just me and you." He said again, seeing as that seemed to help before, he moved his free hand from her mouth to her chest and lightly squeezed her perfect breast with his hand.

"Me and you." She whispered and he felt her loosen more, he slipped a second finger in and she noticed a change in sensation but didn't tighten as he expected.

"Yep, just me and you." He whispered, "You have nothing to be nervous about." He said sweetly against her skin, "To me, you are perfect. Everything about you." She relaxed more, "And I am going to be happy no matter what because I'm with you."

Her eyes opened and she pulled his face up to hers by his hair, "I'm ready." She says confidently.

"I know you are, baby." Finn said grinning, he brought his lips to hers, removed his fingers from her and let his shaft slide inside her, the moisture not lacking, but the tightness fighting him off a little. He kissed her roughly and she kissed back until his thrust completed and he was engulfed in her. She threw her head back in passion and moaned out.

"Oh Finn, you are… wow. Finn." She squealed and he growled with excitement and pulled her head up to meet him.

"Damn Rach. You are… Damn." Finn responded and he began to thrust. The initial pain wore off after a couple minutes and she wrapped her legs around him, "You're soooo tight." He commented, "It's so good. It's too good." He breathed out as he motioned in and out of her, deep as he could, wanting more.

Rachel was breathless, "Are you gunna-" She started and Finn's lips crashed into hers, he knew if the words came out of her mouth he would.

"Finn," She moaned, "touch me more." She pleaded and he put one hand under her ass and grabbed tightly and one hand between them and proceeded to touch her, "Oh wow."

It was apparent to Finn that this was a new experience for her as well, which made him work harder at pleasing her, "Oh Rachel, you are perfect."

"I think I am going to-"

Finn cut her off again, "Do it, Rach. Come. Come for me." He pleaded with her and her nails clawed into Finn's back and he screamed her name louder, "Rachel, oh God, Rach."

"Say my name, Finn." She breathed out.

He brought his lips to hers, "Rachel" He whispered before dipping his tongue into her mouth and he grinned as her felt her walls push on him, making him explode into her. They rode it out together and then Finn fell on top of her. Rachel kissed the crook of his neck while he lay there, still inside her.

After a couple minutes he reluctantly pulled himself out of her and disposed of the condom before wrapping them both in his thin black sheet and pulling her to him. This part, the cuddling, he hadn't done this in years. And with Rachel, it just felt right.

Rachel hadn't felt a inch of guilt until right then, the entire time all she focused on was her and Finn and as soon as the connection ended, as soon as Finn separated them – the reality set in. As she felt her world crash down on her though, Finn wrapped her in the sheet and pulled her back into his arms and kissed her cheek.

Her guilt didn't melt away like it had in the past but it did lessen. She felt Finn nuzzle up to her more and she grinned at his sweet side. Such a cuddly teddy bear, "Finn" She whispered.

"Yeah, Rach?" Finn whispered back in a groggy voice.

"Am I terrible person?" She squeaked out and felt a tear fall out of the corner of her eye and she quickly reached up to wipe it.

Finn squeezed her tightly, "Of course not." He whispered into her ear, "You are a beautiful person, inside and out." Finn tried to comfort her but she started shaking with sobs.

"But why am I doing this to him?" She cried and Finn turned her his way and wrapped his arms around her waist to hold her naked body close to his. Rachel wrapped herself in him as she sobbed, "A good person doesn't do this." She cried and Finn closed his eyes in pain as she did.

"Rachel, shh!" She comforted him, "Rach, baby, shhh! Come on." He tried to comfort her but the right words couldn't find their place on his tongue, "You just, you- something was just. Something was missing." Finn rocked her as she continued to cry, "And he had given up on you and you and given up on the both of you and…" Finn was just blurting out stuff now, "…and you needed something more. He promised you things that he never gave." He was trying to defend her actions, but he knew in his heart that this was wrong.

She let herself calm down in his arms, "I never thought I would be this person." She cried out softly, the sobs no longer taking over her airways.

