'If I Had It To Do All Over Again
Chapter 5
"Don't you touch her Hoyt!" She was fighting with the guard to get loose when she saw Hoyt climb on top of Maura. "Get off her you don't deserve to touch her!" She felt the blade make contact with her stomach as Hoyt swung around and buried the scalpel in her stomach. She looked up at him with a smile on her face as she reached down and pulled the scalpel out and buried it in his chest. "At least you didn't get Maura. I win." But Hoyt pushed himself up and walked towards Maura as Jane watched helplessly. "No!" She struggled to get up but couldn't move. All she could do was scream at Hoyt.
"Jane, wake up." Maura was scared. She'd been trying to wake her for awhile but Jane was locked in a struggle with her demons and she couldn't get through to her. "Jane!"
"You touch her and I will kill you Hoyt!" Jane threw her arm to the right and inadvertently hit Maura in the face.
Maura wrapped both of her arms around Jane and started to rock her back and forth. She knew if Jane was having nightmares while she was here she could only imagine what she's been going through by herself for the last week. "Jane, its ok sweetie, come on wake up." She felt the moment when Jane started to come out of the dream. Her body started to relax into Maura's embrace.
She finally pulled out of Maura's arms so she could look at her. "Ah shit I did that didn't I?" Jane pointed to Maura bleeding nose and lip. She jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom and came back with a wet cloth and started to wipe the blood away. "I'm so sorry Maura. See why it's dangerous to be around me?"
"Jane it was an accident. I didn't duck in time." She smiled but winced and tried to turn away so Jane wouldn't see her in pain.
"Too late I already saw that wince. Stay here I'll be right back." Jane jumped up again and ran from the room. Maura sat there wondering what Jane was doing. She came running back into the room with a towel wrapped around some frozen peas. Jane gently placed the cloth on Maura's face and held it there, her other hand was wrapped around the back of Maura's neck and she was so close Maura could smell what she has decided is distinctly Jane. "I am so sorry. Where are your aspirin?" Maura pointed to the bathroom. Jane came back with two aspirin and a glass of water.
"Jane?" Maura reached up and turned Jane's face to look at her. "Are all of your dreams this violent?" All Jane could do is nod. Maura reached out and pulled Jane against her again. "Have you always had them or have they just started since the prison hospital.?"
"I've had them since Hoyt did this." She held up her hands to show the scars. "But they were always about me and I could handle them. Now they include you and that I can't handle. Every night I see him cut you over and over and some nights I get to you in time and other nights I don't. Those are the worst nights, I see him kill you and I can't stop him." Tears were streaming down Jane's cheeks by the time she said the last word. "I did that to you Maura, I took you in there and he could have killed you. I can't stand that. And like I said if I had it to do over again I would not have brought you with me."
"Jane look at me. I'm fine and that is because of you. You did what I couldn't do. I sat there and watched Jane, I sat there and let him taser me. I could have fought back but I didn't. But you did and there's no telling what could have happened if you hadn't killed him." She was barely inches from Jane's face by this time and she fought the urge to kiss her. Maura cleared her throat and stood up to take the cloth to the bathroom. When she came back Jane was laying down again. "How are you feeling now?"
"Better, you always know what to say to make me feel better. You can go back to your bedroom if you want to. I think I'll be ok." Jane kicked her boots off because she knew how much Maura hated them on her bed.
"Do you want me to go back to my room?" Jane's answer was to smile and pat the bed beside her. Maura's heart kicked into double time as she lay down and rested her hands on her stomach.
"We have to stop meeting like this, people are bound to talk." Jane turned her head to look at her friend and her heart dropped to her stomach at the beautiful smile on Maura's face.
"And would it bother you if they did?" Maura surprised herself by asking the question.
"That would imply that we were in a relationship and you already said I wasn't your type." Jane watched Maura's face very carefully.
"It's a woman's prerogative to change her mind isn't it?" Maura didn't turn away from Jane's intense gaze.
She spoke so softly that Jane almost missed what she said. She went up on her elbow so she could look down at Maura. "What are you saying Maura?" Jane tried very hard to not get her hopes up.
Maura turned her head away from Jane and stared at the ceiling. "If I were to kiss you right now would you push me away?" When Jane didn't answer she started to get up from the bed and leave. "I'll leave you alone."
Jane reached out and pulled Maura back towards her until she was laying down beside her again. "You didn't give me a chance to respond. I know I took my time but I wanted to be sure this is what you want and I hope this means what I think it means. Because right now I really want to kiss you." The smile that broke out on Maura's face was all the answer she needed. "Damn you're beautiful when you smile like that, well you're beautiful all the time but when you smile like that it makes my heart do summersaults."
"Jane? Stop talking and kiss me already would you? I've been waiting a long time for this." Maura reached up and placed her hand on the back of Jane's head and pulled her down. When their lips met she swore she felt sparks but she knew it was scientifically impossible. God this woman can kiss. Maura felt Jane's tongue on her lower lip and she opened her mouth to grant her entrance and she moaned when their tongues made contact for the first time.
