Okay, so here is the deal, this chapter may be hard for some of my reviewers to read because of the Jacob factor, at some point in this story, I knew that Bella would rebel and who better to rebel with than Jacob. As always, Enjoy! Oh andNO cheering for what Jane does to Jacob (my reviewers will love it, Jane has her way with him).
"No," Jane wailed. "I don't wanna!"
"Jane get in this shirt now, or I'm going to be late," I told her sternly. That didn't work, she started in on the tears. I was already missing the bus from Esme's and Jacob would be here any moment to pick Jane and I up so I could drop her off at Esme's. "Jane, either you put this shirt on this instant or you won't get to see Emmett this weekend."
"No, Ed and momma hate each other."
Aw... now you see why my daughter hate's me at the moment. She knew Edward and I weren't together anymore, he was dating another girl from his class and I'd started dating Jacob, Jane didn't like Jacob at all, she would repeatedly hit or throw things at him, but when Edward was in the room, she was an angel.
"Jane, I've told you that Edward and I just weren't right for each other. What do you want for your birthday?" I tried to throw her off so that I could get the shirt on her, which I succeeded at while she was thinking.
"You and daddy back together," she wailed as I finished putting her arms in the holes. I grabbed the brush and gentle pulled her hair into a pony tail.
"Not going to happen, Edward isn't your dad."
"Mommy, it hurts," Jane cried, trying to jerk the hair out of the brush causing more pain.
"I'm sorry sweetie, but you have to brush out the tangles, you want to do it?"
She took the brush, started combing it out but got flustered and threw the brush, hysteria reigned once more. I grabbed at her, bringing her closer to me, but she jerked out of hold, something I knew was painful as she started wailing harder.
"Bella?" I heard from the front half of the house, Jacob had arrived. "Is everything okay."
"No," Jane yelled, "you make mommy and daddy hate each other."
"Jane Charley Swan, that is enough, you don't always get what you want and throwing a fit will not help your odds, as of this moment you are grounded, that means no Emmett this weekend."
"I hate you," Jane wailed, Jacob walked in as she was storming out of the room, but placed a well aimed kick at his shin, bringing tears to his eyes.
"Jane," I yelled, but I heard doors slamming. If this was two, what did fifteen hold. "Jake, you okay?" I asked as I walked over to him.
"No, but a kiss will make it feel better."
"Nice try, lover boy," I told him, but gave him a quick peck on the lips before I heard something crash over my door. I pulled away to find Jane with wide eyes and glass laying at her feet. I knew what it was and my heart dropped. It had been a family heirloom that I'd put away for safe keeping, under the sink, where I was sure Jane couldn't get to it since there was a lock on the cabinet. My grandmother had given the vase to me just before her passing when I was eight, I'd had my father hold on to it for safe keeping. Weather Jane had dropped it on accident or purpose, I wasn't sure, but it was destroyed. I felt hot tears leaking out of my eyes as I dropped to the ground.
"Jane, are you okay?" I asked, she was my main concern, had the glass hit her at all.
"I hate you and I hate him and I want to live with mimi and pop-pop. With daddy."
To hear my daughter say those words tore my heart open. Then I became furious.
"Jane, go to your room, pack your bags, if that's what you want, then that's what you get," I told her. She smiled at me and Jacob and went to her room. I looked at my shattered crystal vase, realizing I had to pick it up before I brought Jane home, when she'd want to come back.
"So, same old story this morning?"
"Yea, she doesn't understand why Edward and I aren't always together. She thinks he is her father."
Jane came back in the room with her RugRat suitcase, a hand me down from me wheeling behind her. She was beaming with pride at how she'd unknowingly broken her mothers heart and it laid shattered in pieces along with my vase.
"She's grounded," I told Esme as we dropped Jane off fifteen minutes later.
"Same thing as last week?"
"Yep. She told me that she hated me and that she wanted to live with-"
"Daddy," I heard Jane exclaim and found Edward and his current girlfriend, Dana walking in. Dana no longer had a surprised look on her face when Jane got possessive of Edward and called him daddy, she knew he wasn't her blood father. "Up."
Edward didn't pick her up, he just smiled down at her before coming over to his mother.
"You look like shit," Edward told me.
"Thanks, well I'd be a little more prepared for the day if your 'daughter' hadn't told me that she hated me and wanted to live with you."
"That explains the suitcase," Esme muttered before wandering away from Edward and I.
"I'll take her for a few days, give you a rest. Hi, Jacob," Edward greeted Jacob as he came into the shop.
"Edward," Jacob replied.
"Are you sure, she's being horrible today. She's hit me, she kicked Jake this morning, she broke my grandmothers crystal vase, need I keep going?"
"So she's grounded?"
"Big time, no Emmett."
"He's not coming home anyways, he's got finals to study for. Said he'd be home for her birthday though."
