There Are Days like This Too

Author: Irish Kaoru

Rating: T possibly M by the stories end

Disclaimer: We are on chapter twelve people if you don't get it by now you never will!

A/N: Ahhh yes the lovely fan fiction realm. A place where one can let their imagination run wild with ideas for fictitious characters that are not theirs and cause a massive destruction, love, and over all craziness for them. This is my home and I love it so. I know that I am not the best writer that is on this website and that does not bother me for I have a great and loyal fan base that I love dearly. My author note will be a little long today, I ask that you stay with me as I have a few things that I really need to say.

First of all I have some wonderful news, I will be back and writing for this story (although it seems as if I never left it) because I have officially hit my 50,000 word goal thus meaning that I have successfully finished NaNoWriMo this year. (Passes out cookies and soda or juice to all of my readers) This is a very large accomplishment for me seeing as how I have been doing NaNoWrimo for five years now and have never managed to actually win it. Now I may bask in the glory that comes with it…. which in truth is nothing more than an e-mailed certificate saying that I have won the challenge.

However, I may have finished the challenge that was presented to me as of November first, I am no where near done with the story. Please have no fear as I do in fact plan on finishing it and posting it here on ffn.

I would like to thank a few people in particular that have helped me greatly through the month with words of encouragement and an e-mail or two.

First is AI MacLean: My dear your encouragement and ability to make me hate myself for wanting to give up has greatly helped me through almost every problem that I have suffered through the month. Thank you my tomodachi for being there when I needed you the most!

Second is IridescentGaze: you pointed out to me that I was freaking out to much about the historical facts for my story and reminded me that I am not trying to write an award winning novel where accuracy is everything, it is indeed a fan fiction (or FAN fiction as you put it) and artistic license is an amazing thing. Thank you for grounding me in reality!

Third is Maskelle: you are right I need to take a break from the pressures of writing sometimes and remember to breath. After doing what you said I felt like a new person and was able to sit and write another 16,000 words in 24 hours. Thank you!

And lastly is to all of my loyal readers: The kind words that you gave me though the month were really what kept me going. I am sure without you all I would never have been able to complete this task. You all have helped me greatly and for that I am ever grateful.

With that being said I have two more pieces of news that I am going to wrap into one. While I was doing NaNoWriMo I came to a conclusion. I WILL BE PUBLISHED SOMEDAY! This is a dream that I have had since I was young and now is the time that I am going to fulfill it. I, believe it or not, do not write yaoi. I am not a shonen-ai gal nor do I think I have the talent to be published by writing homoerotica. My true passion comes in the world of fantasy. This is what I want to be published for. However to get there I will be in need of some people to read over my manuscripts and such before I send them to a publishing house. If you are interested please contact me!

Now that I have killed most of you all with my annoying long speech I give you the twelfth installment of the story… Enjoy and once again thank you mina-san!

Chapter Twelve

Somewhere My Angel Sleeps

Dee's POV

Night had fallen and I was dead tired. How could I not be after the things that I had been through? My biggest ally in this whole mess was also my worst enemy. It was amusing to think about in all honesty, but Berkeley was the one person who managed to keep me firmly planted in reality when I thought that I was going to lose it.

No matter how hard I tried I could not get thoughts of Ryo out of my mind. I was worried about him, his condition, and his emotional status. I couldn't help but think that I had done the wrong thing by walking out of his room. I beat myself up for it all day; I should have stayed and made him understand that I was very much in love with him even after this situation. However, that could have been just as deadly as leaving. By staying I could have caused the already breaking glass to shatter into pieces and made him hate me. Then again it was very possible that he hated me now for walking out on him, even if he was the one that told me to leave in the first place.

I rested my head on the cold window and let out a sigh. Below me the city was lit up like a Christmas tree and I could see people rushing here and there in the artificial light flooding the streets. Across the way I could make out central park and more importantly in my mind, the tree where Ryo and I had our first kiss.

I remember the whole thing like it was yesterday. Of all the stupid and air headed thing Ryo could have done since I met him this was almost on the top, second only to the Leo incident. But his home made bomb, no matter how badly placed, worked and because of him Bikky and myself were able to escape the hostage situation in one piece. Well almost one piece but my condition was done prior to any rescue attempt made by my occasionally dimwitted partner.

