Disclaimer: After all we've been through.
I don't know how long we had been sitting here but one thing I knew for sure. I never wanted to move. I felt so safe in Edward's arms. I just wanted to stay this way forever; even if I was in the arms of my stalker. It was the strange feeling of safety that held me to my place, in his arms. I sighed and realized it was probably time for him to leave, so I pulled back.
"Don't you have to go? Visiting hours will be over soon," I asked feeling scared. As long as Edward was here I was in control.
"My father's a doctor here, I think I can manage to stay after hours," he replied softly and I sighed in relief.
"You look relieved," he smirked.
"Yeah, well. I was hoping you would be able to stay. Strangely enough I want you here," I replied truthfully.
"I'll be here as long as you need me," he said and I realized that he wasn't just saying it. Edward was trying to tell me that I can always count on him.
"Aren't you going to ask me what's wrong?" I questioned, looking him in the eye.
"Not unless you want to tell me," Edward replied sincerely.
"Why are you being so nice? Aren't you supposed to be stalking me?" I asked playfully.
"What do you think I'm doing here?" He smiled a crooked smile and my heart nearly stopped.
We sat in silence for awhile and I took that chance to admire Edward clearly. Edward is different from any guy I've ever known and let's face it, it's not a large amount of guys. He sort of reminds me of Jasper. I smiled and shook my head.
"So what happened to your boyfriend?" Edward asked me.
"Mhm? We broke up," I replied simply.
"Awe, you didn't have to do that for me," Edward replied giving me his crooked smile again. He seriously needed to stop doing that or I was going to jump him.
"I didn't. I did it because I wanted to." I smirked.
"Interesting. I've never known anyone who broke up with their boy/girlfriend because they wanted to," he exclaimed.
"Alice used to do it all the time," I offered.
"Alice?" He asked, confused.
"My best friend. She sort of used to speed date before she met her boyfriend. She said and I quote 'I'm trying to find the perfect guy and he's not going to come to me if I don't try to find him. Carpe diem, baby," I laughed.
"Is she the pixie?" He asked laughing.
"Yeah and the blond guy—" Oops I almost said that the blond guy is her boyfriend.
"What about the blond guy?" He asked.
"The blond is now my ex," I said simply. He nodded like he was enjoying some private joke.
"What?" I asked, narrowing my eyes at him.
"Nothing," he said simply.
We fell quite again and this time I didn't break the silence. Just his presence here was enough . I didn't need him to talk to me too. He probably thought that I was weird despite the fact that he's the one stalking me. I looked at him again and I realized how one person's can life change so much in one day. Here I was yesterday, completely boyfriend-less and feeling healthy, and now I have a guy who thinks he wants to marry me and a brain tumour. Fate has a cruel sense of humour; that rhymed. It gave me Edward, but took away my health. My chance to live. Maybe I was a horrible person in my part lives. I sighed and laid my head back on the pillows getting comfortable. I looked at Edward again and he was texting someone.
"Are you texting your girlfriend?" I asked smiling. I wish he doesn't have a girlfriend. What? Where did that come from?
"If I had a girlfriend, why would I tell you you're the girl I'm going to marry?" Edward in a playful voice.
"I don't know. You're a stalker," I laughed.
"True, but no. It's just my Mom. She's wants to know when I'm coming home. Family dinner and all," he explained and smiled in that 'I have a secret but I can't tell you what it is' way. I looked at the time and indeed it was time for him to head home. I wanted him to stay, but I bit my lip. He has to eat.
"Don't worry, though. My father is still around here somewhere. I can just go with him," Edward replied noticing my stressed expression. I smiled widely.
"Edward, how old are you?" I asked curious.
"Old enough," Edward replied.
"What's that supposed to mean? Old enough to do what?" God, I hoped he wasn't in his mid-twenties, that would be really creepy.
"Old enough to marry you." He got up off the bed and went to look out the window.
"And that's how old exactly?" I asked again.
"Dear god, you're persistent. If you really want to know, then fine. I'm 23." He turned to look at me and smirked. That's not bad but it's still creepy. I haven't even graduated from high school yet. Although If I won't live long enough to go off to college, than dating a guy 5 years older than me won't be a problem. Who am I kidding? It's a big problem. He shouldn't even be here. I should throw him out. I haven't even graduated high school and he's probably graduated college. I was bought out my reverie by Edward's laughing.