"Oh, no, she's lost her party. She's so grounded it's not even funny. Edward, I don't know what to do, she wants us to be together, but we are with other people."
"So, she's really lost her party?"
"Yea, tell Esme to take back the gifts, Jane doesn't deserve it."
"Let me take her for the weekend, she'll be ready to come back to you by then."
Jane wanted nothing to do with me for four days, she stayed at the Cullen's, giving me some much needed quiet time. Edward was right though, I received a call from a crying Jane that she was scared and wanted me, at the end of the weekend. So I went to get her and her attitude straitened up. She apologized to Jacob and myself, promising to make it up to me for whatever she'd broke. She went back to calling Edward, Ed.
She understood why she didn't get her birthday party this year and accepted the fact graciously. I was sure that Edward had something to do with the change in my little girls attitude. So, Jane moved back to Charlie's and we where once again together.
Emmett moved back home at the end of the semester, he had been informed on Jane's grounding and was really watching himself around her.
My personal life was spiraling out of control, that much I knew, Jacob and I had been together four months now and I was become a lot like him. School ended, not that I'd been going much, I'd taken to ditching whenever I felt like it, normally Jacob was with me. I'd been learning how to ride the motorcycle and was really loving the freedom it gave me. Jacob even introduced me to the world of extreme sports, we'd begun cliff diving during our ditching days.
I knew my friends from school where starting to worry about me, they'd question where I was and why I never had time for them any more. As the school year ended, I got the worst grade's I'd ever received, Tessa cornered me.
"I saw Jacob kissing another girl."
"That's not true."
"Bella, yes it is, he was at the drug store on the res, kissing Michelle. Bella, you need to believe me."
I didn't and started ignoring her, but my gut was telling me that she was right. I lost most of my friends once I'd started hanging out with Jacob, during the summer it became apparent as to how many people I'd alienated.
"Bella," Quil yelled from the cooler at the bonfire one night, "want a beer?"
I nodded and he tossed me one, I let it settle before opening it. I took a big chug and enjoyed the night, but it was ruined when I heard the sirens and everybody made a mad dash for their cars, but I couldn't find Jacob. I looked around helplessly, nobody had stayed to help me get away and I was pretty drunk. I set back down on the log and waited for my doom.
"Isabella Marie Swan," my father yelled at me, and in my drunken state, I didn't even flinch. "What do you have to say for yourself."
"Not a damn thing," I said, muttered more like, but I was so drunk that my level of loudness was much higher than what I'd wanted.
"Not a damn thing? Bella, I don't know what is going on with you anymore, this is the third time I've picked up at a party at the res, you where drunk all three times, your grades last year where horrible, you're neglecting Jane, your friends never see you, you're out at all hours of the night."
I didn't say anything, I just got up and went to my room. The great thing about being drunk, you could walk out of a room, you really couldn't add any intelligent thing to a conversation, the bad thing, I'm a klutz and I ran into the fucking door frame.
The next morning I had one hell of a bump on my head and couldn't hardly remember how I'd gotten it, but as soon as I got up and saw Jane in her high chair talking to my father who was making her breakfast, he was smiling but as I walked in, his smile turned to a frown.
"We have to talk, Bella, I've already called Billy, you and Jacob aren't allowed to see each other. I have a good idea as to why your grades are so bad, you've been ditching with Jacob haven't you?"
"You can't tell me who I can see and who I can't," I yelled, regretting it when I saw my daughter flinch, but I went out of the room and out of the house, slamming the door.
I realized I was still in pajamas, loose fitting cotton pants with a blue flowery design and a blue short sleeved top, I could have come out in worse, hell to some of the parties that Jacob threw I did go wearing worse.
What scared me worse was the look my daughter had given me as I stormed out of the room. She'd almost been horrified that I could act that way.
I found a bench near the diner that my old friends use to go to all the time, I was sure they still did, I was sure if I looked hard enough, they'd be sitting in there, even at this time of morning, it was a tradition to get together for breakfast once a month on the third Saturday.
I wondered how they where doing, I hadn't talked to any of them, except for when I'd drop Jane off with Esme or when they'd come in during my work hours, I'd only exchange pleasantries with them. It had been three months since I'd set down and had any kind of meaningful talk with them.
I saw a familiar truck pull up to the diner, so they hadn't arrived yet. Out slid Alice from the passengers seat, Emmett and Rosalie where in the back seat, none of them noticed me, I was sure Edward did, he looked around at his surroundings, not even stopping at me, but I was sure he had as I saw his eyes stay trained on me as his head rotated.
Tessa's car pulled in next, she got out and greeted everybody, giving the girls hugs, I let a tear slip, I had once been a part of that group, I'd once had friends at school that I could talk to, but now, I'd alienated all of them, I never hung out with them any more, if they saw me in the halls, it was a sad smile my way.
