Fall for you chapter 3

It has been a couple of weeks since the...incident.
This wasn't like me at all.I was going insane,and this didn't seem like him at all much less me feeling this way when he kissed me.I thought I would get over it,but this was a different feeling. I hated this I couldn't stop thinking about what had happened,and what the hell! I shouldn't fall in love with my best friend but I ...this is me saying I was in love with him,but I'm too scared too call has a girlfriend I couldn't imagine how he felt right now.

I then got up from my bed and made myself some coffee. I really wasn't much of a coffee person,but today I was.I thought about it and I brought myself to call Carlos my good friend.
"hello?"he asked.
"hey Carlos its Melanie"
"hey! I haven't heard from you in a while"
"I know"I replied.
"so how's James"
"what?" that caught me off guard.
"hows james...he doesn't answer his phone anymore"
"uh..."I hesitated.
"Melanie?"
"yea I'm here"
"did you do something to James?"
"I...well not exactly me"
"oh god"you see that's the thing about knows what goes on even though you don't say anything.
"he...kinda kissed me"
"finally he has the guts to do that"no,now this time that caught me off guard.
"excuse me?,"
"did you not even realize that James has been in love with you for as long as anyone could remember"
"no"I retorted.
"he has always been in love with you"
"but...how can that be? I'm not his type...I'm not famous I'm not insanely hot,and I'm not a model"I forced my self to say those 's true though,and no James isn't a player but he just seems to always date those type of girls with no brain,or real body parts.I can't blame is good looking.
"Carlos it was a mistKe he's dating Ashley isn't he?"
"well yea but god Melanie he would give anyone up for you"
"no it can't be like that"
"well it is it he loves you,and I know you love him too don't break his heart"
"Carlos I ca-" I was cut off with a knock on the door.
"Melanie"
"yea just a sec"I said as I opened the door shocked frozen.
"Melanie?,Melanie! What's up?"Carlos shouted through the phone.
"uh Carlos I gotta go"I said and hung up.
"hey...um may I come inside?"James asked.
Speak of the devil.I thought.
"um yea..."I said opening the door wider.
"I think we should talk about what happened cause obviously your still shocked since you haven't called"James said.I frowned at that statement...me? I didn't call that's what he could have done,but before I could say anything he went on.
"I'm sorry...about what happened it shouldn't of happened"
I was still frustrated. Knowing I was going to mess this up I went along with it.
"bull...James you don't regret what happened,your just saying that because you think I regretted it!" I shouted.
He looked up in surprise.I don't think he had ever seen me as mad enough to yell at someone.
"are you saying you don't regret it?"
"I didn't say that...you were the one who should have called not me,but you have a girlfriend"
He was about to speak,but I went on.
"I'm not saying I regretted it,but I don't want to be the reason why you and Ashley break though I don't really like her it's not right"
"what do you mean you don't like her?"
"don't worry about,but get this in your head James...I'm not your type I could never be I'm not beautiful enough...so please just go"I said with tears racing down my face.
"Melanie...I..."
"james just leave"I said more frustrated.
"no"
"yes...this isn't good for us at all it's not fair to me or you,or ashley"
"but I love you"
"no you love Ashley"
"Mel...I dont love her"
"stop! I don't want to hear that stuff...just go to her don't leave her because of me"I said that because I know he will.I know him well enough.i know he will find something else and leave what ever he had his hands on before,until he realizes it's a mistake and I couldn't deal with the silence and the heartbreak afterwards.
"I already did Mel...I left her for you because I love you and I know your afraid but I love you more than I had ever loved anyone as much as you"
"no James you don't"
"I do"
I got frustrated and yelled,
"NO!JAMES YOU DON'T JUST GO!"
he then started to tear up and I walked away.
He left.
I then could deal with that pain...I fell to my bed crying