"What?" I asked narrowing my eyes at him.
"You looked so serious. It's hard to believe you believed me. Do I look 23?" He asked laughing.
"So you lied to me? That is not a way to win my heart over." I can't believe he would lie to me.
"Sorry," Eward said sincerely.
"Mhm. I'll forgive you if you tell me how old are you exactly," I offered.
"19. I'll be turning 20 on June 20th." He looked out the window again. I sighed in relief. He's only a year older than I am. Thank God.
"What are you looking at?" I got up and went to stand beside him.
"The sunset," he replied in a sad voice. Before I could ask him why he was sad he explained his answer.
"I don't like the sunset very much. It means that another day has gone by and another life is coming to an end. I just wish that the sun would remain where it is." He looked down at me, with a sad expression in his eyes.
"Look at it this way. The end of this day brings the hope of tomorrow. The end of today means, everything that happened today will be history, so we can write history again tomorrow. The end of this day means a new chance for tomorrow. Chances to do things we couldn't do today. Chances to find our way in the light provided by the moon, so the sun can shine it's light on someone else." I turned to look at up him and he was staring at me with a strange look in his eyes.
"Bella," he said and my heartbeat quickened. My name sounded so different coming from his lips.
He was looking at me and looked down. I didn't like the way his eyes were looking at me, like he was trying to find something. An answer, probably. I felt like his eyes could see into my soul, figure out my deepest, darkest secret. I decided to just tell him what it was. Why go through all the trouble? If he had to leave he would have done so a long time ago. I have to find in myself the strength to tell him what's wrong. Why his so called dream to marry me will never come true. I looked up at him.
"It's a brain tumour," I said simply. I could feel the tears coming. He didn't need me to repeat it again. He pulled me to him again and I was surprised. I didn't resist the feeling of safety though. Maybe he will be able to save me after all. If not that, than with him I can find the strength to live my last years. I don't know why I'm being so pessimistic. Maybe there is life at the end of this tunnel, but I don't see it. How can I believe that if I let go of everything right now, it will come back to me? Time lapsed again and it was time for Edward to go. He said he will see me tomorrow, before I leave.
The nurses bought in my dinner. I was surprised to find that I was hungry after everything that has happened today. As I ate I thought about Edward. It felt strange to put so much trust in someone I just met. But I liked the feeling. I had my family and my best friend, but it feels great to have Edward too. I hope his mother isn't mad at him for staying here so late. My phone vibrated and I checked to see who was texting me. It was my Mom.
"Hey, sweetie. Sleep tight. Tomorrow, you can sleep in your own bed. Love, Mom."
I smiled a little and was about to reply when I got another text. This one was from Alice.
"I can't believe it. It's official. I hate doctors. I don't care that my boyfriend is going to be one, someday. Why didn't you tell me? I had to find out from your mother. Do not reply to this I know you're tired. We'll talk tomorrow."
Wow. Even in a text she talks so much. I don't know how Jasper handles her. Alice talks so much, she should become the president. Then she can say stuff and not mean it. Or worse she can become a doctor. She'll learn how to give people false hope. I sighed and put down my phone. I had the sudden urge to talk to Edward but I didn't have his number. I will have to remember to ask him for it tomorrow. Thinking of tomorrow, made me hope that he would show up before my parents did. I know I should tell my parents about him, but for the time being I want to keep him all to myself. I laid down on the bed and went to sleep thinking happy thoughts about Edward.
AN: Sorry. I know it's been long since I updated last. It's been a rough week. I had parents teacher interview and I'm totally failing math. Ugh! I hate math! Than I had to write a short story for English, which was totally funny. It was supposed to 1200 words, but mine was like 5,021 words. Ultimately the teacher said it can 2000 words and I had to butcher my story. I took out so many things. I was heartbroken. My story though survived and still turned out good, I think. Sorry again for the late update and the long AN. Now I'm off to do math. Don't forget to review. They make me happy and in return I do my math which makes my mom happy, which will make you guys happy because I will update soon. I know this chapter is short, but the next one will be longer hopefully. Sorry again! Click, click, click. Love you all.
P.S. Tell me if you guys want EPOV, on any chapter. I will be happy to do it. Also, should I do the next chapter in EPOV, after he found out about Bella? Let me know. I'll start writing it just in case.
