There Are Days Like This Too

by The Lady Ley

Ryo is struggling to keep his sanity while he starts picking up bad habits he developed when his parents died. Mix in a psychopathic murderer, a traumatized Bikky, and Dee who's patience is about to wear thin, you too would have a hard time keeping sane!

2. here there is no salvation

There Are Days Like This Too

Author: Irish Kaoru

Disclaimer: I do not own Fake, it's story, the 27 precinct or really anything that has to do with anything. I am just a lowly writer so take me for what I am. Thank you!

Chapter Two:

Here there is no Salvation

A/N: Thanks to those who read, thanks for those that reviewed, and thanks to the friends that I have that are reading this. That is all.

Sometimes when a person takes a look at their life all they have the ability to see in that one fleeting moment is the negative aspects, what is wrong with their personality, their hobbies, work, and or school. For some people things that seem like they should be nothing to worry about become larger problems. Ryo was one of those people.

Although he had gotten a lot better at being ok with himself from the time that he was just a young boy there were still things that plagued him every day when he looked in the mirror. He found that he was to fat, although the scale (and Dee) told him different, he thought that he was ugly, although the number of people going after him grew all the time, and he thought that he had a horrible personality regardless of all the things that he did on a day-to-day basis to help out those that were in need of help. Life in general was taking a toll on him and he felt powerless to stop the oncoming storm.

He took to the one thing that he knew had brought him any kind of salvation when he was younger. Sharp and sleek, power in the palm of his hand, and when he held the object that had caught his affections he felt better almost instantly. The blood that he spilled was not that of another person's but himself. He made his marks and sat back to admire the work that he had done… there was something about the way that the blood looked on his pale white skin that was almost memorizing, it kept him in as trance and he found it harder and harder to look away each time.

He thought that he was being smart with it, covering the scars that he was making under long and lose clothing, he was however very, very wrong. There were several people that took notice to the way that he was acting, but as it is with people who have the problems that Ryo had, he was beyond oblivious to this fact.

Dee was the first to take note of Ryo's odd behavior. His skin had paled, he was wearing long sleeve shirts even to bed, and his appetite was almost nonexistent. When they were not working he was sleeping, which, was not all that strange he guessed because of the fact that they were working late nights and early mornings but still it was a sign of depression.

Dee had dealt with people like that almost all his life. Although Penguin tried to make it as comfortable and home like for the children in the orphanage as possible, how were they suppose to feel knowing that there was no one other than her and God that wanted them? He remembered the long nights in the orphanage when he would stay awake past lights out to help out a friend in need, to listen to them talk about whatever they needed to talk about but were to macho to do in the daylight. .

Ryo was showing all the signs of a person that had fallen into depression and yet he couldn't bring himself to say anything to Ryo about it. After all any time that he asked if Ryo was ok he would say that he was. Not that that would stop Dee but when Ryo became all defensive about it. Dee decided to stop pushing the issue, if he wanted to talk he would talk. Ryo did know that he was there for him right?

No, Ryo didn't know that Dee was there for something like this, in fact he had already worked the scenario out in his head. If he told Dee, showed Dee, or let Dee find out, Dee would yell and leave him. At least that is what Ryo honestly believed. How could Dee love someone that was not all there in the head?

The next person that took notice to the way that Ryo was acting was Bikky. Ryo had stopped pestering him about school work, making sure that he knew where he was at all times, and he had all but given up on trying to put himself into his business. At first he didn't mind, it only meant that Ryo was to busy himself or that he had begun to trust him to do the right thing when he wasn't around. But that was when he started to notice the same things that Dee had, the long sleeve shirts, always sleeping, never eating.

But if Ryo really did have some sort of problem it really wasn't his place to meddle in it. Perhaps he and Dee were in the middle of a cold war… no that couldn't be it because when they were together the two of them got on as well as ever. Who knows, Ryo had to be one of the most complex people that he had ever met.

Then there was the ever observant Carol who had begun to notice all of the above stated. But seeing as how she saw herself as an outsider it was far from her place to say anything to Ryo about this. She had though about talking to Dee about it but it seemed like that would be just as hard. Although it was a little out of character for her to sit back and do nothing, she felt as though there was really nothing that she could do at this moment. Things would either improve on their own or Ryo would have to talk to someone. Either way things would improve… right?

Lastly there were his co-workers, mainly Rose and JJ. Rose had notices that there was a slight change in his attitude at work. At moments when Ryo was famous for being cool and level headed he would snap, and not to mention that same brazen attitude was unleashed on his other colleges from time-to-time as well. Work was not being completed in the time frame that it should be… another thing that Ryo was amazingly skilled at doing.

JJ had noticed that Ryo no longer cared that he was always hanging around Dee. It was common knowledge that he and Dee were together now but shouldn't he be a little jealous, he always was even when they weren't together. But it was not his place to say anything and risk loosing the one chance that he may have of steeling his hunky man away.

Ryo thought that he was doing a good job at hiding everything that was wrong with him. He knew that some people gave him looks, hell he knew that he looked like he had seen better days but it was all to easy to play that off as being stressed out a little from the case and working long nights. In his mind his façade was good, not a single flaw. In reality it was transparent as plastic wrap.

All and all everyone had really taken a notice to the way that Ryo's behavior had changed but it was not so alarming that they found a need to make him talk about it; something that they would soon be sorry for.

A/N: Once again thank you for reading. Like i said before i so not condone the acts that Ryo has done in this story and they are habit forming (DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME) (ok so that was my attempt at humor but i really am not in a laughing mood sorry ) I don't care if you like, love, or hate... and i could care less if you review... that is up to you. But thanks for those that have read this and returned for the second chapter. Sorry but this may be a hard story to read because when i am writing this i kind have a tendency to re-live what i have done so things move fast and are slightly jumbled. That will not change and if it does it well i will be amazed at myself because that would actually mean that i didn't just write it and post it without a read through LOL.

I'll see some of you in chapter 3

Irish Kaoru