When things were close to getting out of hand Jane pulled back. "Maura we have to stop. Not that I want to but if we don't I'm going to rip off what little you are wearing and make love to you until you are screaming my name."
"And what's wrong with that?" Maura looked down at Jane with a sexy smile on her face.
"You keep saying things like that and I'm not going to be able to control myself." Jane smiled down at Maura and gave her a quick kiss.
God that voice was sexy. Maura pushed Jane back down onto the bed then leaned forward and kissed her at the opening of her shirt. Jane's breathing hitched the moment Maura's lips made contact with her skin. "I love you and I have for years." She reached up and unbuttoned the first button and kissed the exposed skin
Jane reached up and placed a finger under Maura's chin to raise her head so she could look her in the eyes. "I have loved you since the first time you showed up at our first crime scene together in those 3 inch heels. God I thought you were the sexiest woman in the world, I still do. But I never thought you would feel the same." Jane leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on Maura's lips.
Maura almost cried at the gentleness of this tough woman. She'd never been kissed that way before and it made her feel so loved. "Jane I have always felt this way but you never showed any interest in me as anything other than a friend. Korsak pointed out to me today that we are already dating so I decided I wanted all of the perks that come with dating."
Once Jane got over the initial shock of what Maura said and regained her voice she pushed Maura back far enough to be able to look her in the eyes but still held her shoulders. "You talked to Korsak about us?"
"Yes, he came to visit me in autopsy and found me talking to myself and heard me say I was crazy in love with you and that's when he said we already did everything a couple does."
Jane smiled at Maura. "You're in love with me?" Maura nodded. "So what are these perks you mentioned?"
Maura tilted her head back so that she could see Jane's face. "For starters there would be this." She leaned down to kiss Jane. "Then there would be this." She unbuttoned another button and kissed Jane's chest just above the lace of her bra and felt the shiver flow through Jane's body. "And then I've had dreams of doing this." She reached up and grabbed the lapels of Jane's shirt and ripped them apart and smiled as buttons flew in all directions.
"So do I get to partake in these perks too?" Jane asked as she watched the childlike smile on Maura's face.
"Oh by all means, please do. What perks would you like Jane?"
"I would love to do the same to your clothes but yours probably cost as much as I make in a month." She said as she reached up to start unbuttoning Maura's pajama top at the same time Maura pushed Jane's shirt off her shoulders. Jane dropped her arms long enough to allow it to drop off her shoulders and threw it on the floor. She then reached up and finished unbuttoning Maura's top. When she removed it from her shoulders she leaned back and folded it and placed it on the chair beside the bed.. "Wouldn't want it to get wrinkled now would we?" She leaned down and kissed Maura's neck and sighed at the contact. "You have no idea how long I've wished this would happen. This is happening right?"
"Well I usually like to wait until the second date before I take someone to my bed but since we've already been dating for years I think we can safely say that yes this is definitely happening." She looked up and saw a slightly worried look on Jane's face. "What is it Jane?"
"I've never made love to a woman before and I'm not sure what to do. I have an idea but I don't want to disappoint you." She looked down at Maura and kissed her and Maura pulled her back as she tried to pull out of the kiss. She pushed Jane down on the bed and attacked Jane with renewed vigor.
Maura pulled out of the kiss and looked at Jane seriously for a moment. "I have never been with a woman either so I guess we'll have the chance to discover all of the ways we can please each other. So far you have done everything perfect so I don't think we are going to have any problems." She reached forward and pulled Jane to her for another mind blowing kiss. "I never realized how different it would feel to kiss a woman. It's softer."
"I know what you mean, I do know I really like kissing you." Jane finally stood up and shed the rest of her clothes and helped Maura remove the rest of hers. "My god!" Jane said with awe in her voice. "You are perfect. I knew you were beautiful but my dreams did not do you justice." Jane moved to the bottom of the bed and stared down at Maura. "You are gorgeous Maura."
"I can say the same thing about you Jane." Jane was tempted to cover herself at the hungry look in Maura's eyes but she forced herself to stand there. "I have always admired your flat stomach but the total package is simply amazing." Come here Jane. Maura held her arms out to Jane.
"I'll be there in a minute I have something I want to do." She reached down and took Maura's foot in her hands and lifted it to her lips and kissed the inside of her ankle. She slowly licked and kissed her way up one leg and she smiled at the moan of frustration when she reached the apex of her legs but didn't stop on her way back down the other one. "You taste good. I've always loved the way you smelled and now I know you taste just as good as you smell." She slithered her body up Maura's legs and started licking and kissing once she reached Maura's stomach.
Maura's hips started moving as she tried to make more contact with Jane's body and moaned in frustration as Jane kept pulling away. "Are you sure you've never done this before Jane?" Jane shook her head as she continued her exploration with her tongue and lips. "I am so ready for you right now and if you don't touch me soon I'm going to explode."
