There are Days Like This Too

Author: Irish Kaoru

Disclaimer: I don't own em... you should know this by now

Warning: Yaoi... as if you find much else in the FAKE category

A/N: Thank you to those of you who did review the last chapter. Once again I am sorry about the delay in writing I was gone to school for two weeks.

Chapter Seventeen

Every Dog Has His Day

Diana's POV

The case files were a complete mess which lead me to believe that there was more to Ryo's condition than Berkeley was letting me know about. Ryo had to be the most organized person that I knew and for his files to be in this state of disarray was beyond unusual for the man. But for once in my life I was not going to question it. After all things would be told to me on a need to know basis when it came to Ryo and although I would consider him a friend after everything that we had been through together, there were something that I was better off not knowing.

All that I had been told about it was that he was in the local hospital and that he would remain there for a little while until he was feeling better than he was now. Well I guess that I could say that I knew more about it. Berkeley had said that he was there because of a medical issue but it wasn't physical. Although he didn't come right out and say it I would still say that it was safe enough to assume that it was because of a psychological issue instead. If that was the case than I understood why Dee and Berkeley were so worried about keeping things under wraps so to say. It would not only be harmful to the unit if they were to find out that one of their own had cracked a little under the pressure, but it would also kill Ryo's career.

Things were definitely happening at a bad time when it came to Ryo and this case. Not only was it the case that the man had been working on that seemed to be in chaos but his personal life as well. Now with Carol having been killed there was little that anyone could do to cheer the man up. Although I did hear that he took the news a lot better than anyone thought that he would. If I was him I would more or less have lost it myself. Not to mention what would happen if I was already cracking under the amount of mental strain that this case had put me in. I would crawl under a rock and wish that the world would leave me alone. And I know that Dee feared that that is what Ryo would do.

The truth was that when Dee and Berkeley went to go and tell him about the news they said that he sat there for a moment in silence and then asked if there was any progress made with the case it's self. It seemed to them, and although it is cruel to say, with Carol's death there was a new resolve found within Ryo to do what he had to do to make sure that the case was solved. No Dee and Berkeley never said anything about Carol's death and the way that it relates to the deaths of all the other people that were killed thus far in the case. But Ryo is a smart man I am sure that he put two and two together. And perhaps it is exactly what we needed.

Not that her death should become a celebrated thing. It is always sad when a person that is so young loses their life like that, but when it comes down to it, if it helped Ryo get over his feelings and helped him to find his resolve then there is not much that I can say about it in an aspect that would make it sound one-hundred percent bad.

Dee's POV

I could tell that the sea hag was far from pleased with the way the files were stacked, how little there really was to them, and the way that they were organized. I could have blamed some of it on Ryo but in all honest the only person that there was to blame was me myself. If I had only noticed the smaller details of what was going on with Ryo, such as the way that his shirts were not as crisp as they normally were, the way that he didn't seem to mind that there was information missing in the case files, or even the way that he himself had organized them... if I had seen any of that and stopped living in my little fantasy world where I convinced myself that everything was ok... if I had made him talk to me before all of this happened, things wouldn't be like they are now. Ryo would be here with me and Diana, the cases wouldn't be so hard to go through because all of this work that we were doing now would have been done, and perhaps we would be one step closer to catching this guy.

If I had noticed all that there was to notice, would Carol still be around? Would we have some how managed to get to this guy before he got to Carol? No that's not all of it... I know that it is ridiculous of me to blame myself for all of this, but I did see, I noticed all the small things that were happening with Ryo and I ignored them when all he was really doing was crying out for a helping hand because he was to scared to ask for it.

I buried my head in my hands and rested them on the desk. Lately things have been pressing down on me with such a force that there was no way I could push back. I was almost sure that Bikky was about to buy himself a one way ticket to the same room as Ryo at the rate that he was going. It wasn't that the kid had other friends, it wasn't like me or the penguin were not there for him if he wanted to talk about it but in all reality he refused to talk to anyone. It wasn't just about Carol that he wouldn't talk about... it was everything, the kid hadn't said a dam word since the day that Ryo was admitted to the hospital and just when I thought that he was about to break out of his shell a little because Ryo was doing better Carol was killed and he reverted back even further within himself. He wouldn't talk, I had to beg to get him to eat, and most of the time he would just sit on the couch and watch TV with a blank look that showed me that he wasn't even watching it, more or less just looking at it to make himself look like he was doing something.

God how stupid was I? I could have prevented all of this if I had just gotten my head out of my god damn ass. If only there was a way that I could go back and make it all better. If there was a way that I could put myself in Ryo's position. What was he going through, what was it that ran through his head? Why was it that I couldn't do any of that? Why couldn't I be more sympathetic, damn this street kid way of life. Sure I was all about growing up on the street. I had dealt with suicide and depression before. But the way that people handled themselves on the street was so much different than the way that Ryo had acted. Is that why I was blindsided? Is that the reason that I refused to see what was so obviously displayed in front of me?

