Damon reminds himself who he is, and realizes he's not himself anymore. During Disturbing Behavior and a few flashbacks. First try at a Damon P.O.V. wish me lots'o luck.

"'I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir,' said Alice, 'because I'm not myself you see.'"
- Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland, Chapter Five.

This will be forevermore be considered a no-good-very-bad-day. I fed and attempted bloody murder on Bill Forbes or as I like to call him Mr. Torture-Happy Father. Nobody called Stefan on it when he threatened to kill/turn John, but I guess since I'm me Elena has totally different rules. I'm even a feeling bit humilated I let a a seventeen year-old blonde little Daddy's girl kick my face to the floor. I'm kinda regretting not pushing Elena away that night at the carnival, and driving a stake through the little brats heart and ending her for good- But that's just how the cookie crumbles right?

"You can't do this anymore Damon, Not here, not in this town, not around me!"

"Why not? Nothing I haven't done before. Why is it suddenly so important for everyone to keep me in check?"

"Because I don't want you to be what other people think that you are!"

"What? A monster? Sorry to disappoint you, Elena but last time I checked I was still a vampire!"

"Yes, but I wish that you didn't have to act like one!"

"I am NOT Stefan. How about you stop trying to turn me into HIM?"

"Mommy, why'd you name me demon."

"I named you Damon, darling."

"Yeah but George Lockwood says that means demon."

"That boy is more a demon than you will ever be with his quick temper besides- Damon is the opposite of Demon sweetheart, Damon's are angels."

"How strange, why didn't they give them different names entirely."

"I suppose the writers of the Bible weren't very creative."

"You don't believe in angels do you Mother?"

"I believe you're an angel."

"S'not the same thing though."

"Shh, don't tell you're Father or anyone else for that matter- people will accuse me of witchery I'm sure."

"You said witches aren't bad."

"They aren't but the people of this town are so ignorant of the darkness that they're a danger to themselves and everyone else."

"I don't understand."

Aurora sighed, "No I suppose you don't, but you will one day- though I hope not." she shut the drapes by his bedside and Damon snuggled under the covers as she tucked him in and kissed his cheeck.

"Goodnight, little angel."

"You need to take a beat with Elena."

First of all who the hell says 'Take a beat' is that code for something idiotic and totally Alaric beacuse I don't get it.

Seriously? Who did this guy think he was? I was an one hundred and seventy one year old vampire with a Ripper-happy brother and a feisty little dopple-ganger crush who wouldn't sleep with me if I was the last man/vamp on earth and she was drunk out of her skull with brain damage.

Alaric didn't have to protect Elena from me, Elena didn't need protection from me and the idea she would under any circumstances was downright insulting. I thought we were friends Ric. Guess not.

He really deserved that neck-snapping.

"Think before you act son."

"But Father! He punched me first."

"And if he hd kissed you what would you have done?"

"You're just being funny now Father."

"If I'm not funny then I'm not anything."

"Haha."

"That was fake laughter Damon, it serves only to be more humilating."

"But that was the purpose dear Father."

"You think you're adorable don't you?"

"Nope you do, and I'll use that to my advantage."

I have a temper everyone knows that, and when control runs short they should run like they're supposed to not stand in the way.

'Can't they see? You're smothering me. Holding too tightly. Afraid to lose control.'

-Linkin Park, Numb.

I'm tired of double-standard. Vervain in the water system to Keep me in control? Everytime I'd take a shower I'd burn my... well, Everything.

Screw that.

Little blonde vamp is younger than me, she'd probably die of vervain posioning as she took a bubble bath.

Not that I really... Care. or anything.

When I discovered Caroline's father is immune to being compelled, I want to kill him not invite him to breakfast watch as he poured vervain in my water supply and showed everyone else his little mind trick, but Alaric and Elena stand in the way, much to my annoyance.

And Snap.

Ric's dead but not really dead.

Elena freaks out and calls barbie to come save Daddy.

Caroline gets a punch in and everyone's looking at me like the monster that I am.

(I'm not so sure I am anymore.)

Stefan needs to get his ass home before I start throttling, everyone of them in their stupid sugar plum dreaming sleep.

Goddammit now I'm hungry.

"Big Brother whats a vampire?"

"Not real."

"Are you sure? Father says so."

"Father's a mad-man, truthfully I'd rather have a real horde of vampires in town than a maniac for a Father."

"He says those flowers will protect us."

"Do you really believe that a flower will protect you? Besides the fact they're ugly and smell awful- what could they possibly do to a vampire?"

"Father says it burns them like holy water would a demon."

"Demons aren't real either Stefan."

"Oh? How do you explain-"

"Stefan I'd love to explain all of that- but I'd really rather not, you can ask questions when you're dead. nNw stop following me around like a lost puppy and play with you're friends."

"Do I annoy you brother?"

"You have no idea."

"I'm telling Father!"

"You are the one that I despise. You are the light, I am the vampire."

-People in Planes, Vampire.

Stefan needs to re-read the script, I'm not a hero and he's definitely not the villian.

I can't do this. I can't save Elena alone, and I can't be the good-guy.

I'm only good at being bad.

Sorry to disappoint you little brother.

Guess the little sucker understands how I felt when we were children and he followed me around.

Little Victories I suppose.

(Ugh the ass even killed Andie, I hate when he breaks my toys.)