"Now Maura, you know that's not scientifically possible. I'm surprised I have to point that out to you you being the smart one and all." Jane reached up and took one of Maura breasts in her hand and moaned. "God I've wanted to do this since that night at the Merch when you wore that skimpy outfit that showed off all of your assets. And let me tell you, you have some very appealing assets." Jane had made her way up Maura's body so that she could take the other pert nipple into her mouth. Both women moaned at the contact and Maura's hips renewed their effort to make contact with Jane.
"Please Jane I'm dying here. Please touch me." Maura groaned again in frustration.
"A little impatient are we?" She moved her mouth to the other breast she had been kneading with her hand. "I'm having too much fun and I don't want it to end." She looked up at Maura and smiled.
"It won't be ending Jane." Maura could barely talk she was breathing so hard and was more turned on than she'd ever been. "It will just be moving on to something else. Please I need you inside me."
"Will you let me know if something doesn't feel right?" Jane asked rather hesitantly.
Maura reached down and pulled Jane up to her. "You're following your instincts and so far they have been so right on the spot. Just keep letting it happen naturally." She pulled her head down to meet her own lips and soon they were both breathing hard and Jane's hand slowly made its way down Maura's body.
Jane pulled out of the kiss so she could watch Maura's face her hand moved lower. "God you're so wet." She dipped her finger into the wetness then brought it to her lips all the while never taking her eyes off of Maura. "You taste even better than you smell, and you smell fantastic."
Maura was sure she had never seen anything as sexy as Jane bringing her finger to her lips with her juices on them. "Jane if you don't do something soon I am going to have to take care of myself. Please."
"That's a sight I look forward to seeing but we'll have to save that for some other time. Tell me how you like it Maura." She reached down and didn't hesitate when she entered her completely for the first time. "Do you want it slow and steady?" And she demonstrated slow and steady as she entered her and pulled her fingers almost all of the way out then entered her again. "Or do you want it a little faster?" She sped up her pace. She kept her eyes on Maura and loved what she was able to do to her friend/lover. She watched as Maura's hands grabbed for the bedding and her head was thrown back in ecstasy. "Or do you want it hard and fast? My personal favorite." She plunged her fingers in as deep as she could and pulled them out then plunged back in. She set a frantic paced and almost came herself as she watched Maura's hips match her stroke for stroke. "God you are beautiful Maura. Especially moving like this. You are so hot."
"Jane I'm so close." Maura's eyes closed and she felt herself ready to fall over the edge.
"Look at me Maura." Maura opened her eyes and looked at Jane. "I want you to look at me. I want to watch you. Keep your eyes open."
"I'll…try…god…I'm…so…close…JANE!" Maura screamed her release.
"Let it go sweetie, you are so damn beautiful." Jane continued to plunge in and out of Maura until she felt the last of the spasms leave Maura's body. She removed her hand and crawled up and lay down next to Maura and pulled the blanket up over the two of them then pulled Maura to her so she could hold her while her breathing returned to normal. "That was amazing Maura."
"I think that's supposed to be my line." Maura said weakly.
Jane turned on her side and rested her head on her hand so she could look down at Maura. "But that was fantastic. Watching you come like that was like nothing I've ever experienced before. God it was amazing." She looked down at Maura and couldn't stop smiling. She leaned down and gave her a loving kiss.
Maura reached her hand up to pull Jane in for another kiss but her hand dropped back onto the bed. "Look at that. I don't even have the strength to lift my arm. I don't think that's ever happened before. I've never had an orgasm that strong before. And to borrow your phrase, that was amazing. I love you Jane.
"And I love you too Maura." She leaned down and gave Maura another kiss. "Let's go to sleep."
"But your sexual satisfaction must be considerably less than you desired." Maura looked up at her sadly. "Give me time to rest up and regain my strength."
Jane laughed. "If you mean am I sexually frustrated I am but not as much as I've been in the past just thinking about doing this to you. I can wait. Right now I just want to sleep."
"You don't want me to make love to you?" Maura's look of sadness turned to one of confusion and hurt.
Jane pulled her to her chest. "Oh quite the contrary, I want you to ravish my body over and over again but we've got time for that later. Let's go to sleep. I just want to hold you."
"Make no mistake Jane Rizzoli, when we wake up, I will ravish your delectable body over and over again."
Jane's body shivered in response to her words. "Gives me something to look forward to for a change over the past week. I'm sorry I acted the way I did. I thought I was doing what would be best for you. I didn't want anything to happen to you."
"I know that now, but it hurt like hell while it was happening." Maura turned her head enough to be able to kiss Jane's chin.
"Believe me I know it did. I was hurting too, and there were so many times I wanted to call you and talk to you but then I remembered why I was doing it and I stopped myself. I love you too much to let anything happen to you and I thought by staying away it would keep you safe. What are you doing?" Jane looked down and saw the smug smile on Maura's face as she felt her hand on her stomach moving lower.
"Are you still tired Jane?"