We managed to get away from the scene before the badger had arrived and made it as far as that tree before I needed to rest. We sat there letting the night breeze keep us company talking of little things, well what appeared to be little thing to us at that moment. Thinking back on it now perhaps Ryo knowing someone who helped him build a bomb was just a little larger than I thought at that point.

There was something that boiled up inside of me that night a feeling that I was not overly accustom to, a feeling that I couldn't name yet. Although I am sure somewhere in my heart I knew it was love perhaps at that point though I thought it to be lust or the like. Love, lust, whatever it was it was it was the emotion that was responsible for our fist kiss.

No thinking back on it now there is no way that I can say it was lust, or at least after the initial contact I knew it was something…more. Something powerful and controlling, something that I knew I would end up losing myself in.

The electricity that ran through my body with just that small contact was amazing. It felt as if my whole world was set on fire and I was burning up. It was at this point that I knew just how much I wanted Ryo. Once again I knew that it was more than lust, so I knew that I wanted him by my side not just in my bed. There was something that embedded it's self so deeply within me that night that no amount of fighting or denying it's existence would make it go away.

I sat back and rested against the frame that made up the small window seat in my apartment. It was odd to say my apartment. I haven't been here in months, even though Ryo and I had been dating for almost three years I had never moved in with him, although often enough I spent the night with him. The last time that I had come here was when he and I had gotten into a massive augment over something that must have been very petty otherwise I would have remembered it. Then again it is me that we are talking about; I have a habit of forgetting a lot of stuff.

I looked over at the futon that was pulled out so that Bikky could use it as a bed. The boy was emotionally exhausted and passed out. I was worried about him. He still had yet to say a word to me or even penguin since that moment that I found him standing in the kitchen staring at Ryo's blood staining the floor.

We had stopped back at the apartment on our way back from the orphanage so that Bikky could grab some things. The kid refused to even get out of the car and I wasn't about to force him. He had been thorough more than enough for a lifetime let alone a day.

There was so many things that I could honestly connect with him on but this was something that I knew I would not be able to help him with. Sure I dealt with death on a day to day basis but never once had I dealt with the murder of a person that I held in such high regards and my father's suicide attempt hours later. If I had to imagine what it would be like I would think that it would be like me watching Jess get shot and then going back to the orphanage to fine penguin laying in a pool of blood.

I ran a hand though my hair and just let my thoughts drift for a few moments. They always returned to same place, Ryo. It was late so I am sure that he is asleep now or at least resting. And even if I had called the hospital to speak with him I knew that they wouldn't allow it. I missed it and it hit me hard as I crawled into my cold bed. For the first time in many months I had no heat to help warm me.

I curled into a ball and began to cry. Not cry because of the things that Ryo had done but rather for the things that his actions caused, mainly my loneliness. Sleep followed me several hours later as the sun began to rise over the city. It wasn't that I was actually sleepy, or that I had eased my mind enough to allow me a peaceful rest as it was I had cried myself into oblivion and there was no energy left for me to give. As I slept I dreamt of thing that no person should have to dream, I relived each moment of my day in painful detail. I trapped myself in a dream world where nothing would play out with a happy ending. I saw all sorts of possibilities that could have, did, or may happen. Needless to say it had been one of the longest nights in my life.

A/N: I am sorry about the length of the chapter, the length of the authors note in the start of the of the story, and lack of plot development in this chapter. I felt that we were seeing just how hard Ryo was taking all of this that I needed to tell Dee's side as well. I will also have to write for Bikky, but that will happen a little later.

Two things before I wrap this up.

Please take a look at my profile. In there you will find a schedule of updates for this story and two others. (hint hint one of them is "All's Fair in Love and War.")

Urmm kinda like number one: take a look at my profile. For those of you who wanted to see it there is a small teaser in there for "All's Fair in Love and War". However, reader be warned it is an adult content. (AKA smexing… and for those of you who don't know what smexing is… it's sex (I don't know if perhaps Smex is just a word that we use in my region or what not))

Thanks again I love you all

Irish Kaoru

P.S. I will try to update this next week because I know this chapter sucked some major ass!!! Take a look at my profile for the exact days that you will see it published.