"You're right, Rachel. We went about this in the wrong way, probably." Finn said honestly, "But, I think you should leave him."

"So, I'm going to cheat on him and then leave him?"

"Isn't that how it works?" Finn asked a little confused.

Rachel shook her head, "I don't know how it's supposed to work." Rachel admitted.

"I know it's not clever or what I'm supposed to say right now but…" Finn fumbled out his words, "But, I just want you with me." Finn said softly into her neck and Rachel scrunched up her face in pain.

She felt herself unravel in his arms, was she hurting two people now? She was and she knew it. She hated herself for being happy to hear him say that. "You're being too good to me." Rachel whispered.

"It takes two to tango." Finn shot back, "We're in this together, you didn't force yourself on me. You were honest with me from the beginning." Finn told her, "Can we just… lie here a while?" He requested and she nodded, letting herself relax in his arms. There was nothing she could do about it right then.

Rachel woke up to Finn talking on the phone, "I know, he's been staying at Santana's hotel." He tells someone. "I think he's planning on staying with her tonight at tomorrow." Finn states, pacing. He's in basketball shorts now and Rachel touches her puffy face and feels the dry tears. She sits up in bed and keeps herself wrapped in the sheet, but shivers a little still from the air that was coming onto her from the fan on the ceiling.

Finn whispered a 'sorry' before continuing to talk to the faceless person on the other end, "Sure, I'll talk to Rach and see if she wants to. I'm pretty hungry. We had breakfast at 10, but haven't eaten anything since."

Rachel looked at the clock, how was it 8? How had they slept so long?

She got up and found the towel and put it around her before making her way into the bathroom, turning on the shower and hoping in quickly. She let the water wash off the dried tears and mascara that stained her face and relax the muscles in her back. She leaned her head back and wet her hair and then silently cursed herself for doing so, not knowing whether Finn would have a blow dryer and knowing she had left hers at the hotel. She used a bar of soap and was grateful that Finn used a brunette shampoo that didn't smell manly.

"Hey Rach," He poked his head in the shower with a goofy grin, scaring her.

She giggled and covered herself up with her hands, "Out!" she shouted, and Finn leaned to kiss her before obeying. "Who was on the phone?"

"That was Blaine. He was wondering where Puck had been."

"Oh, they are roommates?"

"Yeah, and Blaine made him promise to never bring groupies home. Hence the hotel take-over." Finn said as he washed his face, "Can I hope in real quick?"

"I'll be out in a minute." She said over the sound of both waters running, "Are we going out then?"

"Yeah," Finn stuck his head in, "Please let me come in." He frowned and Rachel nodded.

"Okay, but no funny business." She teased and he jumped in, "Where are we going."

"Indian food for dinner. Blaine said they had lots of vegan options."

Rachel nodded and couldn't resist the urge to wrap her arms around Finn's torso, "It does, Blaine is a smart man."

"Then to this club that we have a private table. We're on the hunt to get Sam laid." Finn said positioning himself under the scolding water. "Damn, you trying to boil your skin off?"

"No, I'm trying to get clean. You made me a very dirty girl." Rachel said before leaning up to kiss him and playfully smacking his ass and making her way out of the shower.

"If it's okay by you, I would like you make you a dirty girl again this evening." Finn stuck his head out and raised an eyebrow.

Rachel nodded, "No point in arguing the inevitable." She admitted before drying herself off.

She went to his room and dress in a small black dress, and dressed herself. After looking through all his closets and pantries, she managed to find gel and no blow dryer, so she shook her head back and forth as much as she could and applied the gel to her hair, leaving her with a beach blown look. She wasn't unhappy with it. She added the red headband from the night before and slipped on her red pumps. Had it really only been a day since she had met and ultimately given everything up for Finn? It felt like they had known each other for ages. Well, she had kind of known him, but just from afar.

