A/N: Fun Fact all of the chapter names are named after song lyrics. I really enjoyed writing this chapter, but there is a little drama and pain in it. The next couple of chapters might have some angst. Thank you all so much for the comments! I live for them.
I try to update another chapter before the end of the day. I like writing on Sundays, it's a good writing day.
Enjoy!
Chapter Six
Finn stood under the warm shower, letting the water run on his face and down his body. Finn's day had started the same way the past two days had, he woke up with Rachel in his arms, they had amazing sex and she told him more about herself while they lay naked in his bed wrapped around each other. But, he knew his night would be ending differently. Finn and Rachel's mini-vacation from reality was coming to a close. Rachel had to go back home, Finn begged her to stay, but she had responsibilities to get back to. She wouldn't just run and hide in Finn's apartment from her two jobs, house payment and Jesse.
Finn offered to go with her for support with talking to Jesse but Rachel said it would make everything worse, and she still needed to come up with a game plan. She knew she wanted more in her life then what she currently had, but she didn't know what that more was. Did this more reside in Los Angeles?
Today Finn learned that Rachel was a part owner of a house, a Mom to three cats and worked as HR and a guidance counselor for McKinley High. Every other weekend she was a waitress at BreadStix on Saturday nights to get money to pay for her wardrobe, otherwise she would still be wearing reindeer sweaters. Rachel told Finn that she still wore those from time to time and if he would be weirded out, to tell her then. Finn also learned that Jesse owned a dance studio, and although it was profitable, it wasn't by much. It paid for itself and the bills that weren't the house payment. Rachel for the most part was paying the entire house payment, as well as for food and was expected to have dinner on the table every night. Jesse did eat her vegan food that she made and never complained, but he would add cheese to almost everything and asked her that for special occasions she make chicken or something that he would enjoy.
Finn however told her that he was allergic to cats, so if she were to move in with him as he had requested, they were not welcome to come. He also told her he loves BreadStix and asked that she learn their tomato sauce recipe before she quit. Finn told Rachel that he would go home for Thanksgiving and hoped that she/they would have everything figured out before then. He asked her to call him every night and Rachel agreed.
Rachel's voice ripped him from his thoughts, "Hey Finn," She said sticking her head into the bathroom, "Santana is here to drop off the rest of my stuff and she wanted to know if you wouldn't mind picking her up from Blaine and Puck's on our way to the airport."
"Yeah, that's fine." Finn grumbled, "What time are we leaving again?"
"Let's leave a little after 6." Rachel said. "I'm going to go tell San and I'll come join you in a minute." She added with a grin and left to meet Santana in the kitchen.
Santana was looking in Finn's fridge and Rachel gave him a strange look, "Do you want something?"
"I'm just going to take a coke." Santana reached in before turning to Rachel, "Sooooo, did you have fuuuuun?" Santana teased. "and when I say 'fun' you know I mean sex. Right?"
Rachel nodded awkwardly, "I know what you mean, and you know the answer, let's leave it at that."
"Are you going to tell lady-face?" Santana said as she grabbed her purse and walked towards the door.
Rachel sighed, she really didn't want to go back to real life, "I already sort of talked to him about it, bu-"
Santana held up her hand to silence her friend, "How do you sort of tell your husband you're sleeping with a Drummer on your vaca?"
"Wha- oh! No! I thought 'lady-face' was Kurt." Rachel explains.
"No, he's 'lady-lips', Rachel. Try and keep up." Santana said in her sassy voice, "Okay, we'll talk more about this on the flight home. See you in a couple hours."
Yeah… Rachel really didn't want to go back to reality. Rachel watched Santana walk out and sighed before walking into the bathroom.
"What took you so long?" Finn stuck his head out of the shower and grinned at Rachel, showing her he was teasing. Rachel undressed quickly and hopped in the shower behind Finn and wrapped her arms around Finn's wet body.
"I'm really going to miss you." She said sadly into his soft skin.
Finn looked down at Rachel's small hands, linked around his stomach and frowned, "Yeah" he whispered. "I'm going to miss you too."
Finn turned around slowly in her arms and took her face in his hands, "This isn't goodbye, Rach. You know that." He said softly, "It's 'see you later'"
"No," She said abruptly, "It's 'see you soon'." Rachel corrected him and Finn grinned widely before leaning down to kiss her roughly.
"Tonight is going to suck. How am I going to sleep without you in my arms?" Finn groaned and Rachel put her hand on his cheek, his scruff growing in quite nicely.
"It'll be okay, Finn. I'll call you when I land and we can talk before you go to sleep." Rachel suggested, "That will hell, yeah?"
