Even though I didn't get the 20 reviews I hoped for, :( I did get close to it, sooo I will let you guys get the chapter anyways! :) I love you guys too much not to give it to you. :)

Okay, so this chapter is short, but it does give you a hint as to why Edward is acting the way he is. :)

I had a feeling that if I wrote too much in this chapter, then I would've revealed a LOT of things..... and that would've ruined the story and we wouldn't want that would we?

Enjoy!!

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EPOV

Fuck.

I can't believe I just did that.

Fuuuck.

Why did I hit her? Why? What the hell did she do to me that was bad enough that would cause me to do that?

"Well, let's see. She tried to get you to talk about it and you got pissed at that; then she tried to say that your relationship with her would work if we worked together and you got pissed off of that too; oh, and, my favorite thing is she sung you a song that you almost stayed for while holding on to you and then you got even more pissed. Then you hit her."

Thanks, conscience, you sure know ways to make me not feel guilty.

"Anytime."

If what just happened was one thing, it was way out of my character. I wouldn't normally do that, would I?

Was this the person I was turning into? And if it was, was this the same person that Bella has been experiencing for all these months?

I would normally be able to contain my anger; I would've sat down and listened to her.

And the worst thing is that she was right….about everything.

I was a coward.

I was having sex with Tanya.

I could've attempted to make love to her.

I was a liar. Out of all the things that were said tonight, I think my lying is what caused her the most pain. I told her I didn't love her. I fucking told her I didn't love her! What the hell was I thinking then!

I loved her, I always did, but there was a part of me that always doubted it and it wasn't a regular doubt either. It was strong. There was a part of me that wanted to resent Bella, reasoning unknown.

I took a brisk look at the dashboard of my car.

10:35.

Ten minutes had passed. Alice should be there by now. There is no doubt in my mind that she did see that coming.

Alice. I can't even imagine her reaction to seeing her best friend's face caved in. She would probably yell, but I don't know what she would do when she saw me. I knew very well what the others might do, but Alice, I can't.

Carlisle would probably be stunned—Esme as well—he would probably want me to talk about it, which is not something I want to do because in the end, all it's going to do is make me guiltier.

Esme would be absolutely devastated. She loved Bella like her own child. She might stay away from me for a while.

Emmett, more than likely would try to beat me dead no doubt. As tough as he is, he would never ever hit a girl.

Rosalie, I don't think would do me much harm. She never liked Bella to begin with, yet, I have a strong feeling that when she talked with Bella, that might've changed.

Jasper will put me in my misery. He would make sure my feelings are so deep, I couldn't forget the incident, and frankly, I don't think I will.

My thoughts came to a halt when my phone vibrated in the passenger seat. I knew who it would be. I gripped the steering wheel until my knuckles turned pearl white, in an attempt to take out my anger, but that was no use.

The phone continued on vibrating in the seat and I finally came to the conclusion that it would probably be in my best interest to answer it.

I reached for it and flicked the cover open, "Hello, Alice."

"You weren't going to answer the phone were you, ass?" Her voice laced with the anger I unsuccessfully avoided.

"I contemplated it."

"You are an ass!! You're all cool and collected when your girlfriend is lying unconscious in the back seat of Emmett's Jeep."

"She's not my girlfriend, Alice. I broke up with her."

"You broke her alright!! Why the hell did you hit her?"

I don't know. Was it because I was in a serious denial and Bella saw through my poker face and called me out on it? Was it because I knew how much I really was hurting her and I needed to get away as soon as possible? I hate Tanya's mother and I hate Tanya.

"Hello?? I know you can hear me!"

"Alice, you know why I did it," I sighed.

"There is no reason why her face is smashed in Edward! And the reason you are insinuating does not count as valid."

"But Al-"

"Don't start Edward. You know what you did was wrong, and there is no justifying it! In all seriousness, what had she'd done to deserve this?"

"Nothing," I mumbled.

"What?"

"You know what I said, Alice." I muttered.

"I need you to say it again. I need you to hear yourself admit to what your actions are doing to other people."

"Nothing! She didn't do a damn thing! Are you happy now?"

"No, I'm not. Bella is not okay, and until she is, I don't think I can forgive you."

"Alice," I started but immediately was interrupted.

"I don't want to hear this. Bella is more important to me than you are right now."

"I'm coming to the hospital."

"No you're not. You wanted to leave her, leave her. She doesn't need you to do a hocus pocus act and appear and disappear when you want to. That is not how it will work and that is not how I will let it work."

She was right and as much as I hated to admit it, it was true. This is the third time I left Bella, and twice before, I came back to her.

"I..I don't know what to do, Alice."

"I can't help you with your issues. Deal with them yourself. I've grown sick and tired of you and your problems. All they do is worsen each time."

"Alice..," I paused and took a deep breath, "I'm sorry."

"Don't tell me that. Tell Bella that. I got to go, bye." The line went dead before I could respond.

I closed my phone and threw it in the seat beside me as I declared that I screwed up, bigger than I ever had before. I needed to fix this. I needed to fix Bella.

I re-gripped the steering wheel with a tight force as I decided what I had to do next.

As I began to think through my plan, my phone vibrated once again. I lifted it up and flicked the cover open to find a text. It was Tanya.

Did you handle that fragile thing? I hope you didn't let her go lightly.

I sighed and replied, giving her the answer she wanted.

Yeah, she's taken care of. She wouldn't let go without a fight, but I shook her off.

I redirected my thoughts back to my plan when it was interrupted once again by another text.

When are you coming back?

In a few days.

That was all the time I needed to get my plan in action. I just hope that this doesn't backfire because if it does, I'm screwed.

I turned down the hidden path that led to my house. The first part of this plan consisted of facing my family. This was one of the hardest parts, but I knew if I didn't do this now, I could never win Bella back.

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Okay, as you read, Edward has finally admitted his mistakes, part of the main reason for his doings, and part of what he is going to do to fix it.

There are two things I want to let you guys be aware of: 1) I will make a playlist for this story. When it is done I will post it on my profile, and let you guys know! and 2) I am writng another FF entitle 'Saving Me'. I wrote three chapters already, but I want to get TS a litte further before I start posting it. So if you want to read it, put me on Author Alert if you haven't already, so you can get it when I post it. :)

Well that's it.

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