I heard the familiar roar of an engine, my old friends had already headed inside the diner. Jacob had found me.
"Bella," Jacob pulled his bike up beside me. He held out a helmet and for the first time, I didn't want to go with him, I wanted to go home and see my daughter, tell her everything was okay and that I was just having some issues that I needed to work through. I shook my head at Jacob.
"I can't," I whispered, but I was sure he hadn't heard it over the roar of the engine.
"Bella, they can't tell us who to love," he yelled, in that instant, my world shattered, Jacob loved me, I wasn't capable of love, it wasn't mine to give. "We can run away together, I'm leaving this town for good, go with me, where we will be more accepted."
Jacob was pleading and I didn't want it, I loved my life here, I had a perfect daughter, a great father, great friends, if I ran away from all that, I'd lose it all.
"Bella, come on, before Charlie and Billy realize what is going on," Jacob said, grabbing my arm, I started struggling, I didn't want this, I wanted my daughter, I wanted my old life back.
"Jake, I don't love you, I never will, you're asking me to leave my family behind, my daughter, who means more to me than anybody."
"I love you, Bella," Jacob yelled, still holding my arm in a death grip.
"You loved me so much that you kissed Michelle?"
"I was stupid and drunk, that night was a haze."
"Night, I heard you did it during the day, how many times did you cheat on me, Jacob?"
"You know how the grape vine is, I'm sure it was that party, three weeks back, or maybe it was a month and a half ago."
"Three weeks, you say you love me, yet you kissed another girl, Jake, we've been in a relationship seven months, Jake, how many times?"
"I don't know, I'm normally drunk when it happens."
"Let me go, leave me alone, don't ever come back to try and beg me to take you back, because I won't. I hate you, Jacob Black, my daughter was right, it just took me to damn long to realize how a two year old was right."
I attempted to break Jacob's grip on my arm, but couldn't, he was just to strong. I shut my eyes and waited for him to pull me on the bike, but it never happened.
"Leave her alone," somebody yelled, a velvet voice, the hand on my arm loosened enough that I could get out of his grasp, I opened my eyes and backed as far away from Jacob as I could. Three girls descended on me and I panicked until I realized who they where.
Tessa, Alice and Rosalie where all coming to my rescue just as I slumped to the ground. Rosalie was already looking at the hand shaped mark on my arm where Jacob had grabbed it, Alice and Tessa where holding on to me, Alice was stroking my hair while Tessa held my hand.
The boys, Lars, Edward, Jasper and Emmett where watching Jacob, they had him cornered on all four sides, but I was sure that if Jacob wanted to get away he could. He'd just have to rev his motor and they'd back off, I was sure of that.
Siren's started coming closer, Jacob looked at me expectantly, but I was done with him, he revved his motor, the three of the boys backed away slowly, Edward stood his ground, right in front of the bike.
"Edward," I yelled as Jacob took off, peeling away and leaving tire marks on the road, but what made me yell was that as Jacob flew by him, Edward was knocked down, weather he got scared as Jacob breezed so close to him, or if Jacob had pushed him, I wasn't sure.
I struggled against Alice and Tessa, but Rosalie was restraining me better than the other two, the three boys where going to their fallen comrade. I keep struggling as the cop car pulled up, when I saw who the driver was, my worry's about Edward flew out the window.
"Dad," I yelled, "where's Jane?"
Charlie was talking on his radio, getting an ambulance I was sure, Edward hadn't moved the entire time, I wasn't even sure he was conscious. Charlie got out of his car and ran over to me, the girls allowing me to move a little, giving me some breathing room.
"Jane?" I asked, frantic.
"Esme's got her," Charlie whispered as he wrapped me in a hug, my tears coming freely as I cried into him. "She's fine, worried about you, but fine."
"Check Edward," I begged, I heard more siren's in the distance, but Edward wasn't moving, please, I silently prayed, don't let him be dead. My father left me, but was replaced by the girls once more, this time I didn't struggle, I just cried.
I watched as Charlie got to Edward, and then I saw Edward move his fingers for the first time, I sighed a breath. He wasn't dead.
The rest of the day passed in a blur, Carlisle showed up moments after the ambulance and he ran over to me, we told him that I was just shaken up, nothing more than a bruise, it was Edward he needed to worry about.
"Edward's fine, Bella," Carlisle reassured me. "He's already being assessed at the hospital, when he went down, he hit hard and was worried he'd broke something, so he stayed as still as possible, something I've trained him to do."
The girls finally let me up and walked me to the diner and put me in a booth, a drink was set in front of me, a caffeinated drink, thank god, then food was brought, while we waited for the other guys to come back in. They where talking to Charlie about what had happened. I was sure I'd be questioned, but as of right now I hadn't been.
I'd even give Charlie the whole story, even the parts about Jacob cheating on me. I wanted a restraining order against him and anything else that would keep him away from my daughter and I.