"Yeah, that will help." Finn replied softly and wiped the small tear that was forming at the corner of his eye quickly. Why had he let himself get so wrapped in her? He had this deep urge to tie her to the bed and never let her leave, that way the sheer terror of her going back to a house that she shared with her husband would go away. But, he knew that wasn't the way to go about it. Though he wish it would.
They finished showering, neither of them feeling very sexy or in the mood to take advantage of the shared' naked-time', as Finn likes to call it. Rachel giggled every time he said it, the phrase showed her how sweet and child-like her could be.
Finn made them lunch and Rachel let her legs dangle off the stole as she watched him, "You know, I could get used to this." Rachel grinned "Do you always cook?"
"Two things about me, I always always always cook." He states as he throws his ham and cheese sandwich on the heated skillet, "And it's always the easiest meals ever." He laughed before grabbing out a can of coke and taking a sip, "I also always have coke in the house. Always. Want one?"
"I don't drink coke." Rachel states honestly. "I drink water or juice mostly."
"Do you like peppers?" Finn asked while he chopped a cucumber and threw it on a bed of lettuce.
"Yeah, I love almost any vegetable, except brussel sprouts."
Finn grabbed a bell pepper and chopped it to add to the salad he was creating, Rachel had to admit. She was impressed "Yeah, that is such a common vegetable." Finn teased, "It was going to be my next question."
"You keep all this stuff in the house?" Rachel asked looking at the bowl of veggies that was on his counter.
"No, I'm fully committed to sandwiches, pizza and steak. I went to pick some stuff up while you were napping yesterday." Finn says as he flips over his sandwich and frowns that it's a little over done.
Rachel grins, "Why are you so cute?" She jumped off the stool and went to hug him.
"I guess cause my Mom and Dad had good genes." He said before kissing a laughing Rachel, "Why are you laughing?" He asked a little confused
"Because you took my question literally. I wasn't talking about your actual looks, I meant you actions are cute." Rachel explained.
Finn thought for a moment, "Wait, so my actions are cute, but I'm not?" Finn wondered aloud.
Rachel giggled again, "No, that's not what I meant either." She shook her head, "You and your actions are both very cute."
Finn couldn't help himself, he didn't know whether it was her short skirt or her compliments but he had to have her right then. He grabbed her up in his arms and lifted her to him. She wrapped her legs around his waist and he kissed her roughly. He reached blindly and unplugged the skillet. He didn't want to burn down the house in his fit of passion. Rachel's mouth moved to his neck and he unbuttoned his pants while trying to keep her around him. He growled as Rachel's tongue grazed his skin and he clumsily sat her on the only bare part of the counter, by the sink. She knocked over his coke he tried to ignore it as it dripped on the floor.
"Oh, I'm so-"
"Leave it." Finn growled and he slipped off her underwear quickly. He put his finger inside of her to feel her moisture and grinned at how wet she had gotten so quickly.
"Finn" Rachel shouted and threw her arms around his neck, "Come inside me, Finn." She pleaded. "Come inside." She repeats herself breathlessly.
Finn let himself out of his boxers and his jeans fell to the floor.
"Shit." Finn said suddenly.
"What's wrong?"
He backed up but Rachel wouldn't release her grip, "I need to grab a condom, babe. Let me go." He said before kissing her.
"I-I" Rachel stuttered awkwardly, "I'm on the pill." She tells him softly.
Finn is a little surprised, "I've literally never had sex without a condom." He tells Rachel and she seems surprised.
"Even with Qu-"
"Not with anyone." Finn repeats.
Rachel seems confused, "Why?"
"I don't know, Quinn wasn't on birth control. I didn't feel comfortable pulling out." Finn explains, "Any other girl who said they were, I didn't trust."
"We can use a condom, then. If it's more comfortable for you." Rachel releases her grip on Finn and he leans into her more.
"No." He whispers, "I want this, so much." Finn grins and Rachel smiles widely back.
Finn let himself slip in slowly, the new sensation coaxing a low growl.
"Holy fuck, Rach." Finn says to her and lets his lips find hers, "I don't think I'll last that long." He says honestly as he slips deeper into her.
Rachel puts her finger over his lips to silence him, "J-just, just have me."
"Have you?" Finn repeats, confused a bit.
"Fuck me" She whispers and Finn can't keep the grin from overtaking his lips. He grabs her and picks her up walking them to the nearest wall and thrusting deeply. Rachel's back arched and let an animalistic moan release from her lips. Finn's lips attacked her neck. Those nasty words coming from her perfect mouth was such a turn on.
"This is amazing." Finn growls, "Oh Rach. You're so fucking hot. You're tight and perfect and… ohhh Rach."
"Finn, God Finn." She chanted in response.
