Hey All! How's everybody doing? Things are moving along well here, I'm surprised at how fast debris is being picked up, you can actually see blocks with grass again, but there is still a long way to go. Anyways, I don't really feel like writing to much in this authors note, so here we go!

"Mama, mimi, pop-pop," Jane told me happily as I opened the door to reveal Esme and Carlisle, her mimi and pop-pop. She waddled off to the side before sitting down on her butt as the Cullen clan filed into Charlie's living room for Jane's first birthday.

"Pop-pop," Jane told Carlisle, waving her chubby arms in the air, Carlisle picked her up and went to the couch. I stopped Emmett as he came in the door, causing Rosalie to bump into him.

"So, Em, my daughter said and did something the other day that could only be taught to her by you," I said, using my mommy voice, causing Emmett to blush. "She flipped me off, first of all, when I told her no cookies, then she was playing and said shit."

"Emmett," Esme frowned, "you are grounded for three weeks and I'll be washing your mouth out with soap when we get home."

I smiled as Emmett hung his head in shame for a second, before going over to Jane and playing peek a boo with her.

"Hey, Bells," Edward said as he totted in Jane's presents, giving me a kiss on the cheek.

"Need some help?" I asked, Edward nodded, we headed out to grab the rest of the presents. I couldn't believe how many presents this little girl was about to get. I grabbed some of the bigger one's then headed back inside.

"Esme, did Emmett have to much fun at the toy store?" I asked jokingly.

"Over did it a bit," Emmett said, once again hanging his head in shame. "Sorry Bella."

"Now, Bella, honey," Esme said. "Some of this stuff will come back to our house for when we watch Janie on Friday nights so you can go out with your friends."

"What?"

"Well, that's our biggest present to you, we are going to watch Janie for you and your father Friday nights to Saturday mornings, so you two can do what you want to do."

"Thank you, Esme, Carlisle." They smiled at me and then at the little girl on Carlisle lap who was playing peek a boo with Emmett.

Make that one little spoiled girl. I found out that Esme had to much fun making a nursery at their place, and had bought a crib and everything for that room, the Cullen kids and the Hale kids had all pitched in to buy me three new play pens, one for Charlie's, one for Esme's and another 'just in case', I wondered what they where up to. She got a sit and spin, which Emmett claimed as soon as she opened it, from Charlie she got a tree house that he was constructing with Edward's help and from me, I got her a charm bracelet, and every year I'd add one more charm to it so when she get's married, it's for her to wear. Then pass down from her to her child and so on, I'd keep it safe for the time being.

We sang to her and Edward and I carried two cakes, a big one and a small one out to a plastic covered area, she was getting the small one for herself and the big kids would get the big cake.

"Bells," Charlie said as I set the cake down in front of Jane. "Phone."

I excused myself and went to grab the kitchen extension.

"Hello?"

"Isabella Marie Swan, you get your ass home this instant, stop worrying about this bastard child that isn't Phil's and come home," my mother yelled through the phone.

"Mom, she is Phil's and she's not a bastard child, she's my baby girl, the one I love more than life it's self."

"Look, you drop all these fucking charges against Phil and come home, I don't give a shit if he touches you again, you are coming home and being my daughter, helping me," Renee said over the phone.

You know what's great about being two thousand miles from my mother, I could just hang up the phone.

"Don't ever call me again, don't try to see me or my daughter, I will never help you," I yelled, sure that the others could hear me, but I didn't care as I slammed the phone on the base.

I couldn't go back into the living room at that second, I was crying, my mother, the women who was suppose to protect me had just told me that I should hook with her. I held the sink to steady me and wiped the tears from my eyes, finally feeling that I could go back out.

A surprise waited for me as I walked out, Jane hadn't waited to devour her cake, it looked like her and Emmett, who had managed to get a nice amount of frosting on them, had dived head first into the cake, thank god, Esme had warned me to put something down.

"I'm not sure who needs a bath worse," I said to a frosting covered Emmett and Jane, Jane had it all over her, while Emmett's was just on his face. "Come on, kiddo," I picked Jane up and took her to the bathroom.

I set her down and stripped the clothes off her. I tossed them in the corner where I'd deal with them later.

"Did you enjoy your cake?"

"No," Jane said, smiling at me.

"Well, I'm glad you enjoyed it, I wish I could have seen it, but no, I had to deal with my mother, Janie, I know mothers and daughter's fight, but what we just yelled about, well, I hope you and I never fight like that."

I set the temperature of the water and waited for it to fill up some, Jane loved the water and always wanted more than what I'd put in.

I set her in and she happily started slashing. I got wet as she laughed while slashing me, but I really didn't care, she was happy and that's all I cared about.

"Hey," I heard the door creek open, I looked over to find Edward. "Need some help?"

"Sure," I said, sitting back on my knees.

Together, we started washing the frosting off Jane, who'd splash us, Edward and I where both very wet.

"So, you okay?" Edward asked.

"No, but I have to be, I have to be here for Janie, if one thing get's to me and I get depressed, who will raise Jane."

"Bells, we are here to help you, all of us," Edward said as tears started leaking out of my eyes again.

"Why today, why Jane's birthday? Why did she have to call today?" I cried, Edward gathered me in a hug and I cried, hard, with Jane splashing happily in the tub.

I couldn't believe what a mess my life had become, here I was on my knee's on the floor of the bathroom at age 13, crying into my best friend shirt while my 12 month old was splashing happily in the bath tub, not a care in the world.

"If you want to talk, Bella, I'm here," Edward whispered.

"When we are older," I cried, he let me cry it out.

My mood lightened after I spoke with Esme about the phone call, she'd encouraged me to talk to Charlie, which I did and Charlie changed our house number. I left out certain parts of the call when I'd spoke to Charlie, he'd have been to Florida real quick.

