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Alice's POV
I awoke to the sound of shrill beeping. I opened my eyes to find the source of the annoying sound, but the light was so bright, I closed my eyes, and tried to work it out by the smell and sounds.
Antiseptic... Paper... Beeping... Really bright... Carlisle.... Wait, Carlisle? Shit, this cannot be good.
Slowly, I opened my right eye, to peek through my lashes. It was still very bright, and really blurry, so I closed them and tried to will the headache away.
"Alice?" Jasper?! "Alice, are you awake? Please... Please, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I... Don't die Alice. Please. I love you... Don't die..." His broken whispers made my heart heavy with guilt. What I did was selfish, and I wish I could take it back then we could-wait! Did I hear correctly, or did he just say he loves me? Now would be a perfect time for my mouth to start forming words...
"Jasper?" I rasped. Would somebody shoot me now? When I said words, I meant more then one!
"Alice?"
"No, my name's Jessica Bradley, I have five sisters and an older brother. Who else would it be, idiot?!" Shit. I need a filter installed between my brain and my mouth.
"What?" he asked, not catching onto my sarcasm.
"I was kidding Jazz. Gosh, you've become such a wet blanket. What happened to the Jazz that I know and love?" Please tell me I didn't just confess my love for him. Please. Eh, he wouldn't catch on.
"You love me, huh?" Maybe he did catch on.
"Uh... No?" Way to go, loser. Why don't you tell him that... "James always used to hit me." Round of applause for the douche bag.
I swear I saw his heart break. It made me want to smile, but then I realised the reason he was in pain was because of the injustice and the fate that left me in a hospital. He fell to his knees, and tried to breathe normally. A wave of guilt crashed over me. I couldn't be happy because he wasn't. He was still in my heart, and I'll never let him go! ...Where did that come from? I must be crazy. I hope not.
"You're not crazy." Oh shit. Am I speaking out loud? I hope not. I wonder how much he heard! Oh God, kill me now!
"Firstly, yes, you are speaking out loud. Secondly, you started at 'I couldn't be happy because he wasn't'. And thirdly, I'm not going to let anybody kill you." Oh shit, oh shit, oh SHIT!
"Stop screaming 'oh shit' and calm down. You're going to have a heart attack if you keep acting like that."
"Okay, calm." I winced, and his eyes grew wide. "I'm fine Jazz." He saw right through my lie, but didn't say anything.
"Alice, who's he?" I blinked, confused at what he was asking.
"When you were thinking out loud, you said 'he was still in my heart, and I'll never let him go!' so I was wondering who 'he' was," Jasper explained. Oh!
"Um, he is..." its you, its you, its you, its you, its YOU! SHUT UP BRAIN! "uh... well..."
"Alice, I hope you realise you were chanting 'its you'." Oh SHIT!
"And someone as small and innocent as you should really stop swearing," he suggested, chuckling. Gosh he has a sexy laugh...
"Do I now?" SHIT!
"Gah, Alice! You have quite a vocabulary there," he teased.
"Shut it, derro." What a great comeback there, douche bag! Oh shut up brain!
"You talk to your brain now?"
"LEAVE ME ALOOOOONE!" I cried. Mentally unstable much?
"Seems like it."
"Get out NOW!" I shrieked. God he was annoying the crap out of me. If he wasn't so God damn sexy, I'd have Emmett beat the shit out of him.
"Would you now?" he asked smirking. I glared. If he isn't out of my room in five seconds I'm seriously going to reconsider my decision to have him throttled.
"Okay, okay. I'm leaving!" he threw his hands up as a sign of surrender. "I was just going to say, I'm sorry for being such an asshole. I shouldn't have said those things, and I'm really sorry Ali-bear." Oh great, he was giving me the pouty face I taught him when we were kids. I could feel my glare soften, and his eyes lit up with hope.
"Fine!" I exclaimed, exasperated. "I forgive you. Now come here and gimme that hug I missed out on in the airport." He was through the doorframe and hugging me within seconds. Wow, he must have really missed me...
"You're damn right I missed you." He pulled back to take in my battered form. "I see you aren't wearing the necklace I gave you?" he asked, his face fell, and his eyes were filled with hurt.
"What necklace?" I asked, confused.
"The one I slipped into your handbag before I left for Texas."
"Um, you never- OH! I never actually opened that." Because I was so distraught when you left that I didn't eat until a month after you left.
"You didn't eat?! Alice are you crazy?! No wonder you're so skinny! And I thought Maria was bad!" He froze once he realized what he said. "I mean... uh... shit."
"Whose Maria?" I asked, calmly.
"Maria is a... friend. She's been helping me the past year and we kind of-" He was cut off by Emmett bounding into the room, with Rosalie trailing behind him.
"Jasper bro! Howzzit? Me and some peeps were just gonna go gatecrash some partaaaaay, brutha!" Trust Emmett to lighten the mood. I smiled, and waved with the hand that wasn't attached to the IV.
We talked for what seemed like hours, before Emmett brought up the subject of Maria.
"So, Jazz, how's you and Mariaaaa?" he asked in a sing-song voice. I froze. Is he dating her? I felt the tears worm their way to the surface.
"Um, Maria and I... we kind of-" Emmett once again cut him off.
"Oh my God, are you guys getting married?!" he exclaimed. Jasper's face paled, and Rosalie was smiling like a Cheshire cat. She must really like the girl, so I guess I could learn to like her too.
Jasper opened his mouth to say something, but before he had gotten a word out, a nurse popped into my room.
"Excuse me kids, but visiting hours are now over. You may come back to see Miss Cullen in the morning." I was so grateful for her, I almost jumped out of the bed to hug her. But I was in no shape for jumping or running, so I settled with a small smile in her direction.
After they left, she bustled around the room. She injected some painkillers into the IV, which was attached to my hand, and left, with a quiet 'goodnight' and a small wave. The painkillers started to take effect, and before I drifted into what I hoped was a peaceful slumber, I though about Jasper and Maria. I had no idea how I was going to handle it, but if she was what Jasper wants, then who am I to stand in the way?
Author's Note: Hello my lovely readers!
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