There are Days like This Too
Author: Irish Kaoru
Rating: T possibly M by the end
Disclaimer: You know the drill, I own nothing whatsoever!
A/N: OMG you guys!!! I love you all. In two days I got nine reviews for my last chapter. You guys rock! An update on why you are getting an update, I am 1,590 word beyond where I need to be right now (which means I have 6,591 word done) and figured that because you guys rock sooo friggin' hard core I would update a whole three days after my last up date!!!!
OK so we have another winner in my contest (that wasn't very much like a contest but still… Winry R posted in her review that the title of the story was displayed as the first letter of each chapter. This is correct. Right now I am up to chapter 10 meaning that this chapter will start with an 'A' Woot!
Ok please forgive my ramblings and I have spent the last three hours drinking coffee and playing with Dee and Ryo's lives a lot…. OHHH THE ANGST! I'll tell you I almost feel bad for Ryo so far… what I have put him through in this story is easily matched with what is about to happen to him in my other one –smiles sweetly- but you love me for it!!!
TO Ai McLean and Winry R: Your characters will not show up till a little later but they will be here and both will play an important part…. Ai you are going to be helping Dee and Ryo while Winry you will be out there helping Danny. (Lately anytime I say Danny I want to start singing "Danny Boy"??? I am odd)
OK ON WITH THE STORY!!!!!
Chapter 10
Argument
Dee's POV
I sat down on the hard plastic chair in the dinning facility ready to dig into my food. What the hell was that? I can't tell if it's a leek or a mushroom and it is kind of scaring me because leeks and mushrooms look nothing alike! Another reason I hated hospitals, their food sucked and was far from edible.
I still had another ten minutes to blow before I could see Ryo and thought that it would be a good idea to try and eat something because I hadn't gotten the chance all day. Not after everything that happened. However, this idea like so many others I had was a bad one. I threw the untouched substance away with a last grimace and headed towards Ryo's room.
I had to check in with the nurse at the front desk. I showed her my id and watched as she flipped through a bunch of papers before buzzing me though the two silver double doors. It annoyed me slightly that they were keeping Ryo here. I knew that he wasn't insane and that there was no reason to keep him behind lock and key. But the doctor did say it was for his safety.
As I walked down the hall I couldn't help it, I had to look in the other rooms so that I knew what to expect when I got to Ryo's. Somewhere in my mind I had pictured white padded walls and bars on the windows. But much to my relieve there was neither. The only thing that I saw that irked me a little was the light tan and white restraints that were attached to all of the beds.
I stopped outside of the door labeled 444 and took a deep breath. I had been so caught up in wanting to see Ryo that I had no clue what I would say to him when that time came. I knew I wanted to ask him why, hell I needed to know why but would he really be up to answering that question?
It wasn't until the door opened by itself that I snapped out of my personal daydream. I was standing face to face with none other than Danny. The doctor gave me that annoying smile before stepping back so I could look into the room. Ryo was still lying in the bed with his eyes close. I looked at the doctor confused. He said that the drugs should have worn off by now.
"Don't worry Dee, he is awake just resting." He told me softly as if he didn't want to disturb Ryo. He gave me a small reassuring pat on the back "he is responsive, knows that he is in the hospital and that he has been admitted into this ward. He is having some problems moving around but that's normal, most of the drug has left his body but not all. He'll be good as new physically in the next hour or so. He was asking about you, you shouldn't keep him waiting." He gave me a wink and pushed me into the room I heard the door close behind me.
Taking a deep breath I walked towards the bed and sat down on the edge. I watched as Ryo's eyes fluttered open and my heart automatically began to beat faster. I almost felt like I would never see that again. It was the little things about Ryo that made me fall in love with him over and over again. This just happened to be one of them.
"Hey sexy." I whispered brushing a few hairs out of his face. He gave me a weak and unsure smile. "How yah feeling?"
"I've been better." He said I smiled at him and lent over to brush my lips across his forehead. "How about you?"
"Been better." He gave a small laugh and told me that he could tell because I looked like shit. I easily bantered back with him saying I would rather look like shit than road kill. And automatically with those few words we seemed to be back to normal. He was still my ever funny, caring, and oh so sweet Ryo the man that I had fallen in love with at first glance. I bent over him and rested my forehead against his. I felt his good arm slink over my back and pull me closer.
"I was so worried about you." I confessed. I felt him stiffen a little under me, "but I am happy that you are ok." He pushed me back so that he could sit up and looked me in the eye.
"Dee whatever you think I did isn't what happened." He refused to let me go, his eyes were still locked with mine and ashamed with myself for not believing him I had to look away,
"I'm telling you the truth Dee." He sounded frantic. "Really, I was cutting up the onions for the sauce and my hand slipped. I didn't know that it was as bad as it was until I couldn't see straight. Please tell me you believe me Dee!" I looked at him again before pushing myself away from him.
"Ryo there was so much blood, and how did you cut yourself on the wrist of all places?" I pointed to mine for emphasis. He just stared at me.
"You really have no trust in me." It was meant to be a statement but it came out more like a question. Did he really have to ask? What reason did I have to truly trust him?
Ryo's POV
He didn't believe anything I just told him. I could see it in his eyes. It was in the way that he wouldn't look at me and when he did look at me he looked guilty. Why didn't he believe me. I felt my eyes begin to tear up. Just how many times had I cried today, I didn't even think that I had enough tears left to cry.
"I don't know Dee, I was careless. I wasn't thinking I didn't want to think Dee. Every time I sat down I would start to see things in my head and think about things that I didn't want to think about. I didn't do it!"
"God damn it Ryo, I am not going anywhere, its ok to tell me the fucking truth you know. Your stuck with me so why can't you just tell me what really happened." He yelled at me. Dee never yelled at me, well he did but only when I deserved it, never like this.
"I am telling you the truth!" I yelled back at him feeling it was my only self defense. "I am telling you the truth, why don't you believe me?"
"What fucking reason do I have to believe you Ryo? You were sitting in the god damn bathroom this morning cutting your arms! Then when I come home you are lying in a pool of blood with a very deep wound in that same damn arm! The cut's too high for it to be an accident Ryo. Tell me the fucking truth!" His words bit into me, they tore me apart on the inside. How could the one person that meant more to me than anyone else have no faith in me?
"Get out." I whispered, I couldn't stand to see him, I couldn't take the betrayal. He made no move to leave and I looked dead into his eyes and for the first time in my life I swore I hated him. "I told you to get the fuck out!" I yelled. He took one last look at me on his way out the door.
"I still love you Ryo." He whispered before closing the door behind him. I buried my face in my hands and sobbed like a lost child. He didn't believe me, he betrayed me, he left me. 'Yes he left you' I thought, 'but wasn't it you that pushed him away?
A/N: I know it's short and I am sooo sorry for that but I have to get back to writing the other story so that I manage to stay ahead. I hope that you will find it in your heart to forgive me.
Thanks again for all the support you guys…. or girls rather. It really does mean a lot to me!
I just want to refresh your memories… Ryo really didn't try to commit suicide, the knife really did slip while he was cutting onions. This is why he is so upset that Dee doesn't believe him. I know a few of you thought Ryo tried to commit suicide but that is not the case
Until next time Ja ne
Irish Kaoru