A/N: So I've officially moved in. I still have a lot of unpacking, organizing and painting to do as well as school. So I'll try and do my best to do everything within a decent time limit. (:

Edward's POV right now... ever wonder what's going on with him?

EPOV

Nerves and excitement ran through my body all at once.

I'm going to see her again.

Speeding through the empty streets of Forks in the pitch blackness of midnight, I was on my way to the hospital.

To Bella.

I had to tell her everything tonight, as much as I feared the outcome. Telling about my past with Tanya, I knew, would not be easy for me, and it definitely wouldn't be easy for her either; especially since I lied to her.

I just hope that she hears me out and hears me out to the end. Until I tell her that I want to solely want to be with her and that I broke things off with Tanya because I love her, even though I didn't show it.

I ran a shaky hand through my hair.

I hope this goes well.

Pulling into an empty parking spot, I exited my car and made my way up to the hospital doors.

Nodding at Thomas as I passed the front desk I bolted towards the elevator. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone outside of Bella at the moment. This needed to be done.

My nerves picked.

What if this doesn't go as planned? I mean it has to, right? Tanya's going to be here God knows when and Bella needs to know her life is in danger. She needs to allow me to protect her. I wouldn't want to be Tanya's slave if she succeeds in killing Bella.

If Bella dies...

I don't know what I'd do. I'd be in guilt and shame for the rest of my life, and at that point, I would do just about anything to piss Tanya off enough to have her end my life.

I ran my hands through my hair as I stopped in front of Bella's door.

I knocked and then waited. Something smelled off. I know that smell.

Fuck me.

The door opened and then I was faced with yet another obstacle.

Jacob Black.

"Cullen, what are you doing here?" he whispered harshly.

I peeked around him to see Bella soundly sleep on the bed in the room.

"I need to talk to her. It's important."

"You sure that's the only thing you want to do?" He seethed. "I mean, when she wanted to talk to you about something important, you smashed her face in."

I allowed my gaze to fall to the floor as I ran another nervous hand through my hair.

"I-I just need to make things right between us and tell her everything. She needs to hear it."

He snickered and I looked up at him questioningly, "I never thought I would ever see you so nervous Cullen. It amuses me."

A snarl erupted from my throat, "I would cut it if I were you."

Sheets rustled from inside the room and both of our frames stiffened.

She was awake.

Her steady heartbeat picked up quickly and it sounded as if she were growing frantic.

"You need to leave," Jacob spoke, turning towards his back towards me and walking towards the door.

"I need to see her," it came out more like a plea. I only hoped Jacob would understand, just this once.

"Why, so you can beat her again?" He seethed at me at I saddened at his words. They cut me. They should have been enough to kill me and yet, here I stood, getting ready to break down in front of the guy who I vowed would never see me weak.

"Is she ok?"

"Why do you care?"

This was my chance. Knowing Bella, she was listening, and this might be the only chance I had to let her know how I felt. I just hope she understands.

I hope she still feels the same way.

"Because I love her."

"You don't hurt someone that means something to you and had you stayed away, she would be happy, and she wouldn't be here."

"She would have been safe with me," he thought.

And who am I to say that he's wrong? Bella would've been safe with him and knowing Jacob, I knew he would've had his anger issues, but at least I knew he would never hurt her. I just didn't want her around him. I was selfish and wanted her to myself.

I just didn't want to believe that what happened between Sam and Emily could happen with Jacob and Bella, but no matter how mad he got, I don't think he would ever have the power to hurt Bella.

"Please, let me see her. I need to tell her some things."

Please, Jacob, just let me see her.

"You tell me and I'll tell her."

He doesn't get it.

"No, she needs to hear it from me."

"Don't you understand you leech? She's terrified of you."

That should've been it. That should've been the final blow. If it was one thing that I never wanted for Bella in our entire relationship, it was for her to fear me. I didn't want her to see me any different as she had nor did I want her to view me as every other vampire who's tried to kill her. I didn't want her to share the same fear she had with Victoria or James, or Laurent.

"I know," I answered truthfully, "but I least want to try." I was on my final string of hope. If he didn't let me talk to her now, I don't think she'll ever find out that Tanya's going to kill her in a few days and at that point, I won't be able to do anything, but watch in agony. (*Secret hint!*)

A growl emitted from Jacob's throat, "be quick and don't think I won't be watching."

Obviously.

He opened the door wide and walked in and I trailed behind him. I stared at the floor the entire time. I turned around to close the door and then I knew that at that moment, it was now or never. I had to loot at her.

I turned and then I saw her face for the first time in days.

Her eyes still melted me in their chocolate depths and I felt like I was floating. Dark patches around her eyes made me aware that she hadn't slept in days..or maybe she'd been crying?

The rosy color of her cheeks had returned and her lips were completely red and pouty.

If only I could kiss her.

I tried so hard not to smile at her, but she didn't look the same.

She looked...panicked.

She drew her legs in and tightly wrapped her arms around them and started rocking herself. Her forehead touched her knees and she almost simultaneously started to shake.

"Bella?" I questioned and I reached an outstretched hand towards her, but Jacob smacked it down and gave me a menacing glare.

After a minute, the room shook.

She was screaming, and it took me almost all of my will power not to scoop her up and comfort her. I couldn't do that now. It would only make her more frightened.

Jacob went over to her and picked her up and moved her to the other side of the bed and climbed in, pulling her to him and putting the covers over them both.

"Bella," he whispered as he comforted her before facing me.

"I think its best you leave now," Jacob spoke softly towards me, as if not to frighten Bella.

I nodded and slowly retreated back to the door, opening it up and then closing it behind me.

She rejected me.

I had just been rejected by Bella through fear. She didn't want to see me. I messed this up bad and something tells me that it can't be fixed.

I walked and walked until I reached my car and I drove in complete silence and once I reached the house, I went to my room.

I didn't want to be bothered and I hope everyone got the message when I blasted Claire de Lune blasted though the speakers on repeat.

I don't know how long I'd lied on my bed for but it had to have been until the next afternoon because I heard everyone go in and out of the house.

That was when I smelled it.

I smelled her blood.

She's here?

I smelled her as she walked up the stairs and onto the third floor.

Alice's room.

I opened the door as she reached the top stair and my eyes locked onto hers. She stiffened in her fright again and she just stared back.

We stayed like that for what seemed like hours and I was enjoying just being this close to her; closer than I was to her in the hospital.

It felt so right, yet so wrong in the same moment.

I just wanted to touch her soft skin, run my fingers through her hair, and watch her skin come up with goose bumps when I kissed her.

I wanted it but I couldn't have it. I had to stop.

I ran my hand through my hair and allowed my gaze to trail to the floor as I turned shutting the door behind me.

And unintentionally shutting the door on Bella.

A/N: So I can tell you that next chapter, they do talk... finally ! (: Secrets maybe ? Can't tell you. You'll have to wait until next chapter.

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-Chelsea