"I am, oh baby, I'm going to."
"Come inside me, Finn. Come inside." She screamed at him and Finn obeyed. He let himself release and continued the motion, but he didn't feel her wall move to help his orgasm.
"You didn't?" He asked breathlessly.
Rachel shook her head, "It's okay, baby. That was still amazing." She unwrapped her legs and shifted awkwardly. "oh." She closed her legs, "I think I need another shower."
"Let me do something else for you first." Finn grinned seductively. He pulled her to the bedroom and handed her a towel so she could clean off.
"Sit." Finn requested and Rachel sat on the bed, still missing her underwear, but otherwise fully clothed. Finn kneeled at her feet and pushed her skirt up, looking at her for a quick second and watching her bit her lip. Finn moved his face between her legs and disappeared under her skirt. Rachel felt Finn work his magic tongue on her and let her head fall back, moaning his name.
"Oh Finn. You. You are. You are so good." Rachel moaned out and Finn licked harder. His fingers made their way into her, curving to touch her g-spot and she just about lost it. "Oh. More Finn. More." She shouted and he obliged. "Oh, I love it. Oh wow."
"Come for me." He whispered into her and continued his motion. She let herself come apart at his touch and felt her legs jitter and shake. Finn's face reappeared and he beamed.
Rachel beckoned for him to come to her and she grabbed his hand and pulled him on the bed, he laughed as he tripped a little and she made her way on top of him, "In three days, I have officially had 8 orgasms. Four days ago, I didn't even know what one felt like." Rachel explains, "You have got to be some sort of super hero." Rachel grinned.
Finn put his hands on her hips, "I'm not a super hero, I'm just a guy who is really into you." Finn chuckles "And really into getting you off." He tells her honestly and she leans down to kiss him softly.
"For the record, I'm really into you being in me." Rachel said in her dirty voice that Finn had come to love over the last three days.
"Yeah, I am pretty in love with it too." Finn offered and Rachel's heart gushed with passion at the word 'love' coming out of Finn's lips in reference to her. No, he hadn't said he loved her, he said he was in love with having sex with her. She couldn't decide if it was sweet or just dirty. She didn't care. She squeezed him tightly and let herself drift to sleep.
Finn slipped out from under her, his hunger getting the best of him and finished cooking his sandwich and ate it quickly. He ate half of the salad he had made and was impressed that it wasn't that bad. He wrapped the rest up and started to clean up and her heard Rachel's phone go off.
He walked to grab the phone and answered it without really thinking.
"Hello?"
"Who in gay hell is this?" He heard the voice of his step-brother on the other end. They had never met but had spoken twice, about the wedding and Kurt called him when his mom had been in a car accident.
"This is Finn. Is this Kurt?"
"Where is Rachel?"
"She is napping." Finn said awkwardly, cursing himself for answering. The contact said best friend, he for some reason assumed it would be Santana.
"Why are you in her hotel room?" Kurt squeals and Finn feels the shame and guilt flood him.
"Uh, I'm not, she's at my place." Finn explains and hears Kurt's coming undone.
He says something loudly and so high he can't really understand, "Uh, dude, sorry. I can't really understand you. I'll have her call you tonight." Finn tells Kurt. "I'm taking her to the airport at 6 so…"
"Where is Santana?" Kurt finally says.
"She's with Puck." Saying his name makes Finn cringe.
"You tell her to call me." Kurt says in a mean tone, "And Finn… I'm disappointed in both of you."
Finn's heart aches and he knows Rachel's will break, "You can't do this to her, dude. You can't make her feel worse than she already does. Can't you… like, be supportive?"
"No, Finn." Kurt yells, "I can't. Jesse is a really good guy, and you, well you're kindof an asshole."
"You don't even know me." Finn argues.
"And who's fault is that?"
"Please, I just don't want her to hurt."
"Well she is going to. She made her bed. And you fucked her in it." Kurt spat and Finn saw red.
"Are you fucking kidding me, Kurt?" Finn yells, "You're acting like- like a high school girl."
"No, I'm pointing out to you that you're doing this, so don't lecture me about not hurting her. You're doing that enough for the both of us. We're done here."
And with that Kurt hung up and Finn spun around to see Rachel in the entry way of the living room, "This is going to suck, huh?" Rachel whispers.
Finn nodded, "Yeah, it sure is."
Rachel found herself in the airport saying goodbye to someone she really really cared about once again. Except this time, she was the one leaving.
"I'm going to go get a magazine." Santana states, "You love birds have two minutes."
Rachel felt the tears well up in her eyes and Finn took her in his arms, "It's not goodbye, sweetie." Finn whispers into Rachel's hair and she couldn't stop the flow of tears as they fell out of her eyes and into Finn's shirt.