Finn walked out of the bathroom stark naked, "Think of leaving me a towel, woman?" Finn feigned aggravation and Rachel giggled before handing him a towel. Instead of taking the towel he pulled her into a wet hug and Rachel pushed back on him playfully, "You don't want to hug naked Finn?" Finn grinned, "Naked Finn wants to hug hot Rachel."

"Stop!" she squealed, "I just got all dressed up."

He let her go and took the towel and dried off, getting ready in record time and they made their way to the restaurant. They walked hand in hand and Rachel looked up at the tall, handsome, drummer, "Why aren't you ever in Lima?" She asked innocently, letting her thoughts getting the best of her.

"I left for a reason. I left to give my Mom a chance to live her life without having to take care of me." Finn breathed out, he spoke honestly, "Every paycheck I get, at least half has gone to her since I've been out here. But, then she met Burt and I just couldn't deal anymore." Finn admitted, "I mean, I want her to be happy and all, but I couldn't stand seeing her with another man."

"Where is your Dad?" Rachel asked, tilting her head.

"He died when I was a baby. War hero and all that." Finn spoke quietly. "I'm named after him."

"Your Dads' name was Finn too?" Rachel gleamed at how cute it was.

Finn shook his head, "Finn Christopher Hudson. My Dads name was Christopher too." Finn swung their arms between them awkwardly and Rachel kissed his arm.

"That's a beautiful name." Rachel said honestly, "I'm sure your Dad would be very proud of you."

"My Dad would want me to be with my Mom, stick with her through thick and thin like he couldn't." Finn growled, "But, I can't watch her place house with someone else's family. I can't watch her be a Mom to another kid."

Rachel's heart sank, "Kurt is a really good person, and your Mom… She's a sweetheart too."

"I figured you had met her." Finn says honestly.

"I was at the wedding." Rachel admits.

Finn nods softly, "I know I should have been there, it just, it hurts too much."

Rachel felt sorrow bubble in her stomach, "I know it does." She comforts sincerely and feels her heart ache for Finn, for Carole, for Kurt and Burt. "But, you're going to have to try eventually."

Finn nods, "I know, Rach. And I will, I need to come around in my own time."

They stop outside the Indian Restaurant and Rachel grabs Finn's face and pulls it towards her, "You are a great man, Finn Christopher Hudson." She says seriously, "I know it hurts to watch your Mom move on without you, but it's what you wanted."

"I know," Finn nods seriously, "I guess hoping it will happen and actually seeing it happen are two separate things."

Rachel brought her lips to his and he kissed her softly, "You are pretty perfect." Finn whispered against her lips and she blushed.

"Stop saying that, I'll get a big head." Rachel said sheepishly and bit her lip.

"Don't do that, it's so sexy." Finn rebutted to her bit lip. "It makes me want you more." He whispered.

"REALLY?" Finn heard Santana yell from behind them, "Kissing in the street, are we? Get your asses inside! It's getting chilly." Santana yelled and ran inside, Puck, Blaine and Sam behind her.

"It's cold because you're wearing practically nothing." Blaine commented on her skimpy, tight halter dress.

"Shut up, Blaine." Puck shoved him a little, "I like it on her." He turned his attention to Santana, "You look smoking."

She grinned and rolled her eyes back in her head, "I know. Now let's eat, I needs to gets my strength up if we're going to pull another all nighter."

"You know we will." Puck added.

"Oh, gross." Blaine barked back and they were ushered to a table.

Finn put his arm around Rachel at the table and kissed her cheek and grinned at his friends around the table, he was going to forget about everything for now and just enjoy all of his favorite people. Especially the girl who somehow knows how to get him to be 100% honest about things he doesn't even like to be honest about himself.

Rachel didn't know what it was about Finn, but he had her. He had her by a string, she secretly hoped he didn't know this. But, a part of her wanted him to know everything, everything about her. An even bigger part of her wished they had met sooner, that she had met him in that music store, instead of Jesse. Rachel knew there was no turning back now, so she just leaned into his kiss and avoided a knowing stare from Santana and Puck and decided to deal with the bullshit later. Procrastination always worked out, right?