I didn't want that kind of drama, he knew I was keeping something about the call from him, but I think he was just happy that I'd finally found somebody to confide in, he was always encouraging me to talk to Esme.

Charlie was great at teaching me the way of the world for men, but I was starting ninth grade and there where certain things that I needed a females help with, including buying make-up. So, Esme had grabbed Rosalie, Alice and I and left Jane with Edward, Emmett and Jasper, Carlisle was in in study at the house, and took the three of us shopping, we'd gotten pedicures and manicures, just a great day of pampering, away from the stress of, in Esme and mine's case, children, and in Alice and Rosalie, boyfriends who where children at heart.

I found myself laughing and smiling with the others, the call from my mother forgotten. I was finding out what it meant to have a real mother and family.

Edward and I started growing closer after my break down on the bathroom floor, I caught him watching me from time to time, and I had to say that I was starting to feel something for him, but I keep it at bay, I couldn't love my best friend, it just wasn't in my cards for me, I wasn't ready for a relationship.

"Hey, fair's this weekend, you want to go?" Edward asked me one day as he was over at my house while we where watching a movie and Jane was playing on the floor, we where settled on the couch, my legs where on his lap.

"Sure, should we take Jane?"

"I think it would be great for her to get out, she'd enjoy it."

"Okay, we'll go Friday afternoon, we'll even let her ride the carousel, I'll see if the others want to go."

He knew I'd be more comfortable with the others, he always made sure that he asked at least one of them to come with us when we took Jane out.

Turned out that it was just Edward and I for this excursion. Alice and Jasper had a date in Port Angeles, Rosalie was grounded and Emmett was grounded for sneaking out to see an aforementioned grounded girl.

I was pushing Jane in her stroller and Edward was trying to buy her everything he could, but I was putting a foot down, we didn't have room for the three foot tall teddy bear that he wanted to try and win her.

"Bella," I heard a friend from school, Jessica Stanley, yell. "How's summer going?"

"Oh, it's going good," I smiled, Edward stepped closer to me, putting an arm around my waist. "How about you?"

"It's good, I'm ready for school though, who is this cutie?" Jessica asked, referring to Jane, who was fifteen months now.

"This is Jane," I said, Edward and I had thought about how to explain Jane, we'd just let people make their own explanation and we'd go with that.

"Are you babysitting her?"

"No, she's part of my family."

"That's cool, well, I'll see you in school next week, can you believe we are starting ninth grade?"

"Seems like yesterday that we started eighth, " I said as Jessica flounced off. "What?"

"Part of the family, I thought you weren't going to lie about Jane."

"Well, I know Jess and she'd gossip about Jane and how I had a kid, Jane doesn't need that yet."

"When the time comes to tell everybody that she's your daughter, I'll be standing right beside you."

"Mama," Jane said from in front of me, I looked and she was pointing at the carousal.

"Come on, kid," Edward said, going around and picking her up, "I'll ride with you, while mommy watches."

I wheeled the stroller over to the carousal as Edward gave the ticket person a handful of tickets and got on with Jane. The ride started and I could hear squeals of laughter coming from Jane and Edward, which caused me to smile.

"Oh, that was so much fun," Edward said as he got off the ride with Jane in his arms.

"Mama," Jane said as they got to us, she was yawning, but pointing at carousal. "Now."

"No, Jane, it's time to head home, we've been here for a few hours."

"Janie, it's time for bed," Edward said to a pouting Jane, who was clinging to Edward.

"Dada, no!" Jane said, my eyes going wide. That wasn't the biggest problem at the second, Jane was starting to throw a fit and a big one.

"Jane, throwing a fit means we are going home. Now," I told her, pulling out Edward's cell phone from his pocket, while he tried to keep Jane in his arms.

"Esme," I said when Esme picked up. "We are ready to go home."

"Okay, dear, I'll be at the car momentarily."

I hung up and grabbed at Jane, who was crying and clinging to Edward. I took her and she started hitting me.

"Jane, no television at mimi's tonight," I told her, she cried even harder. I let her cry it out, I was being a mean mommy. "Edward, take the stroller."

I started walking with Jane still struggling in my arms, she keep trying to fall out of my arms backwards, or she was trying to get to Edward. I still had to figure out what to do about the dada thing.

"Esme, I'm not sure what to do," I told Esme later that night, after Jane had been placed in time out, she was still fighting with me, hitting at me, so I placed her in time out with strict orders that if Emmett or Edward or anybody went near her they'd be in time out as well, and Esme had agreed with me.

"I've never been grounded by somebody younger than me," Emmett had whined, which caused us all to laugh, but the boys had stayed away from Jane, who was still screaming in the other room.

"What's wrong, Bella?" Esme asked.

"Jane called Edward dada."

"Well, that's who she see's as the main male in her life, it's normal for kids to do that."

"I'm thirteen, almost fourteen, with a fifteen month old, who thinks my best friend is her dad, Esme, Edward likes me and I like him, but I'm to young for a relationship."

"I see what's going on, you have your first crush. With Jane you're scared to have a relationship, Phil destroyed your trust in men."

I blushed, I'd just told Edward's mom that I had a crush on Edward.

"Bella, you and Edward have all the time time right now, you are thirteen, barely a teenager, be friends right now, he'll understand that you want to take it slow."

I pondered over that as Esme went back into the house to make dinner. I was staying the night with Alice while Jane stayed with Esme in another area of the house.

"Jane fell asleep," Alice said as she came outside.

"Good, she's finally done with her fit."

"Are you doing okay?"

"It stresses you out," I said, "you've been around her often enough."

"She's birth control for me," Alice laughed and pulled me to her room where we started decided what we'd wear to school Monday.