"I'm going to miss you." She says simply.
"I already miss you." Finn responds. "Text me when you get there. I wish you'd let me come."
"No, Finn. You are recording this week, you need to be with your band."
Finn refused the urge to make a comment about Puck and Sam and just kept holding her. They stayed like that as long as they could until Santana snapped her fingers and Rachel leaned back, "Thank you for a perfect weekend."
"Thank you for being perfect." Finn said back and Rachel cracked a smile. "Rachel, I think I" Finn wanted to tell her how he felt, he wanted to spill his guts to her, to give her a reason to come back to him. But he knew that in a crowded airport with Santana staring them down wasn't the place. "Come back to me." He settled on and she nodded before kissing him lightly.
"I will, I promise." Rachel told him and reluctantly broke their embrace.
Rachel and Santana made their way through security and Finn stayed and watched until they were out of sight. He got back in his truck and didn't let himself cry, he promised himself that he would see her again. Soon. This was 'see you soon', he reminded himself.
Rachel texted Jesse telling him she was at the airport and said not to wait up for her and felt her phone vibrate. She checked it, assuming it was from Jesse.
"I miss you already."
Rachel smiled at the sweet text from Finn and texted him back,
"You have no idea."
"Don't break my heart."
Seeing that text from Finn made her fall apart all over again.
"You either. Thank you for everything Finn. You really were perfect."
"I really AM perfect. Make sure you text me that you landed safely. Fly safe, baby."
Rachel breathed out a shaky breath and looked at an expectant Santana, "Okay girl! DISH!"
Rachel spent the four hour flight filling Santana in on all of the details, she told her Kurt's reactions and her plan to leave Jesse. She told her how she had never felt this way before and she told her that Finn seemed the same way. She told her about Quinn calling and everything in between. Santana in turn told Rachel that Puck spilled that he was still in love with Quinn and that she never even let him see the baby. Santana said that she didn't care about Puck, but the involvement of Quinn Fabray, her co-cheerio and the bain of her existence made her skin crawl. The last hour of the flight was spent whispering all the dirty details of their sexual adventures and Rachel was grateful that she was able to do such a thing. Rachel had literally never been able to do that. Her sex life had never been so good.
When they got back to Lima, Santana dropped her off and she carried her bags into the small home. The house was dark and cold and she went to turn up the heat. She poured herself some soy milk and ate a couple cookies. Rachel went upstairs and saw Jesse passed out in their bed and the only feeling that she felt was guilt. She slipped out of her skirt and put on her PJs and walked into their spare bedroom.
"Hello?" Finn asked with excitement.
"I'm home." Rachel said quietly.
"I'm glad you're home safe."
"Me too. Wanna talk tomorrow?"
"Aren't you going to tell me how everything went with Jesse?" Finn seemed surprised.
"No, he's sleeping. I haven't talked to him." Rachel was almost irritated that Finn thought it was done right there and then.
"Don't be mad at me. Just wishful thinking."
"I know, Finn. I'm sorry. I'm just, just really stressed." Rachel admitted.
"I miss you" Finn whispered and Rachel nodded against the phone.
"I miss you too, babe."
"Baby?"
"Yeah?"
"Sleep well, dream about me. I-I-I"
"What's wrong, Finn."
"I just. Sorry Rach, I'm super nervous."
"Why are you so nervous?"
"Because I wanted to tell you… I love you."
"Oh."
"You don't have to say it back or anything. I just wanted you to know that… you have someone waiting for you that really really loves you."
Rachel sniffled, "No, Finn. I do love you. That's why this whole thing is so, so crazy. Because I do, I really do."
"It's not crazy, baby. It's amazing." Rachel could hear the smile in his voice and that made her beam.
"Goodnight Finn, thank you for telling me. I'll talk to you tomorrow."
"See you soon, Rach."
Rachel grinned and made a kissing noise. "Muah! See you soon, Finn."
Rachel and Finn hung up and Rachel sighed before making her way into her room. She climbed into bed and curled up into a ball. She had woken up in bed with Finn, now she was going to sleep in her own bed with Jesse. Her red cat Sammy slinked up to her and cuddled by her side and Rachel smiled at her.
"Hi Sammy." She whispered and heard Jesse readjusting himself on the bed.
"Rachel?" Jesse asked in a groggy voice.
"Hey Jesse, yeah, I'm home."
He turned over the put his arm around her, "Glad you're home safe." Jesse yawned before kissing her cheek and Rachel fought the tears in her eyes and opted to not speak.
Rachel wanted to cry herself to sleep, but couldn't do it with Jesse hanging on her. Instead she just lie there and stare into darkness and will sleep to come.