Bikky's POV

She's gone. That is all that I can think about lately. Carol is gone and I will never get the chance to see her again. She has left me, alone, here - all alone. I am left in the dark and I want to break down and cry. I want to scream at the top of my lungs so that I may feel a little better. I want to yell at her for leaving me. I want to tell her that I love her. I-I just want to hold her again.

I am not new to having things torn away from me, I have been there, I have done that. But god! Why couldn't have been me, why did you have to take Carol from me? Was it not enough that you had already screwed with Ryo's life like that, was it not enough for you that you had to take Carol and destroy mine as well. And what about Dee...

Dee had been acting a lot stronger than I knew he felt. Yesterday when I walked past his and Ryo's bedroom I could hear him sobbing. I had never heard of Dee crying, not once did I think he would be the type of person that would just break down like that.

I know I am not making things better by doing what I am doing, but it is a lot less painful for me if I just sit and not think. It is so much easier if I just sit here and watch the world with this blank stare, not moving, not talking, not feeling. It is as close to bliss as I can get.

Carol, Carol, Carol...

Danny's POV

Things were going as well as I hoped they would. Carol was now out of the way and Ryo, well lets just say Ryo is doing worse than he was before. After the news of his son's girlfriend's death... Carol I think her name was... he put on a brave face when Dee and his boss were here but for hours after he refused to talk to anyone, to see anyone, hell he didn't even eat until we threatened to us an IV on him. He was starting to seclude himself when some people were around.

Every time that I looked into those amazing onyx eyes of his I could see the raw emotions that were coursing through him. I could see the pain, sadness, and the feeling of defeat. Part of me was a little upset that this game was not proving to be a challenge at all. In fact, I had at least hoped that he would put up a little more of a fight than he was now. But I was in no position to look a gift horse in the mouth, so to say. He was breaking down, albeit faster than I had hoped, but that was the ultimate goal.

There were still a few things that I had to do, a few small... issues that I needed to take care of.

I looked over Ryo's medical file again. I knew that his only surviving blood relatives lived outside the city, but they came in everyday. I believe his uncle had told me something about having rented a hotel room in the city so they could be closer to Ryo if he needed them. It was a very kind thought of them, unfortunately it would be a gesture that led to their demise.

Although to take them out now would also be a very risky move on my part. Soon it would become obvious to the authorities that someone was after Ryo. The targets just matched up to well. Not that I doubted my ability to outsmart them. Hell they may have been New York Cities finest, but I assure you they have never met with someone like me before. I had this all planed out and although Elana and Rick coming into the city threw some of that off it wasn't like I would be led astray because of it. I had a goal, a job that I wished to preform and I would do it.

I had the resources at my fingertips as well. Karina and Justin would NEVER disobey my orders, they would never go against me. They were the puppets and I was the puppet master dangling them on a string making them dance for me and me alone.

Karina owed Justin her life, he saved her from none other than me one night when I had come home in a drunken rage to see her and some of her friends all sitting around high as hell off of coke. Now it wasn't like I was a person that easily flew off the handle like that. But I had lost one of my patients that afternoon and because of it I was in a really bad mood, so of course my discipline was a little harsher than normal. I guess I should have stopped hitting her once she was unconscious... but in all honesty that is the last thing that I remember until I myself came back from my own bout of unconsciousness; Justin having hit me in the stomach so that I passed out.

In a way I am happy that he stopped me because it meant that I would have the perfect puppet in Karina, who adored Justin to no end, she would never disobey me so long as I said I would kill Justin. As for Justin, well he owed his life to me. He had been in an accident a few years back, and like some sicking romance novel, the doctor and his charge fell in love with one another. I wouldn't say that it was bliss ever since then. No he is sometimes ungrateful and I just have to remind him of who he needs to pay his allegiance to. Not to mention that he was 'pure hearted' and still very much the pacifist. I wouldn't have kept him around otherwise... so much easier to manipulate him this way.

He also loves my daughter to death which provided me with the perfect bargaining chip... fuck me over and I will kill Karina. It was really quite simple. So long as both parties did what I told them, no one other than those that I deemed would get hurt. And yet I can't help but feel that if I am not carefully one of my little pets will bit the hand that feeds them.

As it is now however, I need to figure out who is next on the hit list. I could over look the aunt and uncle and go for the kill that I know would deal the most damage... apart from his dear Dee that is. Dee was a man that I would kill myself, he took Ryo from me, and because of that I needed to make him pay as well as Ryo for allowing another man to touch him.

Decisions... decisions... decisions.

A/N there you have chapter 17. I hope that it didn't disappoint as I know that I had a few problems writing Danny this time. (sigh) sometimes I lack the ability to write a psychopathic killer. (shrugs)

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